Introduction in English:

On a Saturday, 9 June 1989, I receive a phone call from my mother at around 6 am. She seems to be laughing. But as it soon turns out, tears are bursting out of her. At first she can only say one sentence: "Your father is dead". Then her voice fails. I, who has just been roused from my sleep by the ringing, at first think it's a bad joke. My father, not even 55 years old, dead, who had been so full of energy in the last few months? With whom I had spoken lively on the phone just a week ago?
Then my eldest sister comes to the phone. She speaks like a robot, as if she has frozen all her feelings inside herself.
She confirms the sudden death of my father from a heart attack and urges me to come immediately from Berlin to southern Germany (800 kilometres away).
Much of what happened after that - from the last encounter with my father in the morgue, to the years of vacillating between feelings of liberation and sometimes massively frightening "I'll bring you to me in the realm of the dead" nightmares after his funeral, to finding a deeper inner peace with him in the last few years - I wrote down and sang about in the following song "My Father in Heaven".      
However, the song lyrics are not chronological, but set in 2011, in which I am all alone on a beautiful summer day in the cemetery where my father's grave is located. From this day I start a retrospective and an outlook.     

Lyrics:

My Father in Heaven

What a beautiful day
All alone in the graveyard 
Come to visit you
Without a grudge

It's unbelievably quiet
Hear the dead deep asleep 
In an beyond harbour
Be with you soon

I hated you sometimes 
Had you so gladly touched,
You're gone too soon 
Left me alone with the dirt 
Of this life.

Wanted to tell you so much more 
You can't sneak away like that
A moment ago you were still there  
I felt quite close to you,

Now only 
A cold hand in the morgue
Nothing more moves

My father in heaven, 
I miss you very much, 
With wistfulness my heart sometimes
Becomes so heavy

When you were suddenly dead
Many things seemed easier, 
I moved forward in life, 
I looked free

but when I slept at night,
you'd come into my dreams, 
trying to pull me over, 
to the land beyond.

You didn’t let me go for so long 
Lying like a black mourning box
On my chest and belly, 
Felt like I was in a tube 
Trapped by you.

Often couldn’t defend myself
Felt completely without power 
When in the deep of the night
you came to my room, 

without a body, 
pure soul contact,
worlds still unknown to me.

Father in heaven,
do you hear me now,
I speak to you in peace, 
I am no longer hurt.

Your grave is newly decorated,
I've picked a bouquet for you, 
I sit down with you, 
I surrender tot he silence
peaceful silence. 

I am here now, you there
even if the wall separates us,
we see each other invisibly, 
You always stay close to me, 

I'll go on now, 
Stay here, 
I'll be back soon

Father in heaven
I think of you often 
You are indispensable, 
Come with me....

My Father in Heaven

My Father In Heaven

Lil Peep- Benz Truck Pt 2 (Prod by @killbighead x @smokeasac) artwork: @crimewave

This is the most personal song I've ever wrote. It's about a vision I had of my big brother. It took me around 1-2 years to be able to see him again after he passed away. I went on a quest to find my spirit guide & this is what happened!🏞 Share this song & drop a like if you enjoy, also tell the people close to you that you love them before it's too late!🖤 - C.Z

Lyrics -

*Verse 1*

I remember that I had a dream, i was together with him. I climbed the highest mountain, seeing rivers off the ridges. 

Yuh, I Went across the bridges, down the stairs with lights & pictures. There were markings in the railings that said that he’s still with us.

Yo, Stone carved door, it opened lights glistened, it was my grandpas farm where I grew up as a kid &,

My bro was standing there in a robe his face was was hidden. He told me that he loved me & I told him that I missed him.

He said that I was special in this world i’m on a mission, he couldn’t tell me why but he said that I would get it.

Uhh, I wish we had more days maybe hours even minutes, but i’ll hold my head up high & remember sky’s the limit. 

*Chorus*

Don’t stay awake for too long, don’t go to bed, 
i’ll make a cup of coffee for your head, 
i’ll get you up & going out of bed. 

Don’t stay awake for too long, don’t go to bed, 
i’ll make a cup of coffee for your head, 
i’ll get you up & going out of bed. 

*Verse 2*

I’ve been prayin everyday that I’ll make it into heaven. Just to see your face again ya i’ll be there in a second.

I remember all the times that we has as brothers messin, around with eachother yo tryna teach me lessons, uhh.

Life is a blessin, yo but can I ask a question, why’d I have to loose you you’re my brother & my best friend. 

I’ve been beggin i’ve been stressin, i’ve been happy been depressed &, i’ve dealing with aggression while i’m livin in discretion. 

Eh, This is my profession, & a way that I express it, if this is my obsession than i’m motha fuckin bettin, 

That i’ll make it to the top, rest in peace my brother L.Z. This one is for you, you’re a motha fuckin legend. 

*Chorus*

Don’t stay awake for too long, don’t go to bed, 
i’ll make a cup of coffee for your head, 
i’ll get you up & going out of bed. 

Don’t stay awake for too long, don’t go to bed, 
i’ll make a cup of coffee for your head, 
i’ll get you up & going out of bed.

Powfu - Death Bed (CZ Remix)

The constellations (Prod. A^th prod.)

-Beat produced by A^th Prod.
https://soundcloud.com/user-42290960/the-constellations-prod-a-th

-Lyrics and vocals by LS the KEN

Terrified (Prod. A^th Prod.)

so stoked to finally share my here with me cover with all of you. been playing this track out for awhile, tons of people have been asking for it. it's something that's a bit different from me, and one of the tracks i'm most proud of.

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PEEKABOO - Here With Me

Beat produced by A^th Prod.
https://soundcloud.com/user-42290960/drop-opps-prod-a-th-prod

Lyrics and Vocals by LS the KEN

Leanin - (Prod. A^th prod.)

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