Broken Heart

My Sinful Life

Dear God,
I dont wanna complain about a lot /
But why? Did you let me suffer so much /
I use to be catching tears slip out of my eyes /
Anything but this curse, i rather do 25 to life /
That was the feeling i use to have I rather die / 5
I wanted this world more than i wanted you /
Was this the only way you could get my attention /
Because it worked and now I'm here to listen /
I should be more thankful but all I wanted to be was a certified gangster /
That was my dream if you really wanna know my answer /
I ain't gonna lie I still got one foot in the streets /
I socialize with drug attics and Gs /
Smoke a little bit of weed /
Now I'm writing Rhymes And Poetry /
Music from the heart but I wouldn't mine being wealthy /
I know I've changed into a better man / 16
cuz I'm more peaceful than what I use to be /
I'm still a king even if I end up homeless in these streets /

Verse 2: 
Reminiscing about my corrupted deeds /
I've done a lot of good but no one seems to notice my good deeds /
Free me from this bondage of sin /
I wanna walk on water but I feel like I'm sinking in /
Sand, Jesus give me a helping hand /
Are you really my friend, I shouldn't have doubts /
But I feel like I can't let go off my own bad habits /
This life before I was saved was gonna be tragic /
I was so paranoid and delusional I needed help /
Mentally and that's when Writing music became my therapy from this hell /
Get it how you live, live how you get it that was the recipe /
If my enemies wanted war I was ready to let them rest in peace /
It was nothing to push the button /
When me or my loved ones were facing destruction / 16
Cuz they would do the same for me /
I hope you understand I'm really am trying to live a Christian life / 

Verse 3:
Especially since I hit rock bottom and Christ came into my heart and opened my eyes /
I'm just a young disciple that's trying to learn and understand the ways of the messiah /
Lord please don't throw me into the fire, I'm a warrior of God so use me as a fighter /
Keep me away from backstabbers or teach me how to make em into disciples /
Teach me the word of God so I can fight all these Devils /
I'm a down south Christian rebel /
Persecuted by the world for my beliefs Imma die a martyr /
Imma stand with Israel until they cut off my head of my shoulders /
I don't think this heart can get any colder /
Cuz I've seen enough dark days full of pain and sorrow / 12
God Protect my love one's and guard us from those who's intent is to harm us /
Teach me about this love and forgiveness your word talks about  /
I'm done being dumb, relentless and clowning around /
I remember being surrounded by cops with their pistols out yelling at us to get on the ground / 
but everything worked out in the end cuz they let us go free /
thank you lord for looking down on me and my homies / 
cuz any other night we would've been in handcuffs on our way to county /

Sal