An original song about how certain places bring back very vivid memories of people you'd rather just forget

Lyrics:
Blue is the sky
So bright today
But the clouds overhead 
Hold the promise of rain 
The water reflects 
What’s up above 
It all reminds me 
Of you, my love

Coming back home
Hasn’t been easy 
It makes me wonder
Do you still think of me
Memories flood back
Like the tide coming in
Rushing so fast
Don’t think I can win

I can’t let things go
I should know better 
I should better by now

Think I took a wrong turn
Down memory lane
Not sure that I want to be back here again
Think I took a wrong turn
Down memory lane
Don’t think I ever want to come back here again

Time heals all wounds
Or so I hear
If that’s the truth 
Then why do I fear
That my past will haunt me 
As long as I live 
I’ve never been known
To easily forgive 

I just can’t let thought of you go
I should know better 
I should better by now

Think I took a wrong turn
Down memory lane
Not sure that I want to be back here again
Think I took a wrong turn
Down memory lane
Don’t think I ever want to come back here again

Memory Lane (voice memo)

an original song about loss and grief

Lyrics:
Save your breath for someone else
I don’t wanna hear it 
Save yourself the trouble 
Look, I know that you mean well

I’m well aware you can’t read my mind
But I don’t want to be left behind 
Anymore 

If I shut my eyes long enough 
Will it all go away
If I play my music loud enough
Will it drown out the pain
I never want to feel this way again
I never want to feel this way again 

If time heals all wounds
how much longer will I have to play pretend 
If time heals all wounds 
How much time until I’m hurt again

If I shut my eyes long enough 
Will it all go away
If I play my music loud enough
Will it drown out the pain
I never want to feel this way again
I never want to feel this way again

Let’s pretend this never happened 
I’ve reached my wits end
Don’t ask me if I’m okay 
I’ll never admit it

Time Heals (voice memo)

An original song about the pressures of life and realizing that all of your actions have an effect on people.

Lyrics:
I once asked them to tell me what they see
You know I appreciate your honesty
I'll hold my breath and count 'till three
I'm afraid I can't live up
to what they have built me up to be

Why do I want to run 
In the other direction
The moment I'm the object 
of everyone's affection
Time and time again
I said I wanted nothing more
So what am I complaining for?

I don't wanna disappoint
But I don't work well
Under pressure
I lied on my resume
When I said I work well
Under pressure

I'll never please them all no matter how hard I try
That's the very thought that keeps me up at night 
If i think about it much i start to cry
But I owe it to them 
to at the very least just try

Why do I want to run 
In the other direction
The moment I'm the object 
of everyone's affection
Time and time again
I said I wanted nothing more
So what am I complaining for?

I don't wanna disappoint
But I don't work well
Under pressure
I lied on my resume
When I said I work well
Under pressure

Resume (voice memo)

An original song inspired by having a panic attack about fear of failure and calling my dad almost 30 times because he wouldn't pick up

Lyrics:
I’m sorry I called you 27 times in a row 
And I’m sorry for always making everything your fault
And maybe I’m crazy for trying to do this on my own
It’s moments like these when I wish I’d never left home 

I try my best 
But just can’t succeed
Seems like this shit
Always gets the best of me 

I feel like 
I’m walking on thin ice
Just waiting for the cracks to give way
It would be nice
If something just went right
What if there’s no way to escape 

If patience is a virtue then clearly I’ve got a lot to learn
I guess pain is inevitable No matter how bright you burn 
It feels like I’ve given so much with little to no return 
And I stay awake till 4 wondering if this is worth all the effort 

I try my best 
But just can’t succeed
Seems like this shit
Always gets the best of me 

I feel like 
I’m walking on thin ice
Just waiting for the cracks to give way
It would be nice
If something just went right
What if there’s no way to escape

If I could
I’d turn back time 
Maybe then I’d get it right 

I’m sorry I called you 27 time’s in a row
Maybe I need to learn a little thing called control

27 (voice memo)

an original song about feelings

Lyrics:

If I’m being honest
This might be a bit too much
And if I’m being honest
I don’t know if I’m enough

this wanted
But I’m still haunted
By the ghosts that keep me up at night
I said this is what I wanted
And now that I’ve almost got it
I’m worried this won’t be right 

I don’t know what I want
I don’t have a clue
I don’t know what I want
But it might be you
If I ask you to be patient 
Is that asking too much 
Is that better than wondering 
what it’s like to touch
For so long I though I would be 
on my own
Is it better if I go? 

Since I’m being honest
I’m afraid
Since I’m being honest
I want nothing more than to run away

this wanted
I still feel haunted
By the ghosts that keep me up at night
I said this is what I wanted
But now that I’ve almost got it
I’m worried this won’t be right 

 don’t know what I want
I don’t have a clue
I don’t know what I want
But it might be you
If I ask you to be patient 
Is that asking too much 
Is that better than wondering 
what it’s like to touch
For so long I though I would be 
on my own
Is it better if I go?

Better If I Go (voice memo)

an original song about catching feelings way too quickly

LYRICS:
Does he know that I think of him
As often as second tick by
Does he know that I’m struggling
Incessant worry that it’s all in my mind 

I have a tendency to inflate reality 
What if it all comes crashing down

I
Need to slow down
Why does he always react so casually 
It would be easier if he'd fall in love with me

Does he know what this does to me
Simple words like saying goodnight
Does he know I fall easily 
I just wish God would send me a sign

I have a tendency to inflate reality 
What if it all comes crashing down

I
Need to slow down
Why does he always react so casually 
It would be easier if he'd fall in love with me

Does He Know... (voice memo)

an original song about a complicated relationship 

Lyrics:
I’ve reached limit
Hate to say But it’s true
Call me a cynic 
From years of Watching you
Pretend 
There’ll be an end 
To this madness

Don’t call me spiteful
I just wanted to talk
Quick with an eye roll 
Go ahead and walk away
You’ve had your say
I can’t take it 

But I know very very well
Patience looks better on me 
Maybe that’s where I failed 
But that’s another story

Why can’t you just admit it
You’d be much better off
Hey let’s not kid ourselves 
We both know you’ll never stop 
I think I’ve had enough
Of you telling me I’m wrong 
Carry on with your tinted glasses
Wear them all you want 

You say I don’t try
that’s all I’ve ever done
Trying not to cry
You can think you’ve won this time 
That’s I’ve lost my mind
It’s not worth it

Why can’t you just admit it
You’d be much better off
Hey let’s not kid ourselves 
We both know you’ll never stop 
I think I’ve had enough
Of you telling me I’m wrong 
Carry on with your tinted glasses
Wear them all you want 

All you want 

All’s fair in love and war
Remind me what we’re fighting for 
I’d call a truce 
But I don’t see the use
If all’s fair in love and war
What do you keep fighting for
It’s all about you
It’s always been about you

Why can’t you just admit it
You’d be much better off
Hey let’s not kid ourselves 
We both know you’ll never stop 
I think I’ve had enough
Of you telling me I’m wrong 
Carry on with your tinted glasses
Wear them all you want 

All you want

A Cynic’s Tale (voice memo)

an original song about how i've been feeling lately

Lyrics:
I get stuck in waves of emotion
Fixating on everything that’s been broken 
Apart
And I start
To go down this path that I know all to well

Objectively I know I’ll be okay 
But who notices the sun when it starts to rain
And I try
And I try
But it’s hard to pretend that everything’s fine 

When I can’t fall asleep 
Cuz I’m thinking of him
Or everything else
That could’ve been 
When I learn to simply just live 

I don’t know if it’s all in my head
But regardless I think I’ll just go back to bed
I’m so tired
I’ve expired 
Only 23 but my bones would say otherwise 

Lately it seems like I’m full of self pity
Can you blame when I’m stuck in this fuckin city 
It’s not fair 
What is fair
I can tell you it’s not this

When you miss home so much
Your stomach gets sick
And you question why
You ever chose this
When I learn to simply just live

I feel so behind 
But I don’t know how far
Maybe I’m too old 
To keep wishing on stars 
It feels like my life is just falling apart

I get stuck in waves of emotion
Fixating on everything that’s been broken 
Apart
And I start
To go down this path that I know all to well

Just Live (voice memo)

23 and trying to figure out how to be a full time musician/ songwriter

Natasha Sophia