THIS IS NOW ON SPOTIFY 
https://open.spotify.com/track/59aGAmx7lXziEOYsmVK6M9?si=41d9e69a23574236

s/o shadow!
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4Lt2GUVj5H5RpyWT9Awx2A/videos

trying to not overthink shit again

fuck ur whole existence

fuck ur whole existence (prod. shadow!)

the ten

man, fuck you

sudden outburst of emotion
got the chamber feeling reloaded
i don't know how it ain't broken
been screaming for soldiers
the drummer boy has been moved to the kingdom
burn em and swing em
i take the leader and wring him
down to the very last drop
oh god
i feel the rocks down on
right to the docks
monsoons when i'm distraught
can't turn that shit off
man i hate and beg it stops
but it ain't gonna listen
it's got them headphones wrapped around
and every sight of theirs glistens
why would they pay attention
why would there be retention
there's nothin left to do with someone
with no god damn intentions
i like the moments of quiet nestled right in the storm
the rain and the thunder's the only way i stay warm
and that's the way i feel

mirrors are my worst enemy

floatin round with a backpack
the last track requires a hazmat
you can rent em for like 49.99 
it's a steal for the price
i won't die
just evolve into lights that live high
what a night
what a life to exist in
sweeter than some lipton
breather savin everything that i have got my chips in
got some things to write
but i'm marveling at the sky at how it can be so bright
golden to purple i'm breakin. through every hurdle
decoding all of the signs
i'm lookin at. the other side
it's inches from my grasp
reflecting through the glass
rips have made me ask
man what am i here for?
that's a tough pill to swallow
there's 3 certainties
death, taxes and hollow
i take another hit and i'll need another tomorrow

i'll need another tomorrow

welcome
hello
how are you
nice to see you
hope you're well
as always

thank you for joining me (yeah)

yeah
 
takin off
blastin up out the earth
man i need a fall
they're expecting me on the rings
that’s what we call saturn
nothin matters
i knew that it took some time to eat the platter
mind was scattered
fired a blaster
ate the cake with a poisoned batter
damn
not taking anything for granted
look where i landed
without a letter of planning
while bumpin fuck love and bandit
shit we back in it
not mad at it
sometimes i’m petrified but i love that i am trapped in it
managing
8 a day
it’s alright as long i can go say hey
way to say
you’re addicted and you got no one to blame
later day 
i’ll deal with that
man on a later day
i’ll deal with that man
i’ll deal with that man
someday
maybe

interlude

though what a way to grow up
even if no one showed up
the way that shit’s been goin man 
fuck it dude imma load up
been livin on some sodas 
on 5 ams and so whats
not gotten into dota but  i think i might’ve shown up
every one of y’all
with just a flick of the limp wrist
i feel in love on my simp shit
and got rid of every dick bitch
that i needed
and half of them were the sweetest times
but they had had it with reason
i'm tired of being mistreated
right click deleted i got it
and then as soon as i had the pocket
i trapped it into a locket
just so i could try to bach it with no vision
i got my soul spinnin
its goin round and round 
to learn just what it can just like clean linens
that's not a common occurence
that's not the usual goings
always it was a deterrent
but i feel string in the knowing that i am here
for no one else besides my dear
i let out a cheer
i'm really here for life

outside

VERSE 1 (JVNUS)

it's been a couple years since i first hit the bottle
hating myself enough
i don't need any more rivals
i keep saying i'm alright
my liver doesn't lie though
spending days off sleep and linked into an iPhone
that's been my world thruogh a black window for quite a while
just trying to live
shit ain't been simple
since we all caught denial
since my family got thrusted into their lifestyle
be it self sustaining, crash and burning
can't leave the fire
better sleep in those ashes
the fear and scenes in your glasses
your self esteem building traction
don't always need major action
i swear that i've been over acting
all i needed was some liquid and cyanide in a cage
the cup rather
still i play with the bars
the worldplay go and slave a wage
to raise up arms
fuck else can we do
already did enough harm
that's why i put my heart right here on my arm
yeah

VERSE 2 (NICK LUCIANO)

i wear my heart on my sleeve
cause it's easier to breathe
when the stress start comin
smoke away the unease
haven't picked up a bottle in a while
but it's comin
i can feel it in my jeans
the stampede is rumbling
stomach grumbling 
i haven't ate in a minute
cause the pockets lookin emptier
than a space of the wicked
on wikihow 
some how to feel alive for a while
cause it comes and goes
hopefully the pain will mold to something new
and i can pass the blues that's been torturing my hopeless soul
lost and on the move
tryna face it but it's getting old
scolding on myself
whenever i can't seem to face the truth
anxious left unaided
in a brain
just trying to make it through

VERSE 3 (MARK HOLLOW)

safety in my doubt
i’m only sound when in the clouds
i may be scared cand counting down
but i’m goin round for round
there are days i don’t remember
weight i’d like to sever
happy we’re together
but i fear eternal weather
in my mind is like the desert
harsh and unforgiving
thoughts have started sprinting
and that shit has got me limping
they ain’t skimping on the panic
bit short of a sandwich
i ain’t eatin i’m just snacking
what a classic
what a classic
i been fightin this demon
since i started to speak shit
battled a legion and confided in preachers
to no definitive end
they prescribed words of repent
trying to heal as i descend
but at least i got a lens now
gotta be at ten now
spent another ten now
fuck i think it’s ten now
gotta get like ten now
it’s such a privilege to be
but it’s sickening as shit to know that one day i’ll leave
fuck

a hate like this (cypher) feat. jvnus & nick luciano

ramen on my fork
i may be on my fourth
this blunt has hit me harder
than finding out i'm alive and existing
without consent or permission
thinkin i might as well end it
pull back the sim and reset it
and then it hit me

i can invent my reality
make it mine without the casualties
spend all my days imagining
put in work to make it happening
but i ain't rushin
no sir
i'm smelling the roses
taking my time with my doses
make it sick as tuberculosis
finally feeling that i've rewrote itself
the tone is overwhelmed
to know i went from low to on the shelf
oh wait up
there ain't no down or left it's only way up
i'll stay up every fucking night until i'm on my way up
it's hollow

ramen

yeah
first take
ten doors couldn’t keep me out
speakers on the roundabout 
i’ve never had a whole moment 
where my soul isn’t frozen
they say hell is hella hot
i’m not a fan of the heat
i’ve never been into b
or rly that into balls
that all changed when i grew from small
wall to wall 
simple to fall
don’t got a drawl
i’m holding on until fall
thank you vic for the strength
besitos all to your face 
the first punch ain’t thrown by me
but i got a trace
bloodhound with the vision
even with the microtia 
any legion try to stop me
all your organs in boca
could be the place or my gullet
either way i’ll say fuck it
let’s do it
i’m sittin in a panic wonderin what the truth is

bloodhound (prod. edual)

pic is what i imagine the choir in the beat switch looks like

to whom it may concern
i’m riding with the birds
i’m feeling myself and worth
don’t know if i’ll return
i’m just
so high
on my own damn sight i don’t
feel right going down these heights 
they don’t
love or care
they don’t
breathe your air
so just
throw away
everything that they own
nothing is written in stone
you’re more than what you owe
you’re more than anything they could’ve ever have wrote
god damn
time only pasts when the room is empty
i don’t feel a second gone when we’re dancing gently
saturn couldn’t entice me 
alive and i’m thriving
venus couldn’t either trust they’ve been trying
with the wave that i’m on
i’ve been surfing heights you’ve been dreaming bout when you’re stoned
there ain’t days i wanna lie man i’m feeling at home
all my days i wanna cry man it’s feeling like home


my mind could take a turn like waves to a tsunami
i’m wondering bout who got me 
what truths that my mother taught me
and lies that my father wrote
eroded em in my code
but lows can evoke a tone that’s similar to a trauma
dreaming towards love and the life saving commas
hopefully never need em
but it ain’t all up to jesus
i don’t think i got a choice when it comes to the music
but even if they showed me way out i wouldn’t use it
shit sounds crazy depending on how you view it
all i know is i’m finding here what the truth is

to whom it may concern

fuck you

I only wanted to live as long as i could exist
And i’m not sure what that is
So i run for the clip
Then my fear in it dips
That got some fear in my trips
But i’ll run it out with some rips
There’s been like
Demons and shit
Got a whole new realm of a risk
But im diving fuck it might as
Well as cause i won’t have anything close to a midas
Touch and rip the page i got to stay inside the lines
I’m not into coke
I’ve been that low
But fell below
And crushed a dose
Fuck it though
I’m hopin that i’ll be fine
My mind is packed together like the D line
I need wine
To see fine
Running from shit make a beeline
The redefine
Maybe it’ll realign
Whatever chakras gotta move or what planets gotta do
Maybe i just need some shrooms
Television and a cruise
And i know that it’ll prove to be worth it
I’ve found life in death and know that i’ll never be perfect

wonder (prod. BlaizeEra)

take a left at mars

check out the prod, he is incredible
https://www.youtube.com/@Michalek-

lyrics:
7 hours in a moment
Trying hard to focus
These thoughts have been some locusts
But i’m happy they have noticed
Shit has got me in aerobics
Even though i’m feeling off a drink
Maybe i can sink
That’d be better for the rink
I’m skating by
And i don’t know how to say why
Cause kdi
I mean idk
Like some saiki k
I’m feeling funny
But i ain’t tlakin bout the runny
Not some honey and some sunny
I’m talkin bout fuckin killing me
Like nooses
Sin luzes
Lights out man
I’m clueless
I don’t gotta worry about what’s on to do lists
Maybe i could get some rest
Just a minute
But that ain’t how this shit works
This shit is physics
An object at rest
Is gon be at rest
I ain’t comin back so it’s hands on the decks
I’m writing and writing until my hands are in my chest
Breaking out my heart out my ribs as a quest
Just to be at rest

just a minute (prod. Michalek)

home

ain't no way (prod. edual)

prismo's boss (feat. JVNUS & Jimmy Split)

if there's one thing i know

flickin on my lighter shit is sounding like tunechi
look around the room bitch lil bit of nunchi
wonderin just who be
talkin all this chit chat
i laugh 
and i pack 
take a drag
and sit back
grape flavored wraps
tricking me to feel good
doing everything i ever said that if i could…
i thought you knew me better man
i thought you knew wall
that shit is big cap como la gorra de pharrell
blurred lines as i reflect
thin ki might press eject
don’t give me a single word without respect
minute maid
do the days
and i’m still thinkin how?
wondering if i could ever 	get to rolling loud
but i’m rolling loud
just for the minute that i got
writing on this page till i go down and rot
watch me punch through the clock
it ain’t take a whole lot
i just gotta think about leaving everything i got
what a moment
cranium titanium and angry as a locust
writing till i’m seeing everything as out of focus
you notice it woah
what a glow
i’m hoping i ain’t ever gotta slow what a joke
and  the moon keeps turning
the sun does too
but then i learned they don’t turn
the earth does boo
slap me in my face then give me a hug
i’m pretty sure that i know but i don’t give a fuck
what?

what? (prod. laate)

idk man

happily (feat. JVNUS)

comecloser

check out the lovely prod

https://withkoji.com/@sleepportrait

calm before the storm (prod. sleeportrait)

check out the lovely prod
https://www.youtube.com/@JIKID/videos

Summer in the winter
Feels like global warming
everything i know is still new in it’s forming
I never claimed to be me
I’m not sure what i’ll be
You could ask me in a dream
And i’ll scream till i breathe
What a 
Life to live 
Never sure what it is
But that’s the bliss in it bitch
Flip a script or a trip
It could work out
Everybody with burnout
Burn loud and resound
Inside the burnt parts of your mind
Sky and life is a prize
But it’s yours and it’s right
You don’t gotta worry bout if a maybe or might
There’s no question
that’s the lesson
Write it divide it into a year’s worth of class
Price it ignite it and watch the light in it crash
And it’ll
Make you know
Make it sew and control
Like it’s a wonderful life
And that movie with all them roles
You know the one?
It’ll come to me um
Everything that i’ve been feeling is a sign of a future
One i never knew i had i popped out born as a loser
I’m seeing
Sights i only dreamed of, writing as i feel love
What a fucking insane
Truth
Pandora how the world feels
Since we were dealt the worst deal
Don’t know how to take it 
Just relaying how the hurt feels
It
Sucks
But imma keep it a buck
I don’t have none for the month
And i’m feeling the brunt
Can’t even chil with a blunt
Cause i’m out of my runtz
Feel like a dunce
Every time i look in mirror
I see the shame i see the fear and this vodka just made it clearer
God why
Just praying for blue skies

blue skies (prod. JI KID)

who, what, when, where & why?

internal monologue

never too late

hello, alright

one day at a time

i want to thank umys for being such a great producer, he was so fantastic to work with. 
https://soundcloud.com/umys

his song was born out of a bad night wondering about God and how alone i feel in the universe.

don't wanna know (prod. umys)

this is a reupload, i hope you enjoy.

verse:
lyrics they be so dimwitted
It isn’t a fuckin scrimmage you fight it and take a striking 
livin this as a mission i’m slippin the dinner switches and flippin  em to the fishes
Dark around the room it’s the art that founded my tomb it’s the soundthag  parted my truths and exposed to me all the ruse and 
eroded out all my blues
Emoted out a noose
Decoded out a proof that i wasn’t flipping for truth
my phone is drier than the fountain of my powdered youth 
predisposed to be liar steady countin on the truth with a booth and that’s you without a truce

i hope by the time i’m twenty six i’ll get paid   for slaying the twenty six
letters from people that were evil to me
they giving praise and they saying that i’m a diesel with frees 
flexin w guns i’m cheadle w the machine
goin to war you know a tour
Maybe more with the core of a poor motherfucker gaining rapport
Put my soul up in this like natasha did it 
And every goal that i have in this will be colossal  image 
Fake it till you make it that’s the core to my lore there is so much in store
Never imagine the door
If i had let it through
Would i be here with you
Would we be lovin and discussion the future 
Or hold each other through sutures 
Now we just hear shit through rumors
I hope that you find a suitor and that your mental gets smoother 
Sorry i’m in a stupor

redefine

got a lil personal here lol.

beat by the fantastic umys. (https://twitter.com/umysbeats)

before i have kids (prod. umys)

3 am stream of conciousness

Lyrics:

Smoking this joint to block out all the noise
Trying to keep the poise in
Craving poison
Higher than flying hawks 
Inspired by spite and loss
Conspired to write a thought but i ain’t got none
Just like normal
Walking and see my demons i play it cordial
This pen a portal
To places where i am now immortal
What a dream but a slippy scheme
The theme is a brittle being
It’s freeing but real demeaning
I hope you couldn’t imagine
wouldn't wish it on anyone with a passion
Cause it’s a lasting effect 
A real damaging trek
Tangled mess in your head
Man who wants that
hate that it’s reason that i last and blue on tracks
Always feel like i blew it
A song or my whole existence
I’m sad so the shit is lit
What happens if i fix it
Would there be any more songs
Would there be any more drops
Would there be anything that you could play from a fuckin aux
Well it wouldn’t matter would it?
Take down all the cameras and delete all of the footage
There no need be a record of any all the ventures 
Now need them dentures to eat up the track
Feel like it's all an act
But that’s the voice that makes the noise the loudest in up in my cranium
I wonder in a stadium  would it be drowned out
I  might just round out my head and smoke that loud loud
Live in the clouds now never come down out
It always be  better where  there ain’t no one around
No one to influence or mask as a flower now
More like a devils  snare
So i keep it cool under my hair
Relax or it kills me faster
.Hell beware
I’m  connecting to  Gods that came to m e in my dreams
Speaking of tranquility and the means to proceed
To go be where need be , hoping for the moment i’m immortalized in a  cd
Speaking in 3d
Only allowing love and trust in my deep sleep
Never again a bump in the night again
Never again a bump in the night again
Never again a bump in the night again

bump in the night (again) (prod. Broke Boi)

one of my daily writings i ended up rly liking. taken during a thunderstorm, that's the boom you hear at the end lol. hope you enjoy, happy days to you and everyone you love.

ffs (freestyle) (prod. Brokebwoy)

i did a flip of a tiktok sample i found while scrolling <3

first beat i've ever posted, hope u enjoy !

og vid:
https://www.tiktok.com/@earcandyofficial/video/6862744668942191877

lollipopped

pack a bowl and vibe w me <3

thanks so much to gusto shade

higher than a kite (prod. gusto shade)

this the first verse i've ever done on a beat i made

turned 21, it's all over now

a throwaway from an upcoming project i still wanted out there <3

mark hollow

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