Home of My Heart

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Bad for You Too

[Verse 1]
She tells me
I'm not like this with anyone else
her voice soft like ash in the air
says I'm the spark
that sets off her silence
and all the storms hiding there

She tells me she loves me—
right before she breaks
in trembling flame
I hold her like
a burned-out oak
still standing in the rain

[Chorus]
And I say—
It’s okay babe
I’m bad for you too
we’re just two deer
caught in the open
no map no moon
but I won’t run
if you don’t move
we’re broken kind
but we choose this truth

[Verse 2]
She curls her voice
around old wounds
asks if I see
what she hides inside
but I’ve walked through fire
and stayed soft
so I just press my hand to the light

She says 
she’s poison and prayer both
but I drink anyway
there’s something
about her damage that sings—
when the world turns gray

[Chorus]
And I say—
It’s okay babe
I’m bad for you too
like two branches
bending never breaking
through the weight of truth
I’ll hold the hurt
and carry the proof
we’re bad for each other
but I stay with you

[Bridge]
You cry like a river
I dam with my chest
I’ve never been the answer—
but I stayed when you wept
No easy fix no clean slate
just hands held tight
through our worst mistakes

[Final Chorus]
It’s okay babe
we were never meant
to bloom unbruised
but I’d rather stand
in the storm with you
than find shelter
without your truth

[Outro]
So breathe love
just breathe—
I’m not leaving
even if we never heal
completely

Bad For You Too

[Verse 1]
A wanting flame impatient and alive
licking at shadows where secrets hide
dusk dripping red across the sky
heartbeats cracked open pushing against the tide

[Pre-Chorus]
Hands that grip like a wildfire’s breath
an ache that dances near death

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

[Verse 2]
The heat catches on eager spurs
a body arched a spine backed to a wall
wild and aching lungs full of breath
we’re ready to sear and make sparks collide

[Pre-Chorus]
A heart draped in passion’s impatience
lovers melting where their embers hide

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

[Bridge]
When the air runs out we breathe in heat
spin into the blaze—no surrender no retreat
born from the spark undone in a flash
we burn together—only red turns to ash

[Chorus]
Red—laughter split open when air runs out
Red—the burn that pulls me to you
Red—falling into you falling into flame
Red—where ruin and desire taste the same

This song was written to offer a sensory anchor and create a safe space for anyone moving through a dissociative state or an episode— and can download the song directly for free if you like.  💜🧡🤍
With a gentle, repetitive melody and a steady beat, it provides something tangible to latch onto.  It is meant to feel safe, familiar, and emotionally validating— is meant to help reconnect with themselves and their surroundings without becoming overwhelmed. The calming tempo helps to support natural breathing and heartbeat rhythms, reinforcing presence and inviting a gentle return back to the here and now.


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Sunflowers

[Intro]
[vocal harmonies looped around the word barefoot]
I stand barefoot where the wind knows my secrets
and no one’s asking me to explain myself

[Verse 1]
I walk through rows of sunflowers
with my silence intact
they don’t talk
but they’re listening
I don’t have to say what’s on my mind
it’s okay to be quiet

[Chorus]
This is where I can breathe
where I let things go
the wind takes some of it with it
and I don’t have to be brave
It’s calm here
I can end and begin again

[Verse 2]
The soil breathes beneath my feet
tells me—stay you’re enough
even the sun dips down gently
I’ve learned that quiet is tough love
I’m just a small petal falling 
but even the small matter here
I let myself slow down
(and it feels good)

[Chorus]
This is where I can breathe
where I let things go
the wind takes some of it with it
and I don’t have to be brave
It’s calm here
I can end and begin again

[Bridge]
I could say something
but I don’t
the silence is already speaking for me

[Final Chorus]
This is where I come back to myself
where I let things go
the wind takes some of it with it
and I don’t need to pretend
I lose myself to find again
and there’s no need to confess
and here in the silence 
I finally feel at home

Sunflowers

Fading Behind Me

[Verse 1]
I walked the shoreline
barefoot against the wind
sand caught in every silence
waves too tired to even begin

The tide held its breath again
not a promise not a wish
just the calm between each moment
and the sound that never came

[Chorus]
Footprints fading behind me
gone before they reach the sea
I let the wind decide
where I end
where I used to be

[Verse 2]
Loneliness didn’t misbehave
it sighed and turned away
left a warmth I couldn’t handle
and was never meant to keep

The salt air held too many secrets
the sky looked the other way
I kept walking like it mattered
but the ground forgot me anyway

[Chorus]
Footprints fading behind me
like a face no one remembers
I let the wind decide
what to keep
what to leave

[Bridge]
There is no one on the beach now
just the cold
and my retreat
no answers in the tide
just the way it pulls from me

[Final Chorus]
Footprints fading behind me
not even shadows want to stay
I let the wind decide
and it took you away
and it took you away

Fading Behind Me

Magoo

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Strong Tea
Inspired by «Strong Tea or Father» by Shao Qian, this song is written from the voice of a daughter learning to forgive herself for the distance and anger she carried during her father’ s final days. It’s not about perfect closure, but about finding a way to put the past behind. Forgiveness isn’t always clean—it’s slow, uneven, but real—the way a father would.

[Verse 1]
The taste stayed bitter
a child’s never forgets her first bruises
I kept the silence tight-lipped
blaming myself
for time that slipped away

[Pre-Chorus]
I was angry young and afraid
but that was never blame

[Chorus]
I’m learning to forgive myself
slow the way a father would
Strong tea in my chest
still burning still good
the past is gone
but it carried me on

[Verse 2]
I thought my anger was my sin
I thought my silence meant I failed him
but grief was too heavy
and I was still just a girl—
unready unwelcome

[Pre-Chorus]
If he could only see me now
I think he’d want me free

[Chorus]
I’m learning to forgive myself
slow the way a father would
strong tea in my chest
still burning still good
the past is gone
but it carried me on

[Bridge]
No child should wear a crown of shame
no daughter should swallow blame
even prayers for death were still prayers—
still love
still his way

[Final Chorus]
I’m learning to forgive myself
slow the way a father would
strong tea in my chest
bitter but understood
The past is gone
but it carries me on

Strong Tea

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Plank of Reason

Inspired by «I felt a Funeral in my Brain» by Emily Dickinson, this song is written from the voice of a young woman and a very best friend learning in her journey to carve out space for herself, even as the mourners march inside her mind, even as the plank of reason cracks beneath her.

Plank on Reason

[Intro]
Treading treading—beating beating

[Verse]
She walks to class with swollen eyes
her hands tucked deep her breath disguised
every step a drum that won’t let go
beating down the hallway slow

[Pre-Chorus]
And when the silence tolls inside
she won’t let the broken parts define
there’s more than falling through the dark
there’s fire hidden in her spark

[Chorus]
Even when a plank in reason breaks
she drops she shakes she still remakes
every world she crashes through
she stands again she finds the truth
she’s more than sorrow more than pain
a young woman learning to remain

[Verse]
They say her mind is fraying thin
but she’s stronger than the noise within
her soul’s been carried box by box
but she builds her own from shattered loss

[Bridge]
Treading treading—
but she keeps heading
Beating beating—
but she’s still breathing
when the mourners fade
she writes her own parade

[Final Chorus]
Even when a plank in reason breaks
she drops she shakes she still remakes
Every world she crashes through
she stands again she finds the truth
She’s more than sorrow more than pain
a young woman strong unchained

[Outro]
Treading treading—beating beating—still breathing

Plank in Reason

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Rumi — Selin's Dream Child 

Inspired by Sarah Kay's "If I Should Have a Daughter", this song is written from the voice of a woman and her dream of raising a daughter with openness and courage.  The promise not to shield her from life’ s storms , but to walk beside her through them — soaking in the rain, tasting the sweetness and the ache of the world, and learning that her voice, though small, will always matter.

Rumi

[Verse 1]
She said you don’t have to be saved
I’ll let you walk through storms unafraid
Feel the rain when it comes
let it stain your skin
because every drop is a way back in

[Pre-Chorus]
And when the world says hide your face
I’ll paint galaxies in every space—
so you’ll know before you start
you already hold the universe in your heart

[Chorus]
Rumi, child of rain and sky
You were made to feel, not just survive
The sugar of the world may fall apart
but don’t be afraid to taste it with your heart

[Bridge]
They’ll hand you heartbreak
they’ll hand you war
but you’ll carry a love they can’t ignore
tell them when they try to dim your light
you were raised to feel—
and that’s your right

Rumi

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Kerem — Selin’s Dream Child

Inspired by her dream of raising a son who embraces the world with open arms.  This song is written as a tribute to a son whose joy comes not from hiding but from reaching with a heart full of fire and curiosity.  Where some might try to contain him, his mother’s gift is freedom — the space to soar and turn mistakes into stories, light up every room with the courage of being fiercely himself.

Kerem

What is Love

Sweet Southern Heat

[Verse 1]
I say you like a prayer—
slow Georgia drawl
words dipped in molasses
and gasoline

Your breath humid
dripping with bad decisions
making my thoughts
climb the register

The sun clings to your back
like sin on Sunday
your skin salt-kissed
tattooed in sweat and passion
I watch your hips shift—
black leather tigh
just waiting to be undone

[Pre-Chorus]
Between the church bells,
and cracked-lipped hallelujahs
you strike a match against the South’s slow burn—
and I let it take me whole

[Chorus]
Sweet southern heat
you’re a fever I can’t leave
In the red dirt night we’re smouldering
burning where the dark runs deep
Sweet southern heat
God won’t follow where we meet
Your black leather keeps the secret—
your fire’s too wild to keep

[Verse 2]
Tires hiss on the road,
radio low,
your hand on my pocket,
I forget this heat will pass.
If we don’t fade out,
we can smoulder—
stretch dusk until it sweats,
make the night peel back its skin.

[Pre-Chorus]
Two ghosts wrapped in smoke,
and honeydew.
The dark’s too soft to hold us down—
we’ll burn until we’re new.

[Chorus]
Sweet southern heat,
you’re a fever I can’t leave.
In the red dirt night we’re smouldering,
burning where the dark runs deep.
Sweet southern heat,
God won’t follow where we meet.
Your black leather keeps the secret—
your fire’s too wild to keep.

[Bridge – whispered / layered harmonies]
Strike a match,
hear the slow burn,
let the Sunday sins
have their turn.
No one watching,
just you and me,
lost in southern heat.

[Final Chorus]
Sweet southern heat,
you’re a fever I can’t leave.
In the red dirt night we’re smouldering,
burning where the dark runs deep.
Sweet southern heat,
God won’t follow where we meet.
Your black leather keeps the secret—
your fire’s too wild to keep.

Sweet Southern Heat

Runaway Barefoot

[Verse 1]
Waves whisper secrets to the shore
salt on our skin, laughter in the wind
barefoot chasing the horizon
running out of waves running out of time

[Chorus]
Run away barefoot
just you just me
the tide is watching
the tide is watching
run away barefoot
lose and find—
lose and find ourselves
in each other’s eyes

[Verse 2]
Freedom in the heartbeat
breathing deep the past fades
the world dissolves around us
only this moment, only this flame

[Chorus]
Run away barefoot
just you just me
the tide is watching
the tide is watching
run away barefoot
lose and find—
lose and find ourselves
in each other’s eyes

[Bridge]
the ocean knows
the silence shows
we are here
we are free

[Final Chorus]
Run away barefoot
just you, just me
the tide is watching
the tide is watching
run away barefoot
lose and find—
lose and find ourselves
in each other’s eyes

Runaway Barefoot

Shadow in the Vein

[Verse 1]
A fragile beat beneath my skin
echoes fall where silence has been
your breath a lantern in the storm
flickers soft then fades unborn

[Pre-Chorus]
Gravity pulls where the heart won’t stay
the night bends low but it won’t give way
every word you left still trembling
like glass that hums before it’s breaking

[Chorus]
Shadow in the vein
fire in the flood—
you keep pulling me closer
even as we come undone

Whispers in the dark
light I can’t contain—
retrograde desire
teardrop in the vein

[Verse 2]
I saw your face inside the blur
part remembered part cursed
Time collapses folds in two
everything I lost comes back as you

[Pre-Chorus]
Gravity pulls where the heart won’t stay
the night bends low, but it won’t give way
Every secret carved in your refrain
is a ghost that tugs on my chain

[Chorus]
Shadow in the vein
fire in the flood—
you keep pulling me closer
even as we come undone

 Whispers in the dark
light I can’t contain—
retrograde desire
teardrop in the vein

[Bridge]
Fall into the silence
fall into the sound—
your voice is the current
I can’t turn around

Everything in fragments
everything erased—
still I hear you calling
from the retrograde

[Final Chorus]
Shadow in the vein
fire in the flood—
you keep pulling me closer
even as we come undone

Whispers in the dark
light I can’t contain—
retrograde desire
teardrop in the vein

[Outro]
Teardrop retrograde
Teardrop retrograde

Shadow in the Vein

Enough 

[Verse 1]
I wake in the static
words folded back on themselves—
echoes spill from the ceiling
and I don’t know which are mine
Your silence hums like a circuit
looping the same confession—
everything slips through the cracks
but I still hold the sound of your breath

[Pre-Chorus]
There’s a limit to my waiting
a rhythm to the ache
but I’m still standing
inside your unfinished songs

[Chorus]
Everything in its wrong place
every word half-erased—
still I carry the weight of enough
to love you
to break you
to hold when the walls start to move

[Verse 2]
Your heart is a shutter—
opening closing
letting in fragments of light
I lean against the frame
hoping the door remembers my key
I count the spaces between beats
the pauses heavy as stone—
they ask if love has a limit
and I answer—only the ones we broke

[Pre-Chorus]
There’s a pulse beneath the silence
a ghost in every line
and I am here
caught in your echo’s design

[Chorus]
Everything in its wrong place
every word half-erased—
still I carry the ache of enough
to love you
to break you
to hold when the walls start to move

[Bridge]
Is this love or the ghost of it?
Is this love or the lack of it?
Is this love…?

[Final Chorus]
Everything in its wrong place
but your name still burns in the static
The limit of love is not distance—
it’s silence
and I refuse to be silent

Enough

River of Days

[Verse 1]
Down by the water
a voice moves slow—
it tells me of places
I may never go

Leaves lean closer
whispering my name
shadows fold the shoreline
but nothing feels the same

[Pre-Chorus]
The river bends
carrying time away
I can't match the current
but I wade anyway

[Chorus]
Flow river flow—
take my sorrow downstream
carry all I know
into someone else's dream
I drift where the silence
teaches me to stay—
lost in the river
lost in the river of days

[Verse 2]
There's a figure waiting
in the fog's embrace
her hands are lanterns
her smile a trace

The sky dissolves
into purple mist
I reach but the moment
slips away again

[Pre-Chorus]
The river bends
turning thought to song
I follow where it leads me
even if it’s wrong

[Chorus]
Flow river flow—
take my sorrow downstream
carry all I know
into someone else's dream
I drift where the silence
teaches me to stay—
lost in the river
lost in the river of days

[Bridge]
Water knows the shape of me
keeps it for a while then lets it go

[Final Chorus]
Flow river flow—
take my sorrow downstream
carry all I know
into someone else's dream
I drift where the silence
teaches me to stay—
lost in the river
lost in the river of days

River of Days

Where The Sky Listens

[Verse 1]
Falling blowing in the wind’s slow hands
light breaks across the horizon
every shadow sings every silence bends
a voice beneath the sky—waiting

[Verse 2]
You reach—
your hand in mine
a thread across the distance
we are small
but the stars lean in anyway
they listen when we breathe

[Chorus]
Ooooh… ahhh… ohhh…
The sound of hanging on
the sound of never giving up

[Verse 3]
Mountains crumble into the dark
oceans turn their faces to the moon
we move as if the earth remembers
as if we are its echo—
returning home

[Bridge]
Hold on
I am here
where the sky listens
where we belong—
even in silence
even in the dark

[Final Chorus]
Ooooh… ahhh… ohhh…
We are infinite
we are quiet
we are heard

[Outro]
Where the sky listens
I will find you

Where The Sky Listens

Peach

[Verse 1]
A peach against my lips
slow and sweet
skin splitting like spring—
juice warm sliding off my tongue
sticky on my fingers

[Pre-Chorus]
This is how love should taste
delightful mature—
something that clings
something you sink into

[Chorus]
And it lingers—
on my hands on my breath
like your laughter
when you enter the room
And it stays—
on my skin in my chest
like your scent
when you’re gone too soon

[Verse 2]
Later I wash my hands
wipe my lip clean
but sweetness won’t let go—
your presence is in everything

[Chorus]
And it lingers—
on my hands on my breath
like your laughter
when you enter the room
And it stays—
on my skin, in my chest
like your scent
when you’re gone too soon  

[Outro]
Love should taste this way—
Sweet and never fade

Peach

Letters in the Dark

[Verse 1]
I wrote you a letter
but the ink ran thin
like the silence between us
where the hurt’s been living in

Your coat still hangs
like a ghost in the hall
I touch the sleeve gently
and it says nothing at all

[Pre-Chorus]
I keep your memory
in a glass by the bed
sip it down slowly
like the words we never said

[Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corners paper bent—
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Verse 2]
I see you in strangers
the tilt of their smile
but it fades like a flicker
like the moon after miles—
the nights are too quiet
the mornings too long
I hum our old verses
but they don’t make a song

[Pre-Chorus]
Your absence lingers
like a hand on my chest
pressing so softly
but it won’t let me rest

[Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corners paper bent—
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Bridge]
Would you forgive me
if I never let go—
would you still haunt me
just to tell me so—
every word I wrote
is a scar on the page
bleeding with silence
burning with age

[Final Chorus]
Oh! love is bitter love is sweet
like cherry wine that stains my teeth
I drink it just to feel you near
a bruise a prayer a shadow here
Oh! love’s a letter never sent
folded corner paper bent
and in the dark I call your name
but nothing ever answers back the same

[Outro]
So goodnight my dear—
goodnight my ghost
You were the wound
and the cure I wanted most

Letters in the Dark

Lilac in the Desert

[Verse 1]
This age has melted me down
but left my breath behind—
youth did not kill me
yet its death stayed inside

Lilac I drifted far
shadow on a page of sky—
if love had its time
why did it wait to arrive

[Pre-Chorus]
I carried sparks in the soil
cried to the heavens above—
Every wound in my palm
was a prayer was a love

[Chorus]
Lilac in the desert
calling out my name—
restless urge of rivers
pulling through the flames

I was young unbroken
yet broken just the same
Lilac in the desert
you led me where I came

[Verse 2]
I would not speak too soon
my tongue rusted with grief—
the chance of mistakes
the inheritance of belief
Adam's fate was in me
trembling body set alight
thousands of sparks
plunged deep into the night

[Pre-Chorus]
I drank the cloud's essence
without breaking its skin—
Sweat and questions poured
where has it carried man in

[Chorus]
Lilac in the desert
calling out my name—
restless urge of rivers
pulling through the flames

I was young unbroken
yet broken just the same
Lilac in the desert
you led me where I came

[Bridge]
There is a fountain soiled and scarred
my reflection in my hand
I said 'it doesn't matter'
yet I was searching for a stand

The city's fire still burning
its wound still speaks in me
I walked on face bent forward
toward a summer I can't see

[Final Chorus]
Lilac in the desert
calling out my name—
restless urge of rivers
pulling through the flames

I was young unbroken
yet broken just the same
Lilac in the desert
I walk and still I came

[Outro]
Lilac oh lilac
I walk on

Lilac in the Desert

The Night Asks Nothing

[Verse 1]
No need to move
she leans like a daisy against me—
her back to my chest
the dark makes less of us—
but somehow we are more

[Pre-Chorus]
His arms are my borders
not walls not walls
I breathe a slow Yes
into his heart his heart

[Chorus]
Quiet—
even thoughts go small
heat carries it all
The night asks nothing
and somehow
it gets everything

[Verse 2]
Soft air between our skin
the world folds out
nothing rushing in
Our sighs find rhythm
where words used to be

[Pre-Chorus]
His arms are my borders
not walls not walls
I breathe a slow Yes
into his heart his heart

[Chorus]
Quiet—
even thoughts go small
heat carries it all
The night asks nothing
and somehow
it gets everything

[Bridge]
Breathe slow babe—
don’t speak just be
The stars can listen
while we fall asleep

[Final Chorus]
Quiet—
even thoughts go small
heat carries it all
The night asks nothing
and somehow
it gets everything

[Outro]
Everything—
everything

The Night Asks Nothing

Freefalling'

Love repeats itself

The lyrics are inspired by the poem «History Repeats Itself» from Ora Bell 
https://on.soundcloud.com/SPFvJIkusssrOgr424
Thank you, Ora, for this opportunity.


 [Verse 1]
We’ve been here before
same words same war—
love raised its voice
till we forgot what we were fighting for
you walk away slow
I watch you go
and the echo lingers
in the space we still call home

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time we fall apart
we find a way to start again
like the tides like the scars—
we never learn but we pretend

[Chorus]
Love repeats itself
like waves against the shore
breaking just enough to hurt
but still coming back for more—
history between us
never fades just bends—
love repeats itself
but maybe this time it mends

[Verse 2]
We build we burn
we call that growth
trading hearts
as if we could own them both—
you’re the grey between my black and white
the calm between my wrongs and rights
and though it hurts to try again
we do — every single time

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe it’s not about the fall
but how we rise
how we learn to carry love
without disguise

[Chorus]
Love repeats itself
like waves against the shore
breaking just enough to hurt
but still coming back for more—
history between us
never fades just bends—
love repeats itself
but maybe this time it mends

[Bridge]
Every tear a lesson
every kiss a clue
the past was only practice
for what I’ll learn in you
and if we’re bound to circle back
let it be with softer hands—
a gentler kind of love
the kind that understands

[Final Chorus]
Love repeats itself
but we don’t stay the same
each time we break apart
we rewrite the flame
maybe this is how
we learn to see—
love repeats itself
till we set each other free

[Outro]
Till the ache turns into peace
and peace becomes the truth—
love repeats itself
but this time so do you

Love Repeats Itself

Drift or Anchor

[Verse 1]
I drift with no direction
a boat on a cloudy morning—
The wind keeps asking questions
the water never answers

There’s time I don’t understand
the current tracing my faith—
I keep looking for a sign
but the tides all look the same

[Pre-Chorus]
And I could give the ropes some slack
let the tide decide—
or tighten my hands
til they bleed from trying too hard

[Chorus]
I drift I drift
while the sea keeps time
I drift I drift
the tide remembers every run

I drift I drift
my heart unspun
caught between the shore
and what I’ve become

[Verse 2]
The waves write soft confessions
the mist forgets my face
I breathe like I’m in motion
but never leave this place—

The shore is just a rumor
the stars forget to shine—
If I stay I’m sinking
if I leave I don’t know

[Pre-Chorus]
The ropes go slack,
the sky leans in—
I could let go
and start over again

[Chorus]
I drift I drift
while the sea keeps time
I drift I drift
The tide remembers every run

I drift I drift
my heart unspun
caught between the shore
and what I’ve become

[Bridge]
Your smile is my compass
your voice, the storm I chase
I never learned the distance—
I only learned your face

[Final Chorus]
I drift I drift
while the sea keeps time
I drift I drift
it all feels the same

I drift I drift
the line goes slack
I let go of the shore
and never look back

Drift or Anchor

The Rain Remembers

[Verse 1]
The air is thick with sorrow
your scent still stains the sky
drops fall on my shoulders
like a beat asking me to forget
through alleys thick with secrets
I chase the ghost of you—
the rain becomes my confession
and every breath feels new

[Pre-Chorus]
I built you out of memory
from the ash and the bloom 
Now every storm that finds me
smells faintly like your bedroom

[Chorus]
The rain remembers—
sighs and perfume
It falls in patterns
where your shadow hid
each drop a heartbeat
each touch a sin—
the rain remembers
where we’ve been

[Verse 2]
The night drips off the lamplight
the streets vacant soft and low
your influence drifts on the water
where lost desires go
I bottle what’s left of hope
the scent of rain and grief—
a fragile fleeting potion
that never brings relief

[Pre-Chorus]
You fade like vapour through jasmine
I breathe but not enough—
to lose you is to loiter
in the violence of love

[Chorus]
The rain remembers—
sighs and perfume
It falls in patterns
where your shadow hid
each drop a heartbeat
each touch a sin—
the rain remembers
where we’ve been

[Bridge]
I tried to keep you
in a whiff of air—
a breath of forever
a worship I couldn’t wear

[Final Chorus]
The rain remembers—
and so do I
you fade soft and cruel
each drop a heartbeat
each fall a cry—
the rain remembers
and pulls me in each time—
the rain remembers

The Rain Remembers

When We Fade

[Verse 1]
The night is soft the rain still falls
shadows tracing where we used to run
Your voice drifts in like a hard remembered dream
I reach but you’re gone—just echoes in between

[Pre-Chorus]
All the promises we thought we’d keep
turned fragile as the way we sleep
You said forever but forever is late
and I’m left learning how to wait

[Chorus]
When we fade we fade like oceans—
pulling back but never gone
Love was fire love was motion
now just dust where we belong
And if I close my eyes tonight
your touch is still the same—
when we fade we fade
but we whisper all the same

[Verse 2]
I watch the sky it’s torn in two
a fleeting storm that reminds of me and you
Your lips a ghost they haunt like rain
a tender ache I can’t explain

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s only me and the dark I swear
holding your memory like dust in the air
The song you left still pulls me near
a lullaby I'll always hear

[Chorus]
When we fade we fade like oceans—
pulling back but never gone
Love was fire love was motion
now just dust where we belong
And if I close my eyes tonight
your touch is still the same—
when we fade we fade
but we whisper all the same

[Bridge]
Every dream feels like you're near
every silence wants you here
I would keep you if I could
but even love can’t stop what should

[Final Chorus]
When we fade we fade like oceans
pulling back but never gone—
your ghost is all devotion
your shadow lingers on

[Outro]
And if I wake alone tomorrow
your perfume's still in the rain
When we fade we fade—
but we whisper all the same

When We Fade

How to Hold Her

[Verse 1]
She doesn’t always speak
when her world turns upside down—
sometimes she leaves the room
without taking her body with her

I want to follow frantic
like a child who broke something inside
but I’ve learned some storms
are meant to be watched from the doorway

[Pre-Chorus]
She’s got a past that knocks at my heart
wearing my voice my face my blame—
it’s unfair but fear doesn’t care
it just wants her to stay alive

[Chorus]
So I stay soft
like a blanket left on the couch
like a song low enough
to calm her heart down
She doesn’t have to speak
doesn’t have to explain—
my love will wait
my love will remain

[Verse 2]
When her breath starts to break
I whisper how to count again
Some days my love’s a lighthouse
some days just an open hand

And when she returns
fragile apologetic slow—
I tell her this isn’t her fault
she never has to glow

[Bridge]
Healing doesn’t always look like peace
sometimes it’s just staying
just not wanting
to be alone tonight

[Chorus]
So I stay soft
like a blanket left on the couch
like a song low enough
to calm her heart down
she doesn’t have to speak
doesn’t have to explain—
my love will wait
my love will remain

[Outro]
And when she breathes again
I’ll be right there—
quiet still
showing her how to hold the air

How to Hold Her

Paper Cranes

[Verse 1]
He turns the page with hesitant hands
looking for a queen beneath the sand
He covers the truth like whispered lies
in quiet rooms where daylight dies

The world still plays in minor keys
songs for a ghost lost in his memories—
he trades his faith for one more dawn
and wonders where the light has gone

[Pre-Chorus]
All the while the river bends
folding time like paper cranes—
every soul just tries again
to learn the art of letting rain

[Chorus]
So he builds his wings from paper cranes
hoping they will hold the seams—
Love was never meant to last
only to be felt and passed
And if he falls through endless skies
at least he learned to close his eyes

[Verse 2]
She hums a tune the stars once knew
a melody of dusk and dew
Her laughter hides the ache inside
a butterfly yet to rise

He sees her face in mirrored glass
a thousand lives he can’t get back
She leaves her shadow on the stair
a whisper—he still finds her there

[Pre-Chorus]
Every dream dissolves to clay
still he holds what won’t remain
Every loss becomes a flame
teaching hearts to love again

[Chorus]
So she builds her wings from paper cranes
hoping they will hold the seams
Love was never meant to last
only to be felt and passed
and if she falls through endless skies
at least she learned to close her eyes

[Bridge ]
Mmm—
Paper cranes—
A heartbeat drum fades in like rain

[Outro]
In the silence where they meet
their shadows fold their souls repeat
and when the sky forgets their names
the wind will sing the song again

Paper Cranes

Heavy Touch

[Verse 1]
You pull me in like fog
slow and unforgiving—
every kiss a confession
every touch a sin I’m still living

I gave you my silence
you turned it into a cage—
love drips like honey
but burns with a bitter rage

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want an ordinary night
I don’t want a love that fades in the morning light

[Chorus]
Heavy touch on my skin
wrap me tight don’t let me go—
this is no ordinary ache
it’s the fire I can’t escape
heavy touch dark and true
I drown but I still want you

[Verse 2]
Promises taste of iron
sweet lies laid bare—
you break me soft
and I still find comfort there

I beg for more than fragments
but your shadow is what I hold
your love is the wound
and the cure I can’t let go

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want to beg but I still remain
dressed in your sorrow bound to my faith

[Chorus]
Heavy touch on my skin
wrap me tight don’t let me go—
this is no ordinary ache
it’s the fire I can’t escape—
heavy touch dark and true
I drown but I still want you

[Bridge]
Give me something real
not just your disguise
I’ve carried your hunger
I’ve carried your lies
still — I stay
still — I crave
still — I fall where shadows play

[Final Chorus]
Heavy touch on my skin
wrap me tight don’t let me in
This is no ordinary ache
it’s the fire I can’t escape
heavy touch torn in two
I drown but I still want you

Heavy Touch

Beneath the Same Blues

Three seconds Maybe Four

[Verse 1]
There’s a light above the kitchen sink
pale as early morning skin—
you sit with both hands around a mug
watching steam rise soft and thin

Outside rain paints silver dots
on cars asleep along the street
a quiet city hanging on
to everything we used to keep

[Pre-Chorus]
No plans no maps no future tense
just your tired smile and tired eyes
I can feel the world move slow
between the seconds passing by

[Chorus]
Three seconds maybe four—
your eyes meet mine then drift again
I keep that small uncertain smile
as if it’s worth remembering

If someone asked what love looks like
I’d say it isn’t grand or loud—
just two hearts at a kitchen table
while the rain comes down

[Verse 2]
You trace a circle on the wood
the same place where a stain remains—
we talk about a film we love
but every word pulls quiet pain

A siren spills a lullaby
somewhere far across the town
and you breathe out through parted lips
as though you might confess then don’t

[Pre-Chorus]
No storms no raised voices here
just tired truth beneath your voice
every silence feels like choosing
even when we have no choice

[Chorus]
Three seconds maybe four—
your eyes meet mine then drifts again
I keep that small uncertain smile
as if it’s worth remembering

If someone asked what love looks like
I’d say it isn’t grand or loud—
just two hearts at a kitchen table
while the rain comes down

[Bridge]
When morning comes this house will breathe—
soft perfume of toast and tangerines
maybe nothing changes babe
but you’ll still sit across from me

[Final Chorus]
Three seconds maybe four—
you lift your eyes then look away—
for now I’ll keep this tiny scene
a quiet corner of our days

If someone asked what love looks like
I’d point to moments small and true
an empty mug a fading night
and me across a table watching you

Three Seconds Maybe Four

Quiet Like This

[Verse 1]
Late night lights low
you’re close enough to breathe in
something silent pulls me near—
not force just a gentle spin

Sofa cushions sink a little
your shoulder leans toward mine
every second feels suspended
soft and warm like vintage wine

[Pre-Chorus]
No questions asked
no reason to explain
your presence speaks
in ways lips can’t blame

[Chorus]
I’ve never known quiet like this—
where silence feels like a kiss
two hearts beating close in time
no rush no fear just your hand near mine
we don’t say a word yet somehow we exist
in harmony—
I’ve never known quiet like this

[Verse 2]
Your eyes trace mine slowly
like you’re reading a favorite page
soft breaths softer looks
comfort only time can stage

I feel the night surround us
the city fading into air
nothing here to break the moment—
just your calm just your care

[Pre-Chorus]
No questions asked
no reason to pretend
you sit with me
and it feels like an invitation I’d send

[Chorus]
I’ve never known quiet like this—
where silence feels like a kiss
two hearts beating close in time
no rush no fear just your hand near mine
we don’t say a word yet somehow we exist
in harmony—
I’ve never known quiet like this

[Bridge]
Maybe love doesn’t need a speech
maybe it lives right here—
in the gentle way you breathe
in the peace when you’re near

[Final Chorus]
I’ve never known quiet like this—
a night I never want to miss
no noise no light just you and me
two souls sitting in unity
we don’t say a word yet somehow we exist—
and I’ve never known quiet
quite like this

Quiet Like This

Stay with Me

[Verse 1]
The rain is barely tapping
along the windowpane
You sit wrapped in sweater sleeves
eyes drifting someplace far away

I pour two cups and call you babe
soft enough it doesn’t break—
I watch you swallow something hard
the kind of hurt you never say

[Pre-Chorus]
No storms no slammed doors no goodbyes
just quiet things we never speak
your shoulders shake the smallest bit—
I hear it more than I can see

[Chorus]
Stay with me—
you don’t have to be okay
You can cry without explaining
you can lean and I won’t break
Stay with me—
don’t disappear inside your head
Let the night keep breathing slowly
you’re not alone in this bed

[Verse 2]
You trace your finger through the steam
on porcelain gone cold and white
I ask if you’re all good babe—
you say I don’t know and that’s alright

I move my hand an inch from yours
close enough to feel your shake
Sometimes touch can be too heavy
so I wait for you to take it

[Pre-Chorus]
No promises we have to keep
no perfect words to fix the ache
Just breathing in the dark with you—
one heartbeat learning how to stay

[Chorus]
Stay with me—
you don’t have to be okay
You can cry without explaining
you can lean and I won’t break
Stay with me—
don’t disappear inside your head
Let the night keep breathing slowly
you’re not alone in this bed

[Bridge]
If you need to fall apart
I’ll hold every shattered piece
You don’t owe me pretty answers—
you can hurt and still be seen

[Final Chorus]
Stay with me—
not forever just tonight
Lay your worries on my heartbeat
you don’t have to win this fight
Stay with me—
you don’t have to say a word
Just breathe here in the silence
let your shaking body learn
Stay with me—

Stay with Me

When You Know You Know

[Verse 1]
You said it like a passing thought
with a tight smile half-way out the door
the rain was brushing at the window
your keys ready in your hand

I asked if you were coming back
you laughed like you didn’t hear the question
the kind of laugh that stings a little—
almost warm almost gone

[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe it was nothing
or maybe it was everything
funny how the quiet
tells the truth first

[Chorus]
When you know you know—
it hits you slow
like a long breath you didn’t take
like the space between
what you said and what you meant
when you know you know—
and I knew the second
you looked at the floor
instead of me

[Verse 2]
I replay your footsteps down the hallway
every step a softer version of yourself
you always left with a kind of carefulness
as if breaking something delicate—

As if you knew I was the delicate thing
I sat with the quiet after
hands wrapped around my own ribs
trying to hold what was slipping

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t have to say it
people rarely do
the truth always arrives
before the mouth catches up

[Chorus]
When you know you know—
the body feels it first
the heart gets it late
and the mind pretends
it’s all misunderstanding
when you know you know—
and I knew the night
your goodbye sounded
too practiced

[Bridge]
I keep thinking maybe I dreamt it—
the way your eyes softened
right before you let go
love is funny like that
it lingers even after
the people don’t

[Final Chorus]
When you know you know—
the truth sits small
but heavy in the chest
you don’t have to explain it
I already heard it
in the spaces you left
when you know you know—
and I know now
even if you couldn’t say it

When You Know You Know

Arms Around Me

[Verse 1]
Your arms found me
the way dusk finds a window—
like it always meant to land there
and stop the shaking

My breath softened
right against your shoulder
like it had finally
run out of places to hide

[Pre-Chorus]
funny how the body knows
before the mind catches up
some truths arrive
as warmth

[Chorus]
And the moment you held me
everything fit—
and the world lined up for a good second
You pulled me close
and it felt like home
like something gentle
I swear the room stopped moving
when your arms wrapped around me

[Verse 2]
I’ve been touched before
but never like this—
never with patience
never listening with their hands

You didn’t say a word you didn’t have to—
your chest rising against mine
told me everything
your mouth couldn’t

[Pre-Chorus]
sometimes the safest place
is just a heartbeat you trust

[Chorus]
And the moment you held me
everything fit—
and the world lined up for a good second
You pulled me close
and it felt like home
like something gentle
I swear the room stopped moving
when your arms wrapped around me

[Bridge]
I didn’t know your touch
could steady the whole sky
didn’t know warmth 
could quiet me down
You held me tight 
and every part of me
finally believed 
I was worth holding

[Final Chorus]
The moment you held me
I knew—this is what right feels like
no rush no fear just two bodies
finding the same quiet second
you pulled me close
and I melted into you—
this small perfect thing
arms that feel like home

Arms Around Me

Young Hearts Old Souls

The Edge of Light

[Verse 1]
I’m standing at the border of my pain
the edge of who I used to be
shadows whisper comfort—
but I can't go back
I feel the pull of something free

[Pre-Chorus]
The world tilts and my breath expands
a trembling step an open hand
I’m not afraid of what I'll find
when love begins with me this time

[Chorus]
On the edge of light I'm breaking open
learning how to see with new eyes
on the edge of light my heart is chosen
to love myself and let the rest arrive

[Verse 2]
The mirror no longer speaks in blame
I touch the glass it speaks my hope
every scar a holy thread—
woven proof that I was never less

[Pre-Chorus]
The world tilts and my breath expands
a trembling step an open hand
I'm not afraid of what I'll find
when love begins with me this time

[Chorus]
On the edge of light I'm breaking open
learning how to see with new eyes
on the edge of light my heart is chosen
to love myself and let the rest arrive

[Bridge]
A fire glows inside the dark
a quiet spark that will not fade
I'll walk into the unknown sky
knowing love has found its way

[Final Chorus]
On the edge of light I'm breaking open
rising into all that I am
on the edge of light love is the ocean
and I am ready to dive again

[Outro]
On the edge of light—
I am finally mine

The Edge of Light

Missing Without You

[Verse 1]
Met you on a slow blue morning
sunlight caught on your hair—
you laughed like you already knew me
and something in me shifted quiet

We walked past houses half-awake
your fingers brushing mine—
close enough to spark
but not enough to start us not yet

[Pre-Chorus]
Funny how the small things stay—
your voice the warmth
the way you said my name
like it meant something more

[Chorus]
Cause you’re the part of me
I didn’t know was missing—
the rhythm in the mess
the calm when all is spinning

Every time you go
I feel the space you leave—
it’s like the world leans sideways
tilted—missing without you

[Verse 2]
You showed up on my hardest days
hands in your pockets eyes soft—
you stayed until my breathing settled
until the walls I kept got tired

And I didn’t say it
but you knew—
the way my shoulders dropped
the way my voice found its way to you


[Pre-Chorus]
It’s wild how your silence speaks—
your presence filling
every space I thought was empty
holding what I couldn’t hold alone

[Chorus]
Cause you’re the part of me
I didn’t know was missing—
the rhythm in the mess
the calm when all is spinning

Every time you go
I feel the space you leave—
like the room forgets its center
I’m missing without you

[Bridge]
And if you ever wander
if you ever doubt—
I’ll keep a light on
I’ll say it out loud

You’re the piece that fits
the place I land—
come back home
and I’ll take your hand

[Final Chorus]
Cause you’re the part of me
I didn’t know was missing—
the pulse I follow through the dark
the truth I keep believing
Anywhere you walk
I’m already halfway there—
cause the world stays brighter
when you’re right here
I’m missing without you—
only whole when I’m with you

Missing Without You

The Way I Stay

[Verse 1]
I’ve watched your silence turn like a bruise—
soft slow beautiful in ways the world doesn’t notice
you carry storms in your bones
but still offer me the calm between the thunder

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t need answers
I just want your breath
however it comes—
shaky tired or quiet

[Chorus]
This is how I love you
not to fix not to chase the light—
but to hold you when the dark folds inside out
I stay because you're worth staying for
I stay cause you’ve always been home

[Verse 2]
Your hands forget they’re soft—
so I hold them
remind them they don’t have to be strong
Even on the days
you can’t reach for me,
know I’m already reaching
for you.

[Pre-Chorus]
I trace the quiet in your voice
like a map—
every pause
a place I’ve chosen to live

[Chorus]
This is how I love you
not to change not to blame the pain—
but to stay through all your becoming
I stay cause you don’t have to earn it
I stay because I see you and that’s enough

[Bridge]
Let the world forget you
Let time bend
Let your shadows fall
I’ll still be here—
the steady breath beside yours
the hand that doesn’t let go
even when you do

[Final Chorus]
This is how I love you—
not with fire not with coal
but with the quiet
that never leaves
I stay cause you’re the only truth
I’ve never doubted

November After Dark

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