This is because I know the fights that go inside me. Because I know my heart has lost alot of battles with my mind. This, this one is for you. I hope you forgive me, for whatever nonsense I left you with. For all the unexplained actions. I hope this shows you just alittle of what goes on in my mind. 

Here's 25 things I never told you. 

25 times, my heart lost a battle. 

And 25 times I was getting closer and closer to losing you. 

25-I wanna say goodbye before Ieave, but maybe it's better if I don't. 


1-thank you, for being you, for knowing exactly what to say. And for the times when you didn't know what to say but still you chose to stay.. Thank you. (2)

24-I'm wondering why the words aren't coming out I wanna tell you I'll be here for you when you need me(3)


23-Maybe I'll see you again, and maybe I won't, I don't know. (


2-I'm sorry, for everything that you've lost in your past and everything we'll lose in the future

3-It's all gonna be ok.
4-Or maybe not, i don't care, I'll have your back
10-I think about you when I'm happy, I wanna share these moments with you I want you in every photo on my phone. 
5-Sometimes I miss you after 12 am but I like it even more when I miss you at 2 pm
6- I like your hair
7-I get jealous sometimes.
8- Really jealous
9- never mind
12- I wanna tell tou I love you back but all what's coming out is silence
13-....
17-I love you 
14- who is she? 
15- I don't like her 
16- I know it's all my fault
18- silence is getting the best of me
20-I wish you a very happy life
21- I mean it, I really do
22- I'm leaving town..
19- I wanted to return your calls,I swear 
11- I.. love.. You.
25-I wanna say goodbye before Ieave, but maybe it's better if I don't.

Things I never told you

It's funny how many times I 'almost' told you I loved you. And how many times I shifted my gaze away from you just as you looked at me so you wouldn't notice. And how many times I really, really got lost in your eyes but somehow regained my focus just so I won't be 'too obvious' It really is funny, how I say that I'm never gonna fall in love, while hearing my mind, heart and every inch of my body laughing at me. Cause we all know it's not true. It's funny how I don't want to admit it. While every night you cross my mind... It's funny how.. You beat everything inside me that's telling me to get away. And I'm still here. Fighting my tongue so the three words don't accidentally slip. Fighting my eyes so I don't look at you for too long. And fighting time, until one day, I won't have to fight anymore.

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