Introspection, meditation I put in the work, I'm grabbin' a pad and a pen.
If you wanna change the world, we must change ourselves first, look within, yea that is the plan.


Version 1.1
3/16/21

Lost in the Streets of Dayton

Have you tried to look within? Do you really know how to feel? I can see you want to pretend but we need our wounds to heal. We need our world to heal.
So it's up to each of us to become the change that we wish to see.

I've been loved by few misunderstood by many. As far as life goes we're worth our weight in gold, learn simply.

Oh I know, inside, I can feel my soul. Won't you look within and you will see all the answers staring back at thee.

Oh I can see through you. I can see your true colors. You're like a rainbow, yea, you're not like the others. You're more like a lover with the care you gave to me. I could never let it go and I just want you to know...

It cannot be like this forever and ever.......I've lost my sense of who I am.

And I know that if I look within I'll find my soul. Don't you know if you look within you'll find your soul?

Loved By Few

Recycled Energy Eternally

Avoiding Yourself

THEME
The surface message is about overcoming the desire to give up.  “Never let in, no matter the struggle, and become one with your destiny!”  The deeper meaning goes along with a storyline of an individual who lives in a parallel dimensional future dystopian Earth in which technology and humanity have merged. A distant place in time and space called Indianaland. A future where consciousness can live on eternally in an uploaded digital format, simulating entire universes infinitely!

LYRICS
Is it the drugs or is it me?
Nothing is what it seems to be.
No escape from this misery.
(I think it’s me…)
Scream c’est la vie! 
(I think it’s me…)
Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
I was raised to be brazen, embarrassed that I’m Caucasian, domesticated and chasing a carrot, look what I’m facing it’s merit;
down in a hole with a ferret, hoarding the clout I don’t dare it, copying me like a parrot.
Apparently, I’m a blessing to the illusion, a parent to the conclusion of Maya, a single Starseed of Gaia.
My solar plexus on fire, Agni with a touch of Piraya/pariah.
Tear through the flesh with my words, it’s dire to get my voice heard, can't stop the progress of a nerd! 
Turd! - Oh, I hope you have heard.
Have you heard? Have you heard? - You fuckin’ with me and you get burned!
I will never quit this rap shit!
I’m a motha’ fuckin’ beast, music’s how I live.
I will never filter my words through a fuckin’ sieve.
Stand out ‘till the day I die, in my heart I know I fly.
Suicide’s always on my mind but I refuse to die!
I refuse to die!
I refuse to die!
I refuse to die!
I see your thinking, don’t pull my heart strings.
I see your thinking, don’t pull my heart strings.
I see your thinking.
I can see through you,
see your true colors.
You’re like a rainbow, not like the others,
more like a lover with the way you cared for me and my soul.
I refuse to die (I can see through you!)
I refuse to die! (I see the true you!)
I refuse to die! (Scream c’est la vie)
I refuse to die! (Scream c’est la vie)
I refuse to die!

Produced by: Proto-J Productions
Beat by: 20DollarBeats.com LLC

Inexorable Transhumanism

The lyrics in this song are chants I learned in yoga class over the last couple of years. I love to produce music (and play drums especially) and once I learned these chants, I could not help but put them into a rhythmic, musical format. The musical selection behind the lyrics captures a dark vibe and the song is meant to exemplify the dichotomy between the light and the dark. It’s intended to be listened to as an uplifting, dare I say, magical experience.
I first learned about the Bhagavad Gita from a Robert Oppenheimer quote, and that ignited my curiosity about Hinduism and spirituality in general. A peculiar introduction to the Hindu religion and spirituality indeed, yet this is what planted the seed for me many years ago. After much research and exploration, I decided to join a yoga group to see what this enlightenment business was all about! I learned so much about myself, about reality, about our perceptions, our delusions, and honestly, the experiences I’ve had goes beyond words.
This song, for me, represents a commitment to my underlying understanding that we are all a part of this spiritual journey we call life together, whether we realize it or not. I wanted to create something that I could listen to and show others that might somehow “awaken” them in some way. This song is much different than anything...  more
lyrics
Thich Nhat Hanh Quote:
“Loneliness is the ill-being of our time, we feel very lonely. Even if we are surrounded by many people, we are lonely together.”
Lyrics:
Section 1 - Food Prayer - Bhagavad Gita - Chapter 4 - Verse 24
“brahmārpaṇaṁ brahma havir brahmāgnau brahmaṇā hutam
brahmaiva tena gantavyaṁ brahma-karma-samādhinā”
(Mukundananda)

Section 2 - Special Prayer in honor of Goddess Durga
“Om Jayanti Mangala Kali Bhadrakali Kapalini
Durga Khama Shiva Dhatri Svaha Svadha
Namostuthe”
(Admin)

Section 3 - Personal verse stating my intentions
I’m willing to go through the pain, I’m committed to my path
My only fear is that I go insane, but I’m never gonna look back
I’m sick of playing the world’s games, I’m drawing my own map
If you truly want to master the brain, no shortcuts, you got to do the math!


Ending - English Translation - Bhagavad Gita - Chapter 4 - Verse 24
“For him the ladle with which offering is made is God; the act of offering oblation is God. The sacrificer is God. Oblation is God. God shall be attained by him who is absorbed in God as the act of such sacrifice. (To see God in all sacrifice is to see reality. Objects are not real and to consider them real is an error. When one views everything as no other than God, he attains Him. In fact the world does not exist; it only seems to exist in the light of the eternal Absolute).”
(Sahni)

Namostute

Chorus

I’m staring into the void, it is staring back. 
My old friend, the darkness, my companion,
and you know I’m never gonna retract.

I’m staring into the void, it is staring back. 
My old friend, the darkness, my companion,
and you know I’m never gonna retract.

I’m staring into the void, it is staring back. 
My old friend, the darkness, my companion,
and I know I’m never gonna retract.

I’m staring into the void, it is staring back. 
My old friend, the darkness, my companion,
and I know I’m never gonna retract.

Verse #1

   I’m staring into the void, it got me feeling so ‘noid.  The deeper we go into this rabbit hole, get lost in our sorrows.  What about tomorrow, I need to borrow, a bit of faith, a little bit of happiness.  We’re facing the good and the bad in our lives as the rabbit dies.  He takes with him our abilities to fly, our problems are created in the mind.  Sit back, rewind, remind us of a blessed time. Abundance was the fun of it, took it for granted, looking for answers.  Find any? Not many, spent plenty, drank Henny, had nothin’ left, not a motha’ fuckin’ penny!  But, it don’t mean shit, it ain’t gonna stop me. Talking shit to my crew?  Ya better believe you’re gonna have to pop me.  As far as rap goes, by the way, you’re never gonna stop me, never sloppy! Bone, Bone, Bone, Bone is the one that fuckin’ taught me and I’m never gonna tell ya how I’m gonna do it when I’m comin’ through to spit.  You just gotta admit it’s legitimate. Hold on, let me take my jacket off, I’m about to set it off. Let me show you what it takes to be a boss. You just got to use your mind, get out there and try. Never rely on the one’s around you to provide the love you seek, it is within you.  Open your mind and realize the abundance the universe supplies!

Verse # 2 

    Oh, I’m gonna make it through anything that life’s bringing my way but I’m hoping for a better day.  Sometimes I look to the sky and I cry but hey.  I wonder why I could not look God in the eyes when I could feel his spiritual essence, his presence, it’s in me, it’s gotta be.  Am I my own worst enemy, could my mind be lost, out of synergy with my body. I’m not crazy, I need no lobotomy. Just cause I’ve lost touch with reality? I’m stuck in an endless sea of my mind. Let’s explore the depths! Rewind my life, and I’m turning back time… Did I do things right? How am I still alive? Never forget all the nights I thought I wouldn’t survive. All the struggle and strive seems so hopeless and then we die.  So I lay awake at night and I cry, and I think to myself, would I be better off dead? (ha-ha-ha-ha) All I see is red!  Let’s fly! But, why? Instead, we meditate.  Thank Ra! I know there’s hope for a better day. To my brothers, I dedicate this song to the day you had to walk away.

Produced by: Proto-J Productions
Beat by: 20DollarBeats.com LLC

Staring Into The Void

Music produced by 20dollarbeatsLLC
Written and Recorded by: J. Schmalz
Mix and Mastered by: J. Schmalz
Artwork by: Tykoe AKA WaterdoG

Stuck In A Dream

Knowledge is power. Wisdom is peace.

If you really want to know, then you really got to go down the rabbit hole!

Written by: Joshua Schmalstig
Produced by: Travis Jenkins
Remastered: 1/24/2020

Thoth

If I know one thing is right, you gotta go within to mend. Reside inside your mind to find who you are, you can't pretend if you really want to change your life.  Even when I'm filled with fright,  I know that this pain will end.  That fateful night, I saw the light.  I came back for my friends to show that we're god-sent.

It's so easy to forget, that this life is a blessing. We all take it for granted.

Change the way you see things, and the things you see will change. I've been watching you go through this pain, wondering if you're okay.  I wish I could take this pain away.  Even though all things lose their luster with time, I will always shine.  I can't be your knight in shining armor and in my heart, you will find.  In my heart, you reside, with my love.  





5/6/19 
Version: 3.0-3.23
Remastered:1/24/2020

Change The Way You See Things

Let It Go, Om

Released: January 1, 2021
Proto-J Productions
Beat Produced By 20DollarBeats.com LLC
Version: 4.0

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