Doesn't seem to make sense when we're both apart, hold this heart 'cuz IT NEVER knew what to do, it sounds JUST LIKE YOU. 

Yeah it sounds just like you it tells me you miss me, from the distance you will KISS me and i'll NEVER KNOW what to do. This DISTANCE KILLS ME TOO!

From the South End to to the City a flying car is what we need. I'll park it on your doorstep, dear, grab your phone let's leave. 

WE ARE AT THE DEATH THROES OF THIS STRUGGLING ROMANCE!

And we still dont know what to do, this distance killed us two! 





mixed by sir RJ Mabilin!

Death Throes Of A Struggling Romance

(fka 'notes / mmxx')

written last 2019-2020, me switching PCs earlier this year & creative differences with what I had in mind two years ago has led me to lose all my files for this project. I'd consider this project 'scrapped' up until two months ago.

as i'm currently working on another EP, the thought of this project unreleased has bothered me enough to finish it off mp3 exports from a year ago. even the album art was salvaged off an old SoundCloud export I had around april 2020.

paalam

09/19/2021

i don't know when i'll see you

sana nandito ka

PAGBASAK NG SISTEMA
PAGTAWAG NG REPORMA
PAGBALIK NG PASISTA
LAGOT TALAGA

KITILIN ANG MGA NAKAUPO
MGA MANDARAYA
MGA SAKIM AT DUWAG
MGA MAKASALANAN

PASISTANG MAKINARYA
BIGUIN! BIGUIN!

MAGNANAKAW
PAHIRAPAN

Pasistang Makinarya

sana
mawala
ang lahat
ng nararamdaman

sa maikling
panahon
ang lahat
ay mararamdaman

nakapalibot ang mga bugtong
sa isip kong wasak na wasak
mga taong nagtatanong
kung bakit sariling tagiliran ay sinaksak
punong nagsisilbi bilang huling isla
dagat ang mga salitang binibigkas na tila
dugong dumadaloy na galing sa dila
paa kong mapupunit sa lakas nang hila
ang aking hagdanan ay isang luma na silya
ito na ang katapusan ng storya ng isang bida

sa kanyang
ala ala
ikaw ay
mahalaga
iwan mo
ang aking buhay
kapalit
ang kasiyahan na tunay

kamatayan
kinabukasan
kasiyahan
hinahanap

pako sa aking talampakan
ay mahirap bunutin nang biglaan
na para bang balang nakatanim sa aking bunbunan

lason iinumin
walang pakialam sa nakalagay sa salamin

para kang kawalan
lagi kang nasa isip ko
pag naging tayo
magpapakamatay ako
para hindi mawala ang pagibig ko sayo magpakailan man

maghahanda ako ng pagkain
huling yakap at halik galing saakin
habang tumutugtog ang mga bandang pinapakinggan mo
magbibigti tayo sa ilalim ng punong paborito mo

sa totoo lang kahit na kunin mopa ang puso ko at ibenta mo
sasaya na ko sa ideya na nahawakan mo ito gamit ang kamay mo

magiingat ako na sana hindi malagyan ng dugo ang mga damit mo
habang sinasaksak mo ako gamit ang pagibig na totoo

hindi ko maintindihan ang nangyayari
parang aking liriko
ito ay magulo at maraming anggulo
mamatay na sana ako
mamatay na sana ako

bumagsak ako sa kolehiyo dahil sa depresyon ko

matches on the floor
screaming ashes im terrified
i said "let me have some more!"
while Im beside my back door

in Quezon Ave.
i thought I was someone new
(I'm still imprisoned by my own mistakes)

what I said was true
it all depends on you!
(i loved you from the start)

accidents are meant to happen
and you didnt signed up for this
(hands down it's over, the end is near)

you're my perfect memory
too bad we're not meant to be

I think about you everyday
i wanna see you again someday
i'll always find a way
and i hope you will forgive me
you are always beautiful
even if you hurt me

tossing rocks at your window
i know you're underneath your pillow
all alone in your thought so

finding meaning and answers
Pull my heart on the trigger
wish I could've been better

oh juliette you don't know how much you mean to me

my head's on the ceiling
(i wanna see you again)
you should know what I'm feeling
(i wanna hear you again)
i don't know where I'm going
(would you guide me again?)
tell me what am I doing?
(are we playing pretend?)

my heart
my heart
my heart

Sin In October (demo)

Medisina

Zild - Medisina (Live at Balcony Music House)

It felt so sweet
When both our hearts
Had snuck inside

I miss the touch
Of your lips
With your hand in mine

We we're both kids
That told stories
Your voice that's so soothing
Just like a song you sang

I miss the touch
Of your lips
With your hand in mine

I felt so inlove
Until we grew apart
We we're so young
With our dreams ahead of us
I felt so inlove
Until we grew apart
You make me blue all the time
But you're also my brightest sun

I was made to believe
That everything was possible
You made me like that

There's nothing you can do
To change that

What do we have to do
To have that

Can't you see
What you've done to me
A fucked up boy
With a fucked up dream
You pulled me, you saved me
How can I ever exist in your eyes?
How did I exist in your eyes?
Why did I exist in your eyes?
When will I see those eyes

Again...

Umiiyak Ako sa Moshpit ng Walktrip (Demo)

if you go away
put bullet in my head
i'd rather die instead
when you're far away
cut me into pieces
i don't want to sleep
when you're not here beside me

when you fall asleep
i don't know
where to go

I walked down an unfamiliar path
raising my voice
trynna know what's the truth
it kills me yet
i want to pursue
every single little detail
makes me want cut me open

so i sat down
with Santa Claus
making happy wishes
while im holding on for dear life
it's too much now
i can't control
i need you more than ever
can't you just fucking see?

fucked me up
over again
leaving me whenever you have
the chance to do so

fucked me up
i can't no more
let me go
i don't want to know

perhaps the mailman knows where i am headed (demo)

ulit-ulit pa
paki-ulit-ulit nga
iulit-ulit pa hanggang masabi

di ko rin alam
aking nararamdaman
suyuin mo pa akong walang masabi

we don’t need to take it slow
kasi ako’y gulong-gulo
gusto ba kita kasi ang sakit?
deretso mo sa fucking bones
hanggang sa maalala mo
ulitin ko pa ba?

ulitin mo pa nga
at ulit-ulitin pa
hanggang wala na ngang nangyayari

paggising sana ay
hanap-hanapin mo pa siya
panaginip na ikaw lang ang humabi

we don’t need to take it slow
kasi ako’y gulong-gulo
gusto ba kita kasi ang sakit?
deretso mo sa fucking bones
hanggang sa maalala mo

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watch our music video with Kinoise PH hereeee https://youtu.be/Mu8PXEpRPjA

cheeky things are
kim, inigo, aze, ron, tobi, and xibrix

Engineered and Produced by cheeky things

Mixed and Mastered by Mark Aze Deladia

Additional clapping and pahiram ng interface by Kian Cuarentas

Album art and design by Ron Lobiano

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