Berceuse Movie (ft. Yanoski)

TELLEMENT (ft. Valentin Muzard) prod. Valentin Muzard

GRIS

T A P E  N A N T E S


                    N O H J O
                                         N Y T R O M
          Y A N O S K I
                                                    Y A B K I D D
                         K U M S
                                          B A G O U T

  
                            C H A M B R E 4  
                                 10.07.2021

CALMDOWN - Nytrom X Bagout X Yanoski X Kums

MÉTÉORITE 3 - Nytrom X Bagout X Yanoski

BUSTDOWN - Yabkidd X Yanoski X Bagout X Kums

REALLIFE - Nohjo X Yanoski X Bagout X Nytrom

Nytrom à la guitaracha
Jacob pour le J
Bagout pour le bagout 

SPACE SHIT - Bagout X Jacob P

JOHNSON - Bagout X Jacob P (prod. Rodrigue Duvat)

Sur moi

Beat: Arizona - Exclusive rights bought on TuneVibe.

Lyrics:

Christmas is hard for my mom cause she aint got no mom left
Christmas is hard cause we're together but I got no God left
My whole family loves me but I feel like I got no one to talk to
Grief and all these things, problems I dont wanna tackle

Look at me now tell me how many I got left in the barrel
My mind's dying from the weight, I hear myself crackle
I wanna die but I love my family way too much to shoot myself
Should I do it in my room, or OD quietly in a York hotel

I swear I was getting over it in real life but my dreams haunt me
I keep telling myself I could just go there too and we'd be happy
They keep visiting me telling me they'll be back soon
But it's been four years homie.

Scared of losing my people, I just became paranoid
If I don't trust you I wont eat a thing you made for me
Saving money for the gate and fence of my first property
Saving money cause my mind will never be free

Not trusting doctors because that's how my grandparents got murdered
I don't need no one around me to carry my burden
Drinking expensive wine so no one knows I have a problem with alcohol
To be honest I dont think I can make it even the support of you all

I wanna die, maybe later this month after my job interview
Maybe after that, before I turn 23 in june
Maybe in october, after my little brother's birthday
I'm not finding excuses I'm trying not to hurt anybody

Sadness and guilt, my emotions collide
I wanna end it but I'm way too polite
Tired of being burned I walked away from the fire
Keep smiling Emily, just one more hour pretending you're fine

-- To be honest Christmas sucks, but I dont wanna ruin it, fuck
Looking for some help, but nobody's here to back me up
I dont care about the world without me
I just want to live another life without me

No I didnt cry, just got some dust in my eye
I'm walking on the street thinking of guns and speeding cars
I'm just waiting to get rich to prove my parents I didnt fail life
I don't hide my skeletons, I carry them with me, yeah how does it feel like?

People dont like to hang out with me cause they dont know how to handle me
I laugh all the time so I dont have to answer questions about how I'm doing
I keep fooling around so no one asks me about my feelings
God make sure this one will be successful cause I dont want to justify it

I'm living my life day by day, 
Trying not to die between the takes
Man my grandparents they still torture me
When I think I'm falling asleep they still talk to me
	
Bury me in York and wear that Kanye smile
You know I'm better off like this than alive
Bury me in York, with my Glock and my dog
Line me up in chalk, at church I wont need you to talk

I was the black sheep of the family, the big sister
The one you saw and knew wouldnt last forever
I'mma get tatted again, drop my mixtape then I can go
Like mission accomplished, soldier

When my grandparents died I kept their big old bible
Been trying to survive for four years, in full denial
Shooting myself with my grandfather's rifle
I just need to complete the cycle, I'm suicidal.

Notes for when it's too late

Emily J The Rapper

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