jesus’ scars

i started skipping on my meds 
they always make me feel so numb 
if i don’t take em im a mess 
hate that i’m living off of drugs 

don’t feel a thing or feel too much
go all in or not at all
manipulating what i love 
cause i’m afraid it’s gonna fall 

don’t you dare send that text 
you know he’s never gonna 
deserve whats next 
he can’t be an outlet for you 
murderous, anxious thoughts 
you can’t
don’t you dare share too much 
cause you know it’s never gonna be enough
if you start you’re never ever gonna stop 
pick yourself up 
make your bed love 
get the work done
you do this by yourself 

it doesn’t matter if he’s real or not 
it’s not gonna fix the problem 
he’s still a million miles away
and you can barely say his name 

it doesn’t if your friends are gonna answer the phone 
you’re better off alone
you’re better in the cold
it’s how you stay awake 
it’s how you numb the pain

i’m fine until i’m not 
flowers bloom until they rot 
stars shine until they drop

jesus’ scars

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