Force Field PR Jan. / Feb. 2019 Playlist

Circus Of Dreams

"Mirror" is the title track from our debut LP to be released February 1, 2019.  
Preorder the record on 2xLP Double Vinyl at balms.bandcamp.com

Balms are Jared Padovani, Michael Ascunsion, and John Kolesnikow • Written by Balms • Recorded by Jack Shirley at The Atomic Garden, East Palo Alto, CA • Mixed by Justin Gerrish at Hook & Fade Studios, Brooklyn, NY • Mastered by Justin Weiss at Trakworx, San Francisco, CA • Art by John Kolesnikow

Mirror

━━━━━━━━☆ʙʀᴜɪsᴇs ᴀɴᴅ sᴀᴛɪɴ☆━━━━━━━━
here we are 
here we go 
can we do this
i'm not sure

bruises and satin 
and spiderwebs to catch him

you make me feel like i'd be happy if i tried
you make me want to put some effort in my life 

too much of my time
too much of my life
writing songs for people
while the stars fall from the sky
i hate it when i cry 
you said you didn't mind
you hold me and i fight back 
all the tears that fill my eyes

i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry 
that i 
i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry 
started crying 
started crying 
started crying 

[bruises and satin
and spiderwebs to catch him]

you make me feel like i'd be happy if i tried
you make me want to put some effort in my life

i'm so sorry 
i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry 
that i 
i'm so sorry 
i'm so sorry
i'm so sorry

bruises and satin

━━━━━━━━☆ɢʟᴏʀɪᴏᴜs ᴅɪsᴀsᴛᴇʀ☆━━━━━━━━
by this time next year
you'll be wanting to forget about me
can i make this clear
you know nothing, nothing about me

i always jump the gun
at least i'm having fun
i always jump the gun

you lay your head 
on my chest and
you hear the things
i haven't said yet
you cleaned my scars
and touched my stitches
tear me apart
that's what my wish is

i still regret the way i kissed you
addicted to the thought of rescue
but i was just, a flightless dove
a vision of, my tortured virtue

[i am a glorious disaster
poison, your heart is beating faster]

i wanna hear 
all the things that you're thinking about me
you told me dear
 you don't know what to do now without me

i always jump the gun
at least i'm havin fun
i always jump the gun 

you love me cause you wanna fix me
your labyrinth, your greatest mystery
it's written in my family history
please sign right here to indicate you're missing me

[i am a glorious disaster
poison, your heart is beating faster]

glorious disaster

━━━━━━━━☆ғᴏʀɢᴇᴛ ᴍᴇ ɴᴏᴛ☆━━━━━━━━
if you saw the way 
i tried to save myself so i could swim
if i had a guess its probably best 
if you dont let me in

i'm so tired of the people 
who just tell me to relax
if i had to guess its probably best
for you to check the facts

and if you know it can be hard to forget
it's been three years and i still haven't slept

[forget me
forget me not
you left me 
you left me to rot
forget me 
forget me not yet]

i wish that i could flip a switch
or take a pill to make it better
you say that it can't rain forever
but i'm fucking tired of this weather

one of these days they say
that i will wake up
this is just a phase
if i could guess you're just upset
you can't have everything your way

and if you know it can be hard to forget
it's been three years and i still haven't slept

[forget me
forget me not
you left me 
you left me to rot
forget me 
forget me not yet]

i don't think i'll ever learn my lesson
you ignore the facts 
so i'm still second guessing

forget me not

━━━━━━━━☆ᴅᴀʏ ʙʏ ᴅᴀʏ/ʙᴏx ᴏғ ᴄᴀʀᴅs☆━━━━━━━━
i stole a pocketwatch 
from the last place 
that i saw your face
i stole a box of cards
from that corner store 
where we used to say

i'm tired of this rundown
i feel like everything
just starts to feel the same

[day by day]

i freeze up when you talk
and i don't know what i should say
i tried to impress you 
and that's the price i have to pay

i'm tired of this rundown
i feel like everything
just starts to feel the same

[day by day
it's never gunna change]

Circus Of Dreams

Jonny Kosmo