London International Blending Conference 2021 / "Noah, Daniel, and Job—Patterns of Living an Overcoming Life on the Line of Life to Fulfill the Economy of God" spoken by E.M. in London, England

Living and Working according to the Vision of the Age to Change the Age

I recorded an instrumental version of the same hymn two years ago when a sister taught it to me. Now, I had the feeling to record it again, after all the experiences the Lord has given this year.

I really enjoyed the third stanza of this hymn:
"Just rest, He knows;
With Him blindness is pleasant!
Just rest, He knows;
Sightless, you see Him best!
Just rest, He knows;
My soul, don’t waste the present
On those “what-if’s“.
Just turn to Him and rest!"

After almost two years of the pandemic, I felt hopeful entering into 2022, thinking that perhaps it held better hopes for more freedom and a sense of normality that we knew before everything came "crashing down".

However, in January, COVID hit our household to such an extent that I didn't see coming. I even came to a point of thinking that maybe I'll lose a family member to this virus--spending days at the hospital with a seeming plethora of medication just to get better. It was such a grueling time, a battle in my mind, a severe weakening of my faith, and I thought it was the end for me; I was in fight mode, endeavoring for survival against all the aspects of depression. I forgot my spirit. I didn't think it would help. "I just needed to get things done," I said to myself.

Everyone recovered eventually, thank the Lord. But my mind remained traumatized. The scenes kept coming back, and I dreaded every time night came because the eerie silence reminded me of the calm before the storm. For months on end, I would lay in bed 'til the wee hours of the morning--unable to sleep--paralyzed with the fear of extreme possibilities. My mind was filled with SOOOO MANY "what if's": What if it happens again? What if I can't cope? What if there won't be enough supply to meet the need?

These thoughts occupied my mind endlessly. I felt like my spirit was so powerless against my raging mind, which triggered my emotions, and caused my body to suffer the consequences as well. The sightlessness drove me to my wit's end. I think, deep in my heart, I was angry at the Lord for giving me such a heavy burden again. I was complaining, "Why does this keep happening to me?!" I had no rest in my tripartite being. But one message struck me concerning "God's Economy in Faith" during a working ones' conference.

It posed a question: "Do you believe that He (God) is repeating all the things He did in the past? No. He is not repeating anything. He is always moving forward." But what about you? Are you stuck in the past? Are you a person of yesterday?

I was indeed severely hindered by the past. I couldn't move on. The events of the past fueled an increasing amount of unbelief. What a shameful situation I was in. Every day, I felt like I was drowning, like Peter started sinking when he looked at the waves. I couldn't help it. The waves were so huge, ones I've never encountered in such magnitude.

Rest comes when we look at the Lord, and it seems I still haven't been perfected in this aspect especially when it concerns family--family is such a blind side for me. Everything else just fades, even my spirit, when it boils down to this.

In the end, I'm thankful to the Lord for exposing me of my shortage in this matter. I thought I was okay...I wasn't. But I acknowledge that I am still in the process, and I thank the Lord and all the saints for really carrying us in prayer. It was way beyond my capacity; I despaired of living. 

One last thing. The brother mentioned such an encouraging word.
"What should we do if we recognize unbelief?
We say, "I BELIEVE!"
"LORD, HELP MY UNBELIEF!"

This brings us to the chorus of the hymn:
"Thank and praise You, Jesus!
Through all unknowns,
You make Yourself so dear!"

I still love You, Lord. You are dearer than before!

(Link to full lyrics: https://www.hymnal.net/en/hymn/ns/34)

Fear Not, He Knows (NS34)

My Lord, Thou sought a love so intimate
Fell in love with man Thou hast created
Yet as God, unmatched,  untouchable
Man could only fear, praise his Majesty.

So You took the condescending way
Descended Thou, pursued man as a man.
Love Thou hast declared, to man betrothed
Into Thy chambers You have brought him so. 

You drew man with the cords of man
With finite flesh yet love so divine
Left Your glory to seek a lowly bride
Coming not in a king's pride,
In a shepherd's garb Thou hast disguised.
How personal and affectionate You are! 

I'm drawn, the space between made narrow,
Fell in love with God as Thou has fated
Though a man, unjust, untouchable,
Thou has reached me, praise His Majesty!

Thy face- I now behold,
Embraced- warmed my cold,
If Thou hast reached me in my low,
How can I not love bestow? 

You drew me with the cords of man
With finite flesh yet made so divine
To Your glory will bring the lowly bride.
Coming soon in a king's pride,
With the Shepherd stand we by Your side
How glorious yet affectionate You are!

A Love so Intimate

"It is a blessing,
To be satisfied with ordinary days
In the divine dispensing."

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"It is good to give thanks to Jehovah 
And to sing psalms to Your name, O Most High;
To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning 
And Your faithfulness in the nights" - (Psalm 92:1-2)

It's A Good Thing... (Psalm 92:1-2)

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Hallelujah in my spirit Jesus is moving! I have the anointing!

Hymn 1119 (In the Word of God)

Lord, I am continually with Thee:
Thou hast holden me by my right hand,
Thou shalt guide me—
Thou shalt guide me with Thy counsel,
And afterward receive me—
Receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but Thee?
And there is none upon the earth
That I desire beside Thee.
My flesh and my heart faileth;
But God is the strength of my heart,
And my portion forever.

Lord, I am Continually with Thee | 68th Term Iligan Trainees

Be Still, My Heart! (Hymn 712)

A Hymn for PSBCC2020

Lyrics: E1191

1
From my spirit within flows a fountain of life —
The Triune God flowing in me;
God the Father's the source,
Christ the Son is the course,
And the Spirit imparts life to me.

chorus
Lord, I treasure the sweet flow of life,
And my soul-life at last I lay down;
O Lord, deepen the pure flow of life;
At Your coming may life be my crown.

2
In the fresh, tender grass Jesus makes me lie down;
He leads me by waters of rest;
No more struggle and strain; all self-effort is vain;
In the flow I am perfectly blessed.

3
Jesus called me one day to the Holiest Place,
To live in His presence divine;
Hallelujah, I've heard an encouraging word:
"Abide — you're a branch in the vine."



Hymn 1191

How I love to sing with my spirit and heart to  You
Hear my song, oh wondrous love. In my heart there is springs of melody.  (hymns)

Lord, I am Continually with Thee | 68th Term Iligan Trainees

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