This is the closing track from "Grandmas Flat", and for so many reasons.

This is the first track I made starting off this project for a video I made, only I fizzled out after changing key from this 10 mins afterwards. So I cut it off in the fade out setting. Ok so as i've recorded more and this story and made itself. Also Inspired by a recent friend I've met who had a neglected old male stray cat turn up at his house one day to finally settle down. Although was skittish at first, he is now always sat there on the roof, bins, or outhouse watching me, a black and white cat now with the name of "Nobby". This is also based from the eyes of an old cat who got lost, ready to retire & settle down somewhere new. This actually based on my oldest friends cat Charlie, the cat who had a brief fling with my own cat Sybil back in the mid 1990s, impregnating her & giving birth to four kittens. Faydra, Django, Brutus (my grandmas old cat) and another female kitten who was given to my grandmas old friend. Sadly, the real life Brutus was never photographed, and i've been wondering what he looked like entirely, specially as he was something I knew growing up. And I only learnt of what happened to Charlie a few months before recording this, who is supposedly identical to Brutus. He went out and never came back home again. Something about my friend suggesting "He's probably still out there" really stuck with me, and I think I knew this recording was coming. It was something I could think about for a long time. I had this idea of Charlie being known as "The legend", and he apparently this big fat fluffy black cat that always loved showing off and lying on the carpet. There was a time he once brought in a badger one morning, and you could put your feet on him, giving him the nickname of "The slipper". 

Not so long ago, after already basing the story on this mystery cat, I asked my friend for some photos of him. When I finally saw him, he was exactly what I pictured, and also the twin of Brutus. The memory and picture I had of Brutus came straight back. The legend finally lives on. His whole look and face goes with the old flat perfectly. I now remember I used to call him "Bruce" as he had such a look to him. He was always on the bed with grandma & said not to pet him too hard as he can bite. So yes, the legends do live on in photos. 

In the actual music though, the track ends with Charlie, (The identical dad of Brutus) making his way back to find the right house, finally finding it in the form of grandmas flat, who is now feeling isolated after the disappearance of Brutus in "Where Are You Today?" looking back on previous pets & memories. He scratches on the door with "let me in, let me in, let me in" before fading out completely, ending the album. For all we know, he was let in, the old woman thought it was Brutus and it ends well for the two.

The Legend Lives On

Queens Drive

Follows on from "Queens Drive". The house is rundown, life is isolated, but this is how they chooses to live, and won't let anyone change them.

My Free Will

The in-between track Linked with "Brutus" and "The Legend Lives On"

The vibe from is more of a personal reminder of Django, my oldest friends cat, who I remember, but believe I never spent enough time with, specially when I learnt he was one of Sybils kittens. Tbh, anything in A flat major reminds me of that house the early memories associated with it anyway. Now despite his similar colour going with Brutus and Charlie, all I see in him, specially his face & eyes is Sybil, and the early memories I had in the house. In the fictional addition to this story. "Grandmas" cat goes missing, and suddenly, everything slowly falls apart, considering he would have been the only other living being in the flat.

Where Are You Today?

Brutus

I'll bring it all back
I'll tell it all clear
All hell was out here.

You came up to me
Said we're meant to be
Couldn't feel it
As i'm always so slow
What do I know

You say i'm the cure
I am not so sure
Why do it lie to you?
Why would I have a clue?

So i'll give you my heart,
to drift them apart,
All of the things I'll give
So I keep you alive
I'll make sure you'll thrive
Be able to take control

Where do we go from here?
Where do I go for you?
You want me to make you better
I'll help you, it's cool, mean it with every letter

You wanted to tell me
They're not part of your life
I'll only keep you alive
I'm all of your own upkeep

You say you're the cure
I am not so sure
"Not going to lie to you?
Why would they cry for you?"

So i'll give up my heart,
to drift us apart,
All of the friends I'll leave
But they'll keep us alive
And then you will thrive
You need to take control

Where do we go from here?
Where do I go for you?
You want me to break the code
Give you it all, but build up a load

I wanted to tell you
I'm not part of your life
I cannot keep you alive
You're part of your own upkeep

I am so unsure
This isn't so pure
Why do I lie to you?
Why would I lie to you?

So, you'll give up your heart,
to tear me apart,
All of the fears you'll leave
But they'll keep you alive
And then you will thrive
Once you take control

Where do I go from here?
Where do I keep clear from you?
You wanted to break every bone
Give up it all, if I left you alone

Everybody warned me,
Everybody let me know
Keep away & go

Why do you bring me here?
When am I in the clear?
Will I breathe, with nothing but fear?
Nothing but fear?

--- instrumental section

I've found that i've read
You've told me you're dead?

Taking Control

They'll All Come Back

From When Ghosts Were Stars

Just like 2016, I go back to Barningham church to stay the hell away from some scum.

Lane Diary