i love songs that sound like a lullaby 🤎 thank you for healing my soul

a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

I told you from the start
I disappear when it gets cold 
But you found a way to keep me here
With a body to hold

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I'm sorry i went crazy
I just thought i'd let you know

Taking pictures while you sleep
Leftovers on the table, strangers on the tv
I'm bleeding from my ears
Sneaking out while you're asleep, 𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I miss you, darling

misuse

Misuse, Oh - ethel cain.mp3

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Ethel Cain - Head in the wall (Demo)

a little snippet from a cover of rabid (nicole dollanganger) by ethel cain 

lyrics:

we're the same, we're both rabid animals
got sick heads and minds, we were both born feral
like fields growing high, we're just those dark animals
the sad things at night, we know no control 

rabid (nicole dollanganger cover) - ethel cain

And I don’t wanna talk about love anymore
'Cause it’s getting too much for me
All I do is waste and decline, waiting for that age of my life
When I'm old and love is all that I’ll need

Swaying in the lamplight in my mother’s white gown
Holding out like a dog they’ve yet to put down
I whore out my tears and just keep wasting the best of my years
Like a beauty queen with eyes bleared

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see ?
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

I don’t wanna be in my house anymore
'Cause it just makes me sad
Letting in the wild with every man who brings a world of hurt
With him each time he falls in my bed

Do you just want my blood?
Am I just that damn hard to love?
'Cause it feels like all I have is still just not enough
I guess that I'll just go outside
And watch the fire and fields of gold fly farther away from me

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love turned out to be

But one of these days, it’ll come right back
I’ll love myself and I’ll tell myself that
I don’t have to wait to be happy when I’m old
And one of these days, I'll find a way
To fight the waves, embrace the pain
And paint the ages a hundred shades of gold


And I have found a way, I forgot the way
I’m on my way, I’m on my way
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I’ll be coming along
I’m coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming along, I’ll be coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along
I'll be coming, coming for you
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I'll be coming along, coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along

Ethel Cain ~ Golden Age (Piano Version)

Tommy // Ethel Cain unreleased

Miss Anhedönia

Ethel Cain- Tube (demo)

https://youtu.be/mYhr7OadSbk?si=jvHYtayvA-LTqDfr

posted the lyrics on youtube❤️

𝐀𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝐖𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐬 ~ 𝐄𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝐂𝐚𝐢𝐧

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

𝐄𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝐂𝐚𝐢𝐧 ~ Key Studies/Punish (Demo) (feat. Goodnight & Goodmorning)

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

anymore

drain me (feat. Ethel Cain)

florida heat - white silas x little triste

Ethel Cain - The God

Good Boy - White Silas ft. Little Triste

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

Misuse, Oh - ethel cain.mp3

collincarcerated

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