Unstable

[Chorus]
Wear my glasses and black suit now im staring at the sky
Smoking cigarettes and cryin' when i heard my friends are dead
Now i realized i'll be lonely cause no one on my side
Maybe i'll commit suicide
Or maybe i'll do it tonight
I'm smokin' blunt for my broken heart (for my broken heart)
I'll find a way to fix this broken part (fix this broken part)
I can't continue this hard life, and i think i'll be better with gun in my head

[VERSE]
Just say it if you hate me and wanna me to go from you
Fuck it, i don't care if someone hurt me cause i never take it too much in my heart and i'll forget it all yeah i will forget it all
I used to be lonely when nobody were here
I'm crying with my friends cause i know they'll disappear
Back to home with pain again and i'm tryna hold my tears
I'm sleeping in my bed, hope i'll die in my sleep
And i'm not sure, now i'm in my dilemma
Should i die? or should i still alive?
How can i still alive with the pain inside?
I can't go on yeah i can't go on

[Chorus]
Wear my glasses and black suit now im staring at the sky
Smoking cigarettes and cryin' when i heard my friends are dead
Now i realized i'll be lonely cause no one on my side
Maybe i'll commit suicide
Or maybe i'll do it tonight
I'm smokin' blunt for my broken heart (for my broken heart)
I'll find a way to fix this broken part (fix this broken part)
I can't continue this hard life, and i think i'll be better with gun in my head

commit suixide

[chorus]
close your eyes for me
and hold my hand cause i'll never leave you,
you have trust issue, but i'd never do the same to you, and i'll always be on your side
don't care if you don't love me
(you don't love me)
i know you still love him, we know its the truth
even you called me boo, and i know its fake too
im okay with this scars

[verse]
"please don't leave me" how many times that bullshit you've said?
how many times you promise we'll gon be something? you've got me waiting all the time
you never bled for me, when you cry i hold you tight and when you feel alone i always be there for you, but you never do the same

[bridge]
let me go, i will leave you soon
let you go, i will go from you
leave the past, act like we never met
cause you just love me for a while

[chorus]
close your eyes for me
and hold my hand cause i'll never leave you,
you have trust issue, but i'd never do the same to you, and i'll always be on your side
don't care if you don't love me
(you don't love me)
i know you still love him, we know its the truth
even you called me boo, and i know its fake too
im okay with this scars

[bridge]
let me go, i will leave you soon
let you go, i will go from you
leave the past, act like we never met
cause you just love me for a while


[chorus]
close your eyes for me
and hold my hand cause i'll never leave you,
you have trust issue, but i'd never do the same to you, and i'll always be on your side
close your eyes for me
and hold my hand cause i'll never leave you,
you have trust issues, but i'd never do the same to you, and i'll always be on your side
don't care if you don't love me
i know you still love him, we know its the truth
even you called me boo, and i know its fake too
im okay with this scars

let you go (leave you soon)

cold nite vibes (prod. doisuki)

[verse : Bad Eight18teen]
i just remember when you hugged me
then you leave me alone and give me last kiss
i saw everyone crying me,and they dissapeared now and leave me alone
hope all this shit just a bad dreams
cause the time here stop spinning
im tryna find a way to get out
i can't walk away cause the dark clouds are blocking me

[Chorus : Bad Eight18teen]
please god tell me now,what the hell is going on and why everything is changed
im walking with the angels and wondering where is everybody now
give me one more time
cause i wanna see you again for the last time like we used to be,and i swear i'll be there even i was dead
just give me one night to show you all my life
cause i just wanna you to see my  memories

[verse : Ramandhika]
oh fire in the sky
i hope you shine brighter than tonight
cause i cant see myself so clear in the mirror

how can i live my life without her presence 
on my sight 
i guess this is goodbye, hope you’re doing fine

we’re just memories
but im still hoping that god would take me back to 2019

[Chorus : Bad Eight18teen & Ramandhika]
please god tell me now,what the hell is going on and why everything is changed
im walking with the angels and wondering where is everybody now
give me one more time
cause i wanna see you again for the last time like we used to be,and i swear i'll be there even i was dead
just give me one night to show you all my life
cause i just wanna you to see my all memories

sight ft. Ramandhika

[verse]
know this life hard sometimes
you runaway from home
tell everyone that you're fine
but its okay, you can try again
feel unworthy of anyone
escape from all seasons 
learning all your lessons
but its okay, you can try again

[chorus]
you can hug me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time
you can feel me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time

[verse]
when the sun goes down and the darkness come to you
i'll be your light, and light your way
so you can go home in peace
in peace
in peace

[monolog]
hey i love you and i dont care if you dont love me back, i just wanna say that i love you.
you turn all darkness into light and change black and white to color. if we fail this time, I believe that someday there will be good things for both of us and trust me i will be me till i die, i will never change, It's okay if one day you will hurt me but for now let me love you until I finally stop and disappear.

[chorus]
you can hug me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time
you can feel me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time
you can hug me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time
you can feel me
when everybody hurts you, you can take your time
when you feel alone, just take your time
when you fail , you still got more time

In Peace (prod. Howlin Pearce)

[chorus]
i just wanna know baby if you love me
i just wanna know baby if you care to me
When you''re feel down, baby you can hug me
Cause you know i'll never let you cry
I just wanna know baby if you want me
I just wanna know baby if you stuck with me
When you feel scared, baby just look at me
Cause you know i'll never let you go

[verse]
baby how you doin tonite?
please tell me if you feel right
i know we're far away
but you still can feel the love everyday
if you miss me go open the box that i gave you
i’m wondering, will you ever listen to this song of you

[chorus]
i just wanna know baby if you love me
i just wanna know baby if you care to me
When you''re feel down, baby you can hug me
Cause you know i'll never let you cry
I just wanna know baby if you want me
I just wanna know baby if you stuck with me
When you feel scared, baby just look at me
Cause you know i'll never let you go
i just wanna know baby if you love me
i just wanna know baby if you care to me
When you''re feel down, baby you can hug me
Cause you know i'll never let you cry
I just wanna know baby if you want me
I just wanna know baby if you stuck with me
When you feel scared, baby just look at me
Cause you know i'll never let you go

Phase (prod. Jafarsnd)

[chorus]
turn off my phone, i dont need to see it
cut all my friends, i think i dont need them
cause i just wanna feel calm, sleep in my bed
dont even know the reasons, god i need help
turn off my phone, i dont need to see it
cut all my friends, i think i dont need them
cause i just wanna feel calm, sleep in my bed
dont even know the reasons, god i need help

[verse]
im fine, that's what i told to my friends
when i wanna be alone
but inside me, im dyin
i can't tell everyone about what i feel 
cause i still think this shit's unreal
i used to talking with my dog when im lonely
honestly when he's gone, its kill me slowly
cause nobody gets me when im fucked up
but my dog keeps stay with me all the nites

lay down on my bedroom floor and talk everything to bogy
and then i hug him tightly
untill we fell in to a dream

[chorus]
turn off my phone, i dont need to see it
cut all my friends, i think i dont need them
cause i just wanna feel calm, sleep in my bed
dont even know the reasons, god i need help

turn off my phone, i dont need to see it
cut all my friends, i think i dont need them
cause i just wanna feel calm, sleep in my bed
dont even know the reasons, god i need help

turn off my phone, i dont need to see it
cut all my friends, i think i dont need them
cause i just wanna feel calm, sleep in my bed
dont even know the reasons, god i need help

When You Feel Alone (prod. Vhanz)

(Intro)
Said if you want me but now i got all my pain
Said if you want me but now i got all my pain
Go you can go i will burn all the memories we had, got no time for me to cry and throwback
Now just me and myself high all nites

[Chorus]
you did something to me, it makes me hurt
Tell me all the lies while im on my effort
I can't stand it, im done and im tired
Blocked your life, no more pain
Bitch, i know that im young and unstable
But all you done to me, its so hurtful
Im gonna make you regret, for sure
Clean my soul and my thoughts

[Verse]
i don't know what to do 
Cause i took so many pills on my head
Yeah i tried to forget all you've said to me
I wish that i can fight this feeling
Go, you can go
I will burn all the memories we had
Got no time for me to cry and throwback
Now just me and myself high all nites

[Bridge]
you did something to me, it makes me hurt
Tell me all the lies while im on my effort
I can't stand it, im done and im tired
Blocked your life, no more pain

[Chorus]
you did something to me, it makes me hurt
Tell me all the lies while im on my effort
I can't stand it, im done and im tired
Blocked your life, no more pain
Bitch, i know that im young and unstable
But all you done to me, its so hurtful
Im gonna make you regret, for sure
Clean my soul and my thoughts

No More Pain (prod. 17Eira)

[intro]
look into my eyes, baby can you see the pain
inside my eyes, so that you can feel my sadness too in my mind
gettin high with these joint, thinking about those happy days, now im lookin for the happiness hope i can found it

[chorus]
look into my eyes, baby can you see the pain
inside my eyes, so that you can feel my sadness too in my mind
gettin high with these joint, thinking about those happy days, now im lookin for the happiness hope i can found it
you dont even look at me right here
cause you just wanna see him, hey he won't like you
and i bet you forget me so quickly, i know my struggle never mean nothing for you

[verse]
this is not what i expect, i thought you’re the one for me and the best for me but i got it wrong
no, im not perfect, that’s why you leave me alone and said “we ain’t gon last long”
you come to me with all the tears on your cheeks, but you cryin’ cause of him, im fucked up at that time
tell me, did you ever love me?
cause i never felt your heart into my heart, i wonder why?

[bridge]
tell me something before i go away from you, and everything is done, im okay without you bae 
i hope you'll doin well cause i'll never come to you again

[chorus]
look into my eyes, baby can you see the pain
inside my eyes, so that you can feel my sadness too in my mind
gettin high with these joint, thinking about those happy days, now im lookin for the happiness hope i can found it
you dont even look at me right here
cause you just wanna see him, hey he won't like you
and i bet you forget me so quickly, i know my struggle never mean nothing for you

[verse 2]
and i know, im not the best for you, im too young for you 
not like your ex he's so mature and relates to you
you said that to me, its still haunting my mind
hey! im here
did you ever see me here?
cause you just think i'm nothing
now i'm disappear
i never see me on your phone
nah, i wish i was something

[bridge]
tell me something before i go away from you, and everything is done, im okay without you bae 
i hope you'll doin well cause i'll never come to you again

[chorus]
look into my eyes, baby can you see the pain
inside my eyes, so that you can feel my sadness too in my mind
gettin high with these joint, thinking about those happy days, now im lookin for the happiness hope i can found it
you dont even look at me right here
cause you just wanna see him, hey he won't like you
and i bet you forget me so quickly, i know my struggle never mean nothing for you

I Wish I Was Something (prod. 17Eira)

(chorus)
im tired of this shit yeah
i thought she will make me to be better
but now i got the pain
i'm tryna hold this shit and tell my friends that i'm fine
after the party i still feel sad i might go insane, nah
i woke up at 3 am
open my windows, and i look at the falling rain
i can't do anything now all i do is complain
i swear to god that i'll never say your name again, okay

(verse)
bitch im fucked up, did you know that?
how dare you break my heart, you never feel sad 
i won't see you again even just for the last
let it be memories and that's all the past
i admit that im a fool cause i trusted you when you said you love me
look into my eyes i know you can't, cause you've lied to me
baby girl im not the one for you
you just give me shit, and i dont want you

(chorus)
im tired of this shit yeah
i thought she will make me to be better
but now i got the pain
i'm tryna hold this shit and tell my friends that i'm fine
after the party i still feel sad i might go insane, nah
i woke up at 3 am
open my windows, and i look at the falling rain
i can't do anything now all i do is complain
i swear to god that i'll never say your name again, okay

Tired Of This (prod. Oz the Oddz)

[CHORUS]
Say i'm fine to you just to make you feel okay
While i'm on my lowest point
But i keep to stay for you tonite
Kiss me then hold me tight

If today is my last day
I'll come to your place
And i will give you all the rest of my time
Hope you be allright
Eventhough if i die

[BRIDGE]}
Say i'm fine to you just to make you feel okay
While i'm on my lowest point
But i keep to stay for you tonite
Kiss me then hold me tight

[CHORUS]
Say i'm fine to you just to make you feel okay
While i'm on my lowest point
But i keep to stay for you tonite
Kiss me then hold me tight

If today is my last day
I'll come to your place
And i will give you all the rest of my time
Hope you be allright
Eventhough if i die

If Today Is My Last Day (prod. Oz the Oddz)

[chorus]
Time flies, now im here to stop hopin for you
All the past, i've been killing my feelings for you
I close my heart for you
Forget all we've been thru
And cut off all about you
Calm myself when im down
You never come around me
I survived all night long

[verse]
Feels like shit that never ends
im still asking you to your friends
They say that you're fine
While im here getting fucked up
Im trying to forget it all

I've been waiting you to call me
did you ever feel the same shit like i did
i know you never miss me or remember me
i know im fucked up but

[chorus]
Time flies, now im here to stop hopin for you
All the past, i've been killing my feelings for you
I close my heart for you
Forget all we've been thru
And cut off all about you
Calm myself when im down
You never come around me
I survived all night long

[verse]
everything that you've said
its all stuck in my brain
you will never know what you've done
cause you just having fun

everything is done
i never told anyone
still wonder whats the reasons
you think it was fun

Time Flies (prod. Jafarsnd)

[Chorus]
we're fucked up
everybody's fucked up
keep my head up
when im feeling down bad
im the worst, bitch
you can say it out loud
keep silent
no words out of my mouth
every day im feeling blue
not in the mood 
feel dumb and fooled
getting tired with these issues
runaway from my home
didn't go to school
give no fuck to the rules
im sad but im cool

[verse]
im drinking too much alcohol
to stop all my pain
i cant even talk
and i cant explain
i better get the fuck out away from everyone
or should i start it again?
overthinking hits my brain up
anxiety turns my breath off
but i dont wanna cry
cause i can fight this all alone
even when im dead inside

[bridge]
we're fucked up
everybody's fucked up
keep my head up
when im feeling down bad
im the worst, bitch
you can say it out loud
keep silent
no words out of my mouth

[Chorus]
we're fucked up
everybody's fucked up
keep my head up
when im feeling down bad
im the worst, bitch
you can say it out loud
keep silent
no words out of my mouth
every day im feeling blue
not in the mood 
feel dumb and fooled
getting tired with these issues
runaway from my home
didn't go to school
give no fuck to the rules
im sad but im cool

We're Fucked Up (prod. Oz the Oddz)

[verse]
the winding road that we've been thru
you show me lies more than the truths
been waiting for your answer but then i know
you'll never come back to me
im sorry cause i fell too deep 
when i know that you're still with him
i just cant let you go cause you promised that we could be something

[chorus]
you got me stuck here, in this phase
and im so easy for you to replace
i really hate this circumtance
when i dont wanna go back, but i need that love
ignore me on this day
and the next day you ask me 'you okay?'
love bombing that you always gave
that shit's not permanent
i dont understand

[verse]
the roller coaster effect
my existence that you reject
shit that i can accept
this is not what i expect
heal all the pain, still insane
everything you left me
heal all the scars, that you scratched
everything you left me

[chorus]
you got me stuck here, in this phase
and im so easy for you to replace
i really hate this circumtance
when i dont wanna go back, but i need that love
ignore me on this day
and the next day you ask me 'you okay?'
love bombing that you always gave
that shit's not permanent
i dont understand

[outro]
that shit's not permanent
i dont understand

Roller Coaster Effect (prod. Jafarsnd)

[Chorus]
baby now i'm in my pain, would you hug me?
baby why you leave me alone when i'm bleeding?
if i can't see you again, i would dying
always crying when remember you beside me
yeah...

[Verse]
tell me the truth girl, i know that
you were with him when im fucked up
its okay girl, let me feel the pain
let me go now, imma cutting my vain
please tell me about the truth in your mind
im not gonna waste my time
fuck love that you said
i don't believe that
i don't fuck with that
i don't wanna trust
let me kill myself now

[Chorus]
baby now i'm in my pain, would you hug me?
baby why you leave me alone when i'm bleeding?
if i can't see you again, i would dying
always crying when remember you beside me
yeah...

[Verse 2] Oz the Oddz
mix my codeine with a pill
tryna forget what it feels like
forget how you look like?
baby what it feels like to leave 
and make a cry baby alone
not feeling the same
it’s hard to find a new home
you and me change into you and him
you leave me in pain
i thought it’s just you and me
i thought you my last, but now
i just see me and myself
and the drugs not help me at all

[Chorus]
baby now i'm in my pain, would you hug me?
baby why you leave me alone when i'm bleeding?
if i can't see you again, i would dying
always crying when remember you beside me
yeah...

baby now i'm in my pain, would you hug me?
baby why you leave me alone when i'm bleeding?
if i can't see you again, i would dying
always crying when remember you beside me
yeah...

Pain ft. Oz the Oddz prod. Jafarsnd (2020 Draft)

permanent fling - milledenials (cover)

I never thought that it'd be easy
'Cause we both so distant now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how
No one has a solid answer
We're just walking in the dark
And you can see the look on my face
It just tears me apart
So we fight through the hurt
And we cry, and cry, and cry, and cry
Then we live and we learn
And we try, and try, and try, and try

So it's up to you and it's up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth, down to earth
On our way back down to earth
Ooh, oh, oh, ooh

Mama, you were always somewhere
And Daddy I live outta town
So tell me how could I ever be normal some how
You tell me this is for the best
So tell me why am I in tears, whoa
So far away and now I just need you here
So we'll fight through the hurt
And we'll cry, and cry, and cry, and cry
Then we live and we learn
And we try, and try, and try, and try

So it's up to you and it's up to me
That we meet in the middle
On our way back down to earth
Down to earth, down to earth
On our way back down to earth

I felt so far away from where we used to be
And now we're standing, and where do we go
When there's no road to get to your heart?
Let's start over again

down to earth (cover)

Merra - COLORCODE (COVER)

FULL EP HERE https://youtube.com/playlist?list=OLAK5uy_m1sRY769csKQU49UlcD2Nz8C0TK_ooCQQ&si=gyMpZ7e-v8D3n9OG

[LYRICS]
Toxic, that was the old me
And I'm scared if its come back
I'm sick with the bad thought that comes inside me every night
All my good side is now full of the bad side
I'm here reminiscing all the memories we had

You said, "I like you, and please don't leave, " on the first met
I drove you back to your hotel, then I'm heading back
And Love was coming in after everything we made
But I was afraid, wanted to hold it, but I'm too late

It's okay if you want me to stay away
Just say it, everything you want to say
If it hurts me, I'll be fine
Now I accept all the signs
Find out you were never mine
Yeah, I know I wasted your time

Maybe we were just misunderstood
I know that you still keep my storybook
That I gave you on the last met
Did you open it, and makes you upset?
Am I right?

You said, "I like you, and please don't leave, " on the first met
I drove you back to your hotel, then I'm heading back
And Love was coming in after everything we made
But I was afraid, wanted to hold it, but I'm too late

It's okay if you want me to stay away
Just say it, everything you want to say
If it hurts me, I'll be fine
Now I accept all the signs
Find out you were never mine
Yeah, I know I wasted your time

I lost to your mom's prayer
I deserve this, I'm a sinner
Who am I lying to?
I can't move on
You put boundaries, I can't respawn
We used to be so close
But now you ghosted me like I'm a stranger

You said, "I like you, and please don't leave, " on the first met
I drove you back to your hotel, then I'm heading back
And Love was coming in after everything we made
But I was afraid, wanted to hold it, but I'm too late

It's okay if you want me to stay away
Just say it, everything you want to say
If it hurts me, I'll be fine
Now I accept all the signs
Find out you were never mine
Yeah, I know I wasted your time

Happy, I know you moved on
And got your new life for better
I'm sorry for all the bad things I did
This is end of the letter

Bad Eight18teen

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