this was the first song i made that was like.... rock....  and i absolutely cannot make another one idek how i did it the first time never again

vflower - through the eyes of a hypochondriac - (instrumental)

album-only song weehee (aka it's old and i never made a video for it)
listen on other services too, or buy it if you like :3

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMM...
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

- lyrics -

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone
caught the perfect angle, begging to be led on
so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more
still ignored, how deplorable!
i can’t be what you want

searching for the blurry moments
flashing, a rift in time
i’m standing, hoping all for nothing in every paradigm
avoiding all the damage that’s left
a smell that makes me choke
despite the guilt i still move forward
breathe the ash and then taste the smoke

ah! another good for nothing
another tragedy
living an undeserved purpose in an analogy
i’m tearing through the empty pages
the order’s never right
we give our thanks to those who lived it
fingerprints and a smudge
that’s life!

none of that matters anyway
you can hear that sob story any day
with a gaze so demeaning
a duplicate with no meaning
so we live a life seldom would detest
close your eyes and breathe a sigh, who would have guessed
to find a life that's picturesque...

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone
caught the perfect angle, begging to be lead on
so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more
still ignored, how deplorable!
i can’t be what you want
like a red light daydream, a glow that burns my sight
catching every meaning, i’ll wait in the moonlight
let’s live a lie! tell me it’s worthless, nothing more
blotched a mess, inky happiness
until i can’t be heard

well, that’s fine! but, it lost its shine over time
still we press onwards, can we escape this lie?
until then, we’re at a loss
still, we can’t admit we’ve lost
still, deny! and, of course, i don’t mean to pry
but, do you really still think i’m the bad guy?
...
still, we won’t admit we’ve lost

“ah, i’ll try a different viewpoint!”
another fallacy
despite all my best intentions, i still played make-believe
i’m scouring the vacant spaces
to find an awful sight
despite the dread i still move forward
turn back now, you can make this right

none of that matters anyway
surely you can live your life another day?
waste away, always dreaming
again, confused! it’s so deceiving
so we live a lie seldom would detest
close your eyes and breathe a sigh, who would have guessed
and still, to say that this is best...?

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone
caught the perfect angle, begging to be lead on
so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more
still ignored, how deplorable!
i can’t be what you want
in this empty city, the shadows run our lives
just outside the stillness, i’ll wait in the moonlight
there’s no need to cry! tell me, were you hoping for more?
make a mess, fake a happiness
my vision starts to blur

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone
caught the perfect angle, begging to be lead on
so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more
still ignored, how deplorable!
did you find what you want?

every photo triggers recollection of what’s gone
caught the perfect angle, begging to be lead on
so, dance along! tell me i’m everything and more
still ignored, how deplorable!
i can’t be what you want
every filtered memory, the remnants of that life
made a perfect picture, a truth inside the lie
please dance with me! everything is alright
what a mess! captured happiness
in every vivid hue

in the end, i remembered it
i want to make it true

anamnesis ft. gumi [vocaloid original]

OrgansDotOrg–Retrograde Rehab(ft. GUMI, DEX)

i actually like what i did with this one woooo any teethers in the chat

The Dentition Tango / Fukase (Original VOCALOID Song)

original by weevildoing:
https://youtu.be/u8OxpzIkudI?si=Fa9NGhUwi-rA5QCS

Fainéant Girl [SYNTHV COVER FEAT. STARDUST]

They Tell Me

have you ever taken an edible in iowa after a 5 hour flight that departed at 4am followed by a 4 hour drive with no sleep and a stomach full exclusively of old nerds gummy clusters you found in your friend's car? did you then proceed to have a panic attack where you believed you were stuck in a seconds-long time loop and u kept forgetting and rediscovering the fact u were stuck in that time loop every time it looped? did you then to proceed to sleep for 6 hours in the living room where your friends got to hear you sleep talk in arabic? well THIS ALBUM IS FOR YOU!!!

Focal Dissonance (OVERHAUL)

Song by Picdo, cover by まつ.
Cover: https://youtu.be/RU4dm8Q17DY?si=QPjoL6PQBYRETBuO

【Yi Xi SynthV】My Bread was Burnt to a Crisp! 【COVER】

Original: DECO*27 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BI9Ue6JwJic

SVP: dapadessu https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zoXKwKFMmk

Tuning/Mixing/Art: me ^_^ 
Vocals: Yuma, Kevin (harms)
Software: SynthesizerV Pro

【Yuma】Cherry Pop【SynthV Cover】

Hime!! hime!!! hime!!!!!!!!

pv: https://youtu.be/HaxzymHIl3I

lyrics:
Everyday is all the same, all it ever does is cause you pain yet you
insist to subsist, to resist my help, I'd like to see you handle this now
here, here look what's happened now
there's a hole in your heart from all the times you've drowned it out
hey, hey, hey don't make a sound
after all life is much better without

Close your eyes and shut your mouth
numb your fingers, block the sound
isn't it just way too loud?
you need  tune your senses out (x2)

Ah isn't it nice? you've been cured of your disease
you're senseless, defenceless, helpless, relentless
Ah isn't it nice? you've done exactly what you need
you're senseless, senseless, senseless, senseless
Oh you're making it too easy
won't you stay quiet for me
Ah isn't it nice? oh, ah, isn't it nice? 


Don't worry bout what I've caused, I did it for the better, for you.
Don't look at me like i'm at fault, the only one to take the blame is you
here, here, what's the matter now?
Aren't you happier now that there's nothing to worry about?
hey, hey, hey, just calm it down
after all things are much better without doubt

Close your eyes and shut your mouth
numb your fingers, block the sound
isn't it just way too loud?
you need tune your senses out (x2)

Ah isn't it nice? you've been cured of your disease
you're senseless, defenceless, helpless, relentless
Ah isn't it nice? you've done exactly what you need
you're senseless, senseless, senseless, senseless
Oh you're making it too easy
won't you stay quiet for me
Ah isn't it nice? oh, ah, isn't it nice?

Don't think about it, don't think at all
just sit there and watch your people fall
resistance is futile for you ignorant fools
your simple mind is what your destined for

Close your eyes and shut your mouth
numb your fingers, block the sound
isn't it just way too loud?
you need tune your senses out (x2)

Ah isn't it nice? you've been cured of your disease
you're senseless, defensless, exactly how intended
Ah isn't it nice? you've done exactly what I need
you're senseless, senseless, senseless, senseless
Oh you're making it too easy
won't you stay quiet for me
Ah it's so nice! oh, ah, it's so nice!

Senseless ft. Meika Hime | Vocaloid Original

the 24 hour vocaloid project (now closed) - https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLhldPH4jS3bCoe5-2ClExNBZZS7NAcqxf
youtube upload: https://youtu.be/04LQtYNl0Po
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

- lyrics -
Still awake, still awake, what should I do?
Time flies by, bid it adieu
The daytime’s such a bore
I just need to work a little more.
Getting late, getting late, I should stop now...
My reasoning disallows
I’m always so carefree,
but I don’t dare care what waits for me

It can’t wait, it can’t wait, in a hurry
The darkness swells with fury
I can feel myself slipping
What’s important seems to keep flipping
It’s too late? It’s too late? I still can’t tell
The clock ticks, bid your farewells
I find I’m far behind
I’ve made my mistakes please let me rewind

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines and missing follow-ups
Thoughts all turned to mush

Was this all for naught?
I can’t tell. Doing swell, yet unwell
Thoughts run ‘round my brain
All my feelings start to rot!
Just calm down, clear your mind
I’m not fine, I can’t lie
I’ll lie here in the silence
waiting for the morning
Still, I’m awake
Past mistakes. I feel great, but it aches
I just want to let it all go, but I won’t change!
All along, was it me?
It’s my fault clear as can be
I’ll sit here in the sibilance
and talk with you.

Full of pain, full of pain, I still can’t sleep
I cringe at every beep
Who knows how long it’s been…
Since 9PM I knew I’d never win
Lament, lament, what I can’t have
Ideally I’m split half
Always, this self-pity
Cry some more, your life’s oh so shi-

Wide awake, wide awake, bright and blinding
The clock is still unwinding
I’m full of entropy
Cataclysmic, my reality
No escape, no escape, cry and like it
My reasoning is split
You must think I’m asleep…
Want to go back, but I’m in too deep

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines and missing follow-ups
Is this what I want?

I can’t stand to tell you how late I stayed up
If you try it you’ll feel quite a rush
Long-past deadlines are piling up
This is what I want.

...was this all for naught?

I don’t know! Doing swell! Wish you well
The world ends inside my brain,
all my progress down the drain!
Just calm down, clear your mind
I’m just fine, I can’t lie!
I’ll lie here in the screaming
waiting for an ending
But I’m a fake!
Past mistakes. I feel great, it’s not hate!
I just want to let go,
but I think you’ve always known.
All along, it was me,
it’s my fault for all to see!
I’ll sit here in the endless void
and talk with you.
I’ve only truly been awake since 9PM

9PM ft. gumi [vocaloid original]

hi im umbrabyte or crumbs 

she/her

im trying dont bully me ........

https://youtube.com/channel/UCkWKZQ0Kmbn50_9v2rPD2pg