i remember when i had first discovered ethanjewell... dang its been two years

happy things can give you flowers but sometimes you cant help but give other people your flowers and there's nothing you can do to fix that because seeing people in a place you were moments ago hurts and you dont want them to feel the pain you did

It feels so nice to be a therapist friend, seeing everyone else happy. But it’s so draining too especially when nobody else is there to comfort you too.

a flower, blooming and growing. to say that i wish u well and a happy day. but really I don't care, I'm just as broken, get over yourself. but I don't say this. I give another flower and hope the friendship ends like the flower. but I pretend its not

all the flowers people seem to give me are the dead ones ha it's funny because I've them the most beautiful flowers but all I seem to get are the dead ones but I'll still give you the best because of not why am I even here. right ?

i kinda need a hug

ethans rewrite of bo burnham's "that funny feeling" 

funny feeling - ethan nestor

mawce - everybody's worried about owen

I Wanna Be a Boy

Here's the first out of two free remixes to thank you all for the amazing support so far and that you've helped me break 200k likes on Facebook! Hope you guys like it :)

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M83 - Wait (Kygo Remix)

Unsweetened Lemonade

2025-09-15-214136245_16092025.m4a

TOUCH

when will i feel this
as vivid as it truly is,
fall in love in a single touch,
and fall apart when it hurts too much?

can we skip past near-death clichés
where my heart restarts, as my life replays?
all i want is to flip a switch
before something breaks that cannot be fixed.

i know, i know- the sirens sound
just before the walls come down.
pain is a well-intentioned weatherman
predicting God as best he can,
but God i want to feel again.

rain or shine, i don’t feel a thing,
just some information upon my skin.
i miss the subtle aches when the weather changed,
the barometric pressure we always blamed.

all i want is to flip a switch
before something breaks that cannot be fixed.

invisible machinery,
these moving parts inside of me
well, they’ve been shutting down for quite some time,
leaving only rust behind.

well i know, i know- the sirens sound
just before the walls come down.
pain is a well-intentioned weatherman
predicting God as best he can,
but God i want to feel again,
oh God i want to feel again.

down my arms, a thousand satellites
suddenly discover signs of life.

Atlas  Touch

A song about my personal experience transitioning from female to male and my transformed relationship from being my dads daughter to being his son. 

DAUGHTER available everywhere 4/11/18: 
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6GbYypkPUOxX9FdLsIvtCv?si=WADpfRK9Tm-ehMkARmzxeA
YouTube: https://youtu.be/IOery7rg2eo

Sponsored by TomboyX: https://tomboyx.com/

Billboard Magazine Interview about "Daughter": https://www.billboard.com/articles/news/pride/8301656/ryan-cassata-daughter-video-interview-coming-out-trans

Written & Performed by Ryan Cassata, Recorded by Nate Evans

bouquet-poem by Ethan Jewell [tiktok audio]

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