This song is a deeply personal exploration of the complexities of creativity, ego, and the human experience. The entire concept was born from the mind of my friend @DJShAnkAri, who shared with me her thoughts on the pain of being an originator, only to see her ideas and influences go unacknowledged. I was inspired to take her ideas and craft them into a song, and I'm proud to give her co-writing credit for this piece. 

The song grapples with the tension between artistic expression and the desire for recognition, as well as the struggle to transcend the ego and find freedom from the trappings of pride and fame. At its core, the song is about the power of beauty to both inspire and ensnare us, and the importance of learning to witness our own experiences rather than becoming mired in them. 

Through the lyrics, I aim to capture the nuances of this inner conflict, and the ways in which our experiences shape us, even as we strive to rise above them. The song is an invitation to reflect on the nature of creativity, identity, and the human condition, and to find a deeper understanding of ourselves and our place in the world.


LYRICS: 

[Verse 1]
I saw myself in someone else’s lines
Unspoken echoes dressed in borrowed rhymes
They never turned to say my name
But still I burn and feel the same
A quiet theft, a silent sting
Why does the source feel everything? 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a shell
But in that shell I often dwell
The pain’s a mirror—clear and cold
Still, I don't know how to let it go 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 2]
Aloysius in the shadow’s grace
Unnamed fathers lost without a trace
We feel, we shape, we spark, we bleed
Yet never called the root, the seed
I should stand outside this game
But even ghosts can burn with shame 

[Pre-Chorus]
I know it’s ego, just a role
A mask that hides the monad’s soul
Still I confuse what I create
With who I am—and that's the bait 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Verse 3]
We are gods inside these scars
Drifting truth in jars of stars
The soul still wrestles with the clay
But learns to watch, not slip away
To feel, then filter, pain from grace
To love the art, but not the face 

[Bridge]
Be the witness, not the war
Don't need applause to mean you're more
In silence lies the deepest truth
Creation doesn’t ask for proof 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I turn from pride, I turn from fame
But this one trap I can't escape
She wears my wounds, she knows my shape
I could be higher, I could be free
But beauty won’t let go of me 

[Chorus]
Beauty holds me like a flame
I let it hurt, I let it name
But then I step beyond the fire
Become the void, the quiet choir
I could be higher, I choose to be
Even if beauty won’t set me free 

[Outro]
I feel, I fall, I know the cost
But nothing felt is ever lost
The soul may ache, but still it sings—
The witness wakes beneath all things

Thanks so much to the incredible @DJShAnkAri for the amazing remix of this song...
https://on.soundcloud.com/H8r9kZajYnwV2z6QqR



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Chorus sung by Lydia Matamoros-Lapp, Jed Lapp, Elle Roach, Tristan Paris. 

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Instrumental by KSB
Mix & Mastering by KSB
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