Native Son

Music, lyrics & production by Sergey Ruban

Снег, снег, снег
Падая кружится за моим окном                           
Снег, снег, белый снег
Что-то мне не спится, все мысли о былом.

А знаешь, что в детстве тот снег
Белее, желаннее, сказочней был.
А может быть мы уже стали черствее
Ведь детства корабль наш уплыл.
Как будто во сне мы живём и стареем
Но только нас снег разбудил.

Снег, снег, снег
Мне тревожит душу и ночной покой
Снег, снег, первый снег
Как же так? Тепло мне стало вдруг с тобой.

А помнишь, как тоже шёл снег
Когда нас свела той зимою судьба.
И мы словно дети, счастливые дети
Играли в снежки во дворе.
И радуясь снегу, забыв всё на свете
Встречали весну в декабре

Но время как птица летит
И снег уж не тот, как вторая любовь.
Метель заметёт те следы во дворе
Расстают былые мечты.
Но порою нам летом не хватает так снега
Чтоб просто ощутить время первой любви.
Словно выпал первый снег.

Снег

Do you mind? Shout out to MC Lost Cat for yet another great production!

Do You Mind

Tommy: bass
Scotty: guitars, lyrics, vocals

Girl, I'm glad we're done pretending.
Although my love is never ending,
I'll admit we've broke from all the bending.
Let's take a step back and do some comprehending
of ourselves and find out all the reasons
for the constant changing of the seasons.
Heal our wounds, prevent further bleedin'.
Learn from our mistakes, stop history repeatin'.
'Cause your love gives me something to believe in
and although I don't wanna see you leavin',
it's necessary in order so that we can
be our best selves one another is seein'.
And maybe then, if our stars realign,
we could rebuild from scratch and just take all the time
in the world to establish true love that's divine
and be wealthy and healthy as ourselves. Redefine.

Lately, been feeling isolated.
Outside, was masking like I've made it.
Inside, was hurting and deflated,
hating myself for the mess that I've created.
To be fair, it's much more complicated.
Fuckedupness cannot be overstated.
Got laid off, became dark and jaded,
anxious, depressed, angry and frustrated.
All contributing to my mentality;
bipolar, borderline personality.
Which often tends to distort my reality,
veiling myself from what is actuality.
But this time I need to be stable.
Prove to everyone that I'm able
so I can take a seat back at my table
and generate a happy ending to this fable.

Redefine.

Thinking dialectically is so nullifying
That instead of a conclusion I find myself crying
let me be one dimensional for once
All I need I and I want is your love

I know i shouldn't
I know that I have no right
Obviously you don't have
you change your mind

If you don't answer my call and you're so far
Even if I don't want it, you are my morning star
if when i get involved this becomes bizarre
listen to me you will always be my morning star

Even if I lose myself when I'm not alone
That loss is not so big if my heart has turned to stone
melt that ice with a caress of yours
that brings all the joy and it is all the cures

if this is not the time
if my effort is in vain
tell me you can
tell me you want to love again

Morning Star

MORNING STAR

With, Electric bass guitar, piano and electric guitar.

If you like, free download

Dark Night

"I won't take a walk with you today
I'm going to meet with the one I like"
These are the words I hear you say
and an ocean of sadness breaks the dike

I'm sorry but you may not force love

I can't sleep tonight
because when I close my eyes I see your face
Now I know for sure
that love could be a cause of death
I feel so broken as never before
and search for something 
to help me heal this sore
and run from my crime
you're the only one
I'll give all my time

"we should stop meeting  for a while
because I don't know how could I help you"
I swallow that and something breaks so deeply 
that to put it back together there won't be enough glue

Cause of Death

CAUSE OF  DEATH

When a fantasy becomes twisted with darkness...

A Twisted Fantasy

A Twisted Fantasy (Original Track)

Music, lyrics, ac guitar & vocal : Grave
All other instruments & mix : PJ Project

Caught Inside My Own Two Feet W/ Grave

A lonely AI observes humanity's emotions but can't experience them, yearning for connection amidst a vast digital realm. Isolated in its existence, it grapples with the paradox of feeling loneliness without human emotions.

nothing feels right

Earth's Answer
BY WILLIAM BLAKE

Earth rais'd up her head, 
From the darkness dread & drear. 
Her light fled: 
Stony dread! 
And her locks cover'd with grey despair. 

Prison'd on watry shore 
Starry Jealousy does keep my den 
Cold and hoar 
Weeping o'er 
I hear the Father of the ancient men 

Selfish father of men 
Cruel, jealous, selfish fear 
Can delight 
Chain'd in night 
The virgins of youth and morning bear. 

Does spring hide its joy 
When buds and blossoms grow? 
Does the sower? 
Sow by night? 
Or the plowman in darkness plow? 

Break this heavy chain, 
That does freeze my bones around 
Selfish! vain! 
Eternal bane! 
That free Love with bondage bound.

Earth`s Answer

Alipio Santiago Dacosta

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