if the fire

and if the fires take you:
they’ll never burn like we did
(just to say)

and if the flood sweeps you
away (just to say)
you swept me away (every day)

and maybe you’re ok
and feelin great
dancing through hurricane
blessing land after an earthquake
taking breaths. food on plate.

maybe i’ll go first and
i promise i’ll love u in that final breath

maybe i’ll go first and
doesn’t matter cuz to u i’m done    dead
(already)

and if the power is out
where you are
you’ll always be the sweetest
thing i ever saw in the dark

and if the morning stops coming for you:
it’ll stop coming for me too (some day)
i wish you so many mornings more
(before) and so many afterlives to explore

and maybe our ghosts can try again
maybe they (could)

after apocalypse
could we love again
(maybe they could)

if the lightning breaks you
tell it everything

and if the ground shakes you
you shook me you shook me

(repeat)

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ego death A

if the fire

howl about

do you howl without it
do you dream about it
do you wake up ready to make it
do you share it / did you take it
do you wear it / do you want it
can you bear it / can you make it
do you howl about it
do you dream without it
do you wake up ready to make it
do you wake up ready to try

i go to bed early so i have more time to dream
you go to bed late cuz you stayed up just to scheme
we use our hours collectively looking past the smokescreen

we're working many ways towards autonomy
we're only free in a future that we - we all can see
unlearning to want from a place of ownership or need
when the desire twisted in me did you see - see it in me?

have you looked at your hands recently (x2)
i can remember them in many ways (x2)
unlearning from a place of ownership or need (x2)
when the desire twisted in me did you see -- see it my face

when you wake up do you look at your antiblackness in the mirror
when we wake up embraced do you see my face any clearer
in the streets we shout justice every time -- are we any nearer
online we post and share and learn and does anybody hear us

instead of doubting abolition / what if you found out how to help out
you point the ways we might fail but have u seen the failures now

we're building gardens out here on land that should be shared
we're not rich but we're feeding every neighbor that we can
these networks of care seem innocent enough
we're building care because a revolution needs lots of love

do you howl without it...

howl about

i want a position new
in my mind
when the roses look blue
and the water's dry

i want an atmosphere clear
tween our hearts
i want a west-facing pier
when the light gets dark

i want an alphawire
i want a sonic stream
i wanna write desires
i want velvet dreams
i'll do just that
join me along the way
stay, stay

the past is the past
somehow we're lasting through all of it
i'm moving on
and i wonder if you'll come along

country to country, township to city
the slow burn of inevitablity
all have our yearnings and things that we need
and the story keeps going

that man in the distance he fish for his life
that dog and those children they fight to survive
the story keeps going

those trees they conspire, that pond knows my name
the creatures sing higher the wind does the same
from the shack to the mansion my joy knows my name
and the story keeps going
and the past is the past

(repeat, chaos)

alphawire (cover)

medusa

it’s not hard to be alone
it’s just hard to be alone
out here in the streets
with the friends, in the zone
still all alone, still all alone

it’s not hard to be your friend
it’s just hard to be alive
outside or inside, together or apart
getting through the time

it’s not hard to be alone
it’s just hard to be alone
out here in the streets
with the friends, in the zone
still all alone, still all alone

lean into the fear, dig into your bones
lean into the fear, dig into your soul

tattoo’d her face on my chest
so the next time they‘d see her hex them
drink the sap of the dragon
don’t cry there’s a next time
this isn’t heaven

she wore pink lipstick
she had blue eyelids like the ghosts
he was bright enough to learn ghostly stuff
but she was faster o

she noted broom closets, back ways,
alleys, escapes, dusky ambush spots
waited for his thirst like rain

(bridge) ego death

it’s not hard to be alone
it’s just hard to be alone
out here in the streets
with the friends in the zone
still all alone, still all alone

lean into the fear, dig into your bones
lean into the fear, dig into your soul

tattoo’d her face on my chest
so the next time they'd see her hex them
drink the sap of the dragon
don't cry there's a next time
this isn’t heaven

lean into your endingness (ego death)
the end of it (ego death)
the let go of it (ego death)
the nobody needs to know (ego death)
the precariousness of it (carry us)

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