Lyrics:
(chorus:)
i’m losing my mind, oh why?
i’m going crazy, i’m feeling trapped in this time 
haven’t been feeling myself lately 
so i’ll give you call or text up your line 
I'm trapped in my mind, oh why?
somebody save me, i do not think i’ll be alright 
there’s fear in my eyes, i think through the night 
i blow up your phone just give me some signs 
(verse 1:)
i’m drowning in my own abyss 
i see nothing but darkness, damn this is a trip 
no love, no trust, but it’s you that i miss 
i’m hollow with sorrow, my feelings have flipped 
my head is a mess but i'm not depressed 
i just don’t know how to cope with my stress 
i bottle it up till i’m numb to my breath 
so every word i speak i never forget 
(chorus x2)
(verse 2:)
had the girl of my dreams which is crazy enough 
she filled up my heart that was empty, with lust 
she loved me for me but i’m so messed up 
always lost in my thoughts when i’m empty on trust 
she told me she had me but i am not safe
i'm stuck in this loop, i’m sick of this game 
i’m a danger to her so i lie to her face 
when she’d ask me “what’s wrong” id just say i’m ok
afraid of the past cause of things that i’ve done
i’ve tainted my name, i’ve been on the run 
in the middle of this, i found someone to love 
she kinda suffered the pain of my “gun”
my gun is my words that i use when i write
i write with my blood that i bleed through the night 
her body’s my paper i use for my lines
cause she embodies the pain that i fight 
(chorus x2)

Lost In It All (Prod. CapsCtrl)

Debatable (Prod. JACKPOT)

Lyrics:
i’m always thinking of you 
whether it’s day or night or all the time
got you constantly stuck in my mind i know that it’s not right 
it’s all because you moved on, now the feelings are done
we’re going back to being friends, i fucking hate square one
i guess i’ll never learn to love, i’m always making things worse
i tried so many times and in the end, i’m the one that’s getting hurt
i would've given it my all, i could've made things work
but now im noticing that im the one who gave all the attention first
so i won’t think of you i’ll slowly lose my mind
i’ll keep telling myself that you weren’t ever meant to be mine
and days and weeks will pass cuz there’s no way to stop time
and i’ll deny i ever felt this way and no matter what i’ll say i’m fine

Thinking of You (Prod. Sarcastic Sounds)

Lyrics:
(chorus) x2
I’m steady growing old
There’s not much that you know 
just like my songs and all my words
they are my lessons told
I guess I’m kinda bold 
for changing up my flow
just like my songs and all my words
my life is changeable 
(verse 1)
i always put up a wall
that i know you couldn’t break after giving your all
you see, this person that i hide,  I could easily fall
and ill break like glass, down to pieces too small
if you leave me on the ground, i will make you bleed 
cause i’ll cut into your skin and leave pieces so deep
and if you try to pull me out, better do it with speed 
i’ll get inside your mind, you’ll never get me to leave 
now you see, that’s the side that i don’t share 
shit, i buried it so deep, there is no air 
damn it’s caused me so much drama so i won’t dare
try and bring that side back, it’s a nightmare 
a nightmare that never ends as i open my eyes 
it’s my demon as i say, it’s kinda growing inside 
but nobody that’s around is understanding these lines 
so they think that my persona’s everything but a lie
(pre-chorus) x2
now i wonder what about me is real 
is it the love? or the pain i can’t heal?
or the open scars? or my brain i cant feel?
but i know that when i hold her, everything becomes clear 
(chorus)

Am I Real (Prod. Blackk Noise)

Lyrics:
the darkness is my home
its where I roam when I'm alone
and I know I'm always gone
or I'm not picking up my phone
I don't sleep through the night
and I'm awake till the rise
my thoughts, they hold me tight
and now I'm thinking all in my zone
see it's too easy
how come everybody loves to leave me?
I get it, I'm a mess
and I don't blame you, I'm not easy
but my broken heart distressed
over the fact that you don't need me
so much work and time..
I close my eyes and hope I'm dreaming

can you blame me? - DEMO (Prod Boyfifty)

Lyrics: 
You know what they say about the ones you love the most
They'll be there for you but careful not to hold them way too close
They're like a drug for you to take until you double up the dose
then you're a ghost because you're broke inside that heart they chose to stroke
It's always hard because I gave her all my trust
I had confided in "enough" until we talked and it was rough
and we made changes to our normal, I'm the one that's feeling stuck
while she thinks we've had our time cause in my head, I've fucked it up

I feel like as the days go on things are getting worse
We don't talk or speak as easily as before and nothing works
but I guess I'll shut my mouth in hopes that I can fix this curse
cause in the end I still want all the things that make me hurt

but I guess in this, it's where I'm wrong
Everyones telling me to stop and move along
They tell me that I've fought too hard already like a pawn
but I cant let her go because I know I'm not that strong

and this is when I hate to go and look at the texts
I'm missing everything about her, even down to the sex 
so tell me what about our photos for the book that was next
up on the list for getting finished before everything left?

i wish i could say sorry (Prod. Zaini)

Lyrics:
this one goes out to your family and friends
cause everything just had to change and we came to an end
I wanna say all my sorry's to your mom and your dad
for everything I've put them through this last year and a half
I made you move out, to a whole different state
just so we could be together because we couldn't wait
then everything felt different cause we suddenly changed
and now there's nothing left between us. just confusion and pain

if your parents ever hear this, know i gave her my all
i tried to help her find herself in desperate times when she’d fall 
i tried to be her perfect person even tho i got flaws 
cause all i wanted was her happy at the end of it all
if your parents ever hear this, know I’m trying my best
to learn to heal from all this pain that burns inside of my chest 
see i’m afraid to lose you all cause then i got nothing left 
so if i lose you as a family, i’ll be more of a mess

maybe in another life time we’ll be fine
in a world without a need of always needing her time
i got attached right at the start cause she was healing my mind 
from all the anxious thoughts i had growing inside  
i had us planned out, we had a future to make 
we had plans for a wedding with the music we’d play
and i had plans to ask her dad if her hand was okay 
and if the ring i would’ve bought was “the one” for the day

"Mom & Dad" (Prod. Noria)

Lyrics:
I know I'm not okay 
why won’t no one believe me
silence is loud today 
but I still hear the ringing 
of all the voices inside of my head that got me thinking
that maybe everything I'm feeling might still have a meaning
am I good? am I strong? am I broke or not?
been hurt before too many times but somehow I forgot
just how to cope with all the pain when someone up and walks 
right out your life when they decide you’re not enough to please their wants
-
loves a game, don’t play it 
the dice you roll won’t change it 
the odds between the cards you pick and need are often dangerous 
I need an Ace or Queen
to finally set me free 
till then I'll play the hand that I was dealt for life it seems 
-
I often think about, where in this I went wrong
I'll make a list of all the things that could’ve set her off
it’s only me to blame, cause I’m the one at fault
and I’ll admit it hurt a bit to think that through at all
and now I know it’s done, and I’m the one that’s hurt 
she said she did her time and learned to heal to find her worth
so now I’m insecure, but I don’t know what’s worse
that fact that I’m still holding on or thinking that we’ll work
- 
*instrumental*
-
chorus x2

Love's A Game (Prod. eeryskies)

Lyrics:
these voices echo inside of my head but I still fixate
on all the small things that don't matter when you make a mistake
and I know, that I'm wrong
in all of this, and you're gone
but you're still here when you want
and that fucks me in the thought
that you want me, then don't.
make up your mind, but you won't.
and that's what hurts me the most
I know you've read what I've wrote
but now no matter what I type ill never get a response
cause you're "too busy" for my feelings and to tend to my "wants"

I broke it down so many times but why the fuck did I try
if it won't matter in the end when all you want is to lie?
x2

Lie - Interlude (prod.eeryskies)

Lyrics:
I am who I am because of a broken home
traumatized bad, right to the bone
my parents they fought and owned me with papers
they had from a judge, in which they wrote
I couldn't be here if I wasn't there
and not on the weekends, it wasn't fair
the clothes from my moms I couldn't wear
when I was at my dads, it wasn't theirs
the shit that you'll go through when parents divorce
I know my moms sorry and feels the remorse
but I understand, it just sucked being forced
to be the one who had to please every side
stuck in the middle between every fight
when dad and mom yelled, all I knew was to cry
emotions invalidated every time
-
I'm tired of feeling the pain of it all
tired of talking at therapy with a pen and a pad but no one to call
my parents aren't ones to understand the things in my head
my mom says she does
and my dad is on meds
but none of these words they'll hear till I'm dead
(x2)

Chapter 1 (Prod. 4lexf)

Lyrics:
(chorus:)
i’m feeling too high and i’m not sorry 
down a couple bottles while i’m driving to the party 
filling up the flask with a bottle of bacardi
just to hand it out to people i don’t like to get em started 
and they'll know i’m there by the sound of my car 
i’m turning up the bass cause tonight we’re going hard 
the party has just started and i’m ready for it all
and i’m not the type to do this but i’m finally moving on 
(verse 1:)
i come walking in, i see a girl, i notice that she’s over there staring at me 
but i got chicks in my DM saying things they don’t mean
and they’re waiting for a text that they won’t ever see
I walk up to this girl, like “damn what’s ur name?”
“what’s your number? I like you, let’s leave this place”
but she said that she don’t wanna, now she all up in my space 
yea she grabbing on my shirt and she kissing on my face 
(pre chorus)
just got here and i got a girl in my pocket 
pretty face, nice ass, ya she got it 
the nights still young, no way am I stopping 
hard liquor, counting shots, this is my calling 
I don’t even know if i’m gonna go home 
take my girl, we’ll leave on the road 
Show her the city while we’re downing some patron 
Forget the past, cuz in my head i’m still alone 
(x2)
(chorus)
(verse 2)
the nights ending and she wanna leave, but now she begging that i come with her for the night 
i told her “we just only met, you know this ain’t right
i got an ex i’m still dealing with, it’s gonna cause a fight”
she didn’t care so she walked out with my hand 
bodies stopped, eyes stared, i felt the glance 
but i steady followed her knowing I was dead
and maybe all these thoughts is the alcohol in my head 
(pre chorus) x1

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