Going to die

Wish I could  (prod hieloways)

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

I think I understand why you tried to push me away
I think I understand why I shouldn’t have tried to stay
But when you’re with me I swear all my fears just go away
And if you asked me that question again I guess that I would stay

I do not wanna regret anything when you leave
But when I see you on the bed like that it gets hard to achieve 
I’m crying right now, so baby can you just let me try to breathe
It feels like we’re surrounded by this smoke, and I can barely see
But when I’m with you I see all that light that was shining within 
And now I feel so bad because I never said any of that
Now look at me I’m regretting never saying any of that
Now I’m saying I’m sorry, and I’ll never take that back

I’m sorry that I didn’t give you the love that you need
I’m sorry that I couldn’t give you a little happy family 
I’m sorry that we didn’t make it until we got married 
Now I’m sorry again, I could never take that back like

I’m sorry that I have to say goodbye to you today 
I truly do love you no matter whatever I say
I really am angry right now cuz I just feel betrayed 
You said we would be together until our last days
Yet right here your sitting and I can tell it’s not the case
We’re barely in high school and I can tell you’re losing faith
I’ve never hurt this much until now so I don’t think it’ll go away
And if it ever does that means you’re standing right next to me

i want to eat your pancreas (boyfifty & ayleen valentine)

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

7/28/22
prod. @everythingmackk

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

cause i don't wanna force who i am
as i pour another cup, with trembling hands
over half of my life's being made without plans
i get it; if i made a choice, 
i'd surely regret it
but most of all my worries,
i can't fit them in the pensmanship
you simply wouldn't get it
even if you really listening
the center of my soul don't only glow
it's also glistening
my demons start to part as i'm
pouring the nitroglycerin

it only feels like i'm here when i'm
stun-locked in third gear, and a 
dozen million miles away from reality
i hope forever ain't forever
unless it has to be
cause i don't wanna go out in misery
let go, of whatever this meant to me
fuck that
imma go on a killing spree

emma, i'm sorry for everything.

it's my fault you let me go
met in the seventh grade
we went separate roads
cause of some stupid shit i'd say
i just tore up all my clothes
courtesy of missing your face
if i finally break this mold
i'll thank you some day

i've sent too many sorries
and my phone is gonna die soon
i should've learned something
at least more than a thing or two
like what is worth to a person
who cherishes the dirt on their shoes
do i turn a blind eye to my own cries?
or fear the rest of my youth

this ain't just a knack
it's a passion
double shame on you 
for thinking all i do is actin'
part of me is straight
the rest is being held captive
living in a cavern where arachnids and bats been
constantly refracting

yeah, but i'm not worried about it
i'm entangled in this string
tryna gnaw my way out it
you had liked a post of mine 
a while back when i doubted
if i was truly good for nothing
based on how low the clouds been...

clouds to crows

clouds to crows [prod. mackk]

thank u for 300 followers :)

stay disciplined <3 

lyrics 

sittin on top of a tree, hoping i make it out
just tryna get in good habits, then i turn it on and hit the ground
sipin my coffee
please dont make a sound
let me sip my coffee or im jus gon sit around

feel the breeze, brush the leaves, and look at ur hometown
feeling so small, its ok, yeah its allowed
but if u think about it for too long, tommorow will become the now

im on track to 200 songs this year if u round to hundreds
my notes on like a thousand, yet my motivation plumets
i cant tell u why i do this, i cant tell u nothin
but its like every fuckin night, even when im not productive

i still feel there’s hope but i cant tell u when its coming
i jus wanna know, like please give me a sign or something
but you cant rely on an outside source
so put in front your musts and remove all this fuckin “wanting”

like remove all this fuckin wanting 
just do it
like remove all this fuckin wanting 
ooo 
remove all this fuckin wanting 
remove all this fuckin wanting

slow process (drkmnd x no spirit)

prod. me

rest easy pops<33

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

ever since u've been gone
shit's been different 
i hate myself
and can't take this distance 
been fucking my health 
i can feel the symptoms 
i need fucking help 
but can't face my feelings   

(i been hiding emotions
behind all the drinks
i been hiding emotions
behind all the weed 
people know about this
and still don't talk to me 
i might be fated to 
live the rest of my life all lonely)

dad, can you remember me?
cause i see those eyes are empty
i can't even eve talk with you cause u can't think
pls tell me when you look at me who do you see 
am i still your best buddy?
can u recognize somebody
i feel like ur soul has left
without ur body 
i hate to see u suffering

dad can u remember me?

produced by autrioly 

completely non profit

lyrics

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher tears us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

lately I just wanna sleep more
I been smoking weed more
I been getting blisters up on top of my hands and feet more
I just need to record
airing out these deep flaws
I just felt like moving on and I ran out of deep words

maybe I forgot that I was born for this
couldn't sell a soul that wasn't mine to give
sport a flowrs hoodie that doesn't fit
2 years I'm in UK bro we can link n shit

shoulda figured out that I'ma pessimist
I got uber eats bags stacked pyramid 
shirt n tie, uniform, yeah apron fit
even with artist block bro I cannot miss

everyone gather round yeah look at this
veins broke down again blew this bitch
bone broke plaster knuckles split
murder it yucky like I took a shit

I just saw the future I decided I don't like it
throw away the map if there's a way then I can find it
I just need somebody who can show me where the light is
I just got these images burnt inside of my eyelids

he keeps their heads in a box 
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
the soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock



secretsauceshh (autrioly)

prod. moneo (bro literally creates the worlds best torva beats loveu <3)

im haunted
Im walking away
don’t want this
I want you to stay

maybe its something I read
maybe I better off dead
you don’t understand what I meant
it can’t be portrayed over text
we always fight never mend
But you still end up in my bed
it’s always something that I said
there’s still a lie to be fed

she said hold my light
I said hold my soul
in this winter night
but I’m never cold
I feel quite alright
now I’m turning old
and I’m losing sight
feeling death alone

turn the lights off 
i don’t ever wanna be seen
we’re the same but
your just better than me

where’s our connection it’s suddenly lost
I’ll always help out no matter the cost
I don’t believe she would ever do wrong
every mistake is a nail in the coffin

maybe its something I read
maybe I better off dead
you don’t understand what I meant
it can’t be portrayed over text
we always fight never mend
But you still end up in my bed
it’s always something that I said
there’s still a lie to be fed

tough luck

ALONE PART 2

LETS PRETEND WE'RE NUMB	

let's pretend we're numb

Snow

Snow (Feat. Killstation)

KING	

X sung this on video for Twitter then later deleted.

XXXTENTACION - All I can do is scream (Dead Inside)

XXXTENTACION - XXX

Sampled vocals and some beats = good music



Ananya Lev Chadha

I'm Drunk And Confused

Passion & Confusion by timmies and shiloh

bandcamp: https://timmies.bandcamp.com/album/passion-confusion
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7dhqyOcnFR9o9SfUhhxqbs
itunes:  https://itunes.apple.com/ru/album/passion-confusion-feat-shiloh-ep/id1288535787
other: https://passionandconfusion.fanlink.to/passionandconfusion

Spotify

tell me why i'm waiting (ft. shiloh)

https://youtu.be/4JdqsHH4iBc

sample: peacock affect - who cares if u exist 
soundcloud.com/peacockaffect
instagram.com/peacockaffect
facebook.com/peacockaffect
youtube.com/peacockaffect
twitter.com/peacockaffect
http://www.peacockaffect.com

spotify

Peacock Affect - Who Cares If You Exist [eisu remix]

Jocelyn Flores by XXXTentacion, but a cover by The Theorist Piano.
Rest In Peace  ❤.

Going to die

M0$S