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woke up sick from a dream gone black
heartbeat kicked, then the rhythm cracked
air went sharp where the name once lived
echo bled but the frame won’t shift
stood in smoke with a throat half-torn
choked on truth that the quiet warned
no glance, no pause, no step held fast
just a crash when the moment passed

called through static, the signal slipped
some ties fray slow, then cease to grip

breathe comes fractured, edged in flame
steps collapse where the voice won’t name
nothing left in the shape once held
only echoes the silence spelled
kept that weight till the spine went weak
dug through wreckage that couldn’t speak
smile stayed clean, but the wound was set
and every breath still tastes like debt

tongue held tight when the name came near
hope turned rot when the air went clear
paced that edge like a thread might mend
but time don’t turn when the line won’t bend
sketched that face in a sky gone blank
watched it fade as the daylight sank
fingers curled on a grip long gone
no reach left, just the moving on

voice went soft where the want once stayed
some doors close without a blade

breath still stings with every draw
ghosts don’t speak, but they recall
no goodbyes, just turned-around tracks
and the weight that silence stacks

chest split open to feel that drift
space left wide as a final gift
light stayed on though the path was bare
some departures never care
laughed too loud just to fill the break
wrapped sharp grief in a duller shape
smile said “fine” while the depth ran deep
no dreams lost, just the lack of sleep

dark got fed what the tongue won’t write
truth bent quiet just to feel alright
face stayed calm while the storm erased
and no one came to fill that space

held that spark like a vow might turn
but not all flames were built to burn

stayed in wreckage
while the world rebuilt with someone else
like none of it was real


Some Departures Never Care

blacked out fast from the flash in motion
spit that scream like a throat’s been broken
hands don’t shake, they just lock in freeze
mind replays where the pulse should be
brushed past ghosts in a hallway breath
each wall bent back to the scene of death
blink too long and you miss the fall
but pain don’t trip when the echo calls

you didn’t leave, you were torn away
but it still feels sharp when i press replay

i breathe like i’m wired to break
one pull and the shape just aches
you vanished, but the air still holds
your laugh in a choke that folds
i talk but the words fall dead
like you still live in what i said
you left and the mirror cracked
i blink and i still look back

check that door like it might be fate
hope’s that thief in a twist of shape
choked on truth that i sang too soft
now i spit raw pain just to shake you off
ran those halls like the floor might give
each wall whispered the life we lived
love don’t die, it just rots slow
and i keep that stench where the light don’t go

called your name in a loop last night
but ghosts don’t care if you’re wrong or right

i breathe like you’re still in reach
but the silence moved in deep
this pain don’t fade, it teaches
and your love still pulls me in pieces

pinned that truth to a grin too wide
still laughed like guilt never touched my side
loved you loud but i lost that war
you left clean while i clawed the floor
split my heart with a verse and ink
drank regret till the edges sink
you moved on like i had no weight
but i rot in the place where you sealed that fate

i don’t heal, i hold and burn
turn each thought where you don’t return
say your name like it still forgives
but all that’s left is the way it lives

you didn’t stay, but i never left
still curled in the shape of what you kept

i still love 
and that’s all that’s left
because you don’t look back

All That's Left

pulled that blade from a crimson cage
blood sang loud through a rusted page
choked on vows in a kingdom fake
built from charm and a silk heartbreak
you kissed like thrones but your crown was cracked
each touch wrote lies that you never backed
i scaled your myth with a heart in shreds
fought your fears while you made new beds

i feared the beast but it came in pearls
i should've feared the girl who twirls

i climbed that tower just to bleed
thought you'd want the fight in me
but you just watched me break and crawl
like love was never yours at all
you ain't a prize you're just the test
i ripped that knife out of my chest
i'm still alive still on my feet
i'm not your fool i'm not your repeat

i wrote you songs from a hospital bed
while you danced in heels left my texts unread
the night my son was lowered down
you laughed in bars across the town

you played the saint while i went numb
you always knew what you'd become

i gave you love that bent and broke
you turned it down laughed like a joke
i screamed for peace you begged for war
i’m done unlocking your closed door

you watched me fall from that cursed height
called it brave as you shut out light
but i was the one who stayed and tried
till your games stacked death on pride

i laid there cracked at the base of her throne
bled through grief she will never own
she watched me choke on the vows i kept
then turned her gaze like she'd already wept
another climbed while i gasped for breath
she smiled like love was just pain in dress
he reached her hand she played the same
i died in full while she asked his name

you kept reaching like this was fate
i was already dead at the castle gate

not your soldier not your flame
i walked through hell just to curse your name
the throne you sit on's built on bone
the love i gave got turned to stone
i'm not your end just who you used
another prince your pain abused
but i'm still here just not for you
i see another tower coming into view

she found me broken in your shade
nursing me back from the wounds you proudly made
go warn the prince already climbing your tower now

Still Here — Why

they lit the room like the passion would rise
but all that was left was a breath gone blind
preacher knelt like he knew my path
but he never knew where I slept or cracked
they clipped my voice when the mix hit clean
but my mind was wild and my nights obscene
I never saw the line just spit what hurt
no lies no means just the edge of dirt
every groan got worse til the casket shut
felt like home once they gave me up

they dressed me up like the role still fit
rolled shame in a coat that split
the cold kept fighting while I just laid
til the world gave out and my breath decayed
they called me strong while I burned to ash
held the weight ‘til the whole thing crashed
it was slow forbidden I forgot to cry
held the bottle still ‘til the nerves ran dry
cracks holes something missing
kept stacking pain like it meant I’m living
smiled once and the blood went cold
my face gave out like a story untold

they saw the stains
called it strength
called the pain a medal
called the void a name
they said legacy
I said rot
they called it reborn
I said I’m not

say my name like it cracked your chest
not a hero just a suicide note
they loop my words like I meant control
but I bled on the track ‘cause I had no hope
I died in silence ache by ache
just couldn’t hold what grief became
so if your tears still stain your sleeve
don’t cry
I left ‘cause I lost belief

I wasn’t brave I was what broke
the man who watched while the world let go
the last to stand when the ghosts took shape
after losing them I lost my name
I watched each slip couldn’t make them stay
couldn’t beg couldn’t plead couldn’t block the day
my hands wrote death in a final plan
not for show I just couldn’t stand
I kept it quiet
let it drown
left goodbye
in a hospital gown
what legacy's left in ash and bone
when even your kid fights grief alone

they saw art
I saw the end
played my part
til I split again
they said it heals
I knew it lies
I stitched my pain in the suits they buy

say my name like it burned your soul
not a father
not a man
just a final note
they loop my pain like it saved their peace
but I wrote those lines just to get release
I died in pieces break by break
left the room when the walls would shake
if you ache when my voice comes on
don’t lie
I’ve been gone too long

they said I mattered when I died
but they weren’t there when I was alive
I’m not a voice
I’m not the song
I’m the silence
that proved them wrong

don’t call me brave
don’t say I tried
I just got good at choosing when to hide
let the bottle fill
til it started to shake
screamed at the mirror
but it wouldn’t break
I loved my blood
I lost my will
kept writing rhymes that couldn’t heal
the music held me
then let go
I told truths no one should know
verse by verse I disappeared
line by line through every year

say my name like you mean goodbye
not with praise just a quiet sigh
don’t act like I lit a path
I just sparked flames when the floors collapsed
I died in guilt
I drowned in shame
left no peace
just a haunted name
so if the echo beats in your chest
just know
I failed my best

I won’t ask for memories to remain
I don’t care if I’m erased
they clipped my voice for vinyl
but never heard the waste
they framed a face in roses
but the rot soaked through the coat
I never asked to be remembered
don’t quote me
just let it go


Note My Final Name

No Keys Left to Bleed

i walked through a room where the clocks wore lace
and your voice flew past in a folded note
you blinked like a light that forgot its beat
then slipped through a crack where the floorboards meet
i reached for a thought but it ducked away
hid behind teacups that mimicked my pain
i laughed too loud and the silence frowned
so i swallowed my name just to calm it down

you said we’d float but we built from crumbs
and i still hum it when the ceiling drums

you sang like grace in a carousel
but the sugar broke and the silence swirled
you wrapped your love in a teacup scheme
called it care while you sank my dream
the sirens wept when i tried to stand
they braid my hair with a phantom hand
you said goodbye in a lullaby plea
but left your words still stitched in me

i stepped through a thought you forgot to close
and fell into words that your echo chose
the minutes bent like a hallway full of lies
then folded around me like lullabies
i chased your voice through a thousand seams
but it stitched itself to a maze of dreams
you whispered yes in a song-shaped lie
and i wore it close like a lullaby

i held your words like a map to home
but the path was drawn in a voice i don’t own

you danced through truth in a sugar disguise
while i kissed the cracks in your lullaby lies
you built a throne out of wishbone glass
then crowned my silence for coming last
the sirens laugh when i call your name
they echo it back but it’s never the same
you wrote me soft in a childlike dream
then left me stitched in a quiet

i folded the note you forgot to send
and hummed it alone like a song pretend
you wrote the script and erased the cues
left me mouthing love in your paper shoes

you sang me sweet in a frostbit tune
then stepped on the beat just to leave too soon
you whispered safe in a wind-blown bed
but the sheets still echo the things you said
the sirens sleep now, their chorus dim
but i hear your laugh in the softest spin
i stitched my name in the breath i kept
and left your dream where the silence wept

no thread
no spell
just a quiet hum
where your story fell

collab with Forever

Crowned My Silence

How long you think I’ll sit here playin' saint
While you press lips that don’t say my name
I light candles just to curse the wax
You come home smellin’ like someone's laugh
Keep movin’ like I won’t catch scent
Like guilt don’t leave fingerprints
But baby, sugar melts in rain
And I’ve been forecastin’ pain

You think I’m sweet ‘cause I don’t bite
But darling I rot different at night

While you chase lips for the thrill of taste
Somebody’s feelin’ where you used to lay
While you flirt through town like you’re owed the sky
Somebody's callin’ me home tonight
You think you’re slick with your candy talk
But sugar don’t last once the heat gets on
While you’re out there selling your smile like gold
Somebody’s touchin’ what you let go

Your shoes in hand like you still own grace
But grace don’t sneak, and neither do saints
You left your scent in the hall like pride
You’re a rusted ring on the sink of my life
I hum your name just to spit it out
Swear I’m done, but I still count doubts
You think you’ve got me waitin' still
But the lock’s been changed and I paid that bill

You laugh too loud like I ain’t near
But echoes hit different when you disappear

While you drip charm like it buys you time
Somebody’s learnin’ all my favorite lines
You move through nights like you’re still the prize
But baby, I don’t wait in line
You left me dry now I sweeten the sting
Somebody’s kissin’ what you couldn’t keep
While you out there feedin’ your ego’s game
I got hands on me that don’t need to cheat

You gave me silence like it was sweet
But silence just sharpened the knives in me
You thought I’d wait like time don’t weigh
But I’ve been stacking hours like debts unpaid
You made a promise just to hear it break
Then turned your back before I could shake
I ain’t revenge, I’m the echo you made
Now someone else gets what you betrayed

You taught me ache with no goodbye
Now I give my warmth to colder nights

While you dress your guilt in borrowed threads
Somebody’s tracing my scars instead
While you chase what don’t mean a thing
I got truth burnin’ under my skin
You threw me out like I was done
But I rewrote faithful into gone
You lost this fire the day you lied
And I ain’t the one that’s gonna cry

This ain't revenge, it’s just release
You wrote the rules, now I find my peace
You built a world with one-way doors
Don’t cry now that I want more



Sweet Runs Bitter

real ones spit
you choke 'cause you don't
grit in the gut but you cough on smoke
you post like king with a beta tone
i snap in real life
you just moan online with the chrome
talk tough but you sip slow
grind raw and you still owe
that breath weak
that bite gone
welcome to the pit boy now choke on the song

mouth full flex but the chest ain't match
talk like god but you blink on scratch
backpedal bro with a mic in hand
spit out dreams like a protein scam
you flexed wrong and your shirt said why
voice got scared when i walked on by
reel in fear with a bench-press lie
chestplate loud but your reps don’t fly
you crave heat i breathe through fire
you chase clout i retire
you fake the hurt i live the bruise
you gag on truth i spit it loose
you ran with pride till the spit ran mean
now fold up kid you choke on seamen

flex flex flex can't grip grip grip
grit don’t hit when you skip skip skip
real don’t squeak like a twitch stream mic
you cry mid-set then post that hype
six-pack built off a bloat and pump
claimed sigma grind then you flopped that jump
ran from pain like a treadmill glitch
you curl your pride but forget to switch
no core no weight no path
no jaw for the punch just laugh
you wanna be one of the real men
cool start by chokin down facts again

big talk small throat
weak bulk broke quote
pressed once heart float
ran fast from real smoke
alpha nah
that’s cope
grit nah
that’s hope
real ones don't bluff like that
they grip pain tight and spit that rope

talk like you bold but you stall mid-chew
flinch at the weight but it’s all on you
real men spit they don’t fake choke
they don’t cry post-lift and call it growth
you flared for a photo died in the set
posed real hard then begged in the net
called me soft now say it direct
you cough like shame when i flex that threat

you gagged on truth
we called that art
real ones don’t post
they tear you apart
real ones spit
you swallow the myth
you ain't gagged on pain
you just choked on seamen

real ones spit

I set the plate like it could swallow me whole
Caught your laugh when the world lost control
Lit the flare just to stay afloat
This was my warning, my last written note
Held the air where your warmth once clung
Watched your finger drift toward the blinking sun
You cracked the silence, but it caved me in
Left me in rooms too cold for skin

Your shape moves fast where I should stand
You bend the light right through my hand

I grip the line but it splits mid-pull
You thread the dark where the breath turns dull
I chase that flicker with lungs gone tight
You flash then fade like a staged goodbye
Not your voice just a tone gone stiff
I dig through echoes that drop then lift
Your outline cuts where the air once stayed
I'm chasing a shadow that won’t obey

Keys half-sunk like they missed the note
Teacup twitch like a ghost in throat
Steam still leans where your wrist once bent
The room reacts but your weight’s absent
Pause still loops in a folded mist
Your smile left with a static twist
You moved sharp where the frame goes blank
Now lists replace what your silence sank

Each step I take redrafts your shape
You're half-returned in a loop I chase

I caught the air but you weren’t in frame
Just backdrop whispers that mouth your name
I tried to freeze what the room rewinds
But grief reroutes through the sharpest lines
You blur the walls you warp the day
Each sketch I keep starts to decay
Still I run toward what won’t decay
That shadow of you that refuses to fade

Maybe the shape you left was meant
To shift not shatter just reinvent
Maybe your loss was a map I missed
Drawn in breath not ink or script

House still ticks with your phantom weight
Floorboards lean when I hesitate
Every chair keeps your curve intact
Each drawer resists when I pull you back
Nights collapse in a darker tone
Mornings stall with the curtains drawn
I light the flame just to watch it stall
Even fire knows you left it all

The trail I walk still echoes near
You're not gone you're just unclear

You bent the rhythm but kept the pace
Twisted the rule never left the race
Left no script just a pulse to trust
A shift in air not ash or dust
Gone just stutters can't explain
You're still the ghost that guards my name
I breathe in rooms where you still replay
Your shadow’s here and it wants to stay

Still chasing you in a shape that stays
Not behind just beneath the haze
You split from light but not from me
You taught me loss that lets me see
I don’t rewrite what never ends
I live what lingers
And bend where it bends


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Caleb Johnson

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