garbage throwaway

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

i cant take another fucking day looking at this imageboard of a girl on r9k
i swear its a new girl everyday but i'll orbit her the same baby wont you look my way

r9k everyday i swear the sites rotting my brain
all the time everyday i think im gonna end it my way

when its time to go home
i'll see you there on my phone
i'll see you again

/r9k/ (unreleased demo)

all the small things cover

little at a time (feat.uxie)

beta orbiter cover (desmi)

misspencilvania instru demo

cover photo by hvrm_reduction/cvtmylosses

track 4

lyrics:

so i guess.
lot of things has changed
but also fucking nothing
im still the same
and im still learning
try and error
im always fucking failing
but the way i failed in your eyes rly got me thinking
I can't reall change
but i will die trying
suppress all the filth
be a fucking decent human being???
leave it up to me
to fuck it all up
after all it is my life
im sorry i let u down

so heey
im back
same stories different ppl
think by now i should've been wiser
but i caaant
live uppp
to who u wanted me to be
but I'll get back up on my feet
im so sorry

say im a xo willow clone
while u make fucking scenecore
have u ever heard something like this
i think u are full of shit
i have the right tools in my hands
a little bit of talent in my brain
a few things i want to say
ur sound is awful it's all the same

idc about u ppl
sharing ur songs in discord servers
friends jerking off in the comments
stressing over numbers and plays

say what u want about me
too many friends lost i stopped counting
yk I'll always be there if u change ur mind
but i can't see in ur head so for now it's goodbye

im so sorry

the day that I turned 17
I knew that my life would keep goin downhill
from now on I just wanna sleep
I wanna slit my wrists and leave this world

but I know it's not that ez
so I'll wait til I turn 18
i'll buy a gun with one bullet
then I'll finally end it
maybe ill end up on tv

I fucked up my entire life
at this point im not gonna try
I wanted something to remain
something to remember me by 
but now I guess im too lazy
I'll just go quietly baby 
my life is miserable as hell
so Ill blow my brains out rn

and now that i'm supposed to be
going into college early
I dont know what I should think
I'm just doing things because people told me

the one thing that I want more than this
is to have a bullet in my head
and people dont want this for me
I wont listen to them when I turn 18

I fucked up my entire life
at this point im not gonna try
I wanted something to remain
something to remember me by 
but now I guess im too lazy
I'll just go quietly baby 
my life is miserable as hell
so Ill blow my brains out rn

People Won't Remember Me

They say that being scared
Is part of growing up 
But even if I was all alone
I'd still be throwing up

No one seems to hear me
No matter how much I've said it
Every step's a mistake
On the path I am headed

Someone please take the wheel
I think I'm too young to drive
When things are getting a way too real
I wonder if I'm too young to die

Cuz I

I've got no guts
My soul is dull and lonely
I've got no guts
So don't act like you know me

I've got no guts
And I'm never gonna make it
I've got no guts
And there's no point in fakin'

I cry and say I feel bad
When I run from my problems
Because if I didn't do that
Then I'd have to try and solve them

I'm not strong enough to change
And I'm too lazy to care
I reach out for a friend
But I know no one is there

We feel things for each other
But every man dies alone
There ain't no future for me now
But that's something I've always known

This planet's filled with despair
And loneliness everlasting
So I'll pray for a world
A world as empty as me

I've got no guts
My soul is dull and lonely
I've got no guts
So don't act like you know me

I've got no guts
And I'm never gonna make it
I've got no guts
And there's no point in fakin'

No Guts (I Got)

(Re-Upload since I forgot to record a backing guitar in the first cut and it sounded not great)

Hanging out with my pals, goofing off and joking around
I tell them I been thinking lately about putting myself in the ground
They just look around at each other and laugh really loud
I laugh too and we soon forget what we were talking about

After school I'm walking home, talking with my best friend
I look him in the eyes and say "you might not ever see me again"
He just laughs and punches my arm and says "y'know what man"
"You got a sense of humor I just don't understand"

I don't have to cry for help, everybody can already tell that
Me being here means I'm too scared, and even if I wasn't they wouldn't care
I'm only alive on this earth because I can't get the nerve 
To do what everybody wants me to

Die, please die, please die. please die
And cry if you need to
Die, please die, please die. please die
And please, do it soon

I'm sitting on the couch with my mom, watching what's on the TV
I ask her if she'd do it all over, and if she'd wanna keep me
She doesn't say anything at all, just looks at me and blinks
Then she says of course but I can tell that she had to think

My little sister calls me up sometimes just to ask me how I am
She tries to empathize and pretend she can understand
I drop some hints here and there about my thoughts of death
She just sighs and says that I should do what I think is best

I don't have to cry for help, everybody can already tell that
Me being here means I'm too scared, and even if I wasn't they wouldn't care
I'm still only on this earth because I can't get the nerve 
To do what everyone wants me to

Die, please die, please die. please die
And cry if you need to
Die, please die, please die. please die
And please, do it soon

Everyday the feeling grows and everyone around me knows
No one says anything, they're all ready to see me go
Always used to wonder if my life was meant to be
I don't have to anymore, everybody made it plain to see

Everyone wants me gone and I'm happy to oblige
Frankly speaking I'm tired of seeking love I'll never find
Friends and family all wanna see me underneath the ground six feet
So when I leave don't make a scene and act like you're gonna miss me

I don't have to cry for help, everybody can already tell that
Me being here means I'm too scared, and even if I wasn't they wouldn't care
I'm only alive on this earth because I can't get the nerve 
To do what everybody wants me to

Die, please die, please die. please die
And cry if you need to
Die, please die, please die. please die
And please, do it soon

Die, please die, please die. please die
And cry if you need to
Die, please die, please die. please die
And please, do it soon

Please Die

About a girl who looks like Alyson Hannigan circa Buffy The Vampire Slayer era

misspencilvania instru demo

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