The first in a new bunch of songs I've been writing myself in my bedroom. I have no set idea for what I want to do with these or whether to release so I'm just venting and experimenting with Hardcore / Melodic Hardcore/ Shoegaze/ Post Rock vibes.

Lyrics:

There is a constant resign I feel each and every fucking day,
But there's a light if you close enough,

sometimes, I wish I could fall right though the ground beneath my feet, 
traverse out of my own head,

But desertion, was never option,
You'll find you way and I won't be far behind,

The air was cold and the nest we made soon became our own demise,
imprisoned by fists, this house is not a home,

Temporary escape through poisons,
In my body was all I knew, you pulled me out

Desertion, was never an option,
you will find your way and I wont be far behind,
desertion is never the option.

this test, it overwhelms me, 
But only for so long, 

I WON'T LET YOU DISSAPEAR

Desertion

Lyrics:

I tried to forget the guilt,
I tried to fight for what was lost,
I realised I was only fooling myself.

I've been running away for years,
attempting to turn the page,
with weathered hands I tried to hold the weight, 
but i know I can't stay here.

you held a kind hand out to me, I couldn't burden you with my fate,
but I made it out just in time,  I found a place that I could call mine. 

feel the sun shining on your face,
see the dust settle and fade.

I had to bite the bullet, I had to give up on everything,
but that memory will fade,
I will find some piece of mind. 

a new day is dawning, i can barely wait,
to start a new chapter in life,
the road is long but surrendering, is not  an option for me.

feel the sun shining on your face,
see the dust settle and fade,
no more choking on their words,
only you can turn the page.

Turn The Page

Another song Idea I had. Still not 100% confident with my singing but I think I am progressing slightly at least. let's see if you dig it and if you are a singer and would like to collaborate give me a shout!

lyrics:

Where have you left your worth
Your breathing is too faint to hear
You're bursting at the seams,
Find your way out of the mess and you will find your voice

You're running out of time
You're eyes are clouded with shame and guilt
Wash away the weight
I'll try my best to hold you up and you will find your ...

The earth will keeping on turning endlessly
No hands could mend your broken heart, 
No words could make sense of your giref,
This rusted bandage is falling apart

Our journeys crossed in forgotten dreams,
Bound by a pain that can't be unseen,
Feel your way through this darkened room, 
Hear my voice, take my hand, I will pull you out

Wash Away

Lyrics:

worse for wear,
a state I was in for almost all my younger years,
going nowhere, 
betrayed my dearest dreams,

eye for an eye,
is that what you tell yourself as you walk out into the world,
attempt to justify while I bite my tongue

from beginning to end,
you are the shadow casted over my every move,
I push but you are immovable

thrashing around inside my mind,
on the outside I dare not make a sound,
but I cannot continue to restrain myself 

lashing out, 
the consequence of the silent treatment you always give,
I too have have reached my breaking point,

can you hear the sound,
of my applause as you tear everything we have to shreds,
hysterical laughter fills your chest,

there will be no more restraint,
my choices will be made, you'll be left out to dry
you will carry the weight I held,
but your story will never be told,
You will know my face no more 

there will be no more restraint,
my choices will be made

Restraint

Smoking trees, stealing the keys to my fathers abandoned car where we used to hide,
We used to mope around my parents house, searching for ways to live,
Harmless boredom gave way to victimless crimes,
Burning papers and magazines in secrecy to pass the time,

Watching the flames and embers scatter through the air,
Our mothers gasped and our fathers shook their heads, 

A smile crackes across my face when I remember those times, 
Crying with laughter until our parents beckoned us to come back inside

Memories, tear me in two
Expressions transfixed and torn up in this pain so huge,
But there is still laughter, when I remember the adolescenct mischief
We made in youth

We made in youth

We made in youth

YOU MADE MY YOUTH

I still rememeber those days, your smile and the games we'd play,
I wasn't always there, we lost touch every now and then,
I'm not the only one, to make mistakes and have regrets, I know,
My love for you, is shared with the hundreds of those you knew

Memories, tear me in two
expressions transfixed and torn up in this pain so huge,
but there is still laughter, when I remember the adolescenct mischief
we made in youth

Duality Of Man