i don’t know why life’s so unfair
i close my eyes and you’re still there 
your face, your voice lives in my head
don’t know what to do

i thought of me as someone free
but i am not free to make you feel
this love i hide inside of me
you will never know

i laugh like everything’s okay
hurts having you just as a friend
walking away would be so sad
but wanting what i can’t have just breaks my heart

don’t worry,  i’m sure we’ll find ourselves dancing together, together 
and flying like two young butterflies forever
but not in this life

a long time passed since we first met
you always looked the other way
like billie said “wish you were gay”
help me understand why

i get so lost inside your eyes
i’m stripping all my feelings and
showing you who i truly am
but for what?

i laugh like everything’s okay
hurts having you just as a friend
walking away would be so sad
but wanting what i can’t have just breaks my heart

don’t worry,  i’m sure we’ll find ourselves dancing together, together 
and flying like two young butterflies forever
but sadly 
not in this life
no
not in this life
tell me why
why?
why not in this life?

i wish we were strangers
didn’t ask to feel this much
everything around me is starting to fade into black and white 
don’t feel guilty, who am i to be
in love with you?
if we’re just fucking friends
fucking friends.

Tobias Sanjuan