if 13 was a song, this what it would sound like

to those who are in despair and thinking of ending their life, I promise that life gets better.it could take months over even years but it will get better.suicide is the permanent solution to temporary problems. You all are precious. <3

i just wanna graduate nd disappear frm this world and to those who are reading enjoy your life as much as u can, as life will pass by too quickly to get caught up in any negativity dont smoke either and those struggling just keep going you will get through this

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Retreating Into A Dying Mind

Mindtrap

you can't impress anyone with normal pictures of the sea

a glimpse of heaven, or wherever you are

loser monologue - instrumental

i wanna leave this place so bad, maybe one day i will od on my free will, i just need to build up the courage.

late (on spotify)

The best version of the instrumental you will find. I try my best to respond to anyone who comments. You’re not alone. 🫂

loser monologue (Instrumental Extended)

Southpacific - a better life since

is this really it?

Made Of Pain - Destined To Nothingness (Post-Punk)

Stream "in another life" a sequal to "see you in heaven"

https://lnk.dmsmusic.co/lochhaven_inanotherlife

released via @listen24seven

Watch on Youtube: 
https://youtu.be/BDf0HngLDU8

see you in heaven - single

see you in heaven

Stream

miercoles - i should be happy

not recommended for listening if you have suicidal thoughts. it's all in your head. It will be much better if you change your playlist. thanks

spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/40njHIBZY0OnjuKEPKC9pu?si=Dgpu5ZQ9RqGJrE62MYVpCw

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Lyrics: 

My footsteps tread
Lie low and lone the silent dead,
Beneath the turf, beneath the mould,
Forever dark, forever cold,
And my eyes cannot hold the tears
That memory hoards from vanished years
For Time and Death and Mortal pain
Give wounds that will not heal again,
Let me remember half the woe
I've seen and heard and felt below,
And Heaven itself, so pure and blest,
Could never give my spirit rest,
Sweet land of light! thy children fair
Know nought akin to our despair,
Nor have they felt, nor can they tell
What tenants haunt each mortal cell,
What gloomy guests we hold within,
Torments and madness, tears and sin!
Well, may they live in ectasy
Their long eternity of joy;
At least we would not bring them down
With us to weep, with us to groan,
No, Earth would wish no other sphere
To taste her cup of sufferings drear;
She turns from Heaven with a careless eye
And only mourns that we must die!

derealization

stream: https://open.spotify.com/track/2btLchuHTdHf9T128wudwu

Empty Hours

waiting


In this collaboration, Radboud Mens and I explore the tension between stasis and movement. Operating within the realm of drone and electroacoustic music, we construct a sonic landscape where sustained tones and microscopic events constantly shape and reshape each other. What initially appears static reveals itself to be rich with detail: tiny acoustic shifts breathe life into apparent stillness, inviting focused and attentive listening.

The album emerged from a process where sound research, improvisation, and sound design merge. Self-built instruments, the search for timbre and texture, and recordings of the learning process itself form the foundation of these compositions. Rather than following a traditional musical structure, the result is a sonic field in which the minimal continually transforms depending on the listener’s perspective. This is a layered and handcrafted album that doesn’t narrate, but questions. Marking A Boundary With The Turning Point is not a boundary. It’s an invitation to listen differently.


released June 9, 2025

All music by Ard Janssen & Radboud Mens
Mastered by Stephan Mathieu at Schwebung
Artwork & design by Ard Janssen

Manufactured by Record Industry
Distributed by Clone Distribution

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