forever. (prod. ttthou)

(lyrics:)

(hook:)
i just burnt my hand on the stovetop tryna feel pain.
desensitized to negative emotion, i think i might go insane.
bandaid on my fingertip reminding me of all of my old mistakes.
fucked up in my friends car i got vomit on my chain.

(verse:)
fucked up in my friends car, throwin up.
grab a glass of henny pour a shot then throw it up.
i can’t focus i got butterflies they flyin in my guts.
i’m desensitized to harmin myself think that i might cut.
(ow)
lighter to my skin until it blisters from the heat.
i’m removing all my socials from my phone, i just delete
and my mama is so worried she the reason i aint sleep,
making sure i feel okay like every day and every week.

(bridge:)
i’m sorry mama.
i hurt myself again, i’m sorry mama.
i burnt myself cuz self inflicted traumas.
old habits comin’ back, unlike my father.
no he don’t wanna.
i’m sorry mama.
i hurt myself again, i’m sorry mama.
i burnt myself cuz self inflicted traumas.
old habits comin’ back, unlike my father.
no he don’t want us.

(hook:)
i just burnt my hand on the stovetop tryna feel pain
desensitized to negative emotion i think i might go insane
bandaid on my fingertip reminding me of all of my old mistakes
fucked up in my friends car i got vomit on my chain

desensitized. (prod. calder)

clingy. (prod. ttthou)

baggage. (prod. pilotkid)

LYRICS:

back when i was just a little kid on kansas circle
when my father told my mama he ain’t want me, i was purple
from the bruises fighting kids at school
i thought i wanted murder
but i really wanted music and expression through the verbal
i was crying to my mama all the time about 
the haunting thought of drama it was only adding problems to a problem child
i told her “mama i’m so sorry, i been hurtin’
my whole body always shakin when at school this shit is volatile”
brother smokin dope
thought that was the way a while
i started smokin’ dope
tryna numb the pain a while
12 years old 
i was just a juvenile 
and now i’m filling pre-rolls
feelin’ suicidal 
babysitter as a kid
was a pedophile 
doing shit i couldn’t 
wrap my child head around
mama crying
i was scared, father reconciled
told him i feel like a women
now it’s been a while

it’s been a while since we talked like
humans, shit was borderline abusive
but it’s alright 
mama workin’ all day
i was cryin all night
felt so alone as a child
i was growin more wild
if you messed with my family then it’s on sight
‘member when i found out 
my brother died a’ cancer 
was the moment that i realized 
i ain’t never want the spotlight 
lemme tell em’

shit gon’ change at the kansas house
i ain’t really know me
had to shit out… yeah
i was only 13 i was so stressed out
i aint knew what the fuck this life was about… yet

shit gon’ change at the kansas house
i ain’t really know me
i aint figured shit out… yet
i was only 13 i was so stressed out
i aint knew what the fuck this life was about… yet

kansas house. (interlude) (prod. ttthou)

Waiting For That Day

Lyrics:

6 schools in 6 years 
I’ve activated my 6th sense for 16 years
Emperor of the Sea I’m activated my 6th gear 
I wanna rule the world just like I'm Tears for Fears

I'm shifting gears
I went from hell and back with pearls and now on 
Santa monica’s pier
I’ve battled with temptation, Hades, never thought he was real
Oracle told me that she foreseen a snake in my sphere 
Lucky I'm his son I strike em down with Poseidon’s spear

When I'm inside
I strike em down with my Riptide
No time for getting lost
No tree is on this hillside
And when they tryna blot me out, you know I still shine
Don’t know i’m destine, If I am, I need a Clear sign

Medusa got me in her sights just like I'm Square Space
My hope so high not even hermes boot can dare race
I might be too hard, I should start at my own pace
But I'm just tired of getting stepped on like a staircase

I battle with worldly desires everywhere that I go 
They just wanting my attention tryna turn me to stone
I’m breaking the mold
They wanna be like me like a mode
A treacherous road
Can't stop too busy cracking the code

I go outside my comfort zone and then I fall like i’m Rome
The world is full of many dangers everywhere that I roam 
I’m out in the cold
What is it that my future beholds
With Stories untold
My mental steady taking a toll

But I'm Miscellaneous
Son of poseidon
I beating fury’s you can get hit with this trident
Know I keep the book up on my belt like I'm Orion
And if you ain’t D.O.A. Records know that I ain't ever signing

I’m Miscellaneous
New name Poseidon
I’m making waves, but I got this beat ignited
Traveled distant lands, don’t care if it’s Athens or it’s Zion
Make the game turn into diamonds from the pressure I’m applying  

That’s on gang

If they tryna block me out, then you know I'll break the frame
Like Medusa’s head I’ll severe it make sure I'm taking aim
You can ask all of my brothers, I don't go against the grain
Breaking backs they call me bane, with all the furies that I slay

Uh

Now Mr. D told me
I better find this lightning bolt I’ll care to see
My mom again she down in hades
Now it’s to me
And my friends annabeth and grover 
We like Do , Re, Mi  

Ay

I battle with worldly desires everywhere that I go 
They just wanting my attention tryna turn me to stone
I’m breaking the mold
They wanna be like me like a mode
A treacherous road
Can't stop too busy cracking the code

I go outside my comfort zone and then I fall like i’m rome
The world is full of many dangers everywhere that I roam 
I’m out in the cold
What is it that my future beholds
With Stories untold
My mental steady taking a toll
__________________________________________
 (prod. 2wenty)

Waiting For That Day

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