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a long time ago in her front yard she said i numbed her pain... now i am the reason for it
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Numbed Her Pain (ft. mourning )*all platforms*

beat by metlast and 5head

lyrics:
My car feels like a spaceship flying through space and
With the spacecar take the wallride
In any world you wanna be in

The car feels like a spaceship flying through space and time 
I can't hear no sound no noise
It's just us in the back of the black Cadillac
Stars watching from above out on us

Flying through spacetime with the spacecar 
Take the wallride, a wild ride
The black bird sclicing the time in two 
Just to be a second alone with you
Alone with you
Just to be a second alone with you

Flying to the sky reaching for the stars
Take you out to heaven if it was a restaurant
I would take you there
I would fly you there
I'd be right beside of you babe
Served by Angels you will be standing in a crowd of lost souls
And yet all I see is you 

My car feels like a spaceship flying through space and
With the spacecar take the wallride
In any world you wanna be in

The car feels like a spaceship flying through space and time 
I can't hear no sound no noise
It's just us in the back of the black Cadillac
Stars watching from above out on us

Take you on a ride
You are by my side

a ride by my side

Wandered To LA (with Justin Bieber)

lyrics:

Grape vine burner
She wants a parking lot live in murderer

Self medicated by the smell of storm
Id have a blade left in my gut and they would say im armed
How come every champion rather lose instead
He wins the game but loses life when ego fills his head
Hand to hand combat never works
When right beside u lay the weapons of the universe
Check it five times then I close the hatch
She spoke the language of the world into voided black 

I know well we know that u won’t stay long
Cause ur better than most but u hold ur tongue
The rain turns snow every time ur gone
It must be a pain living this stuck up
So Be grateful at least when u waste my time
Still im thankful at least that ur wasting mine
Why breath when Im able to choke on words
But they bounce from her face and they land in the dirt

Carried to the cemetery I could tell she’s still alive
Wood soot dirt 
Block her body from our 9-5
I could be the mercenary u could be the better guy
He could not flirt
With the image of an other side
Blood on my brain broke thru my skull
Giving back life to the animals
Strawberry colour on feathery coats
I’m the shoe box u cannot tip toe
I told u I meant it
Girl that’s why I said it
I can’t be much clearer than that don’t u get it

I know well we know that u won’t stay long
Cause ur better than most but u hold ur tongue
The rain turns snow every time ur gone
It must be a pain living this stuck up
So Be grateful at least when u waste my time
Still im thankful at least that ur wasting mine
Why breath when Im able to choke on words
But they bounce from her face and they land in the dirt

Just about 20 feet down in the well I rest
 I sport a smile stuck forever with this shell in my head
He dips down to my mouth to see what I had said
As I breathed once again they could hear me cry

I know well we know that u won’t stay long
Cause ur better than most but u hold ur tongue
The rain turns snow every time ur gone
It must be a pain living this stuck up
So Be grateful at least when u waste my time
Still im thankful at least that ur wasting mine
Why breath when Im able to choke on words
But they bounce from her face and they land in the dirt

It Must Be A Pain (branwen)

runnin outta time, so i cannot run away
everybody said that i need to get away
im feelin fuckin better than i did in darker dayys
you were fuckin with my head, now we together what is this

but is all so irrational i cannot feel the same
bendin over backwards just so i cant see yo face
to make you fuckin happy almost every single day
is all id ever want to do, can you give me okay

no you dont needa cry, baby we will be okay
hopin over obsticles, im grindin everyday
i promised everyone that i would make it out some day
do somethin with my life, i dont wanna throw away

ur the only thing i got, and its fuckin with my brain
my noggin full of passion and emotion, every day
its fixed on to a notion, so im coasting far away
im fallin for your love, dont you ever run away

runnin outta time, so i cannot run away
everybody said that i need to get away
im feelin fuckin better than i did in darker dayys
you were fuckin with my head, now we together what is this

but is all so irrational i cannot feel the same
bendin over backwards just so i cant see yo face
to make you fuckin happy almost every single day
is all id ever want to do, can you give me okay

no, i dont know what to say
when you causin problems, feel so bad and im ashamed
to tell you that i love you when you seem to always hate
but ill just keep on pushing, hoping you dont leave some day

whys it seem so hard for you to say
that you wanna fuckin call me at least every other day
and i dont wanna say it cause im so afriad youll say
that you had it with my shit, ill find another, please dont babe

runnin outta time, so i cannot run away
everybody said that i need to get away
im feelin fuckin better than i did in darker dayys
you were fuckin with my head, now we together what is this

but is all so irrational i cannot feel the same
bendin over backwards just so i cant see yo face
to make you fuckin happy almost every single day
is all id ever want to do, can you give me okay

Darker Days (prod. YungLukas)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

♡HARLEY QUINN☆

Her (Prod. Thersx)

oxygen

Manifested You

SUMMER WAS MY GIRLFRIEND

Everything is going to be okay, we're going to a better place now 
Verse 1
I saw you drowned in the bath tub/
But
The pills hit hard like a Mack truck 
I been tryna save me so I didn't save you/
Now I stay just swimming in the sad stuff/
Pretty girl ugly scar I know You've heard it all/
To the feet of a greatness Ima failure/
Stranger standing in room full of takers/
Break me tears fell when I saw both of your wrists caved in/
Decipher the shapes of the blood stains/
Your Id was scraped had no name/
Your body left was white like the cocaine/
That you would stuff inside to feel no pain/
And I hate the god that made you feel so odd/
So you danced and prayed that you could shake it off/
Now the shadows play inside your lonely loft/
So I fight to stay with a heart so soft/ okay
Chorus//
You were my angel 
I couldn't saved you
You don't trust nobody 
I should have known you were numb
You were my angel
Your body breaking
I don't trust nobody 
But I didn't give you enough 
Verse 2
Pick apart All the pieces broke from your lonely heart/
Feel the razor blade your body pierced and marked/
From place it ends till the time it start/
Heaven bleeds/
From the holes that you made in you sleeves/
And I shake and I pull and I scream/
And I rip and I stare and I stay/
From the place that you left but now chest is a cave/
Now my life is a maze/
Now your eyes a blazed/
With the gas of your heart/
And the room is in flames/
With the pain in your hands/
With the pain in your head/
This was never the plan/
Now I'm falling instead/
Rummage through the puke/
Swallow all the blood/
I don't wanna chose/
running out of luck/
Lobby full of drugs/
This is all a dream/
My Bodies full of puss/
Your corpse is where I sleep/

Everything's going to be okay, we're headed to a better place now-prod(datboidj)

this song is a work of fiction ***

prod. @cxldblxxd + mixed by me
art direction @digitalyams

lyrics:
(its just he said she said.
just another reject, there's no end and then u said
im intense its just pretend)

but bitch ur ded tbh im fr 
im the noose around ur neck
in the car, im a wreck
yeah ur ded its a bet, but i fucking love u its
probably for the best

say it with my chest
wouldnt settle for less
all i know is stress in my fucking head

but bitch ur ded tbh im fr im fr
if we never get together imma kill u with a sledgehammer
kiss ur naked body imma throw up when the blood splatters
yeah ur ded its a bet, but i fucking love u its...

probably for the best
say it with my chest                                                       2x
wouldnt settle for less
all i know is stress in my fucking head

in the closet maybe underneath the bed
im the nail in ur step when ur foot turns red
in the car, im a wreck
im the noose around ur neck
fucking love you, its
probably for the best, say it with my chest

but bitch ur ded tbh im fr im fr
im the noose around ur neck
in the car, im a wreck
yeah ur ded its a bet, but i fucking love u its
probably for the best

im the monster in the closet maybe underneath the bed
im the nail in ur step when ur foot turns red
yeah ur ded its a bet, but i fucking love u its
probably for the best

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bitch ur ded tbh im fr [prod. cxld blxxd]

A kinda sorta love song that I made with foreign hype shout out to him for mixing and mastering the song it means so much

I still need you w/ForeignHype (Prod Yasuu)

Original song "GETAWAY" written and produced by daystowaste.

Lyrics:
(getaway, a getaway a getaway)
I stare out the window
The grey clouds meet my face
As it starts to rain
Stuck in the shallow
(Yeah, yeah)
As I'm slowly sinking
I think I'm dreaming

So please don't ever wake me up
Wake me up cuz
I don't think I've had enough
Had enough
I'm staring at the surface of, surface of
Cuz all I know (is drowning)

I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go, I still hear your laughter
And maybe I could change your mind but
I don't think we'll be alright in brittle bones
I'll let you go
I just let you getaway

And I've been afraid
Staring at the sunset
Laying in a feild of flowers
Take my hand
It's getting kinda late
can I stay here for a couple hours?
No I can't breathe
It's filling up the room
Now all I see is you inside 
No I can't move
Thrashing at the surface
Tell me was it worth it? 

(I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go I)
still hear your laughter

I'm getting out, I'm falling down
Again I'm not getting past her
A metaphor, I'm insecure
Don't go, I still hear your laughter
And maybe I could change your mind but
I don't think we'll be alright in brittle bones
I'll let you go
I just let you getaway
(Getaway, getaway, getaway)

GETAWAY

Original song "Headspace" Written and Produced by daystowaste.

Lyrics:
Now the warm summer air is burning my lungs
Never heard what I said, but it's all said and done, take my heart to your place, leave it there, and move on, cuz the space that I made for you's already gone

Hide away till I can get back
Hanging your necklace on my coat rack
Leaving a key under the door mat
In case you'd ever wanna come back

(Now I'm askin)

Can we talk in your driveway?
I can feel my body drifting like I'm dead weight
We're getting lost in your bedframe
Now your hand has got me shifting up the stairway
(And I)
Get a little lost in your fingertips
I feel a little drunk in the way you kiss me
The remedy in my headspace
Got me fallin into pieces in your driveway

(The feeling dead and gone, the roof that we layed on, I was dreaming all along)

Stale cigarettes are burning your lungs
Feeling closer to death as I'm falling in love
Now I'm gripping a rose, cut my hand with the thorns, while your losing your place reaching for bloody palms

I'm tired and I'm losing it
Fallin apart
And I'm reaching but I'll never be all that I want
Cuz I'm stuck here wearing skin I made covered in scars
So I'll lay here in your arms until they tear me apart cuz

Can we talk in your driveway?
I can feel my body drifting like I'm dead weight
We're getting lost in your bedframe
Now your hand has got me shifting up the stairway
(And I)
Get a little lost in your fingertips
I feel a little drunk in the way you kiss me
The remedy in my headspace
Got me fallin into pieces in your driveway

So can we talk in your driveway?
Fighting off the urge to call you but it's okay
Cuz I've been stuck in 2016
I know I need to let it go
I'm reminiscing when we
Got a little lost
We were just some kids, and
Didn't have a clue what we were living
But now I'm stuck here, and I can't sleep
Started falling into pieces in your driveway

Headspace

I'm too insane to explain and you're too normal to understand. 🖤
IG: @deathbed.snuggles

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