becoming what i lost w/ Fallen Oceans

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

Someone remind her she’s doing so well…..


Lyrics:

Her mom passed when she was eight 
And she’s never felt the same
 but that’s okay 
And Her dad turned to the alcohol 
Poor girl living in a broken home
With too much on her plate
Someone remind her she’s doing so well
You’ve come so far should be proud of yourself 
Self harm scars from what you endured 
It’s a sign of your strength love 


I could never resonate with what you had been through 
Rehab didn’t work for him but it could you
I know you feel like the spare missing part
To your favourite jigsaw you used to love 


Yea I know it’s hard for you
 I can’t even fathom what your going through 
Your beautiful inside and out
God I wish I was you 
I wish you could see yourself in my eyes
Your so beautiful to me

Broken Home (twilight blue)

then, i saw myself

a collection of songs that you maybe will see yourself in

dedicated to rose and onlyfriend, two people that see in me what i can't always see myself

huge thank you to shizukesa for providing a beautiful verse on revisionist

thank you for listening

revisionist (feat shizukesa) [prod surp]

"Watch You Leave (feat. Ivri & Brecken)"
Produced by Ocean

 Thank you all who listen

*lyrics*
It's kind of odd watching you be a person I can't recognize but I'm glad you're okay
And I'm not used to the emotional withdrawal, could i get a hug before you drift away?
The winter season how it loves to mock me, I can't be who you need, it’s written all on your face
If awkward silence and a two word answer is the best you can do it's time we go our own ways

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Why do I make it worse than it has to be
You could let me try
Or I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave
I could watch you leave, me

Never knew love life could be this bad
Crashed out
Put down
I never knew life could be this sad but
Troubled minds think alike

I'd love to think that it's all in my head,
but that's a lie

I heard that you wanted me dead, blocked now and I know it depends
On how I sin with my friends
Blew clouds, and I'll do it again

Wake up, I don't wanna live another day if I don't change up
I hope I change up

Most days, Most nights, I was walking by myself
You took my side, I knew I wanted nothing else
But the clouds move too quickly, I can't stop the weather
Took my heart just to keep it for yourself

Too many nights without you
My brain lacks all the right screws
Time might well be overdue

Watch You Leave w/ Ivri & Brecken (Prod. Ocean)

lyrics ⬇️

its not a problem til we wake up
botlles everywhere it’s dangerous 
you got tears all on ur make up
but i dont wanna hear whats made up

you been telling me some lies
 and i dont wanna live a life
where everything is made up
tnink we gotta make a change up
like
truth be told if you mess with a light bulb
then the darkness shakes you
you wont see no rearveiw

never thought so light of someone 
also thought youd be here in a month
all alone yea you dont hit me up
I been checkin on your profile like i dont see no one

Maybe this means that i lost now
every other app i look at i been blocked now
yea
i just hope you know what i had i been thru
ii been missin you like very night i miss you
I do

(notahero)

i’ve been sending u signals telepathically girl
can u hear them right before u fall asleep
i think everybody starts out as good
but i can see the evil that’s been shared by u and me
roll down the window i can’t breathe
i won’t partake in this hotbox
i’m certain
and u blow out
now there’s a wall of fog so i can’t see u
and this february, i could fall apart
and my eyes green to gray
they’re so heavy but
that’s what happens when ur messing with a lightbulb
i told her baby girl some things are better untold
i’ll see u soon girl don’t u realize it’s a cycle
and at the end of it she’ll say that i look better with my eyes closed

broken light bulbs w/ notahero & halfhearted (cxrter x vito)

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with your broken apologies 

rough times when id go gome and ik that ur not there
dumb crimes got me thinkin that nobody aware
well trust me im aware
trust me im aware

aware of the things that ive done
Nobody can hide under the sun
gimme closure so that i dont wanna run
i need you to say that i wasnt the one

fun times used to lay back 
dumb lies made me back track
cold eyes all that you had
when i
 really fell back

wanted life to feel like an adventure 
come back I apologize for my temper
one job and i really put it in the blender
no wood for the fire in the winter

somehow life goes on
drive home with the windows down
find out what tbeyre talking about
eyes focused on the shapes of the clouds

when the highway ends i hope that you’ll remember me
no life but a bottle of memories
cant die cuz you drive by me constantly 
flooded mind with my broken apologies 

no chance
broekn heart in advance
green vans no belt for my pants no glam
they all so judgy nowdays its like a scam
got no drip got no fans got no chance

thats cap
ima run it up and run it back
yea ima get my money up and get some fans
might catch me in a bentley truck in japan

no matter what it takes
if your hearts at the bottom of the lake
dont stay cuz i promise theres a way
dont cave cuz i know you wanna say
what you never thought youd ever get to say
take a run if you been outta shape
Thats love if you push through the pain
no drugs could ever maintain
the love that you couldn’t bring 

enough with all of the things
stuck up inside of my head
time to push them down the drain
and finally get me some rest

when the highway ends i hope that we could somhow be friends
i wonder if ur listening
to everything that’s happening 

but if you are then you know that i been wrong
wrongly torn apart 
so i wrote another song
you said that wed go far
maybe thats just what i want
Life isn’t too hard if you just look up to god

tell me that i could do better tban this
you look at my heart and say better than that
i dont know what the best medicine is

look up and you will find that

heartbreak on the highway (cxrter x yunnygoldz)

cedar street w/ evergarden

from my soul
featuring: @greenwood2000
produced by: @trplgmni
art by: @tamagotchu

lyrics:
can you blame me for the reply?
couple months had to get by
now instead of waiting outside
i found a way to live a new life
another lens, check the replay
look at all the shit thats been changed
always tough in the deep grey
but i made it out unscathed
if i don’t even remember
its because i’m doing better
wooden necklace & a keen eye
gotta feeling that i’m

blinded by the downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

greenwood: 
killing time before the door
more than life, more than you know
thought it's different, i was told

lost touch the way it is
further from the places that we've been
despite the mess i'm in
over and over
the state i'm waking in
the bed's been feeling colder
i'm ashamed to say it doesn't fit anyone without you
never did

i'd wait for you in Spring
i'm changing in the worst way
i'm holding out again this time

(gotta feeling that i’m blinded by the)
downpour outside your house
i’m getting out more, saving for a shred of my doubt
i’ll stick around, tour the places that you care about
i find it funny we’re broken, with just how well that we’re spoken
it took time for me
to get a grasp on what’s real
could you tether to me?
i think i can finally see
a wound so tender it healed
now you can tether to me, baby

tether (ft. greenwood) [triple gemini]

spotify & apple <3

lyrics

i spend every waking moment trying to pick myself up cause im falling apart
just to get back into it the very next day but you heal my soul up in the dark
id try to do it myself but i wouldnt know where to start
save me from hurting my heart baby
i want you to love me
i want you to touch me
and whenever im blinded by this shit be my ears and my eyes whenever i cant see
i hope that you need me
i hope you can hear me
i hope you can grab me and pick me off my feet
just to knock me down again

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

could we make the last time count
everything you say everything i hear right now
save me from myself would you take it back somehow
you don't need to worry i just need to come back down
look where weve been cause im closer to death
i see you laugh when youre talking to him
you got your movies and i got my friends
but im tasting salt in the water again
hold me down
hold me still
is this the place where we begin

and i never rest well, i hope that my healths well
if future repeats itself then i know this wont end well
my mouths on fire sipping in this hotel
oh you know me so well
we cant make this farewell

i play you the song that saved my life but you scroll on your phone
and i cant give everything up for this career to just die unkown
unwillingly, willingly killing my body so leave me alone
ill just stay at home
i hope you can find me there

health w/ greenwood (p. jacob vallen)

ghost

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“cedar street” out now

“halfhearted” on spotify

cedar street w/ evergarden

halfhearted

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