keep the hope...

YouTube: https://youtu.be/s2dlanDXZ2k?si=C3CVoDw_uYa8Jo9p
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/intl-ja/track/67U78cUca3joqJNrugWOoi?si=e4eaf345f955400f
AppleMusic: https://music.apple.com/jp/album/%E8%A6%8B%E3%81%88%E3%81%96%E3%82%8B%E8%80%85/1722954022?i=1722954027
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見えざる者 / invisible hand
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まるで夜が明けてゆくかのように
熱狂は冷めて
誰一人いなくなるのだろう
廃墟を残して

苛立ちは　不甲斐なさゆえ
悲しみは　溝の深さゆえ
無限ループに組み込まれたなら
万策尽きてしまう

見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ
見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ

それなりの試行錯誤
せまられる思考停止
どこかで　聴いたことのある　誘い文句

誰だって憤るさ
誰だって泣き崩れるさ
大切に育てた日々を
目の前で爆破されれば

見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ
見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ

まるで夜が明けてゆくかのように
熱狂は冷めて
誰一人いなくなるのだろう
廃墟を残して

苛立ちは　不甲斐なさゆえ
悲しみは　溝の深さゆえ
無限ループに組み込まれたなら
万策尽きてしまう

見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ
見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ
見えざる者の手が　欲望に穢された今は
密かに　風の記憶を　待つ

AppleMusic

見えざる者 / invisible hand

For every child who’s been told they’re “too much” or “not enough”
This is the story of life in a world that won’t slow down.

A neurodivergent mind trying to survive the noise, the lights, the looks, the labels. Misunderstood by teachers. Isolated by classmates. Always one step behind, or three steps ahead, but never quite where the world expects.

Until one quiet moment, and in my case, the sound of a clarinet.
It didn’t fix everything, but it gave my chaos a rhythm, and my mind some space to breathe.
(It won’t be the answer for everyone, but it helped me begin to find my way.)

This track isn’t perfect, neither am I.
But it’s honest. And sometimes, that’s enough. 💙🎵🕊️

This track is for the kids who feel everything.
💙 For the ones masking to fit in.
💙 For the ones melting down inside.
💙 For the ones still searching for a safe place to just be.

You’re not broken. You’re brilliant.
And your rhythm matters. 🎵🕊️

****Lyrics****

They said, “Use your words,”
But mine don’t come when I need them
They said, “Pay attention,”
But I already was, just not the way they wanted
I don’t talk much in class
But my head never stops
I see things they don’t
And they call it “wrong”

It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m trying, I promise, I really am
But I don’t fit in their lesson plan
So they call me “difficult” again
I’m not broken, I’m not bad
I just need someone to understand
It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m doing the best I can

The lights flicker hard
And the questions come too quick
They say “just be normal”
But don’t say what that is
I like quiet corners
They call that “hiding”
But I call it breathing
When the noise keeps rising

It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m trying, I promise, I really am
But I don’t fit in their lesson plan
So they call me “difficult” again
I’m not broken, I’m not bad
I just need someone to understand
It’s too loud, too bright, too fast
And I’m doing the best I can

I wish they’d stop asking me why I’m like this
And just ask me what I need
They might find I’ve got answers
They’ve never even seen

Then one day they handed me a clarinet
Said, “Let’s see what happens”
And I did
I held it close
Like something that understood
One steady breath
And the chaos moved

It’s still loud, still bright, still fast
But I found a way to hold it back
Through every note I find my pace
In every sound, I carve some space
No, it didn’t fix everything
But it helped my heart to sing
It’s still loud, still bright, still fast
But now I know who I am

I am not naughty
I am not wrong
I just needed
My own kind of song
And if you’re someone who stands beside us
When the world feels too sharp to explain
Who waits through the silence
And stays through the strain
If you've helped us breathe
When the noise felt too wide
If you’ve shown us our value
Instead of making us hide
Then thank you
For seeing the spark
For hearing the thread
For loving us gently
When others just fled

🎵 Too Loud, Too Bright, Too Fast

/ 16 июня /
in your city there is also sun...
and also June - the sixteenth...
you dreamed of thinking in another language..
- it will not come true..

but the rest will work out..!

what happened..?

we did not tell each other everything...
at our meeting
so many lies...
words hidden..
and time wasted
in doubts..

we are tired...
of wandering around real events...

and

your plan succeeded

yes...

but -
so-so..

so-so...

now...
you are far away

incomprehensible...

miles stretch and break...

between us....

you write songs about me
in another language

and I do not understand them...

we are refugees - we are emigrants from each other...

and
your plan succeeded

yes .

but -
it's so-so...

so-so...

в твоём городе тоже солнце...
и тоже июнь - шестнадцатое...
ты мечтал думать на другом языке ..
- это не сбудется..

а остальное удасться ..

что было ..

не всё друг другу сказали...
в нашей встрече 
так много лжи...
слова скрывали ..
и время потерялось 
в сомненьях наших..

мы устали ...
по реальным событиям
скитаться ...

и

твой план удался

да ...

но -
он так себе ..

так себе...

а теперь ...

ты далеко

непостижимо ...

мили тянутся и рвутся ...
между нами....

пишешь песни обо мне
на другом языке

я их не понимаю…

мы беженцы - 
мы друг от друга

эмигранты…

и

твой план удался

да .
но -
он так себе ..

так себе...

so-so

🌕🍇 Jelly on the Moon 🍇🌕
This wobbles where gravity shouldn't, a squishy, happy groove built from pure joy and strange angles. No vocals, no rules, just beats, bounce, and a synth that might be giggling. Like dancing in your socks on a moon crater with zero expectations and maximum grin. 🍇🌕

🙃 For everyone who smiles without knowing why.

💨 The kettle steamed with delight and blurted “I didn’t even realize I was bobbing, I just was”
🧊 The ice dispenser dropped a cube and whispered “This is the sound of joy with no origin”
🌀 The blender spun in slow motion and hummed “I don’t know what genre this is, but I’d puree it again”

🍇 One for the dance floor daydreamers and weird little moonwalks in the kitchen.

🛠️ Cooked up in FL Studio with giggling synths, bouncy blips, and pure sonic jelly.

Not trendy, not a chart hit. But it makes me smile and that's what counts.

💌 Please let me know if you'd like me to make more like this.

🌕🍇 Jelly on the Moon 🍇🌕

One Time

[Verse 1]
I need a better life
That will take away my pain
I need a new goal for my life
And the one that you can give
I need some good news 
I need some good news 

[Chorus]
That time I guess I found it
Visit my best friend
I'm going to figure out my life
And then I'm going to be a best friend
I'm going to keep on my knees
And then I'm going to dance
I'm going to put my hands up
And then I'm going to dance
I'm going to go out and have a good time

[Verse 2]
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time
I'm going to go out and have a good time.

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh 

* I need the sunlight on my face
* I need the ocean’s sweet embrace
* I want a future I can trust
* A little hope, a little love is a must
* I need to feel alive again
* I want the story to begin
Chorus-style lines
 I’m chasing brighter skies
 I’m lifting up my eyes
 I’m finding love inside
 I’m learning not to hide
 I’m reaching for the stars
 I’m healing all my scars
Outro / 
 Feel-good phrases    
 Freedom in my soul
 Joy that makes me whole
 Smiles that never fade
 Dreams I’ve finally made
 A heart that beats in time
 With the rhythm of the divine

ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

I need a better life
That will take away my pain
I need a new goal for my life
And the one that you can give
I need some good news 
I need some good news

Special Order From A Broken House

Siegfried Grundmann

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