In those days when all is cold
And gone are friends of old
And winter’s all you know
The time just moves too slow

Fear knocks at the door
But now you can’t ignore 
Missing the days back before
Your heart was sent to war

But hold on to me
The sun is rising over everything
So hold tight and don’t let go
I can see the dark begin to glow

Your day is soon to come
But the waiting feels so numb
Don’t forget where you come from
For the strength to overcome

And hold on to me
The sun is rising over everything
So hold tight and don’t let go
I can see the dark begin to glow

See the tapestry of colors in the sky
A new day is dawning just for you and I
See horizons falling down
The sun is breaking out
Take my hand let’s walk into the light
Take my hand let’s walk into the light

And hold on to me
The sun is rising over everything
So hold tight and don’t let go
I can see the dark begin to glow
I can see the dark begin to glow
I can see the dark begin to glow

Dark Begin to Glow

I do not know your story 
I do not know your past 
I do not know where you’ve been 
And I do not know where you’re at 
But I can see that your heart is tired 
From chasing after smoke all day long 
You may be living in the night 
But I am here to lead you to the dawn 
 
So would you open your heart to me 
I can see inside of you a seed                
It’s yet to grow but it’s been sown 
Just needs some watering 
Together you and I will walk to spring 
 
I don’t want to be your teacher 
Or some other wise guy you know 
I just want to be there with you 
Whether you’re feeling high or low 
This journey wasn’t meant for one man 
Wandering all alone 
Doing his best not to stumble  
As he walks down this winding dirt road 
 
So would you open your heart to me 
I can see inside of you a seed                
It’s yet to grow but it’s been sown 
Just needs some watering 
Together you and I will walk to spring 

So would you open your heart to me 
I can see inside of you a seed          
It’s yet to grow but it’s been sown 
Just needs some watering
Together you and I, together you and I 
Together you and I will walk to spring

Walk to Spring

Alone way back when
The whole world was caving in
All the weight on my soul
Giving out almost letting go
So much I didn’t know
Tried to make it on my own
But so cold I still felt
I began to ask myself

What if I slip? What if I fall?
Will I have anyone to call?
All by myself
Can’t overcome
Marching to the beat of my own drum
Two are better than one
Two are better than one

Prayed to God bring me brothers
Seeking you no others
Had to wait but they showed up
You blessed the boys and you filled my cup
So no more will I wander
In search of those I longed for
Cause their light leads me onward
I’m not left alone to wonder

What if I slip? What if I fall?
Will I have anyone to call?
All by myself
Can’t overcome
Marching to the beat of my own drum
Two are better than one
Two are better than one

What if you slip? What if you fall?
Will you have anyone to call?

Two Are Better

I thought I’d give You my heart and head on back to my life  
Then all of a sudden I got nowhere to hide 
Should’ve read the fine print before I sent Your invite 
I was feeling pretty comfy I don’t need no divine 
But You said give me a chance take my hand and I’ll guide 
You think you’re living your best but you’re not really alive 
Might sound crazy to you but come on give it try 
You’ll never know how to live until you learn how to die 
So leave your shame at the door and push your sin to the side 
And while you’re at it go ahead and say goodbye to your pride 
You see the road to destruction it’s so easy and wide 
I’m not taking you there but to the highest of heights 
Where you’ll see the world with new sight and new light  
A whole new perspective for the very first time 
And you’ll look back and you’ll wonder what your old life was like 
Before you gave me your heart and I moved right on inside 
 
You stole my heart without permission 
And set me out on a mission 
To tell the world of Your amazing love 
My testimony of Your invasion 
Has given me the motivation 
To live my life worthy of the call 
For You I give it all 
For You I give it all  
I said I’m going all in nothing left no more me 
And when I opened my eyes You were all I could see 
Like a prisoner inside my heart who’s given the key 
To open up the door and walk outside he’s finally free 
Or like a ship that lost its way for years drifting the seas 
Reaching land finding rest because to me it would seem 
If you feel lost or confused or you’re just looking for peace 
Just let go all of the weight and fall on down to your knees 
I tried to compromise with You but then You never agreed 
Because my heart remained so empty ‘till I realized my need 
Was only You and your grace all the rest I should leave 
In the dust with my lust my deceit and my greed 
I can’t keep living these lies that I’m so quick to believe
I’ve grown so tired of this enemy and all of his schemes 
I beg You’ll enter my life fill me up and redeem 
I’ll give You all that I have and go wherever You lead 
 
You stole my heart without permission 
And set me out on a mission 
To tell the world of Your amazing love 
My testimony of Your invasion 
Has given me the motivation 
To live my life worthy of the call 
For You I give it all 
For You I give it all 
For You I give it all 
For You I give it all

Give It All

I don’t know how, to say how I feel
That’s kinda cliché, but never felt so real
I don’t know who told you, not to like who you are
But I can see your body, all covered in scars
 
I barely even know you, but I know you like to smile
And making me laugh, as we drive for miles
This isn’t a love song, I don’t know what it is
But you are so amazing, just though you should know this
 
You’ve got some problems, and I’ve got some too
But the maker of the old, is making us new
The human condition, tells you to be afraid
But I am here to tell you, it’ll all be okay
 
God, why’d you make me like this
Put me in this cold world I don’t wanna risk
Going outside getting frostbite in my heart
It’s safer inside where I can be apart
From the people who can hurt me
Walk this journey on my own
But it’s so hard when I feel alone
I just need to trust somebody right now
But no one ever took the time to teach me how
So I’m just waitin’ for the day my head can lay
Delivered from the fray when I can say
God was here the whole time
Don’t know why I couldn’t see him, I was too blind
But now I know who I am and why I’m here
So I don’t have to live each and every day with this fear
Of what they’ll do to me say to me hate on me breakin’ me
Took so many years for me but finally
I can see You didn’t put me here to play it safe
See there’s a chance for growth everytime my heart breaks
So give me faith one day all of this will change
But for now Imma keep on livin’ in this cage

Frostbite

I don’t want to say that I took you for granted
Look back on my days and realize I regretted
Not taking the time to thank the Lord for this guide He’s given me
Because the time moves fast and our hearts move slow
And the next turn we’re taking the Lord only knows 
So though I don’t want to leave I hear His voice telling me I must go

So what did I do to earn somebody like you?
Where did I go to meet this precious soul
To lift me up when I’m down
And help me search till I’m found
And when my head’s in the clouds
You bring my pride to the ground

It’s you
Where would I be without you?
Where would I be?

The good work He started goes on when you’re gone
And the way that He moved you to move me lives on
Inside the man I’ve become and who I’m yet to be
You led me out of this world into eternity 

So what did I do to earn somebody like you?
Where did I go to meet this precious soul
To lift me up when I’m down
And help me search till I’m found
And when my head’s in the clouds
You bring my pride to the ground

It’s you
Where would I be without you?
Where would I be?

I didn’t know my own name
Thought I was chasing the fame
Saw the world was so fake
But we were one in the same
So I sat with the shame
Pouring down like the rain
Piercing through me the pain
But I could hide it away
I had so many questions
But the wrong point of reference 
Told you all my objections
In response your affection 
Helped me make those connections
Pour out my confessions 
Learning so many lessons
Of my resurrection
Where would I be?
Where would I be?

So what did I do to earn somebody like you?
Where did I go to meet this precious soul
To lift me up when I’m down
And help me search till I’m found
And when my head’s in the clouds
You bring my pride to the ground

It’s you
Where would I be without you?
Where would I be?

Where Would I Be?

Thought I learned my lesson
And made my progression
But now I’m confessin’ all over again
I’ve abused this discretion
With all my transgressions
And it’s been messin’ with my head

Lost sight of the promise
Now trying to harness
All your forgiveness in my soul
Thought my ways were so harmless
Now if I’m being honest
My heart is the hardest thing I know

Have I forgotten when you were singing over me?
Oh, I told myself I’d never leave
Yeah, but now my vision’s fadin’ so suddenly
I need your melody, sing it over me

Falling down to my knees now
Hoping now I can see how
To escape all of my doubt after all
I’m stuck in this gray night
But saw a glimpse of the daylight
Cause you’re standing in plain sight of my heart

Have I forgotten when you were singing over me?
Oh, I told myself I’d never leave
Yeah, but now my vision’s fadin’ so suddenly
I need your melody, sing it over me

With every song that you sing
Feel my heart start beating
And every chorus you bring
This prodigal starts heeling
So keep your song loud and clear
For my wandering heart to hear
And then I’ll know you are near

Cause I have forgotten when you were singing over me?
Oh, I told myself I’d never leave
Yeah, but now my vision’s fadin’ so suddenly
I need your melody, sing it over me

Sing It Over Me

Aches in my head
I just wanna close me eyes
But I’m so scared of the dark
And I don’t know why
Demons in my head
Keeping me up at night
And then I wake up in the morning
Look outside there’s no light
You ask me why I’m talking to myself
I tell you I’m just off the wall
I guess I’m going kinda crazy
But it’s funny come on ain’t we all?
Is there escape or is it fate
To have to stay inside the prison walls
Will they decay or hold the same
I’ll go insane without a friend to call

I hope there’s a happy ending
But I’m not holding the pen
Do I trust the author?
I ask myself again and again
I know what I’m supposed to say
But before I get to answer
The demons take my voice away

I had the flame but the rain came down
And had to put it out
Now making sparks in the dark 
But the fires nowhere to be found
Losing hope start to choke on the smoke
Embers fading fast
Will I have light in the night
Or live a life of downcast

I hope there’s a happy ending
But I’m not holding the pen
Do I trust the author?
I ask myself again and again
I know what I’m supposed to say
But before I get to answer
The demons take my voice away

Is there hope for my soul?
Is there hope for my soul?
I need hope for my soul
I need hope for my soul
Losing hope for my soul
I’m losing hope for my soul

Demons

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Ebenezer

Thank you for listening to my music! I thought it would be a fun challenge to try to self-produce an album, so “Walk to Spring” is my best try at it. It tells the story of walking in community and fellowship through the dark cold seasons of life to the spring where there is new life and new hope. I hope my music has impacted you in some way, and if it has, I’d love to hear about it! This album is also available on Spotify and Apple Music.