NSDG - LOST SCROLLS 1

MYSTICAL × JEIKOBU × DEFCON 

LOST SCROLLS 1 ft. MYSTICAL & JEIKOBU

Tracklist: 

1) TRECKS TO MIDD

2) I CAN'T HELP IT

3) SOFA SURFIN'

4) GRIEF

Lyrics: 

(hook) 

Sofa surfin, 
Cannot lie, man I'm always searching, 
Find a way to slow the hurting, 
Everything is so uncertain, man so uncertain

(verse) 

Every fucking day I've been sofa surfin, broke no purchase, 
Can't find no hope in a pope or sermon, 

So we smoke on the herbs till the roach is burning, 
Turn down the vibes then we close the curtains, 

Life of a trainwreck, going day to day for a paycheque, that doesn't even pay rent, 
Scraping my change then I wait for the bus in the rain wet, 
Working for a wage how my days spent,
Or I'm getting blazed up my mates ends, 
Man I got great friends, 

If it wasnt for them and the times that we spent, I'd be resting my head on the street,
Or not be to graphic, i would've took action 
And passed on into my grave where i'd finally rest and i'd sleep, 
But my man said fuck it, and showed me so loving, and told me the struggle's the place i should be, 

So I start to hustle, avoid all the trouble, 
Its bubbling up to the front, then I speak, 

Writing these doubles, I sift through the rubble of my life, gives me the rhymes for the beats, 

I survived the defeats, took a couple of Ls, 
Coz I stumbled and fell, then got back to my feet, 

And now that I'm standing, ya boy is demanding, I'm handed a place at the table to eat, 

(hook) 

Sofa surfin, 
Cannot lie, man I'm always searching, 
Find a way to slow the hurting, 
Everything is so uncertain, man so uncertain

SOFA SURFIN'

[VERSE 1] 

Ive mastered the lethal my savage tracks attacking people, 
Im reaping, with some demons, i have trapped in my cerebral, 
Im evil, and chaotic, 
I pay homage, attend the steeple, 
Buried deep is the gonners that went and tried to be my equal, 
No sequel, I'm here now,
Got no wage, stoned for days, sold as strange in a weird crowd, but i feel proud, i'mma rebound, like rodman, then freakout, 
Cause options, are weak now, and problems, just leap out, its constant, 

i aint got no other way of living, 
That why this mission of spitting and writtens, i'm fucking with it, 
With every day that i've given, 
And slaved away for the vision, 
I've been creating a villain, 
That don't want payment and woman, 

Lets face it, its basics, my base hits, will lift your speaker like a pair of bailifs, then break it, no fake shit, 

DEFCON, what my name is, 
The latest, no fame shit, my shit would look good bumping in your playlist, 

[VERSE 2] 

Trapped up my me head, my minds island, 
Invading forces, invasive thoughts, threaten me like pirates, i'm getting violent, I close my eyelids, already inside my mind shit, bitch, its in my fibers, like its designer, 

not saying im in the top five, 
Dont cock ride, i defo dont live glock nines, on block nights, but everything i drops tight, so watch, hi, I'ma lost guy, 
With hot rhymes, i'm scorching yelling banzai, and spitting this shit so on time, 

Grinding my knowledge, on profits, and projects I wanna be rocking, i never be stopping, i promised to be on this top of this shit, 
Smoking my weed, sparking a spliff, 
Say what I see, parting the mist, 
Making a beat, party a bit, 
Slaying the sheep, a wolf in false clothing, 

led by dark omens, 
Cold blooded, heart frozen, 
Start snowing, art growing, 
You should start knowin, 

N$DG out now!! (Fast) 
Music on the soundcloud, Suround sound, i cover all the ground, bitch, im around now, 

CHAOTIC EVIL

Lyrics - 

Came to this world from a summoning circle, a fiend from the bowels of hell, 
I been around to tell, I wanna drown myself, 
If I dont link up with a brudda with an ounce to sell, 

Mount to Glebe, a bunch of mouths to feed, and let my sound to reach, cause each beat that I pound is like a pound of beef, so gather around and eat, while I supply the heat, and give you guys a feast, i been hungry, 

Or is it the munchies? 
Either way my stomach is grumbling, 
I dont fuck with assumptions, 
Give me some substance, 

Or something that I can respect, 
Wise and adept, Not just tried to extent, 
Know that the truth is surrounded by death, 
They need silence, the price is your breath, here you lie and you rest, NSDG is the guide and the help to resist,

URUK HAI BLOODLUST.

Lyrics - 

No wonder I'm panicking, 
Look at the shit that I deal with, 
All the shit that im handling, 

All that energy channelling is maddening, 
my heart knocks my ribs, 
I go stiff as a manaquin, 

The room is shrinking, and the doom is sinking in, 
Started twitching, now I feel it deep within, 
Beneath my skin, my head is spinning, 
pretend i'm grinning, thats just defences winning, 

A fenceless prison, i could but I wont leave, having battles with the damage people don't see, hope leaves first, then it hurts when I can't breath, 
Feel like I was cursed with a heartbeat, 


Desperate for things that can't be, 
In love with the habits that harm me, 
Panic tsunami, attacking like armies,
Dont know what to do, guess I'll turn it to an artpiece, 


GOLD€N €Y€S IN THE WOOD$

{LYRICS} 

TRYNA GET UPSTREAMS, I'M ROWING THE RIVER, 
COZ EVERY FLOW I DELIVER, IS LIKE A BLOW TO THE LIVER, IT GOT YOU NODDING, 
CHANGING THE GAME, LIKE I'VE BEEN MODDING, I FOLLOW THE CODE, 
HONEST TO GOD IS MY SOUL,
HOT AS THE TOP OF THE STOVE, 
NO ONE IS COLDER THAN THE NORTH$IDE, 
EVERY RAP, IN MY BACKPACK, IS A WAR CRY, 

PRODUCT TOP SHELF BUT A SHORT GUY, MORE HIGH THAN EVEREST, IM SHREDDING UP A 4.5, 

HIGH DEFINITION THE WAY I'M TELLING VISION, BELLY FILLING WITH EACH VERSE, GETTING URKED LIKE HEAVY WOMEN, HEAD SPINNING, 

NECK'LL TWIST LIKE EXORCIST,
VESSEL FOR THE DEVIL, 
PUTTING PEDAL TO THE MEDDLE, 
I'M A PESSEMISTIC REBEL, 
ON A LEVEL THAT YOU CAN'T REACH, 

TURN YOU TO A VEGAN IF YOU START BEEF, ALWAYS BEEN THE DARK SHEEP, OPEN UP, SHOW YOU ALL MY PARTS LIKE A CAR MEET, LET MY HEART SPEAK,

WAR CRY

{VERSE 1}

THIS LIFE IS TERRIFYING, 
WHEN DREAD INSIDE IS 
INTENSIFYING, TO A FERAL HIGH, 
AND YOUR MEDS ARE TRYING,
EFFECTS ARISING, 
BUT NOT RECTIFYING, 
THE TERROR RISING, 
YOUR LEGS ARE WRITHING, 
HEAD IS FLYING, LEFT IN SILENCE, 
BEGGING THAT YOU DON'T SURVIVE IT, 

A COMMON OCCURENCE, IN THE HEART OF THE WORTHLESS, WHO ARE STARVING AN SELF HARMING, WITH NO CHARGE OR A PURPOSE, 
FILLED WITH SCARS AND WITH CURSES,  
AND REGARDED AS BURDENS, 
SO THEY HARDEN IN THE DARK UNTILL THEY'RE HARDLY A PERSON,  

SEEPING INTO AREAS IT SHOULDN'T AFFECT, 
TILL IT HAS YOU SECOND GUESSIN, THEN YOU'RE LEFT WITH REGRET, 
OR IT HAS YOU GIVING UP ON ALL THE GOALS THAT YOU DREAMT, 
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DISSAPOINTED WHEN IT'S LESS YOU EXPECT 

BUT FOR THE LIES THAT YOU BOUGHT, 
A HEFTY PRICE IS IN STORE, 
HAS YOU QUESTIONING YOUR CHARACTER LIKE TRIALS IN A COURT,  
AND WHY YOU'RE FIGHTING THIS WAR? 
TILL YOUR DESPISED TO YOUR CORE, 
WONDERING IF YOU SHOULD EVEN BE ALIVE ANYMORE, 

{HOOK}

LIFE IS TERIFYING, I ADMIT IT, 
PROBLEMS UNANOUNCED EVERY TIME THEY COME AND VISIT, 
LISTEN TO MY PANIC, IT MANIPULATE MY WISHES, AND MY VISION, 
TERROR FINALLY PUSHED ME TO THE LIMIT, 

{VERSE 2}

I'M SHAKING LIKE TECTONIC PLATES ARE QUAKING, SURFACE BREAKING INTO CRACKS, CAUSING FRACTURES IN MY PATIENCE, NEVER WAITING, 
FOR A CHANCE, TO ADVANCE, PROCRASTINATING, ISN'T FAVOURED, BY A CHAMP, CAN'T BE TRAPPED AND NEVER CHANGING, IN THIS PLACEMENT, 
WHERE I'M AT, 

MY MIND PLAYING TRICKS THAT MADE ME SICK, I'LL ADMIT THAT PUTTING EFFORT INTO RECORDS IS A RISK, CAUSE SUCCESS ISN'T PROMISED, IT DEPENDS ON WHAT YOU GIVE, 
AND IT USUALLY ISN'T GIVEN TO A KID THATS FROM THE STICKS, 

LIGHT BUSHES, TILL MY HEART SLOWS, ROUGH IT ON THESE HARSH ROADS, 
FUCKED UP BY SOME PEOPLE, GIVING SHIT BECAUSE THEY'RE ARSEHOLES, 
THEY'RE WISHING THAT MY SCARS GROW, RESISTING WITH THESE DARK FLOWS, 
SMOOTH SAILING, IF MY BAGGAGE DRAGS ME DOWN, I'LL DITCH MY CARGO, 

THAT GOES FOR TERROR, PANIC, 
FEAR, HATE, DEPRESSION, MANIC, 
APPREHENSION, PRESSURE STACKING, 
ON MY SHOULDERS, SPREADING DAMAGE, 

I'LL ADMIT THAT ITS EASIER SAID THAN DONE, 
WHEN OPTIONS SEEM LIMITED, DOWN THE BARREL OF THE GUN, 

{HOOK}

LIFE IS TERIFYING, I ADMIT IT, 
PROBLEMS UNANOUNCED EVERY TIME THEY COME AND VISIT, 
LISTEN TO MY PANIC, IT MANIPULATE MY WISHES, AND MY VISION, 
TERROR FINALLY PUSHED ME TO THE LIMIT


LIFE IS TERRIFYING

{VERSE 1} 

I don't wanna sound ungrateful, 
My words from a place far away from hateful, 
But every man must go search for a place, 
A change of space, where he puts food on the table, his income is stable, 

Fruits of his labour are proof that he's useful and able, providing a life, 
And conditions for living with children and women are proven as faithful 

Can't do it from my sister's crib, 
Finally I see how big the picture is, 
Cause I'm living with a girl, who has given me her world, she's the proof- being happy isn't fiction, shit... 

Wanna be the man to light the fire at night, 
That keeps her warm, from the dusk to dawn, come rain or storm, if rich or poor,
Cause I know as a fact, ^
she'd never ask for more, 

{HOOK} 

Chilling in my sisters crib, 

Tryna take control of the life i live, 

Chilling in my sisters crib, 

Tryna make an effort to fix this shit, 


{VERSE 2} 

Don't wanna feel like a weight on the shoulder, 
A boulder, draining my sister thats older, 
And pays for the heat when i'm shivering and colder, and holds ya, with love when the thoughts fizzle over, 

Changing is difficult, the physical aspect, 
Will leave a man wrecked, jus' remember your principles, 
The reason you started, 
The steps that you've made to escaping the darkness, 
And the times that you conquered your hardships, 

So I go to work, 
So I grow my purse, 
Emmerging these flows, 
When I'm told to verse, i'm certain, 
These roads are sure to work, an earnings, 
To my family that sure deserve it, worth it, 
Just need me some time for learning, perfect, 

Glad we got the facts straight, this my first thought and my last take, on a train that you can't catch mate, 

{HOOK} 

Chilling in my sisters crib, 

Tryna take control of the life i live, 

Chilling in my sisters crib, 

Tryna make an effort to fix this shit, 


SISTER'S CRIB

{VERSE 1}

Lemme stunt a little bit, i'm coming with it got it packed, 
Never stumble with it, know i got it tucked up in my bag, 
That straight skill, pain built, day one, rap, 
With tha mates still, same guild, day one, last, 
Till my names built, stame some facts, 
In the past, let the flame spill, drain some gasss, in the back, of me mates wheels, jakes head past, better that, than the blade steel, lames get back, relax, 

think that i'm onto something, 
Blood sport, dont compete when the monster's hunting, of course, 
I'm a freak, not a wrong assumption, 
But the floor, i will sweep, with your song production, 

Animal that wanna survive best,
Think about the grind, got it stuck on my mindset, 
Think about my shine, guess it must not be time yet, 
Put up every dime, i'm the rapper that i'd bet, 

{HOOK}

FORGIVE OF MY GREED, FORGIVE OF MY DREAMS, 
I'M ONLY A MAN, I FALL AND I BLEED, 
I'VE WALKED EVERY SECOND, THROUGH CURSES AND BLESSINGS, 
BEEN LEARNING MY LESSON, IMPROVING ON ME 

{VERSE 2}

I been feeling like a psycho, 
Balancing anger on tight ropes, 
Hitting my targets like rifles, rap game scene, which i am disciple, 

No negotiating, so impatient pacing back and forth again, i need that vindication for my wicked flows that i been spittin bro, no reward again, jus ignore it then, slaughter more of them, spree kill3r shit, i could kill like forty men, then i get bored again, 

That shit is so dangerous, junkies, dont play with us, DEFCON the alias, even our saviours, have them a Judas, whos views are so traitorous, what does that say for us? 

Fuck all deep shit, fuck havin secrets, i am now king of your speakers, eyy 

{HOOK} 

FORGIVE OF MY GREED, FORGIVE OF MY DREAMS, 
I'M ONLY A MAN, I FALL AND I BLEED, 
I'VE WALKED EVERY SECOND, THROUGH CURSES AND BLESSINGS, 
BEEN LEARNING MY LESSON, IMPROVING ON ME 

FORGIVE OF MY GREED

I BE$EECH THEE


Holy Ghost, Only smoke, 

Every second I’m alone 

Do you see me slowly melting? 

Are you fiending for a toke? 


Overdose, hold me close, 

Will you hold me as I go? 

Bitch, I know where I’m heading, 

Child of Heaven sold his soul, 


Good dreams make me quite scared, 

Cause I wake up to the nightmare, 

Getting white hair with my stress high, 

Hope my next life fucking fights fair, 


Six grams is a light fare, with my red eyes, 

On my next high, I’m a flight scare, 

Got no rest time, or some respite, 

But a lights there, 


Are you listening? 

Look at the hell in which I've been living in, imprisoning, 

The fragile and the innocent, the victims of a system that gives profit to the villainous, insidious idiots making choices that are killing us, 


Poverty is no joke, 

Had the POV like go pros, 

Have your home cold, 

And your clothes old, 

Cause they’re hand-me-downs, 

From your old bros,

Theres certain stigma for my postcode, 

So I’m getting judged by so and so, 

Never met me,

So they don’t know, 

What I've been through, 

And I’ve outgrown, 

 



 



I BE$EECH THEE

LYRICS: DEFCON

Lets take it back to the textbooks, 
Spittin bars, in the park, smoking up redwoods, 
Dead numb, broke, barely pickin up the breadcrumbs, head spun down when the sesh done, legend, 

I'm coming down, if i take too much i'll chuck my stomach out, 
DEFCON ready for another round, on so much shit it made my mother proud, wow, 

Nobody is ready for a junkie with ability killin shit like me, 
In this bitch i sneak, 
I'm smoking my weed, 
Like 6 times a week, 
No 6 times a day, 
No 6 grams in each, 
I'mma bad rolemodel, 
Started on smoke from my old coke bottle, 
So hollow, on a road that you just dont follow, smokin my kush with the same old sorrow, bitch 

I have been practicing, 
This is no accident, 
Snapping like Thanos, 
Avengers are panicking, 
Sickness of rap and the symptoms are maddening, hittin the switch like the sith go to Anakin, 
You got me laughing, 
Saying you're 'fiends' when you're fiending for cannabis, 
North west sesh, you lot never hackin it, 
Go into commons and never come back from the spiritual travelling, 

LYRICS: JEIKOBU 

This heat I'm attacking it
These tunes that I'm racking up 
Evidently not slacking now
When I catch them all lacking out
That's when I am stacking up
These mother fuckers they backing out
They all just bigged up and now they are cracking out
Goofy mother fucker told me it get "drastic now"
So I just pulled up this mother fucker blacking out 

Figure why we mission
While we chilling
Fast aint fishes 
On the spilling
Of a silly
Mother fucker looking really
Fucking illy
We a kill him
I go nuclear like fission 
Everytime we hear them snitches
It aint friendly it aint kisses
Its a mother fucking mission
Sometimes I been dealing
Only when I fucking need it
But its everytime I lean it
Dragon light I don't conceded 
All the love I aint believe it
All the notes I aint been seeing it
Pussy done seen us he flee so fast
Smoking on gas call it diesel blast
Broke the immersion of an easy lag
When I just stopped acting breezy last
All of the silence is breeze in the past


MK ULTRA (feat. JEIKOBU)

{N$ LORD - VERSE 1}

Smoking this loud as I lay on the couch, from my mouth on some human combustion shit, 
Lyrically bustin clips, literally I have no fucks to give, 
Lickin on tabs of acid from a random baggy from a stranger that I'll never see again,
But fuck it, I'm young as shit! Time to go travel the deep dimensions, 

Everything I see is negative, 
Pessimistic thoughts are torturous medicine, keeping you safe, 
But they're keeping you hesistant, 
Settling for something you can do better than so, 
Analyze all of the evidence, look at your ego, start letting it go, 
That is the anchor not letting you grow, 
Leaving you stranded all on your own, 

Fit description for me and my homies, 
Band of misfits - abandoned since kids with random interests, feelin so lonely, 
Then founded this shit, 
N$DG next sound to hit big, 

Don't believe you're a clown or dipshit, 
I spit this cause I have to, 
Spend my nights passed out in bathrooms, i had shrooms, now I'll go and travel the backrooms, 

{HOOK}

Faded, Hittin up JEIKOBU's, Faded, 
Hit up the studio, Faded, 
Slowly its making me braindead, 
I dunno lately, I just feel... 

*X2* 

{MYSTICAL - VERSE 2}

Jaded I'm faded could call me the space kid
Realitys tainted the sky looks too painted 
I'm constantly faded the skins always laced in 
With mandy and many of my brothers baking 

Taking three tabs man that's tripple the drop
Stuck in the same place no motion I've stopped 
K made me nervous so i piled up hatred 
I can not contain it unless I get faded 

Daily ain't it crazy maybe saving beak for breakfast bad 
It's reckless check this neck this beer back 

suddenly I'm dazy 
Subtly feel wavy 
Simply not waiting
Unpersuaded 
Passed out fainted 
Stubbornly cross 

{HOOK}

Faded, Hittin up JEIKOBU's, Faded, 
Hit up the studio, Faded, 
Slowly its making me braindead, 
I dunno lately, I just feel... 

*X4*

FADED (feat. MYSTICAL)

{VERSE 1} 

Thinking of violent of things, 
Letting them hide within, 
Sirens ring, inside of my mind has been, 
Finding my pride again, 
Time its been, 
I was a quiet kid, 
But now my rhymes are in, practicing, 
How come none of these labels are signing him? 

(WHAT?!) 

Coz I want my footsteps to cut fresh to success, 
Bumpin an I fuck sets like dubstep at a club sesh, 
Nightshift got me upset an enough stressed to bloodlet, 
My stock isn't up yet but my projects a good guess, 

No-one recognize, buried in these heavy times, getting by, rent is high, eating what my pennies buy, dead inside, thinkin about genocide, watching as my cherry dies, very wise, take me from a rapper to an enterprise. 

I aint sweating, this aint exercise, 
This that battle ready, Makevelli, pack a semi flow, 
Aim my anger steady, barrel heavy, rapping to let go, 
Violent fantasies ravage me when I panic all alone, 

{HOOK} 

I been pacing the room, making the music (ye, ye) 
I've been breakin it loose, maybe I'll lose it (ye, ye) 
Think you hating my tunes, why would you do this? (ye, ye) 
Not afraid to resume, would that be stupid? (ye, ye) 

X2 

{VERSE 2} 

I feel insane when the rage is in my veins,
And my frame is shaking impatiently slaving to keep me tame, some days, I feel like a beast in a cage, trackin the nearest of prey, to maim, staying as a beat slaying prodigy, 

Prideful lyrics, the fire inside defying my limits, im rising like i'm rewriting the basic science of physics, 
And if you'd like to admit it, 
Or have an eye for a critic, 
Don't be chatting tha shit,
Or its time for a visit, 

Flow like Prime Tyson, in bright lights, on fight night, when he strike twice, like white lightning, can't beat me, now, why fight it? 
DEFCON the most slept on, givin nightmares, I'm quite frightning, 
Those that think I'm dead wrong get stepped on at the right timing, 

I don't like violence, 
But i been ignored, 
Feelin demon, fiend for more, 
Screaming war, for this, I bleed of course, 
An feel it coursin deep inside my organs, 
Keeping secret, leads to boredom, 
Speaking as the least important, 
Each and every beats a warning, 


VIOLENT FANTASIES

{LYRICS}

summoning the devil, a resident of his settlement, my belly feeling heavy, I'm filling it with the evidence, my level is a pedestadel many will never get a glimpse, no pestering massses, never asking for you to let me in, im entering, break a window, smashed glass, now im heading in, last to strap the cash down, I aint getting it, 9 to 5 grinding, all of my time in, I'm in heaven when- the beats are saviours, weed is sticky with the sweetest flavours, N$ dangerous, made of feature flamers, check the album cut, see who made it? known each name since my weaker stages, glad that i dodged all the weak and faithless, strange people, who leave, when you need them, stay, estranged speaks over speaker don't feel the same, we've changed sequence recent, leads to break, sorry for tangents, my songs are my thoughts, and my thoughts always bouncing, around on a tour of what tore me to thousands, in torturous rounds of me morbidly doubting, my outcome, 
Sorry for braggin and boastin, its wack when you're broke an you're packing emotion, passed up by rappers that lack the devotion, beneath em' just preaching my past in the open, to capture a moment, 

Drain the pain away, with 808s, playing on the greatest stage, I dream, 

In the same old phase, each day i face, seeming like change is make believe, 

On a lazy wage, the rent is paid, I know the weight is breaking me, 

So i'm taking haze, with mates I've made, burning Js, then make the beats, 

TANGENTS

{LYRICS} 

HOW MANY WANNABES HOP ON THIS HOBBY AND FALL OFF SO COMMONLY? 
I DO NOT KNOW, 
THEY ARE JUST STOPPIN THE SPOTLIGHT FROM SPOTTIN ME, HALTING THE PRODIGY, LEAVE ME ALONE, 
I'MMA KEEP ROCKIN AT COMMONS, 
AN WORKIN ON PROJECTS, A BOMB IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE, 
BLOWING WITH CONSTANT VISION OF THE TOP POSITION, TO CONQUER AN CAPTURE MY THRONE, 

FUNNY I'M FROM THE UK, I'VE COME TO DRILL ARTISTS, 
SKILLS SHARPENED, IN ROTATION IN THE SHAPE OF KING ARTHUR'S, 
TABLE, WITH MY MATES IN TIN ARMOUR,
GIDDIEST FLAME STARTERS, CANNABIS WEIGHT FARMERS, IN CHARGE OF THE GAME LIKE SNAKE CHARMERS, RAPPERS STAY HARMLESS, 

BARRING WITH THE BEST OF 'EM, 
NO ONE IS TESTIN' US, 
EXCITED FOR THE REST TO COME, 
AS TIME INVESTS US, 
NS A SPECTACLE, 
FROM DRUID SESHING CULTS, 
I TAKE THE PILLS, 
TO GET MY BELLY FULL, 
ON WHATEVER, HEAVY JUNK, 
THE DEALER SLINGING, 

EARS ARE TWITCHING, BLEEDING,  THINKING, HOW DO I INFILTRATE INTO THE SYSTEM? CATCHY FLOWS OR SCHEMING EVIL FRICTION? LIGHT STEPS 
DON'T LEAVE IMPRINTS, THATS SOME BITCH SHIT, I DOUBLE DOWN AN THEN FOLLOW MY INSTINCTS, VICTORY, PIPELINE, IMAGERY, MIND'S EYE, HISTORY, HINDSIGHT, LYRICALLY, FINE WINE, EPITOME OF PRIME TIME, IN AN INDUSTRY OF WISE GUYS, WANNA KILL A BEAT LIKE I WRITE, SO I GIVE EM HEAT, NO LIMELIGHT, 
DIP LIGHTSPEED, GO SCI-FI, 
HEAR MY RECORDS POPPIN AS I DRIVE BY, 
MY BRUDDANIMS LIKE K9s, 
ON WHITE LINES, 
ITS GETTING EM READY FOR NIGHT CRIMES, 


THIS IS A SECOND IN MY LIFE... 

(Wannabe wannabe) 

I AM NO WANNABE, 
I AM A GONNA BE, 
WENT FROM A NEVER, 
TO SOMETHING I SHOULDN'T BE, 
COULDN'T BE, NO ONE IS STUNTIN ME, 
HUMBLY, ON A COME UP, DON'T COME UP TO ME SUDDENLY, HURRIDLY, 

(Say my true name and summon me) 

Never thinkin I would stand still, so I'm 
Serving these rappers their last meal, 
Got me be bullying em like an ant hill, 
When im dropping im each record like anvils, 
That my hands built, no one 'stans' skill, 
So no cash deals, for my rap reals, 
But I rap real, back on the street with a track, YUH
Back on the beat I attack, YUH
All of these rappers, have got it all backwards, I'm packing the heat like a strap, YUH 
I am a fiend in the trap, YUH, 
Rappin to real to be wack, YUH 
Giving you classics, a man on a massacre, amateurs needs to get back, 

HOW MANY WANNABES HOP ON THIS HOBBY AND FALL OFF SO COMMONLY? 
I DO NOT KNOW, 
THEY ARE JUST STOPPIN THE SPOTLIGHT FROM SPOTTIN ME, HALTING THE PRODIGY, LEAVE ME ALONE, 
I'MMA KEEP ROCKIN AT COMMONS, 
AN WORKIN ON PROJECTS, A BOMB IS ABOUT TO EXPLODE, 
BLOWING WITH CONSTANT VISION OF THE TOP POSITION, TO CONQUER AN CAPTURE MY THRONE, (X2)

WANNABE

{LYRICS} 

IF IT ISNT EVEN TRUE, IS IT TRULY WORTH IT?
IF ITS DIFFICULT TO PROVE, HOW CAN YOU BE CERTAIN? 
DON'T GO PURSUE ANY USELESS PERSON, 
THATS TWISTING THE TRUTH WITH CONFUSING WORDINGS, 

DONT FOLLOW THE RULES LIKE A HUMAN SERVANT, 
YOUR LIFES WHAT YOU CHOOSE AND WHAT YOU DETERMINE, 
I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE FOR THE PEWS AND SERMONS, 
COZ GOD IS THE JUDGE AND I FEAR HIS VERDICT, 

years of hurting, I MADE BAD DECISIONS, I WAS LACKING VISION, 
AND THE PATH WAS HIDDEN, CAN'T CHANGE THE PAST, OR THE AFTER IMAGE, JUST A MAN LEFT LIVING WITH THE SADNESS IN HIM, FEELING ANGER RIDDEN, ON A THANKLESS MISSION, TO BE UNDERSTOOD, OR TO BE STRANDED HIDDEN, 

NEVER FORGIVING, REMNISCING ON MY PAST, IS THE FIRST PLACE I AM DRIVEN, 

WHEN I FEEL WEAK, CAN'T SPEAK, CAN'T SLEEP, 
AND THE REAL ME, CAN'T LEAVE ME BE, 
GETTING TOO DEEP, INTO MY HISTORY, 
ITS REVEALING, DARK THINGS I KEEP, 
TILL I'M FEELING, LIKE I SHOULDN'T EVEN BREATHE, 
IM A WEAKLING, GOT ME BOWING ON MY KNEES, 
AND BELIEVING, THIS SHIT I CAN'T BEAT, 
AND THAT FREEDOM, IS A FAR DAYDREAM, 

CHANGE IT, I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED, CONTROLLING EMOTIONS THAT THREATEN COMPOSURE, 

NEED TO ACCEPT ALL MY FLAWS, I HAVE IN MY CORE, TO LOOK AT MY FACE WHEN I'M OLDER, 

NEED TO ABANDON THE DAMAGING THINGS, THAT MANAGE TO LINGER GIVING ME CLOSURE, 

NEED TO SIT DOWN WITH THE VOICES, MAKING MY CHOICES, CHANGING THEIR MIND TILL I'M FEELING BIPOLAR, 

I'M JUST GIVING MY HONESTY, IT AINT A QUANTITIVE QUALITY IN THIS MONOPOLY, RAN BY THE RICH WITH THE POOR IN THEIR PROPERTYS, IN THIS ECONOMY, GIVES YOU A WAGE JUST TO TAKE AS POLICY, BASICALLY ROBBERY, 

FOLLOWING? 
DISHONESTY'S HOLLOW GRIN, 
LEAVE THE TRUST, LET THE SORROW IN, 
TILL YOUR LOST IN THE SWAMPS LIKE ITS MORROWIND, 
AND YOUR LIVING OFF SHIT THAT YOU'RE BORROWING, 
WITH ALL THE HARD PILLS THAT YOU'RE SWALLOWING, 
WHAT ONCE WAS GOOD, NOW LETS THE PROBLEMS IN, 

HARD TO FIND HOME WHEN YOU'RE LOST WITHIN, 
SOLD PART OF MY SOUL FOR MY COSTLY SINS, 
SO MY HEART TURNED COLD, LET THE FROST BEGIN, 
BUT ITS DARK ON MY OWN IN THE FROSTY WINDS, 

CAUSE ITS STABBING THROUGH MY FLESH, CAUSING DAMAGE IN MY CHEST, 
TILL NO HAPPINESS IS LEFT, 
FEELIN PANIC IN MY BREATH, 
WHILE ITS BADDING ME 'CONFESS', 
AND ITS MADDENING MY STRESS, 
AND IF I'M BEING HONEST, IT GOT ME BEGGIN FOR MY DEATH, 
I JUST WANNA REST, OR MAKE IT OUT THESE DARK DAYS, THAT HARM MY HEART WITH SHARP PAINS AND HARSH GAMES, 
FEELING MY SCARS ARE IN CHARGE AND CAN'T CHANGE, 
STUCK DRIVING STRAIGHT FROM THE START LIKE CAR LANES, FAR WAYS, 

FROM THE GOALS THAT I SET, 
NEVER TAKE BLOWS FROM THE FOES THAT I MET, 
ONLY FEEL COLD WHEN ALONE WITH REGRET, 
I'M TEN TOES, I PUT OPPONENTS TO REST, 
WITH THE FLOWS I SELECT AND CONTROL WITH MY BREATH, 
IF YOU DON'T THINK SO HOE, YOU'RE NEXT, ON THIS ROAD THAT I STEP, WITH MY BROS ON A QUEST, GETTIN STONED AT A SESH, THEN WE'RE OWNING THE SET, HONESTLY...

HØNESTLY

{N$ LORD - VERSE 1}

write this record for six months, on income, grateful for position but this isn't what I think of, i think important stages, perform my playlists, till touring dates swarm with adoring vagrants, 

hold my J misty, and roll me another, you always know you're my brother, struggled alone with each other, we getting faded, but lately been closer or sommat, I love it, close to the summit, fuck it, i know in my stomach, we gonna make it, never change, brudda, since we baking, 

2020 errors we made, we done changed em, now I'm feeling proud of all the records that we're making, I understand that music is a medicine, I take it, face it, see the ladder heading up to greatness, 
We're going up like scotty is on it, pulled to a spaceship, ironic its the enterprise, we be them center guys, 
Lifes the best its been in decades and I'll tell them why, 

{HOOK}

coz im chillin with my bruddas in the northside, knowing no one else is ever getting more high, getting tired always killing em with war crimes, Maybe time I could show some love, show love, show love, show love, show some love, show love, come on, show love, X2 

{VERSE 2}

Back at it, back alleys, black ballies, I pick up cannabis, I have a spliff, then go to JEIKOBU's to get to rambling, about my saddening patterns and past that i've been battlin, we're equals, when speaking on secrets, feeling no embarrasment, 

Brotherhood, family, becomming just what we plan to be, been adding new members the renegade be causing anarchy, 

Invested in it, impressive with it, its addiction how we could never quit it, in every lyric, I give a part of me, 
My heart and arteries, 
Starving Artists, an army team, 
We started clean, then fucked up some beats, now covered in parts and pieces, 
Scars are healing, puttin these melodies out in every season, never ceasing, only remedy that stops the devil's speaking, 

So I kick back, making statements no chit chat, breakin this beat like Kit Kats, look back and say we did that, bitch, 

Thinking back, been through hell with these guys, 
Lifes the best its been forever and I'm telling em why, 

{HOOK}

coz im chillin with my bruddas in the northside, knowing no one else is ever getting more high, getting tired always killing em with war crimes, Maybe time I could show some love, show love, show love, show love, show some love, show love, come on, show love, X2


SHOW SOME LOVE

{PRE-HOOK}

only gonna say this once, 
DEFCON trapped in the same old dungeon, fuck, 
i dont wanna play no wuss, 
but I can't help but feel that my days are numbered, 

alone in my fortress of Solitude, 
Wanna go leave? well, no one is stopping you, 

outside world keep rotting through, 
breaking my peace, isn't something you wanna do, 

{HOOK}

alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 

I still feel lonely, chiling with my homies, 
a nobody with the flow gunning, in a flash, like adobe, 
show me the path, to the old me, 
i'm breaking his bones, 
for the past that he loaned me, 

{VERSE 1}

hanging with motherfuckers I didn't really like, 
and I knew it wasn't right, from the start, in my heart, in the dark, 
I was lookin for the light, couldn't find it, 
so i stayed trapped, in a mask, in silence, 

fake smiling, fake vibing, 
fake moments, feel violent, 
fake 'fine' and my mind was declining, to this day,
still trying, tiring, 

needed a change up, 
fucked off the fake guys, stuck with my day ones, 
they come running when I struggle or I say some, 
shit that is troubling, they make sure I stay put, here
Spray root beer, got a bitter taste
all my life, man, I been like, 'I've been a waste'
then get I live on these demo tapes, 
been devising my rhymes from my mental breaks, so i'm snapping 

Get it? Made a line bout the time that my mind was a weapon, like nines an' berettas, firing stress, fact I survived was a blessing, minding my lessons, innocent, denied of my heaven, 

Get it? Crazy times I would ride to the seshes, with my guys in the trenches, and we'd get high, look like we died, red eyes, no expression, hope supplier wasn't messing, 
With stache now, 

{HOOK}

alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 

I still feel lonely, chiling with my homies, 
a nobody with the flow gunning, in a flash, like adobe, 
show me the path, to the old me, 
i'm breaking his bones, 
for the past that he loaned me, 

{VERSE 2}

So i sit with my bros, 
If my stress is a tent i done pitched it with woes, 
Lookin through my past life, fight off the spirits, an write down the lyrics, like sifting for gold, 
Giving me a figment a hope, passing up the times I was fixing a rope, for my throat, 
So i'd choke, into history I go, 
From obituary to the lists of the G.O.A.Ts, 

If im being real, i don't like nobody, 
Just me and my gang, getting live on summat, 
But its funny we broke, we aint dime a dozen, 
we gon' climb to summit while you rhymers plummit,
with the vibes they covet, 
Drugs lined my stomach, 

But i'm clean now, 
Got my bloodstream cleaned out, 
From a ugly fiend, 
To a complete rebound, 
still feel sad when the teams 'round, 

People are evil, hoping my life, it don't come no sequel, tired of feeling so weak and so feeble, aint had fun, since playing bin weevils, (facts tho) 

I aint pray at no steeple, look out for love, I been looking for peaceful, aint got the eyes of an eagle, aint done found it, stay dumbfounded, D on his tweedle, 

{HOOK}

alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 
alone in my fortress of Solitude 

I still feel lonely, chiling with my homies, 
a nobody with the flow gunning, in a flash, like adobe, 
show me the path, to the old me, 
i'm breaking his bones, 
for the past that he loaned me, 


FORTRESS OF SOLITUDE

{VERSE 1}

THIS IS THE EFFECT OF A NEGATIVE HABITAT, 
FULL O' SHOOTING AND STAB ATTACKS, 
WITH ZOOTS AND THE CALI PACKS, 

BRAINWISHED KIDS TURN TO MEN PUSHING EGOS, AND LUSTIN FOR WEAK HOES, ACCOUNTS STUCK ON ZERO, 

ITS NARROW MINDED, 
THESE MAN ARE BLINDED, 
BY FAKE SPUDS FROM SNAKE CUNTS PROFITIN YOUR GRINDIN
ACTIN ALL HARD BEHIND YOU WHEN YOU'RE RHYMING, 
WHEN SHIT HITS THE FAN, THEY'RE FIRST DIPPIN FROM THE SIRENS, 
OR IF THEY'RE KNICKED THEY'RE BUSY SINGING LIKE A SIREN, 
DOESN'T TAKE MUCH, SHITTIN BRICKS FOR A PRIVATE,

EITHER, (what?) YOU'RE A BITCH OR YOUR VIOLENT, 
A SNITCH OR YOU'RE SILENT, 
A VICTIM OR THRIVIN, 
SURVIVING'S A MUST, 
BUT ITS FUCKED IN THIS CLIMATE, 
CAUSE SMILES ARE CORRUPT
WITH THE LUST THAT THEY'RE HIDING, 

THEY GOT ULTERIOR MOTIVES, FOR EVEN APPROACHING, BUT NOTICE, IF YOU'RE BLEEDING AND BROKEN, THEY'LL LEAVE YOU ON OPEN, AND JUST DIP, 
OH WELL, TOUGH SHIT (tell em) 
THIS MAAD CITY ISN'T RUN BY A GOOD KID, MOST MAN TRAPPIN INFACTUATED WITH HOOD SHIT, BUT NO PLAN, 
ASBO GRADUATED TO ROADMAN, 
HAPPINESS HAS LEFT EM, CAN'T FIND IT BUT DOPE CAN, OH MAN, 
GOT YOU FIENDING TIL YOU'RE BROKE FAM, AND OWE BANDS TO DEALERS, IF THEY SEE YOU, YOU GOT NO CHANCE, 

LOAD, BANG! 

PANIC, HIT THE CONCRETE, 

FEEL A WET SENSATION ON YOUR CHEST BUT YOU CAN'T SPEAK, CAN'T BEG, 
NUMBNESS, IN BOTH LEGS, YOUR ARMS WEAK, DARK STREET, ALL YOU CAN REMEMBER IS A CAR SCREECH, LAST TIME YOUR SEEN IS BEIN COVERED BY A TARP SHEET, (damn...) 

HOW MANY DIED LIKE THIS? 
HOW MANY SURVIVING THIS? 
THAT HAS NEVER BEEN THE LIFE I'VE LIVED, 
BUT I LIVE IN THESE PARTS, I DON'T LIKE THE RISK, I LIGHT A SPLIFF, AND BITE MY FIST, AND PRAY THAT I FUCKING FIGHT, RESIST, WHEN TIMES ARE STIFF, AND GUYS ARE PRICKS, SO IM BEGGING FOR MY FINAL WISH, WITH THIS RHYMING SHIT, TO ESCAPE THIS PLACE WHEN I'M FINALLY RICH, 

GOTTA ADMIT THIS MISSION HIT A LITTLE A DIFFERENT, WHEN YOU'RE CHILLIN WITH YOU'RE BROTHERS IN THE STRUGGLE, LIVE IT WITH EM, LIKE A SICKNESS, GOT SOME GREEN, BUT IT AINT NO PENECILLIN, PEN IS SPILLING VERY DEEP, IN THIS HELL YOU'RE BETTER SINNING, SO- 

SELL DRUGS, SHELL SLUGS, IN THE HULL OF A MINIVAN, GO AND PULL UP ON LIKE A MINUTEMAN, KILLIN MOTHERFUCKERS JUST TO GET A BAG IS SOULESS, 
GOT ME FEELING THAT THIS KINGDOM IS HOPLESS, INCOME IS SLOW, BRITAIN IN CRISIS, 
CRIMINAL'S KNOW, THE BUSINESS OF VIOLENCE, 
CHILDREN WILL GROW, IN THIS SYSTEM OF VICES, 
BUT NEVER WILL KNOW, THAT SOME WISDOM IS PRICELESS, 



NEGATIVE HABITATS

MY EYELID$ ARE A DAM HOLDING BACK AN OCEAN

AS WE VOYAGE THE $EA OF GUILT

P$YCHO (prod. KING COLD)

{LYRICS} 

Time to go deal with some introspection,
Lookin inside on some risky questions, 
Thoughts in my mind are catastrophes that blast at me packed like a smith and wesson, 

With depression i was sick and sectioned, need intervention, 'fore I lift to heaven, 
No hidden message, mean killing myself, 
And I tried the drugs but the pills defective, 

Least i was sane before, these crazy thoughts steer me round the bend like a racing course, tears rain and pour, I can't take no more, till I lay on the floor, and get screaming, 

Chest heaving with less breathing i'm left bleeding regrets seem to be to deep in me, 
To leave me be, my freedom seem, a fever dream, i need my peace, im best leaving, 

I'm prideful, laying idle, been playing my own rival, making me spiteful, 

And I've had enough,
Some motherfuckers got the baddest blood for me, 
Went and took advantage, left me here stranded, abandoned, the fact that I couldn't see, 

Is cooking up my anger, and hurt me only after, a blast from the past is anxiety, 

Inside of me, 
I try to sleep but I feel it burn inside like a fire deep, its rage, 
Cause my mind and my heart are writing the same story but aint on the same page, 
- 

struggle with the fact that it makes me weak, shortfused so I hate to speak, on the daily I face defeat, got a boulder to push, let go and I'm crushed, coz the way is steep, and the pain is deep, feel it blowin' through my core like a laser beam, this weight on my shoulders'll break my knees, its plain to see that maybe peace is crazy and just make believe, coz lately bad times keep chasing me, scared of everything from A to Z, 

Bout' time that I flatlined,
Pain in my head, in my tears I've been baptised, good moments, only seeming to flash by, thats why this time maybe my last night, sometimes I feel like rap's mine other days I feel like imma bad guy, 

look at me, out here, second guessin, I know I hate my music, its self expression, 
On one hand, i hate myself, fuck it, no both hands like I'm ambidextrous, trapped in a cell while it smacks me senseless, and languish in hell while my last defences,  
Are asking for help but this man is helpless,
path to good health, has been lasting endless, 

Death's a temptress, my only empress, 
And I dont really see a way out, 
I dont really feel safe right now, wiped out,
Write down, everything I feel, then mic's out, type sound, how I been writing these days, 
How I'm igniting each page, 
How I been fighting these pains, i'm likely deranged, looking for someone who might feel the same, 

But I've been searching for years, im certain my fear is true, i might be alone,
And fuck it, my purpose is clear, no other real person can hear me, i'm on my own, 

Sick of the shaking, look on my face is vacant, that means the panic's awakened, and in my head is a manic invasion, trashing my name till my sanity's breaking, 

You're a little bitch, always be a loner, 
Never be loved, never be sober, 
You know you wanna do it, brudda you'll never be free till the day that you snap and decide that its over, 

These are the thoughts that are haunting me, torturous talks are unfortunately sending my corpse to the mortuary, thats where I ought to be, sawn to pieces, when my peace is at war with me, 
Lost in my head again, a maze full of twisting sections, 
I dont know if I've been headed the wrong way, now its time for a different direction, 

INTROSPECTION~

INTRO(spection)

$TARDAWG (prod. KINGCOLD)

MY CUP$ EMPTY (prod. $avantgarde)

SILK_extended_edition_124_BPM_-_KING_COLD.mp3

HA$H NOODLE 124 (Prod. KING COLD)

BLU ZU$HI (124) - [Prod. KING COLD]

{LYRICS} [DEFCON]

MF, MF, I am doctor doom, 
Popping shrooms, liberty caps up in my pocket, rocket fuel, wallace an gromit on top of the moon, 
Selling the product i'd rather consume,
I'm still baking in rotation, No, we never go tossin the zoot, eyy wha? 

We those the reapers with the black hoods, and black lungs, 
Aint no secret if the packs good, we have some, on fat buns, if youve never smoked before, then have some, 
Probably choke, spraying the smoke, J is loud like mac guns, 

But you know how we kick it, 
The way we live it, with the green trees, grind it, rip it, sprinkle on some mean keef, 
Feelin kinda wavy while im smoking on the C-weed, 
Eyes are bloody like a deep fiend, bright beaming, 

Turn the game into a crime scene, with every rhyme scheme, that I deem, to be the verses, that one day I dreamed, the time seems so long ago, been on a roll ever since my high teens, now better my mind seems, so let my shine be, 

{HOOK}

NORTHSIDE, 22, 
DID MORE RHYMING, IN THE BOOTH, 
THAN ALL TIRED OLD, RAPPERS DO, 
SO FUCK YA'LL, WE IN THIS BITCH, 

IN A DITCH, IN IT DEEP, 
JUNKIE IN THE INDUSTRY, 
YOU CAN COME AND FIND US, 
GO OUTSIDE AND FUCKING SNIFF THE STREET, 

{VERSE 2} [JEIKOBU]

22 to 24
They get they pills from any tor
This shit is tested
Call it blessing
How I be getting so high while Im resting

Heavens more

Im a whore 
For
The mother fucking drugs and I get up a hundred more

Sounding like the N$ fucking menace from a time long ago
Substance strong imma go
Driving high, not by blow
Almost caught by the fucking feds
But we aint tread 
Fallout like meds
Mess with them dead

Wait
I am just sealing my fate
Hope I dont drown in my mother fucking sorrow embarrassed how long since I been on a date
Funny how several mother fuckers being all funny and i never called them a mate
Sunny the North and it feel like a mother fucking race who can be most bait

Waiting for the day
Have i gone insane



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