Work In Progress (prod. Switch)

Single taken from my sophomore album, PINK SUN BLOSSOM. 

Give a listen to this and the other 6 tracks off the album!

Burgundy Road (prod. SCOTTIE FLAME$!)

Over The Moon (prod. tennis player)

Ride (prod. TBA Beats)

2021 (prod. machew)

That's On God (prod. Alldaynightshift)

My mental state's an aquarium, a fish tank
Livin' in the corner of the glass, seaweed safety tape
Water still, with friends and family swirlin' over
Hopin' I open up, climb out this rock of closure

The blue rocks become grey of confusion
The devil paints them red with blood "I'm the solution"
I tried to traverse on my own
But the water becomes choppy, feel safer behind these stones

Will God be there to feed me when I'm hungry?
Will He look in the glass, happy that He chose me?
Do I have purpose?
Will I know if I swim up to the surface?
What if it's painful? What if it's worthless?
What if I feel suicidal, even worse then I first did?
But I'm tired of being comfy
I wanna see what's beyond the ceiling they put above me

I want my tank to be an ocean
Free of depressions and emotions
I just gotta swim
If the water rages, I can't stop, I'm all in
The air will choke me
My first test, will I be blessed? 
Or will He grab me
And look me in my eyes and say "Son, you're not worthy"

FISH TANK

Rainbow water speakers lighting up my dim room
Tears in your eyes
HOOD HOLSOM where's the real you?
You picked what door was safe
Now you sit in bible college, knowing life is gone to waste
Sleepin' in till 4pm, feelin' kinda drowsy
Got a couple F's on your card
Face the facts, boy, you lousy
In a place you thought was holiest ground
Is the darkest dimension, dorm room is now your cell

You let the devil choose
You thought there'd be redemption, now look at you
Alone in a bed, your faith lies on red
And these thoughts have intentions of killin' you
Ceiling stars grow dim, your ambitions grow slim
Being a minister was a box I was forced in
Now you see the shadows
In a Christian college, mind livin' in the gallows

Snap back to reality
Your life's zero gravity
With no set strategy
Life not going happily
You gave up so easily
Tried to live so peacefully
Live on autopilot, thinkin' God would fix the seams
Look at you on the ropes
No feeling of love or the Holy Ghost
In a sea of faces, here lies a lonely soul
You chose this life man, depression takes it's toll

Look at you bro, livin' out a false life
Sleepless late nights
Would anyone really care if I end my life?
That smile wears off over time
Mental breakdown's show that you livin' a lie
You look at razor's funny now
What's so scary HOLSOM, let the devil teach you how
Internal battles always leave these lasting scars
Bleedin' in the chapel, feelin' liek God's too far

You pastor child, the church is all you know 
Sittin' in the pews "why's your life so low?"
They prayed over you so many times
Did that child-like faith in you just die?
You weakling
Useless, cold and disgusting
No drive, no love, there is nothing
Just jealous thoughts and judging
Face the facts bro, spiritually dying

Like anyone cares
No one's knocking on that door askin' if you're there
Open it man, I dare you, face your sad reality
You came to find God, now a noose would fit you nicely

Is this faith really worth it
When you're in a chapel questioning the God you worship?
This cycle has gone for 4 years bro, where is He?
You've cried and begged for a miracle, bruises on your knees
"God please heal my body and mind"
I've said this already Lord, tell me, when's my time?
Open the door for me, give me a sweet escape
I need a reset, because all that resides is hate

I need a break Lord, but can I open the door?
Will this pain continue, my whole life to endure?
Or is there a light that I'm waiting to see?
Will the end bring the peace that I truly need?

This my last shot
My last dance
My one last attempt
And my last chance
Open the door Lord, let me get a glance
I'm leaving now Lord
It lies in Your hands
I'm gone

HOLSOM

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