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moon song

this was one of the first beats i posted!! @backprints did some stuff over it on twitter so i thought we'd revamp the old song and make this!!!

big love to @backprints, one of the nicest and sweetest guys ive known!! also he's a vv talented boy so go show him some love!

Backprints links! :
Twitter : https://twitter.com/backprints
Soundcloud : https://soundcloud.com/backprints



Lyrics! (written and preformed by @backprints) :

I've been sleeping with extension cords again. 
Just to feel, something around my neck. 
I ask myself, if I'd be better off dead.
If I pray for peace enough; would the gods grant me my end?

I need to find it!
Trapped inside my dreams, where I stay lying in my mind; 
and the life has no means.
Overloaded status...
Locked inside my stasis...
Maybe I'll just stay in,
And push away my friends.
Time and time again...

for anyone curious here's a link to the old beat i made when i started! https://soundcloud.com/sleepingbutweeping/yuuta

My links!! : 
Spotify : https://open.spotify.com/artist/0K2W44cBXavakuLmG4TyMN
Twitter : www.twitter.com/sleepybutweepy
Archive account : @weepingbutsleeping

spotify link!

extension cords (feat. backprints)

Alex G - Skull Eyes (True Widow Cover)

Part Time - Cassie (Won't You Be My Doll)

HeadlessHorseman from a while ago

SECOND ONE

Keep It Too Myself

Decided 2 make a fun lil mix of all my current fav songs i've been bumpin lately to share with everyone, 
This mix accompanied with pretty visuals will soon be up on my YouTube channel! Make sure you subscribe so you get 2 see it! :^) https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfPEVL4veKEYEbSEstTwIng

Track List:
-Chippi Chippi - Sheck Wes
-Private Show - Father x Slug Christ
-Betta - 2kbaby
-Moonrise - Deko x yameii
-I Love You - Flux Real
-Pregnant - Sahbabii
-I'm sad but fuck it ima get this $$$ - ucantkillziggyduncan
-Green candle music - bbymutha
-Racks on me - D savage
-Life Is A Delusion - Fellatia G
-Onlyfans - Octobooty
-Bubblegum KK trap Remix - OSRSBeatz
-Megahands Beat - FulyKuly
-Beats, Hoes & Rhymes - Dom Kennedy x Casey Veggies x SchoolboyQ
-God bless this doobie - Kreayshawn
-Phone Numbers - Dominic Fike
-Lost Woods trap remix - OSRSBeatz
-Lemonade - Don Toliver x gunna x nav
-suckas askin questions - riff raff x lil debbie
-Afghanistan - yung lean
-Woi - digga d
-Necklace - Freddie Dredd
-Licki Titti - yung coochie dickflopz
-Sweden Trap remix - OSRSBeatz
-Sicko Mode - KK slider
-Tighten up - lil keed
-Distance - Killy
-Shut Up - seeyousoon
-Broke Up - Lil wayne x fre$h x gudda gudda
-RIP to the Parking Lot - tpain x boosie badazz
-ive played too much mario kart - deko
-Orions belt - riff raff x kitty pryde

If you like any of these songs i encourage you to go check out and support these sick artists! <3 :D
Happy September everyone <3

LOCKDOWN MiX

ryo

produced by peggy
written by carly rae

https://peggy.lsnto.me/callmemaybe

call me maybe

photo by martin gonzalez
LYRICS ON GENIUS: https://genius.com/Mr-master-inside-baseball-lyrics

LYRICS ON GENIUS

inside baseball

505(Cover)

ft. lily mckown
https://lilymckown.bandcamp.com/

coffee (ft. Lily McKown)

The Cure For Cancer (Demo)

EAT A BOOT SANDWICH ILL KICK YOUR TEETH IN

BOOT SANDWICH (prod. DART.)

realised too late that the title is gramatically incorrect but oh well.

lyrics:
first time i told anyone that i had ocd
they almost laughed a little bit about the fact but not at me
because the fact was i was sick but everyone kinda assumed
that i could not have ocd when they took a step into my room
with my sheets half off my bed and half my closet on the floor
and torn up papers, bags of garbage, stickers splattered on my door
forever messy all my life, a joke that followed since i was a kid
so no one realised when i got sick and couldn’t do anything.

i didn’t know i had compulsions, never questioned them for long.
the things i did to make myself calm down was not what felt so wrong.
it was my brain and all its humming noise, its never-ending sounds.
and even if it wasn’t screaming static it was always loud.
before i knew about obsessions id had grown used to the fact
that sometimes thoughts or weird ideas would stick around but then they’d pass
of course they left after a while and was replaced by something else
but i just thought that that was normal, after all i was a kid.

when i was 16 something changed and the ideas stopped passing by
now replaced by one thought i could not get rid of if i tried
it overshadowed every other thing and kept me up at night
and suddenly it was the only thing id think of all the time.
ocd is such a guilty thing, it feels like being chained.
it feels like you are going crazy with the weight of all the shame
it feels like waking up in mornings fearing for your life
because your brain is tryna convince you that you deserve to die.
its like your toeing on the edge of what is true and what is fake
because your brain is suddenly an unfamiliar place
and like a meatcleaver it cuts your thoughts to pieces without name
and you can’t see whats up and down you only focus on the pain.
its like theres something in your eye so you can only see with one
and there is so much you are missing but you’re convinced you’re not.
you are aware that you are crazy but you’re doubting everyone
and you get lost inside this spiral of fighting and giving up-

its like a shadow in your skull that somehow controls all your thoughts
and there is no room for your rationality or normal stuff
so all you ever really focus on is everything you fear
and everything becomes a phobia until you’re barely there.
i cannot comprehend the hours i have spent in total terror
every night of secret punishments of pleas and empty prayers
every night id gone to bed so sure i wouldn’t wake up
and every time that i considered if enough was now enough
so the first time i told anyone that i had ocd
there was a lump so big inside my throat i almost couldn’t speak
and when they chuckled i was stunned cus i expected some relief
but instead i was forced to prove to them that i was really sick
i never washed my hands for hours, never sorted all my stuff
but i would freak out in the shower, cus i was alone with my thoughts
and after meds and years of therapy im better after all
but still i wish my illness wasn’t made out to be laughing stock

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