June 2022

it just doesnt have to be so hard
aug2021 . art prod & vox by me ( @bigdog30k )

Where You'll Find Me

i cherished our time together, i hope one day you can too.

Spotify

love letters

https://open.spotify.com/album/6flSgOHm06B7tSvYE2lij2?si=ZNjo5z1sSg64dhohnA-pcg

decay

https://soundcloud.com/djm411/let-it-go

1h track
free project download: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mo3fWVSi7Dw

poison

prod me & @x9p
drums i used r in my new drumkit cop it if u want 

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im gettn high in the afterlife
i cant trust a soul even angels lie
yea im powered up with my blud red eyez
i dont even know where my heart residez...

& i know im not strong
but i still try hold on 
why does pain last so long...

afterlife (katai, kurai)

w/ @ogpichu
p/ @176s

(christie monteiro) 'go easy on me'
*you lose*

better boss up or get up out my way
cause if I walked up ur silent to my face
im sippin sauce sauce I dont know what to say
u wanna talk talk its really such a shame

in my head
im a burden
with a sympathetic purpose
at the same time
I feel perfect
cause the bank holds reassurance

im like what do u want
im like what do u need
i might make it up front
ill bend ill break ill bleed
i might count it up once
i might make it a scene
i might spend it all up
then make it back and repeat
x2

better boss up or get up out my way
cause if I walked up ur silent to my face
im sippin sauce sauce I dont know what to say
u wanna talk talk its really such a shame

pichu:
yea I got everything u wanted
u needed something yea I got it
u always talk shit u start it
play w my feelings cause u love it
x2

better boss up or get up out my way
cause if I walked up ur silent to my face
im sippin sauce sauce I dont know what to say
u wanna talk talk its really such a shame

do you need something?

do you need something? w/ pichu #donttalk2me (sense)

song by: https://soundcloud.com/jequya
prod by: https://soundcloud.com/sshinju

saikyo - ₓ˚. ୭ ˚○◦˚.4giv先に進む必要があります/ shinju / ˚◦○˚ ୧ .˚ₓ (slowed)

nothing left

Wish You Were Here

spirited away

production by @lilac

i kno im wrong
tried 2 call u
but u already gone
been so low
but i gotta stay strong
u hit my phone
its not worth to wait on..
i could not forget uu
no matter how long
how long its been
they tried 2 catch on
but we goin 4 tha win
like i got my mask on
u cant tell whats within
its like i got my heart locked
n u tryna break innnnnNnNn

its like i care to much
i cant trust uu
its all luck
i cant love uu
like i change to much
its been so many days
when i felt like givin up
runnin outta luck
ya this life Suxxcks
but u make it more
everytime u smile
swear my hearts drops2 the floor
if u wana get it
im like ya okay ofcourse
everything i get i swear
i could make it urs

its all the same

the wait p. lilac

kankan - kill em prod axjuinior 7000 v1

spotify

Toxic (prod. lovbug)

(Lyrics) 

you were laughing cause i thought you were something
i guess you were you were not wrong 
someone spilled all my guts
nah nah with all my cuts (swear to god) 
somethings in my head 
wish i could fix this problem 
can you stick this fucking knife right on my throat 
and imma let you know that you weren't the one for me
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i can feel my body rot
never really tell if it was love or not
so i guess that i'll have to assume
that between me and you
it wasn't what i thought
you weren't what i want
now i'm seeing red cuz you cut me off
i think that i might have a habit of turning a good thing into a bad one
gave you it all because i thought you'd be the last one
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you were laughing cause i thought you were something
i guess you were you were not wrong 
someone spilled all my guts
nah nah with all my cuts (swear to god) 
somethings in my head 
wish i could fix this problem 
can you stick this fucking knife right on my throat 
and imma let you know that you weren't the one for me
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i thought that we were something but we really were nothing
ripped my heart into pieces when she left me in the darkness 
i'm so hopeless feeling lost in all these controllable moments 
i'm frozen when i think about what i went through that's just me
when we were looking up at the night sky i felt something
i could take control but i really dont got the guts to speak
keep holding myself down like wtf is wrong with me
gotta get over my blocked up mind it's constantly
telling me shit i dont wanna hear
feel like hell's going down on me
she's inside of my dreams she said she'll never leave
cannot see i cannot see
i can tell they after me
social reject, lonely kid
why's it me?
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you were laughing cause i thought you were something
i guess you were you were not wrong 
someone spilled all my guts
nah nah with all my cuts (swear to god) 
somethings in my head 
wish i could fix this problem 
can you stick this fucking knife right on my throat 
and imma let you know that you weren't the one for me

thought you were something w/ yokai dreams & nokerb (frevel)

@lallelmao @lallelmao @lallelmao

summer vibe

GET DA BAG W / LALLE

Prod. Slumkeyy

Lyrics:
All Of The Nights Spent Stressing 
They All Left Me Out
Looking At My Reflection 
He’s The Only Who Can Save Me Now

They Changed What’s That About
Took Me For Granted So I Want Out 
Now They All Wanna Take Me Down
Ion Care You Can Hate Me Now

Let’s Go 
You Can Hate Me Now
iKnow 
Go Ahead See If I Care Wow

I’m Wired In Just Like Lain Wow
In Club Cyberia We Going Wild
You Mad I’m Shutting Down Your Side Of Town
iPromise Ion Care You Can Hate Me Now

People Always Come And Go 
Thats How Life Flows 
Back Then My Soul Used To Soar
Now It’s On The Floor

You Can Die A Hero
Or Live Until You Conform
iHope That I Am Reborn
No iCant Take This No More

They Don’t Wanna See Me Win
They Wanna Settle The Score
Running From The Pain 
They Stabbed Me In The Back Like A Horror

That’s Why I Hate These Guys
Talking Crazy Only Online
Mask On Just Like Shy Guy
These Niggas Fake Just Like Sci-Fi

iKnow Sometimes It Hurts
Things Never Seem To Work 
The Mirror Shows The Curse

All This Damage Can’t Reverse
In The Wired I Revert
When I Logged In Stay Alert 

1000 Unread Emails I Know Their Filled Up With Lies
Conspiring Against Me All That Hate Will Be Ur Demise 
Hiding From Reality In VR Thats My Source Of Life
Moving In Hyper Speed Hope I Don’t Trip Up On That Wire
 
Dive Into The Fire
I Was Always The Outsider 
Surfing The Web Just Like A Spider
Show Me The Pain It Gets Me High

I Put Everything On The Line 
Cuz I Kno Ima Survivor 
Yeah My Soul Cannot Expire
You Sold Yours To The Highest Buyer

All Of The Nights Spent Stressing 
They All Left Me Out
Looking At My Reflection 
He’s The Only Who Can Save Me Now

They Changed What’s That About
Took Me For Granted So I Want Out 
Now They All Wanna Take Me Down
Ion Care You Can Hate Me Now

Hate Me Now (Prod. Slumkeyy)

From the bottom of my heart

Thanks for listening

Take care of your bodies⠀
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I've always dreamed of making metal music
I want to be versatile and evolve
I'm not leaving the old sound behind
I hope you'll stick around through my metal journey

Artwork: Alone in the park by Władysław Wankie

Yearning

why [prod. xangang]

there r better days to come :)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5cC6Bk8tzqcLsLSO90Nr6l?si=aa1c982efc644af9

June 2022

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