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back to you

Back to you

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

it set me free 
at least i think
what do you know?
theyre all just freaks
what did you wanna know
i see myself in me 
a couple tools 
thats all you need

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

you try and try again
and nothing seems to work
you push your age away
and then you ask 
why it fades away
decaying in the room that you were pushed into
its been years you seen the outside and you dont know

i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed
i could resign
just to retry this time
whatever eats at your mind
blame it on the gun that got it killed

snarky

RIOT GRRRL

I’m not showing you what’s in my head
I’m not going to point out what you said 
Time is ripping out the guts I’ve spilled 
I’ve been living out the love I killed

Don’t think I can do this anymore 
Take my eyes and let me see through yours
Late at night I see you in the storm
She’s the only one that I adore

Wish that I could take it all away
Like everyday
But every time I try to numb the pain 
I feel the same

hurricane

i know ive heard this one before
but i feel theres something more
i cant put my finger on

and when i think, it rings a bell
one that i once knew quite well
but will never ring the same

but maybe im feeling
a part of my subconscious mind

or maybe this feeling’s
an amalgamation
of all my memories

i swear i’ve heard this one before
and it’s opened up a door
to a memory i cant reach

and when the record starts to play
i can hear it clear as day
with an unfamiliar tinge

i feel it in my bones
coursing through my soul
i can’t escape
all of this change
its not the same

its bleeding through my eyes
colouring the skies
purple and red
what’s in my head
what’s in my head

well maybe im feeling
a part of my subconscious mind

or maybe this feeling’s
an amalgamation
of all my memories

its always in my head
it sleeps under my bed
it wont go away
wont let me change
im going insane

its bleeding through my walls
colouring it all
purple and black
please take me back
please take me back

memory

with austin van fox

wir passen perfekt zusammen
glaub nie etwas anderes

dark ++austin

Newest single that will be a part of an upcoming EP out in the summer! 

Written, recorded, and produced by Estrada
Mastered by Jeremy Lubsey 
Cover Photo by @luvflxrist

FOOGAZE 2023

Esta Noche Que Salí

SCARS

everything written, recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered by me

wonder if you care

Produced by New Desires

Lyrics:

I know 

I know

reunion with your eyes 

No I can’t let it die 

I can’t let it die 

There is little hope 

I fall and then I play 

distant with no trace 

There is no hope 

I fall into a hole 

Another faded truth

I can’t escape you 

But there you ask 

There is no hope

There is no hope 

Fall

reunion with your eyes 

No I can’t let it die 

I can’t let it die 

There is little hope 

There is 

Hope 

No time 

There’s where to go 

Go 

There’s no door 

There’s no door

Reunion

Lies

I wrote this song after my philosophy professor talked about the concept of "sublime" using the metaphor saying "fog above the water". Sublime is a concept of beauty so grand it puts you in awe, that sometimes you're so mesmerized you become distracted by the real danger of what you're really looking at. I connected this metaphor with sirens hence their beautiful voices draw in sailors to kill. I hope you enjoy this as much as I did while making it!!

Siren Song

Just for now - Imogen Heap [SLOWED + REVERB]

recorded produced and mixed by me duh

(god awful) lyrics:
set this girl on fire
i feel her heat on me
we gotta get away
away from here

away from here

set this girl on fire
i feel her heat on me
we gotta get away
away from here

these roads 
ain't close enough to home
we gotta get away
away from here

other side of the ocean

streaming:
https://presave.io/t/killswitchlullaby

artwork by Rauf Sunyaev

Killswitch Lullaby

vocal: by A$AP Rocky
instrumental: composed, produced, performed, mixed, mastered by Instupendo

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long live.

angel

{lyrics} 
open up your mind
cant you see flowers
bloom at night 
cant you feel the remedy
cant you feel the remedy
cant you feel the remedy
cant you feel the remedy
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HEYOKA EMPATHS

Cover of one of my favorite songs by DIrty Beaches