Name: This Is All I Am And All I'll Ever Be (redux) (demo) by Andrew
Duration: 4 min 25 s
Description: We never got to finish this final Redux release because our singer quit lmao. Here go :)

The silence inside us
Grabs you by the neck and keeps your head under
Fighting for control of your head every day
While the thoughts loom dark
Putting all your effort in

I see how it is
Throw them in the pan while the fire's hot
Center of the room magnify your view
Nail them to a cross, beat it in hard

Fractional dignity
Chip it off the old block
Haven't gotten out from underneath, it's overbearing
Look at us letting ourselves go
See the fear in our eyes
What will it take to become all gilded and gold-plated and well?
Make ourselves grow thinner from the inside
Why does reaching stasis have to be so hard?
Biting off too much to chew
Life is just shitting on you, but they know something we don't know
They know something we don't know
Are we living in denial?

Violence inside us
I propose it's time to push the tide forward
Light the powder keg
Heads will hang
Spill the nooses red
Put some effort in

We've been taking shit for too long
Wearing fake smiles to get through
Now it's time to push the tide, time to confiscate our lives

Fractional dignity
Chip it off the old block
Haven't gotten out from underneath, it's overbearing
Look at us letting ourselves go
See the fear in our eyes
What will it take to become all gilded and gold-plated and well?
Make ourselves grow thinner from the inside
Why does reaching stasis have to be so hard?
Biting off too much to chew
Life is just shitting on you
They know something we don't know
They know something we don't know

Black Box

Antipathy and the Field of Blood

Small, weak, living in a shell
Mind racing with fear of the unknown
And I asked the air to be my father
Saw the others do this too
I grasped at straws, and all His people answered
"His blood be on us and on our children"

I was so afraid of their power over me
I tried to hate them
To fashion a sword out of my mind to keep at the ready
Thoughts to end it all still just as sharp
Betrayal, and the guilt of that, seeping through my armor
Hatred of others, of the world, and of goodness itself
But love grew inside that well of sorrow
A seed that would germinate in the depths of my being
And see to it that my fears would begin to fade

A man once doubted
The world moves on
The world moves on

Recovery

No more traces of life in this love
Helpless to resent time well wasted

Go back to the time when we loved one another in ways that were practically healthy
Hope despite the evidence lingering, telling us that our days were numbered

Lie down beside me, not far
We can make believe under the stars
There will probably be some uncomfortable moments if we're committed to this forever
And at every corner we turn
There's a cost to the habits we learned
Boring down into the underground, into the underground we will become

And now the "light"
We always thought we'd get much farther
I wanted you for years
I will love you until I die and then in whatever comes next, but we can't

Go back to the time when we loved one another in ways that were practically healthy
Hope despite the evidence lingering, telling us that our days were numbered
Young until the end
We were practically living
Hope until it went
When we were young and stupid

The halfhearted way that I loved you
Dishonestly clenching the status quo
Averting my eyes as the clock runs down
As it runs down

No more traces of life in this love
Helpless to resent time well wasted
I'm the only one I argue with now
I'm the only one I battle with now
Only ghosts, only ghosts

Go back to the time when we loved one another in ways that were practically healthy
Hope despite the evidence lingering, telling us that our days were numbered
Go back to the time when we loved one another in ways that were practically healthy
Hope despite the evidence lingering, telling us that our days were numbered
Young until the end
We were practically living

Hope until it went
Hope until it went

The Picture of Health

I believed in something
That something's really nothing
Played pretend in the streets but in my bed there's no one
Why is it so damn hard to make friends as an adult?
Childish behavior is how I even got this far
Now skip past the awkward part and get a grip on the belt loops of your own big boy pants
There's something kind of hot about you when you're upset
Yeah there's something 'bout that honesty
I'm probably done

All the way down
We're partying up in this place, the Devil's pretty cool to be around
It's the sound
A motion trailing from our ears into the ground
It's lit now
I believed in something, that something's really nothing
But in the end, when my gig's up, I'll scream it loud
It's the sound
It's a stampede of the buffalo variety and when it comes there's only one decision on the table

We lost touch in the summer
Can't hardly take this permanence I never felt
Resuscitate a conviction I didn't want
This isn't great it's going on for far too long

Mind left long ago and all that's left is ransomware
Taking turns just hitting skip again and again
Being patient's getting old, I'm wanting a fix
I'm trapped in a chemical hell
By and by, the days peel off, it's blurring, oh it's
Blurring oh it's, it's blurring oh it's
Let's go back and do it over again
I can't take this joke, it's wearing me thin, it's wearing me

I believed in something
That something's really nothing
Played pretend in the streets but in my bed there's no one
Why is it so damn hard to make friends as an adult?
Childish behavior is how I even got this far
Skip past the awkward part and get a grip on the belt loops of your own big boy pants
There's something kind of hot about you when you're upset
There's something 'bout your honesty

Get it, get it down
We're making shit bump in this place, making a goddamn mockery of you
And we're proud
Caught between duplicity and artifice
Now it's on the table, lightning rod for all your fables
All along I've been digging a hole
Now it's on the table, power saw you could disable me
Even more than I already am

(Try your best)
Try to kill me
Try to take me down
Give it all you've got
I don't wanna be found
Try your best
Try your best

I believed in something
That something's really nothing
Played pretend in the streets but in my bed there's no one
Why is it so damn hard to make friends as an adult?
Childish behavior is how I even got this far
Now skip past the awkward part and get a grip on the belt loops of your own big boy pants
There's something kind of hot about you when you're upset
Yeah there's something 'bout that honesty
I'm probably done
I'm probably done

Damn, We're in a Tight Spot

hella sleepy but i can't get this outta my head. 

Gods&Monsters (Lana Del Rey Cover)

We never got to finish this final Redux release because our singer quit lmao. Here go :)

This Is All I Am And All I'll Ever Be (redux) (demo)

Second song of my make a song daily mini vacation

Mistake

Mostly private tracks for when I wanna send people audio 

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This Is All I Am And All I'll Ever Be (redux) (demo)

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