vibes

always wanted to do a remix of this song by x. i never got the chance to meet him in person but the art he created is beautiful <3

OFFICIAL VIDEO

what are you so afraid of (reimagined)

soda stream sky

tell me your feelings and i won't tell you mine

snowflake (feat. Jaden & Sarcastic Sounds)

draw you inside my book

draw you inside my book (feat. KMays)

@rxseboy - can you wait for me? (prod. heydium)

V1
Its been like
3 months of no talking
Walking by myself
No more eyes to get lost In
Keep on looking back all the time 
Ill be honest
I hate being alone
at least I got my conscience
Since u left me here
locked up in my room
writing all these songs
Wake up evey morning 
and turn my computer on
Because how else do I deal 
With these thoughts of u and me
I was on the clouds
Now im spiralling into sea
I wrote a message for u
But I couldn’t send it
I regret it
Yuh
Im sorry I’m pathetic
Whats this caught a sickness
and won’t be getting better
The sun might be shining
But it feels like rainy weather


Pre chorus
I trynna keep it on the low
I trynna get u off my mind
I trynna keep my feelings inside
But its hard sometimes


Chorus
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
Im not sure what it is with me
I’ve never been good with friends
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
it doesnt matter who u are
Soon we’ll come to the end


V2
Its been about a year
Since we last spoke
Trynna stay clean but need more soap
letting out pain with these words I wrote
Dried up tears and a bit of soar throat
feelings that had were beginning to rot
Starts off good then it suddenly stops
Ya but ill leave it in the past
Now the futures all I got


Bridge
All of these girls, they got me picking sides
Falling in love is like my kryptonite
Don’t know what to do 
No I can’t decide 

Am I meant to be alone?

SPOTIFY

i could never be loved (Prod. Seany OWE)

@kingtheta

If we all love uncontrollably then life on earth will be much better <3
Many can enter but few are chosen.

Lyrics

C
U had me going from the day we met
Made so many memories I can’t forget
Always thinking of the times we spent
But I don’t want to
I don’t wanna think about u

V1
I’ve been feeling lost
Talking with your ghost
Scrolling through ur Insta
Looking through ur old posts
Me and u and doggo
Smiling for the camera
Both of u are gone now
I am just the last of us
Wish u never left me
Wish u never met me
So I didn’t have to feel this pain
Thats never ending
While ur up in heaven
Make sure u save me room
The good will die young
So I hope I die soon

V2
I can see you in the
Bright looks, in the eyes of our friends
Still feelin all the good vibes you'd send
Old books, that you left on my shelf
Remind me that you taught me how to love myself
Your light in every star
You vibrate in my guitar
My life's a show and
You play an important part
The notes you wrote me
Burned their words into my heart
I see you everywhere
it makes forgetting hard

days we had | Feat. king theta (Prod. Jayhmez)

@sadboyprolific 
@pauli-niemi

just another sad song...

Lyrics:
V1
I’m sick of loving 
Every time it’s just a misconception
I find a girl 
and she lead me into a new dimension
Thinking bout the future
Counting out all of our blessings
And then I find out it’s all fake
And she leaves me guessing
I guess I learned my lesson
I guess we’re better ended
I wish I never gave my heart out
Dummy should’ve kept it
Just like a piece of paper
She ripped my heart in half
I guess this kind of thing is something I won’t ever have
But it’s fine
Soon I’ll just get used to it
To keep my mind off of love
I’ll just do stupid shit
I fell asleep
Questioning is anyone for me
Laying on my back using 
Music as a remedy
Listening and writing
All these sad songs
Happy for a bit
But doesn’t last long
I’m Trynna find the joy
In all this chaos
Keep on praying
for my future hope it pays off

Hook
Broke my heart I
U tore it in two
So why am I
Still thinking of u

V2
Lately it’s fuck emotions
Grab the dope and then I roll it
I’ve been tripping off the potent
Honestly I’m omnipotent 
Used to think about r memories
I cleared em like my history 
Wrote this in a grave 
To set the scene
Cuz love is dead to me
R love was one sided
I know u ain’t felt the same
I bet u relish the fact
That I fucking felt this pain
U gave me comfort
U were like my shelter from the rain
Gripping the razor blade I swear I’d never love again
I’ll keep that promise
Trust me I won’t break it
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
And chain it in the basement
Knocking bottles til I’m wasted
Clear to see I’m changing
Rather stick to blazing
Then the dreams that I’ve been chasing

V3
I know hearts don’t physically break 
but my chest hurts
I can still smell her perfume
On my sweatshirt 
They say that time can heal
Soon I’ll feel better
But all that can heal this
Is if I never met her
Story never ends 
If the story never starts
Take these sad feelings
Trynna turn them into art
Paintbrush light stroke 
Out all of my feelings
Spitting shit typing quick
Keep writing lyrics
Take the wheel I can’t see
But keep steering
Moving on kicking out 
My past demons
And I’m not walking I’ll be running 
From this torture
I see the light
Do my best to move forwards

scars on my heart | Feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. Slipfunc)

Some boring, Love Stories

Spotify

Life Is Changing | Feat. raynadayz & kinshii

Now on SPOTIFY & APPLE etc.

Produced by: @otterpop123 Feat. @beabadoobee
Suggested from Martin <3

Lyrics:

Hook

Dont stay awake for too long
Dont go to bed
Ill make a cup of coffee for your head
Ill get u up and going out of bed

v1
I don’t wanna fall asleep
I don’t wanna pass away
Thinking of r future cuz 
Ill never see those days

I don’t know why this has happened
But I probably deserve it
I tried to do my best
But u know that I’m not perfect

Ive been praying for forgiveness
you’ve been praying for my health
when I leave this earth
Hoping you’ll find somebody else

Cuz ya we still young
Theres so much we haven’t done
Getting married
Start a family
Watch ur husband with his son

I wish it could be me
But I won’t make it off this bed
Hope I go to heaven so I see u once again

Ya my life was kind of short
But I got so many blessings
happy u were mine 
it sucks that its all ending

v2
Im happy that u here w me
Sorry if I tear up
When me and u were younger
U would always make me cheer up

taking goofy videos
And walking through the park
U would jump into my arms 
Every time u heard a bark

We would cuddle in your sheets
Sing me sound asleep
And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03

Sundays go to church
Mondays watch a movie
soon you’ll be alone
Sorry that u have to loose me

death bed | Feat. beabadoobee

Prod by: Tsurreal 

Reposts appreciated <3

Pt. 1
I know that your angry
Nothing seems fair
In a dark place 
Ya I’ve been there

Pass u in the hall way
When the bell goes
I could be your white night
U can be my red rose

I know that ur angry
U can tell me
i can be there 
And keep u healthy

I just wanna love u
And make the pain go
In a different class
But the same boat  

Pt. 2
We Might sink
But baby u can climb on in
Highschool
Is Nothing but a pile of shit
Skip class
I don’t care what my class mates say
Its too fun 
digging my own grave

different class, same boat (Tsurreal)

i'm so sorry </3

ft. @powfu @mishaal

produced by con

Listen on Spotify!

@rxseboy x @powfu x @mishaal - when we were 16 (prod. con)

Featuring @rxseboy
Produced by @pauli-niemi

Hope u enjoy!!
Music video for it up on my Youtube channel <3

YouTube

Laying on my porch while we watch the world end.

Follow @rxseboy @powfu cause they're both insanely talented.

prod. by Thomas Reid

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Rxseboy:
I was out here for a minute on my lonely.
You were doing drugs in your room feeling broken.
Told me, you were having trouble staying focused.
Got with the wrong crowd, thought you could open up.

Backfired, you were eighteen.
Every memory turning into a daydream.
Zoning out.
What’s that about? you won’t tell me.
Lied to my face when you said you were healthy.

I never said ‘leave.’
I begged you to stay.
Every other day said you wanna go away.
Putting food on your plate.
Then it switched to a platter.
You looked in my eyes said it didn’t even matter.

Used to stay home, watch a movie on the couch.
Now you all alone wit a pill in your mouth.
Take a sip of the alc’ while you thinking of me.
Envisioning every single thing that we never could be.

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Hoping you stay
Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Are you okay?

Rxseboy:
Stressed out, blaming everyone around you.
In the same boat, but I wouldn’t call it powfu.
Everyday, wanna make up, dunno how to.
Said you stopped drinking again, girl I’m proud too.

Get too high, I could bring you down.
On a trip, hit you back when I’m back in town.
We got two different lives.
two different vibes.
Doing drugs, I don’t, that’s two different highs.

Promised me I could hold you.
Look at your scars, think I’m here with the old you.
We were so young, living lavish with no rules.
Now I’m doing work while you still getting home schooled.

Disappointed in us and I can’t lie.
Disagreed when you said that we can’t try.
Know you said I’m a fool, girl am I?
Don’t forget that I’m here on standby.

Powfu:
Yeah, I’m on standby
If you wanna talk you can pass by
Used to visit me at work all the damn time
When you leaving me “on seen” I’m a sad guy

Quit this shit I’ll hate myself if I lose you
Pass the torch before the flames consume you
Tryna figure out a way, running out of options
(I’m trying to help you!)
Just stop this please
Before it’s too late
You don’t think I’m serious I’ll tat it on my face
You don’t need drugs, be addicted to my love
Your friends never cared but I’m here to keep in touch

My parents still together and they met in the 70’s
Me don’t gotta split be the couple of century
Yuh feels like a movie but I’m still in love
When we offset
I’ve been thinking of you more even though we talk less

Sink in the sand
Always turn away when I offer you my hand
I see that you’re hurting
Don’t deserve it
Sitting in the dark, open up your curtains

I don’t wanna see you die
I don’t wanna be that guy that sits on the side
One step at a time
We’ll take you one step at a time

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Are You Okay?

Thomas Reid & Rxseboy - Are You Okay? (feat. Powfu)

Produced by ENRA

LYRICS:

Dont fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Don't fall asleep yet
Promise me you’ll stay here
Are my pictures on you wall still like last year

Don't fall asleep yet
I'm wide awake still
I wonder if u think about me when u lay still
Its been a long time
Miss u around me
When I dream about u r u dreaming bout me


Verse

Dont fall asleep
Im wide awake
I hope that we
Have brighter days
U still have my heart
So don’t let it break
I want u all mine forever
I’ll put my heart on a projector
I wish we settled all the struggles we got into
The best part of my life was with you

Rap

Think about u too much
Trynna fall asleep 
But my eyes won’t shut
Said u need a break
And thats ok
But when u feel alone
Always got my place
Life throws curves
Sorry for your loss
Praying for your peace
When the night feels long
Writing songs for you with my guitar
Leave if u want but please don’t go far

don't fall asleep yet

i hope so..

produced by con
sample: cold illumination

@rxseboy x @coldillumination - i trust u. (prod. con)

Love u all <3 Hopefully this brings back some old Powfu vibes :)

Lyrics

Meet me on seventh street
Just like we were 17 again
Happiest I’ve ever been
It’s so pathetic that you left
You were my everything
Why did your parents have to fight?
Meet me on seventh street
The only girl that I have ever liked
 
Meet me on seventh street
Just like we were 17 again
Happiest I’ve ever been
Standing beside you on the deck
All of these college parties with stupid people only makes me sad
Times like these makes me want the times we used to have
Makes me want the times we used to have
I miss all those times
 
Tomorrow two years ago I still remember
And the day that your picture changed from us together 
My mother said to never lead a heart astray
The last time that we said I love you was the day you moved away
 
I’m back on seventh street
Underneath streetlights where we would kiss
Who thought that hearts could break?
I never knew this as a kid
I’d give you anything 
Why did your parents split apart?
Meet me on seventh street
The only place where I could reach the stars
 
Meet me on seventh street
Just like we were seventeen again
Happiest I’ve ever been
Standing beside you on the deck
All of these college parties
With stupid people
Only makes me sad
Times like these makes me want the times we used to have
 
Run away
Every day I hate without you
The drive is long, but I hope to see you soon
I’m still in love even though you’ve got new friends
One day we’ll be on seventh street falling in love again

17again

Suicide Letter 3

some boring love stories pt 5

no promises

shoutout all my freinds that helped my with this <3
Rxseboy x Sarcastic Sounds x Ayleen Valentine

You don’t see that im a kid
With all these problems 
Evolving inside of me
Im seeing two of u
And u don’t see a single flaw in me


#scfirst

vibes

Emily