REMember the rest (songs I don't think are worth listening to more than once)

if you fill me up with empty names
does that dark retract into the same  flames
fill me up with reasons to win
and i wouldn’t mind
losing to know where the fun begins

ooo, ooo, let me in
sin if is without, to be to know
how it’s not really a deal, it’s a moving
reel
oo, let them in
let us go
out i’ll prowl and 
prance and shout 
from my cells in a trance  
about romance well how bout we just do
the dance (do my dance)

fill me up with salty tongue
stuck in imagination
fill me up with a chance to try
my hand at the referential sky
oh how want denies satisfaction
oh how want denies an infinite fraction

Algo

forced unasked love sat
down space to waste
for rest while ensuring
the needing to keep pace 
with besting
and asking
for a humble hand, no command could
disguise its eruptive polar plans

cracked and fried 
which came first
the body or the mind
wrong wrong wrong
i know a song
and i think it’s sometimes
too far gone, too in want of home
i still know a song

i spoke somethings
thought the others
but couldn’t bare it
the keeping to keep the secret secret
for if the amiss peace of greed or shame 
were to ever
hinder my game, like a
tinder for the fire i’d supply a different name

i am no different than a person
saying they are not the same?
but surely i am similar when
we’re left alone to stand alone
to bend to others' naming games

Naming Games

big bird hiding in the folds of my brain,
come out and tell the red world your name 
i wish i was indifferent to the blue mass potential 
resting in this empty jar of honey 
 if estimated full sky with a side of  sunny

hollow hellos honk and hanker with the hold i’ve got on my self
spigot spells spilling secrets splashing sapiens with all they’ve got left
on the shelf
and i’m alone and left to invent a comfortable nook of hell to hide in. 


i admire your heart beat, it beats for a sound
but what’re we to do with the love we’ve found when
its cliche burns us down to the ground
just tell the world you’re purple hurting
to see green grow from grey ground
tell the world you’re purple hurting

Revved

Eagle Wings Loitering

lost effect to aimless cause
birthing more transformative flaws, 
neutral stream
gleaming mediation
because i want more peace
supposedly than retaliation

oh anonymous love
without face to save,
have you prepared for us a 
comfortable grave. 
oh anonymous love
we’re trying to feel the way
we're trying to declare the day saved
from the future that already came

no retribution could cure 
the complex scam for sure,
nothing but acceptance
abandoning excuses for
believing truth to be better off left useless

as dawn breaks again the same 
lie lie lie all we do is lie
so truth is nothing without
contradictions to defy and 
why oh why oh why
i don’t know, but lies and lies and lies 
tying

Anonymous

i can’t help more than i can hurt, 
oh was i saying i know the way? to never
need to never say i love you more and always
no noise, no silence, no growth, no decay 
could ever sway oh
let the music oh let the music play
let the body oh let the body sway
let the body play
let the music sway

Murmuration

i want to say what i mean
through  
habitual white lies, so many
times we apologize for not
knowing
but if i stop wanting to know
what’s over there
 i’d be haunting, not caring
bout how here tears  

the memory broke me but still i rise
like the dust from your eyes
as it litters its perspective
all over the objective
to be what I’ve always wanted  
oh holy ghost am i worthy of your time
spewing space in between the light

i want to know where to go
to love
oh who is good enough
to worship and bad enough to kill
no one! oh to 
hold an alleged freewill 
neutrally astray, just
knowing it's here today

i don’t know where to go
or what to say
but i want to be alive
in any shape
‘cause there’s more than one
way to save none from
entering yesterday’s gate
all forms pass through yesterday

Upekkha

i am still a child
in my heart and in others eyes
when no need to understand
or plan a prize
i am still a child
when i want to know even though
they say we grow into uncertainty
i just sense curdled cuddles of
choices; muddying hypocrisy
what, are you here to teach me no?

sing me a song to
take away the fear of decay
the fear of decay
death, i want to know you so well
i can smell your creeping nothing
from my well, oh may we live to
see the day

i am growing old
in my heart named itself a soul
racking up the courage to say no
i am growing old
even if i don’t want to know
what it means, secrecy, deleted keys
i just shake my head in pretense for
judgement , what am i here, to teach you no?   

every cell in my body is happy
every cell in my body is well
every cell in my body is happy
every cell in my body is well
i’m so glad 
every little cell
every little cell
in my body is well

May We Live

what a sick feeling
twisting into what i am
when alone the only plan is
to stand here right where i am
automatic pilot landing after
searching the detached
sky for a guiding
hand

beyond sick feelings
i am a wordless loaned breath 
together we all come unplanned
infantile grabbing for some of their 
vindicated sand, still
falling through our open hands

Sub Divo

Doom-Gazing

JUST 4 2DAY

One day you’ll be mad at me
And I will not be there to see
How you are still right next to me
In the ground (oops)
We failed to live forever and so
Stuck being the weather,
Now we spend our time 
Forming as a cloud
One day you’ll be mad at me
Because I can’t see everything
Blinded by the tears of our love 
One day ill be mad at you
Because you cannot know the truth
Of how I fear I love you too much 
And not enough

I want you to be mad at me
To believe you trust in my selfish story
Yes ill hold you close even when your mind’s on fire,
I’ll let you scream and cry even when
The wind’s retired
And a stillness makes me itch like 
A glitch of death, 
I promise nothing but the desire to be missed and kissed

Circadian

No one can believe / that a story could be one of pure luck and ecstasy / I just know the same pain everyone can give a name whether or not they meant to take or sell for game / I just know the same pain everyone is  bound to in unique chains/ even if the difference can’t distinguish its name from the body

My love I’ll tell you lies because I live to deny the death that is the equalizing / breath of life
Oh the fear that binds is not as strong 
As my love for you, you can’t 
prove me wrong
Oh my love i am sick but my pith is strong
Oh all along
my love we’re sick but together we belong
we belong

 who can believe / that a history could be retold fair as it was from the beginning / i just know the same end no one ever lives to tell for themselves / even if they’ve claimed to mend my hell / I just know the moment / beyond description / even if the answer feels and looks better than diction / like an open neon sign selling forgiveness for divination

all alone i'm sick but with you i am strong
all alone i'm sick but with you i am strong

Oh my love I’m dead I’m dead,
For in the future I rest my head
I know that I’m dead my love I am dead
Because the past is where my heart lives
Oh in my memory you give and give 
But I fear they’ll always steal from
The good that we sieve 
Oh there’s an evil I can’t prevent
Even if sincere confessing to the mess

Diatribe

thy will be done
on earth as it is in heaven

i’ll be singing the same old song
waiting for the rain and the sun
i’ll be singing the same old song
knowing our hearts to and from one

not my will be done
the kingdom is bigger than one

Hallow Be Thy Pain

even if i've died i'd never leave because my spirit was never free
even if i die i would never leave because i'm forever before him on my knees

i will never leave whether you like it or not my lord

i will never leave
when i see when i see

Eclipse

not a care in the world about the words my god you heard how it hurts/ not the care in the word my god you heard my god it hurts

the world it heard / the world it heard you hurt/ a-woooa-wooo / 

but i care about the world about the words about the hurt/ but i care about the world about the words about the hurt

Worlds of Hurt (Say No More)

before there was a need to keep the time
and draw these lines as though
my heart wasn’t blind like the sun in the sky
you knew how to shine before i told you why i cry
so come and dance with me my baby even tho i can’t see
you clearly come and dance with me my baby even tho i don’t know
what else to be

Creea

do you sacrifice the way by speaking of the way?
no, no, no you know there is a way
you can tell there is a way
( i know ) there is a way,
you’ve shown me but if only you were here
to help me pray
i’d stop/start—  

i would pray, for something other than you
i would then want to know every little bit of truth
about what can i do to keep the dream
but love would be defined 
as shadow or memory
sometimes hard to see
while its arch holds the dark, hiding until
we need heart, meaning

i know there is a way
you can show me
there is a way
so it's no surprise
that your eyes
were hiding when i wanted your
words to comprise . . .

Would Be

i was just a lonely girl inculcated by man
incubating something good until i got with the program 
now the code is cracked now the love is hacked up
and i don’t know why
but it’s ok cause he teaches me how to not learn how to fly

if love is the absence of judgement 
he judges my love as good enough
if love is the presence of peace
she fights to win to makeup for none
if love is now, just a word, it delivers me a home
beyond what i’ve heard— love more just than a word

i was wondering what this means to become
to establish beliefs and to hold one’s tongue
now the art is demystified, every note quantized and i don’t know how
but it’s ok cause she teaches me how to say nothing but a bow

all the wack wonders of the world are praying to the man’s hacky sack spraying smack
against the wall together our bodies bleed like streams and disperse like seeds and fall like leaves

Just

like a scintilla of faith she looked to the wind said can you hear me this way?
just pain covered in skin
and as the breeze met her face again it rested its cold case

the quiet deceit of needing to speak
the quiet release of forgetting the peace
the quiet deceit of being able to keep anything
(ahhhuhuhmmmm)

like a electricity that shook the mundane gravity
he grated against the gratified pretenses of dreams
and as he unclenched his fist the socket gave him a kiss

just another opportunity that already came

Quiet Deceit

Good people are too many and too much to think about. I have been born into a world in which a very small handful of limited white men have worked their whole lives to have the power to destroy the world at their fingertips while climaxing endlessly because because because.

REMember the rest (songs I don't think are worth listening to more than once)

Aluron