seem to remember less and less every new day
but i suspect i'm only a third down the way?

it's coming up
it's coming up
it's coming up
and it's bring me down!

spin me round
spin me round
spin me round
i ain't ever coming down!

haven't seen you in a while, it feels right.
maybe i'll see around with a happy life?

it's blowing up
it's blowing up my life, and i can't figure it out!
and if i feel what i feel, then don't that make it real?

so you got a lot of questions on your mind...
but don't you think it's right? 
that we let it lie? 
that we let this die.

Album

09 bad pop bop

what you know
versus
what i know

yeah, all WE know is...
we both deserve better than this

tell me what you need
to make it easier on you 
to leave

what i have
versus
what you have

similar afflictions tormet us in different ways!

meet me in the middle
so we can fiddle on eachother
to try to end the suffering

i can't escape the feeling that,
"We're running out of time!"
Is this what YOU wanted?
Is this what you had in mind?

Just know!
You can leave!
You can leave anytime you want!!


What i hope is that you don't feel trapped in something, you know that you don't need.

You say, "We'll get through this. Because it's the truest thing that either one of us have seen."

08 do the codepent two step!! (I LOVE YOU, PLEASE LEAVE ME)

space isn't a bad thing
no, space is how we cope
but i'd just keep on floating
and you'd never let me know

hold onto an image
refuse to let it go
nostalgia makes it easy
to hold onto hope

why do we hold onto the fire?
to reignite our little lie?

And i wish i would make sense not to let it go,
but we're barely hanging onto a tiny rope.
Yeah, you won't speak, you won't make a sound!
And I just keep letting you down!

UNWRITTEN VERSE 2

PRECHORUS 2
but still, we hold onto the fire!
...cuz we love our little lie :(

07 jean jacket jupe jon (tartar got tang)

Remus, are you keeping score of the time of month and more?
I know it's hard to believe in!

We just want the best for you.
can't imagine what that puts you through...
The pain you have to be leaving behind

Time is kinder to some, 
i know, i know.
But the night is not on your side
Don't question why!
It's easier to be numb,
it shows, it shows

But there's a full moon out tonight, you should warn them why...
Why they should hide!

He's coming.
You should run...

Run.

When all your destruction ripples through, and you say you're at a loss about what to do...
Well, that's not true...
Oh, that's just not true!! 

So you settle and embrace the seed sown, 
and you scream out how your life is not your own...
But the eaze in that it doesn't have to be, can keep you alive!

Time is kinder to some,
i know! i know.
But there's a reason you're still alive!
Don't question why!

The uneasiness in feeling
like you can't let go
So you don't know when you'll explode
That... there's all these *THINGS,*
you'll never know!

06 Remus Full Moon

yeah, i could be what you want!
...if you ask me to.
yeah, i can switch it all up,
consider it already done!

but memerizing all your lines, it takes a toll
takes a toll
is it still real love if i'm just fictional?
fictional

tell me where to move, i'll move
you tell me where to stay, i'll stay
tell me that you love me
tell me that you feel the same way

and all of it all, 
were just desperate attempts to know that i can be loved by real love
everything that i found fell apart so easily

and i don't need to wonder bout how much of this was me!
...probly everything

did you outgrow me?
did i outgrow you?
is this worth "something" 
or something to just push past through?

is this something worth hammering on?
is this a right i have to wrong?

is there  ***SOMETHING***?!?!
i'm exhausting.
can't do nothing right.

wanna please you, but can't just feed ya...
what you'd like,
or what's "right"

come on, just feed me all the answers!
put me in the right light...
it's glowing red, it's glowing red
it's burning me a damn fright!

i'm ghastly, i'm ghastly
i know it, i know it
i'm translucent...

I'M GLOWING!!
...never ever wanna show it.

05 Casting Couch

i will eventually post the version with vocals and melodies and lyrics

but i will probably post that version when i post the finished album looooool

04 "charlie brown, you sad sack of shit!"

hold on!
i'm not your secret to tell!
trade secret glances?
yeah, we....
we hide em well...

but we don't talk about em so,
we don't break the spell....

YEAH!!!
...
Yeeaaaaah....
....
......yeah??

03 spell

construct in a construct:
i complicate shit so!
i can never make it easy.
keep a modicum of control

but then, why do i 
always seem to find myself 
in tighter binds as time goes by?

another benchmark,
then a benchmark!
then another and another
and another and another

and then once one passes,
yeah, you wait for the next!
then you wait and you wait,
then there's nothing left!

mime something like composure!
project as if it's true...
try to forget it's a misnomer!
cuz what's the hell else is there left to do?

except sit and whine,
and keep wondering why you keep wondering why?

(oh, why do i?? oh god do i find myself...)

...in these tighter binds that gets tighter
with the pasing of time!

02 Tighter Binds

keep up with the delusion: "everything's okay"
inkling of a notion permeating my brain,
that i should wake up,
"OH, THAT I SHOULD WAKE UP!!"

a permanent fugue state 
is my day today (to day)
questioning everything that i know
oh no!

just tell me if i've woken up!!??
just tell me if i've woken up??

every night i go to sleep,
i dream three weeks at a time
discombobulating wondering, "what's real, and what's lies??"
and i need you to tell me otherwise

01 Fugue Grant

lol i made this summer 2017 in like 30 minutes on the floor in the bathroom of the hotel room i was sharing with my little brother in Osaka in Japan

and like
it's still by far one of the best things i've ever made
everything besides the drums and the 808 bass is my voice
like no synths
just me sampling my voice, tryna hold a perfect c note, into a shitty apple earphone mic, while my brother is tryna watch local japanese television on the hotel tv.

Jonathan Bahk

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