Arc4nA

AGNOSTHESIA

This song describes an ache to be found or to find something one is searching for. Perhaps soul searching or trying to find true self out of the journey of life I am exploring. A home is all I am wanting, somewhere I feel I belong.

Lost, Our Home

Wish is a song I wrote to remind myself of the little hope I have left inside of me. This song shows parts of the agony I went thru to come this far and yet to remember why I'm doing this. To get to the point of my life where I know I'll get what I've earned. Keep wishing upon that star and I hope you'll see how powerful you've become after<3

Wish- Tr1ckst3r

"Can't Stop Me" is a song about how all the struggles I've been through like; self sabotage, heartbreak, and bad habits no matter what I'll still get through. It's a reminder for me to stay strong and see that nothing can completely make me feel powerless unless I allow it.

Cant Stop Me

This piece signifies a deep independence I have formed from being neglected and uncared for. Even the desire of feeling something different, or someone being different can't compare to the false hope I carry of it actually existing. Regardless of me seeing black and white, that is all I've faced my whole life.

STAY / LEAVE

Those Days / They Don't know

Bleed

Cant Take Away / All Your Pain

Perfume

SPACE

IDK WHERE IM HEADED

inside My Mind

What Are We Fighting For?

OH HONEY

Left Behind

more to come soon,, here's a lil something I've been working on

#indie #rnb #smallartist #funk #beats #singer #abandoned #neglected #familyproblems 

Take It Out On Me

If you struggle with anxiety you're not alone.

ANXIOUS ME

this song represents the lonely aspect of my being. although there are those in my life that fill a hole I still can't help but sense emptiness. somewhere inside is numb and this is a poetic way of describing it. hope y'all like it 

Sonder

I drive myself
I can't release myself from pain
Not used to being this calm
My mind thinks it's all wrong....
I drive myself away 
I can't release myself from pain
And yet you seem to stay
I stay silent when you make me see
I want you to understand what it means
How it feels to be free
Are you free with me?
Do you really think we'll be together for eternity?
I want to believe
But most have promised the same thing
You're not like most
You're not like most
But how will I know?
How will I know?
Trust issues written on my face 
Perplexed cuz I want you to stay
My heart, you seem to aid
Not used to being this calm
My mind thinks it's all wrong
Your love is my drug
But it makes me anxious
I don't know why
I think of you 24/7 a time
I hope I'm making you laughing and not cry
But it feels empty when I look into your eyes
Are you there?
Are you there?
Cuz I'm scared 
Yeah I'm scared
Trust issues
(Are you there?)
Trust issues
(Are you there?)
Trust issues
(Are you there?)
Trust issues

Trust Issues

Continuous voices speak of death and life
I'm not as here, I'm not as alive
I wish I knew the source of this fear
I want to say goodbye
I want to revive
And feel what it means to be alive
To be alive
How can I leave?
So much to grieve
What is this emptiness beyond inside me?
I used to think love would heal the pain
Now I'm driving you away 
What is there to really gain?
My thoughts are insane but will you stay?
I'm trapped in this box that's too hard to unlock
Pacify my heart, I don't know why it's hard to restart
I'm trapped 5x
In my fucking head
Disturbed enough, enough to run
Possessed by sin, let's do it again
Cuz I'm trapped in this box
That's too hard to unlock
Save me from the rein
Eternal pain calls my name
I'm trapped in this box
I seem to always give up
Let me shatter away 
And hope the broken pieces save me someday
I'm trapped 5x
In my fucking head

Trapped

I'm writing this out
Cuz I know I'm not too proud
To say what I'm feeling
Thought I was outspoken but turns out
I still have those thoughts back when I was 15
That's when I started singing
Coping through emotion
Pouring out of me
Didn't see reality's epiphanies
I was so fucking blind
Every night I would cry
I knew I was missing out
Now I'm missing my youth
Kid why you so blue?
Why couldn't you enjoy the ride?
My first love said goodbye
But that's alright
How else would I learn to say goodbye?
To let go
To let go
To let go
I'm writing this out
Cuz I'm not too proud
But time will tell
That's who we are
I wanna be real
Why you gotta conceal?
Kinda used to closing out
Grew up in worries and doubts
Life's caught up to me now
I don't recognize my eyes
Who's this person I wake up as every night?
I thought I knew back then
Back when I had some friends
But now I'm all alone
Guess those times were just jokes
Must've known I'd be missing out
Cuz I'm missing my youth  
Kid why were you so blue?
Why couldn't you enjoy the ride?
My first love said goodbye 
But that's alright
How else would I learn to say goodbye?
How else would I learn to say goodbye?
To let go
To let go
To let go

Are You Ready To Let Go?

No I'm not ok
And you don't gotta ask about it anyway
Cuz I got my baby holding my hand
But it's not like she'd even understand
Yeah I'm out of names to blame
Cuz it seems there's no one left at stake
Yeah I'm not ok
I'm not ok
But please don't ask about it anyway
Yeah I guess It's just me and my head
My mind is wrapped and infested
With demons and disease 
I'm not so sure if there's a remedy
Yeah I got nothing left but this stability I carry
On my shoulders there's a hunch
I'm always tired, can I give up?
I would fall but who's gonna pick me up?
The truth lies upon the sky
I look above and allow myself to cry
No I'm not ok
And you don't gotta ask about it anyway
Cuz I got my baby holding my hand
But it's not like she'd even understand
Yeah I'm out of names to blame
Cuz it seems there's no one left at stake
Yeah I'm not ok
I'm not ok
But please don't ask about it anyway
It's always been me and my head
I gotta stop living in this mindset
Cuz what good will I manifest?
I'm trying to see within
The truth lies upon the sky
I look above and allow myself to cry

Not Ok

Don't stress like you always do
At best I'll take care of you
Like chess, you're the queen to my king
If someone stares I'll swing
Don't even fucking test me
If she mine, she belong to me
The night shines when i look into your eyes
Like art, you make me paralyzed
You know what you do to me
And you know you a freak
Catch me staring I'll guarantee
Like no other, it's hard to believe
How you alive with me at this same time?
I'm sure I've met you in another life
Cuz this spark don't happen just like that
You know how hard it is to love like that?
Like that yeah
I don't mind if you chain me down
Hunt me down
Chase me down
Love me how yeah
Just like that
Just like that
Don't stress like you always do
At best I'll take care of you
Like chess, you're the queen to my king
If someone stares I'll swing
Don't even fucking test me
If she mine she belong to me
The night shines when I look into you eyes
Like art, you make me paralyzed
You know what you do to me
And you know you a freak
Catch me staring I'll guarantee
Like no other, it's hard to believe I want you here with me
You my symphony and my remedy
How you alive with me at the same time?
I'm sure I've met you in another life
Cuz this spark don't happen just like that
You know how hard it is to love like that?
I don't mind if you chain me down
Hunt me down
Chase me down 
Love me how yeah
Just like that yeah
Just like that
Just like that
Just like that
Just like that 
Just like that

Just Like That

"I just woke up, in my new place, recording this piece, just me and my mic in this room..."
I used to wonder all the time
When my time would be right
i'm too scared to shine in the light
Not confident enough 
Not feeling enough buzz from this cup
it don't work like how it once did
Now I feel like I'm always pissed
i see no one on the other line
Or maybe I'm just blind
Or perhaps it's my hermit time
Hiding away, trying to figure out my pain
Putting the pieces together
But time seems to slip away 
Now I'm back again
In this state I try to dismiss
Fuck these demons why can't I be free?
So sick of not being able to see
And I'm wasting my time on this life
Cuz I'm scratching and crawling to survive
Stuck in this paradox of lies
This paradox of lies
That I feed myself
Can't help myself
I'll break myself
But if that's what I gotta give
That's what I gotta give 
I wont think twice to wish
if that's what i gotta give
I wont think twice to wish
Fuck these demons why can't I be free?
So sick of not being able to see
And I'm wasting my time on this life
Cuz I'm scratching and crawling to survive
Stuck in this paradox of lies
This paradox of lies
That I feed myself
Can't help myself
I'll break myself
But if that's what I gotta give
That's what I gotta give 
I wont think twice to wish
if that's what i gotta give
I wont think twice to wish

Avenue

I let go of things that shouldn't bother me
They bother me too deep
I know it's human nature to departure
Yet it makes me weep
I don't hold it against you, we were young
But you never wanted me
Just remember what I told you, yeah I warned you
That you'll never forget me
Now you're seeking answers 
As you wonder where you went wrong
Can't ask your mother cuz she'll blow up
Plus your father's just another replica
Then you pushed me away
Stating that I shouldn't stay
Pin pointing and using my pain
I tried so I can't take the blame
Can't take the blame
I let go of things that shouldn't bother me
They bother me too deep
I know it's human nature to departure
Yet it makes me weep
I don't hold it against you, we were young
But you never wanted me
Just remember what I told you, yeah I warned you
That you'll never forget me
You'll never forget me 2x
Don't forget me
All those times that i tried
It was all a waste of time
All those rides I would drive
Just to make you feel alive
Now I don't mind that you're left behind
'We were doomed to say goodbye
Doomed to say good...
I let go of things that shouldn't bother me
They bother me too deep
I know it's human nature to departure
Yet it makes me weep
I don't hold it against you, we were young
But you never wanted me
Just remember what I told you, yeah I warned you
That you'll never forget me
You'll never forget me 2x
Don't forget me

Never Forget Me

It doesn't feel real when you're here with me
We could freeze like gravity 
It doesn't feel when you're here with me
They hurt me and it cut so deep, in agony
Time doesn't feel real when you're here with me
I wish we could freeze like gravity
It doesn't feel real when you feel the same as me
As me
I wish time could stand still when you're here with me
We could freeze like gravity
I'm not holding back
With your eyes like that
How did I ask and get what I wanted?
How did I meet you at the right moment?
It doesn't feel real when you're here with me
They hurt me and it cut so deep, in agony
Time doesn't stand still when you're here with me
I wish we could freeze like gravity
It doesn't feel real when you feel the same as me
As me
I wish time could stand still when you're here with me
We could freeze like gravity
I'm not going back
Your heart's in my hands
I'll be in your grasp
As we watch loves impact

Gravity

Gone 7x
Maybe things weren't meant to work out
Maybe you were the cause of my doubt
I still don't understand what you truly meant
But that's on me cuz you gone up and left
Were all those times just meant to be times?
Something I'd remeber you by
Not like it'd ever matter
Beneath us was something fractured, so fractured
Maybe things weren't meant to work out
But I would've pulled thru
All for you
But I know we can't relate to back then
And as I remincse 
I look back on how we grew
Maybe my journy is faster to pull thru
Cuz I'm not as blind 
But I always think twice
And you're hot headed
You keep em guessing
Like the way they fooled you
Don't let them thru
Cuz you got something to prove
Yeah you got something to prove
Don't let them thru
Yeah don't let them thru
Cuz you got something to prove
Yeah don't let them thru
Cuz you got something to prove
Maybe things weren't meant to work out
Maybe you were the cause of my doubt
I still don't understand what you truly meant
But that's on me cuz you gone up and left

Gone

I am only a being sharing my experiences thru my music, I hope you enjoy what I gotta say within my melodies <3

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