sorry that it ends so abruptly :3
cover picture photographed by jixijaaa @dixiiita (on instagram)

curl up n die - matt maltese

i know there's still a part of me
that longs to bring back all the memories
of your face and your smile
i find it so hard to erase

in the night
i try to close these eyes
but every time i drift to sleep
it only takes me back to you

i cant seem to let go
i'm still stuck in my old ways
but I'll be alright, be alright

stuck in my old ways

i wonder if i'll ever finish a beat tape

just kidding, I did and you can find it here: https://statepark.bandcamp.com/

coasting

does she treat you better than i did
does she sings you favorite songs
as you fall asleep while you're lying in her arms
i hope she does, I really hope she does

now that you're gone 
i'm finding it hard to sleep
now that you're gone
days seem a little blue

why does it have to end this way
shouldn't we at least have a little chance
but i hope she treats you better 
better than i did
and i hope you're happier with her 
than you were with me

now that you're gone 
i'm finding it hard to sleep
now that you're gone
days seem a little blue

gone

childhood memories

alone in a darkened room
sipping my last cup of tea
covering my head with these sheets
thoughts of you wont let me sleep

tired of losing people a long the way
tired of tossing and turning all day
thinking about what went wrong
and what i could've said 
and what i could've done
unsaid thoughts are the worst of all

people come and go 
nothing stays the same
i know that you won't stay

tired of losing people a long the way
tired of tossing and turning all day
thinking about what went wrong
and what i could've said 
and what i could've done
unsaid thoughts are the worst of all

sleep deprived

please save me from this mess 
i'm finding it hard to breathe
some days i just feel so alone
left with these melancholic thoughts 

so i'll fake a smile 
pretend that everything's fine
people wouldn't notice 
the sadness i hide so well
sorry you're not happy anymore
drive away, up the hill out of here

try to forget what's in your head
but i've reached the peak of my sanity
i'm drowning in here 
i'm screaming but no one could hear

please save me from this mess 
i'm finding it hard to breathe
some days i just feel so alone
left with these melancholic thoughts

melancholic thoughts

S I L E N Z I O (night)

Gloom

my debut EP, all written, recorded and produced by yours truly. thank you so much for all the support <3

LIMITED EDITION physical CDs with lyrics + photo booklets available at lazygirl.bandcamp.com/releases

special thanks to brandon (soundcloud.com/theoriginalbrandonsmith) for mastering, and to my beautiful soul sister phoebe abbott for shooting the cover (instagram.com/phoebem00n/).

S I L E N Z I O (night)

Sabila El Fath