Save Me From Myself by Ethereal Shadow & EJT. Producers are NetuH, outworld & Xeezay Beats featuring ImJxy & Lil Stranger

Save Me From Myself

Stuck In My Head by Ethereal Shadow and Maximilli. Produced by: MAJZKLUANI

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The beat used in this song is entirely MAJZKLUANI's.

Lyrics:

[Ethereal Shadow]
I don’t really care what anyone thinks
I don’t really care what anyone thinks
I’m feeling kinda numb so I took a fucking drink
I’m losing all my conscious so I took some lsd

I wish I never touched any substance in my life
They have caused me too much ailment and now I just want to die
When you look into my eyes I know that you see the signs
The signs of the times showing that I just survived my demise

[Maximilli]
Stuck in my head 
With no escape
Dread in my pen
Can't touch the page

Ripping my threads
I’m in a rage
Lead in my head
Pain in my brain
Watched as I bled
Stuck in a cage

Taking my meds
Results in vain
Fuck what you said
Ain't it a shame
Pushed off the edge
Who is to blame

[Ethereal Shadow]
I don’t care what anyone thinks
I don’t care what anyone thinks
I don’t care what anyone thinks
I don’t care, lately I’ve been a fiend

Stuck In My Head (Prod. MAJZKLUANI) [ft. Maximilli]

Vyvanse 2 made by Ethereal Shadow and beat produced by XEEZAY. Check out his beats as holy fuck they're all phenomenal!!!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-lNRgYdQTJSfnbKF6b_mQg

Lyrics:

[Ethereal Shadow]
Mixing all these pillies with some motherfucking alcohol
I took this fucking vyvanse and it feels just like an adderall 
Shadow getting litty I might have to play some basketball
I’m treading on a wire if I look down then I might just fall
I am descending into madness
Look around and take in all the darkness
My vision’s getting blurry in the black abyss
I took too many drugs now I don't give a shit

Shadows come from inside all the walls now
Shadows come from inside all the halls now
I’m fighting for my life inside this brawl now
I’m fighting for what’s right I’ve got the ball now

I can see the shadows and they’re stalking me
These demons always find a way to give me grief
I’m scared as hell and helpless 
I’m just tryna find some fucking peace
I’m anxious as a bitch 
But doing what I can to find relief

Mixing all these pillies with some motherfucking alcohol
I took this fucking vyvanse and it feels just like an adderall 
Shadow getting litty I might have to play some basketball
I’m treading on a wire if I look down then I might just fall
I am descending into madness
Look around and take in all the darkness
My vision’s getting blurry in the black abyss
I took too many drugs now I don't give a shit

[Maximilli]
Degeneration
Caused by sedation 
That I was hand fed
By our own government
Since I was 3 
Vyvanse I need
till I gained dependency
Addicted 
Now I'm fucked up mentally


Why do I take all these meds
They just want to fix my head

Why do I take these meds 
I just wanna fix my head

Vyvanse 2 [Ft. Maximilli]

Infestation made by Ethereal Shadow featuring Maximilli! Beat is produced by XEEZAY. 

Please consider following him on YouTube and purchasing a beat as his works are fucking killer! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-lNRgYdQTJSfnbKF6b_mQg

Lyrics:

[Ethereal Shadow]
A demon infestation still remains inside my brain
What the fuck to do to rid myself of all this pain
I ponder all these thoughts as I tend to lay awake
I’m thinking every night wondering if things will change
I don’t want to live if I have to live this way
I pray to God hoping that my demons go away
I’m doing what I can to fix up all of my mistakes
It’s hard to feel okay when things have always been this way

Suffering and torment are the reasons I am here right now
Become one with the static otherwise you might just up and drown
I can feel myself descending I know that I will spiral down
Falling in insanity I don’t think that I can hear a sound

The evil’s taking over I’ve gotta fight it
I’ve got no one else but God to confide in
I’ll relinquish all my demons to their side bitch
No longer do I really wanna die bitch

[Maximilli]
Demons scream
I hear the sound
It's in my mind
It's not out loud
It's just one voice
sounds like a crowd
I think I need the exorcist
Infectious demon infested
My head until I needed meds
Now my demons try to shed
The skin known as Maximilian 

[Ethereal Shadow]
A demon infestation still remains inside my brain
The things I did to rid myself of all this fucking pain
I pondered all these thoughts every night I laid awake
I’m thinking every night knowing things won’t ever change
Don’t have the will to live ever since I’ve lived this way
I prayed to God hoping that my demons go away
I did the best I could to fix up all of my mistakes
I never feel okay since things have always been this way

Infestation

Stuck In My Head Pt. 3 made by Ethereal Shadow produced by NetuH. Sub to him as his beats are fucking killer and my fav rapper Witchouse 40k uses NetuH's beats. Check out both of em here: https://soundcloud.com/hell_usa & https://www.youtube.com/c/NetuH/videos

Lyrics:
I'M SO DONE
I'M SO DONE
I'M SO NUMB

I'M SO DONE
I'M SO DONE
I'M SO NUMB

Now you see that I have lost my fucking trust
Can't you see that I'm just searching for some love

I don't got no one else
I only got myself
Put my heart on a shelf and
Now you see I need some help

I don't know where I'll go
But I know that I might go ghost
Can't you that I am feeling like a rogue
Every single day I just really need my bros

I don't know why I feel like this
But every day I feel like shit
I don't know why but I have this feeling
I might just end up in a ditch
I'm so done I need some shit
I just need drugs to fix this
Can't you see that I am done
And eating my sins delicious

I AM FEELING LIKE A VILLIAN
CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I JUST KILLED HIM
BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE NO FEELING

BECAUSE I AM WAY TOO SCARED
I JUST CAME HERE UNPREPARED
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS REAL

Am I living within fact or am I living within fiction
I don't really know but lately I've been way too superstitious
I don't know why I am always feeling so pretentious but
Eating my sins delicious and you know that I can feel this

I can't ever feel it
I don't got no feeling
I can't ever see them but
I see the fucking shadows in the fucking ceiling

(I can see them now)
(I think that I might drown)
(As I tend to wear this frown)
(I know that their sound is loud)

All these demons
All these demons
I can see them

All these demons
All these demons
In the ceiling

They be stalking
They be seething
They be breathing
They be always fucking grieving
And you know they want the violence

And they want the bloodshed
And you know that I am scared
Because they're stuck inside my head
And they really want me dead
They just want me out of breath
I think that I need some help
Because I know that I am next

Stuck In My Head Pt. 3 (Freestyle)

Rise Above made by Ethereal Shadow and beat produced by WHAT?BOY. Check him out here as his beats are fucking killer!!!

https://www.youtube.com/@whatboybeats6964

Lyrics:

Yeah life sucks
Yeah, yeah life hurts
But you gotta get up 
Yeah, you gotta get to work
Otherwise you will be left behind
And kicked to the curb
Man that shit would suck
That shit worse

You don’t wanna get fucked
You don’t really wanna get left stuck
You don’t wanna get left behind no lie
If you rely on the high
Then you might wind up dying

You might die
You might die
No lie
But you gotta get up
Even if you wanna cry
I know that this shit sucks
I know that this shit hurts
I know you feel like you’re cursed but
Stray from the drugs or you’ll wind up in a hearse
Or always feel like dirt
I know your walls are closing in
And that it’s getting worse

Just rise above (Rise above)
Just rise above (Rise above)
Get off the drugs (Off the drugs)
Get off the drugs (Off the drugs)

Yeah life sucks
Yeah, yeah life hurts
But you gotta get up 
Yeah, you gotta get to work
Otherwise you will be left behind
And kicked to the curb
Man that shit would suck
That shit worse

You don’t wanna get fucked
You don’t really wanna get left stuck
You don’t wanna get left behind no lie
If you rely on the high
Then you might wind up dying

Rise Above

Oregon made by Ethereal Shadow beat produced by DollategaBeatz. 

Lyrics:

Don’t make no mistake
Otherwise you’ll be disgraced
Shadow and his homies
Really running up this place
I’ma need the bread so I chase another check
I don’t need another bitch nor do I need some neck

I’m with my bro in Oregon
But this is just our origin
I never liked that bitch 
So I left her in the storage bin

That bitch never original
She found ways to be pigeon holed
She dated other assholes
So I told that bitch she had to go

Now we running rampant
Wreaking all this havoc
Bitch you cannot have it
Why are you so sad bitch
Always act pedantic 
Problems “so gigantic”
Putting on these antics
Bitch you’re so dramatic

I’m with my bro in Oregon
But this is just our origin
I never liked that bitch 
So I left her in the storage bin

That bitch never original
She found ways to be pigeon holed
She dated other assholes
So I told that bitch she had to go

Wait
Wait

Homie bought a crib
Now you know it’s hella lit
Cuz we taking all these shots
Till we lose our fucking heads
Got them prerolls of that green
Now we smoke until we green out
Pouring all that loud 
until the morning loud and proud
Then we smoke until we puke
Cuz that’s what we are all about
 
I’m with my bro in Oregon
But this is just our origin
I never liked that bitch 
So I left her in the storage bin

That bitch never original
She found ways to be pigeon holed
She dated other assholes
So I told that bitch she had to go

I told that bitch she had to go
And then she went and lost control
I told that bitch she had to go
And then she went and lost control

Oregon (Prod. DollategaBeatz)

Oppression made my Ethereal Shadow. Beat produced by Fantom XXX. Show them some love using the link provided here: https://www.youtube.com/@FantomXXX

Lyrics:

Aye
You know that Shadow in his grave
Aye
You know that Shadow’s so depraved
Aye
You know that Shadow’s so deranged
Aye
You know that Shadow is insane

I don’t really give a fuck about no bitch
Unless that bitch is sucking on my dick
I don’t give a fuck unless she’s thicc
And you know that I’m boutta drive stick shift
I don’t give a fuck I am feeling like my clone
Every single day I just feel so alone
I don’t really know but I’m hollow to my bone
Every single day I don’t pick up my phone

Every day, every way, I just really fucking hate
I don’t really give a fuck bitch I’ma send you to your gave

Oh
Aye
Aye 
Aye

I am always so alone
Don’t ever pick up my phone
Hollow to my fucking bone
Where the fuck do I just go
I can’t help myself (HELP ME)

Aye
What the fuck is love
Why don’t I trust
I need a gun
Cuz I’m so numb

I don’t really know how to help myself
You know that I’m on brink; going to hell
I don’t really know I’m in my shell
Someone please save me I need some help

I can see the spirits
The ones that I’m fearing
I don’t know why I’m like this
I’m finished

ALL THESE DEMONS IN MY WAY
JUST WANT TO BE IN MY GRAVE
THEY JUST WANT TO MAKE ME SO DEPRAVED
AND MAKE ME INSANE


WHY

WHY WHY WHY WHY

I'M INSIDE HELL
I’M IN MY SHELL
I NEED SOME HELP
TO SAVE MYSELF

Oppression (Freestyle)

Change vocals done by Ethereal Shadow and beat produced by Nono G Beats. Check out his channel and his beat stars here:

https://www.beatstars.com/nonogbeats
https://www.youtube.com/@nonogbeats4258

Lyrics:

I’m trying to become better, why is changing so hard
When I look at my reflection I do tend to fall apart
Always searching for a sign when I’m reaching to the stars
I’m just hoping I can change cuz I wanna heal my heart

All of the thoughts in my mind just seem to be relentless
I just wanna find the light and the best way to end this
I’ve been seeing things so differently from my perspective
Struggle to cope with these thoughts I’m way too conscientious

I am way too conscientious now
I’m in my head and I just drown

I’m trying to become better, why is changing so hard (Changing so hard)
When I look at my reflection I do tend to fall apart (Tend to fall apart)
Always searching for a sign when I’m reaching to the stars (Reaching to the stars)
I’m just hoping I can change cuz I wanna heal my heart (Heal my heart)

I just hope you’ll understand
No matter where I go I will fucking stand
Even if I have no plan
I’m doing the best I can to become a man

I’m trying to become better, why is changing so hard
When I look at my reflection I do tend to fall apart
Always searching for a sign when I’m reaching to the stars
I’m just hoping I can change cuz I wanna heal my heart

Change (Prod. Nono G Beats)

Fuck This vocals by Ethereal Shadow beat produced by PANDEMXNIUM. PANDEMXNIUM's shit is fire asf you need to hear their beats! Check them out here:

https://www.youtube.com/@PANDEMXNIUM

Lyrics:

Fuck this 9-5 shit
I’m honestly bored and I’m always losing it
Can’t find no relief till I pop a fucking percocet
Been working way too hard but I’m restless when I wanna sit
And I’m fucking sick of it yuh

If you wanna come and find me
I be chilling in the evergreens
Tryna do my best to be free
Tryna quit this fucking nicotine
Downing all this motherfucking liquor
Till it starts corroding on my spleen
It got me feeling mean
Yeah it got me feeling weak

Addicted to the highs but I cannot face the lows
I love it way too much, being sober fucking blows
I’ll have to face the comedown, something that I loathe
When the time comes, fuck it I don’t wanna know

I love the fuck drugs
You know I don’t give a fuck
Mixing all these fucking potions
Till I feel the fucking bugs

I don’t give a shit
Bitch you better fucking split
Yeah I gotta fucking dip
Gotta grab myself a zip

Now it’s time to go because I copped myself an ounce
Now I gotta find my bitch and tell her we gon bounce
Cuz I came for what I needed and I’m feeling hella hungry
When we get home, she know that I’m gonna pounce

She gon ride on my dick
Yeah that bitch is so thick
When she busy bouncing on me
I’ma suck on her tits

She a busy body
When she fiending for salami
She gon ride up right up on me
Till she cannot feel her body

She gon ride on my dick
Yeah that bitch is so thick
When she busy bouncing on me
I’ma suck on her tits

She a busy body
When she fiending for salami
She gon ride up right up on me
Till she cannot feel her body

Fuck This (Prod. PANDEMXNIUM)

Not Alright; beat produced by XEEZAY BEATS. Vocals done by Ethereal Shadow, Original God &EJT! Check out both of their pages here as both artists are fucking amazing!

Original God:
https://soundcloud.com/original-god/tracks

EJT:
https://soundcloud.com/user-28531486

Mad Design for the album art:
https://www.instagram.com/official_maddesign/

Lyrics:

[Ethereal Shadow]
You say it’s alright
Yeah you say that I am fine
But you never feel the chill
That’s running down my fucking spine
You don’t ever see the shadows
That’re lurking in the light
You don’t ever hear the voices
Screaming in my feeble mind

I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me
I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me

[Original God]
*missing*

[Ethereal Shadow]
You say it’s alright
Yeah you say that I am fine
But you never feel the chill
That’s running down my fucking spine
You don’t ever see the shadows
That’re lurking in the light
You don’t ever hear the voices
Screaming in my feeble mind

I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find the truth even if it kills me
I am lost
In the corner looking for something
What’s the cost
I’ll find 
the truth even if it kills me

[EJT]
*missing*

Not Alright [Ft. Original God & EJT] (Prod. XEEZAY BEATS & brodymckeegan)

[Non Profit] I don't want to say goodbye; vocals done by Ethereal Shadow and beat produced by PANDEMXNIUM. Check out their beats as they do a really good job releasing beats consistently and with great quality! https://www.youtube.com/@PANDEMXNIUM

Lyrics:

I'm gon die
Don't know why
I'm gon die
Don't know why

Save me, help me God I don't really wanna die
I've had this eerie feeling for such a long time
I felt it in my body when the chills ran down my spine
It's not my time yet, I don't wanna say goodbye

I'm scared for what the future holds
I DON'T WANNA DIE
I am feeling so alone
I DON'T WANNA SAY GOODBYE
Somebody please just help me home
I DON'T WANNA DIE
I don't want to be alone
I DON'T WANNA SAY GOODBYE

I'm feeling way too hopeless and I think I might be cursed
I don't like my fucking life because I always feel like dirt
I am feeling hella worthless and I think I'm getting worse

I don't wanna die no I don't wanna die
I don't wanna say goodbye I don't wanna say goodbye
I don't wanna cry nah I don't wanna cry
I don't wanna die no
I DON'T WANNA DIE

I'm gon die
Don't know why
I'm gon die
Don't know why

I'M GON DIE
DON'T KNOW WHY
I'M GON DIE
DON'T KNOW WHY

WHY?!

I don't want to say goodbye (Prod. PANDEMXNIUM)

Fell Into The Darkness vocals done by Ethereal Shadow and the beat produced by Racmuf. Check him out here as his beats are fucking killer and will resonate with anyone whom enjoys a dark undertone:

https://www.youtube.com/@racmuf
https://www.beatstars.com/racmuf

Lyrics:

Fell into the darkness this is where I be 
Burning in hell so I gotta raise the heat
Shadow is back and I’m bleeding down my beak
And I cannot ever sleep so I rinse and I repeat

I am bringing darkness everywhere I walk
I don’t give a fuck about no demon I won’t stop
I am done with everyone and everything inside my life
When I slice and drag the knife I will lose my fucking mind

Ever since I left your side I haven’t been the same
I wish I had a reason as to why I lost my face
I miss you very much you’re my only safe space
I wish I had that chance right now to return to that place

I wish I had the chance to return to your side
Because within you I saw the light
You’re my other half and I miss your eyes
When I looked within them I could confide
With all of my problems and all my pride
Without you here I’ve got no sight
Miss holding you when I could hold tight
Now I cry when I think about it don’t know why

Feel so empty inside
And I really want to die
I don’t got no sight and I got no light
Within me when I’m not by your side

Fell into the darkness this is where I be 
Burning in hell so I gotta raise the heat
Shadow is back and I’m bleeding down my beak
And I cannot ever sleep so I rinse and I repeat

Welcome to the darkness
This is where I be
Burning in hell
Rinse and I repeat

Fell Into The Darkness (Prod. Racmuf)

Pray For Better Days; vocals done by Ethereal Shadow and beat produced by Timpani Beatz. Check their beats out as they are such a vibe! 

https://www.youtube.com/@timpanibeatz2
https://timpanibeatz.com/

Lyrics:

I’ve been fucking stressing everything inside my life 
I just pray that I can be okay and get through all this strife
Dying to be lucky so that I can bowl a strike
Lately I’ve been hating everything I know I’m not alright

I know I am not alright
But I know that I will be fine (Fine)
This shit is just hard but you know 
I feel the chill run down my spine (Spine)
Trying to get sober but I got no four leafed clover

Yeah this shit is hard (Yeah)
Shit is hard
And I fall apart (Yeah)
This shit hard
And I fall apart inside the dark
Try to find a light just to find the shards that lead to my heart (Aye)
Doing what I can to reignite that fire with a spark (Aye)
Because otherwise I know I’ll always be locked in the dark

All this fucking pain yeah
I just pray for better days
I know that I locked my mind inside this motherfucking cage
I just wish that I could get better and not be in a daze
In this maze
Yeah I just wanna find a taste
A taste of betterment but until then
I can’t be saved
I’m not brave
Yeah I think that I lack the strength
So insane yeah I think now I am deranged

I’ve been fucking stressing everything inside my life (Yeah)
I just pray that I can be okay and get through all this strife (Aye)
Dying to be lucky so that I can bowl a strike (Yeah)
Lately I’ve been hating everything I know I’m not alright (Aye)

It just fucking hurts yeah
I am getting worse yeah
I’m going back to old habits
I think that I am cursed yeah
I don’t ever understand it 
Why the fuck am I this version

Of myself?
Of myself?

I’m praying for some better days I think I need some help
I created a whole labyrinth inside my head my own hell
I’m feeling isolated no matter how loud I scream and yell
Locked myself within this cage and I know now I’m in my shell

I’ve been fucking stressing everything inside my life
I just pray that I can be okay and get through all this strife
Dying to be lucky so that I can bowl a strike
Lately I’ve been hating everything I know I’m not alright

I’ve been fucking stressing everything inside my life
I just pray that I can be okay and get through all this strife
Dying to be lucky so that I can bowl a strike
Lately I’ve been hating everything I know I’m not alright

No I’m not alright
No I’m not alright
I’m not feeling fine
I’m not feeling fine
Everyday when I feel the chill run down my spine
Always stuck inside the dark but never will I see the light

Pray For Better Days (Prod. Timpani Beatz)

American Psychopath vocals by Ethereal Shadow and the beat produced by coilwound & veinn.
https://www.youtube.com/@veinn5214

American Psychopath (Prod. coilwound & veinn)

I am a demon vocals by Ethereal Shadow & Lil Stranger. Beat produced by Netuh.

Lyrics:

Step out the tundra I’m bringing the thunder
Your head will now rupture sever the arteries
This ain’t no blunder, becoming much number
I got no more structure zap you like some batteries
Stuff you in a gutter do it with my brothers
I’ll cut up your mother with skills like a butchery
I’m no longer human I’ve lost all my feeling
Now I am just creeping you’ll never be free from me

I’m a psycho in the flesh
Yeah I revel till my death
I’m a rebel and you next
You’ll be dead 
Like my ex
I’m just running up a check
Take your breath
Once again
And you’ll never get to flex

I WILL KILL YOU

Yuh
Aye
Yuh
Aye
Yuh
Aye

I am a demon
Yeah everyday I be seething
Inside my flesh I just be creeping
I don’t need no reason
To commit this treason
You know it’s my season
I’m so fucking done

THIS IS A SURGERY YOU WON’T BE NUMBED
LIKE A C-SECTION I’LL CUT YOU RIGHT UP
LACERATE YOU I’MA DRINK UP YOUR BLOOD
EAT UP YOUR BLOOD IT'S JUST LIKE A DRUG


I want more I’m a motherfucking cannibal
Revere me like my name is fucking Hannibal
I want more I’m a motherfucking cannibal
Revere me like my name is fucking Hannibal

{Lil Stranger}

Psycho in the flesh
I can deal with all my stress
I'ma evil fucking mess
I'll play you like some chess
You can do your fucking best
Try to rip apart my head
I'll leave you in your bed
Fucking kill you like a fed

I'll fill you with some dread
While I rip apart your neck
Fucking leave you like my wrist
After all the times they bled
Fucking laughing at the pain
While I watch the blood drain
Feel my body growing numb
As I smash a glass pane

Sell it to asmodeus
So I can watch the bitches rain
Send it to Mammon
I can sign myself to fame
Give me what I want
Where I want
When I want
How I want
I don't give a fuck about the fucking flames

It's my destiny to fall to hell
So fuck it and let it rain
Where I'm going there is no bail
It's only eternal pain


Netuh: 
https://www.youtube.com/@NetuH
https://www.beatstars.com/netuh

Lil Stranger:

https://soundcloud.com/thelilweep

I am a demon [ft. Lil Stranger] (prod. Netuh)

Ethereal Shadow:

https://open.spotify.com/artist/0vxlKYqc8dbRX8kR481ZZN?si=SuNWZLQCQsWKsaQ3t1eS_Q
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/ethereal-shadow/1642046654

Netuh: 

https://www.beatstars.com/netuh
https://www.youtube.com/@NetuH

Lyrics:

Regurgitate my feelings to the ceiling, now I'm reeling in this pain
Going psycho, go through cycles will that shit just ever change
Pain's gigantic go through antic will I ever be the same
I'm not perfect, nothing working is there a way to escape

Why the fuck does everything just always change around me
Doing my best to climb out this hell just trying to be free
But it's hard for me when I feel dead inside like a zombie
And on the outside its like I have no fucking energy

I'm just depressed
I'm just tired
I feel like I'm a fucking liar
When I'm say I'm fine I'm not but I just keep on climbing higher
Doing my best to retire but feel like soon I will expire
And I'm feeling way too empty like a motherfucking tire

I will always feel this way
I will always feel disdain

Insanity and pain have been woven into my very fabric
Sometimes it's just hard to manage
Somedays I can barely stand it
Somedays it's just hard to be me
To be free
To breathe 
To speak
Because I feel like I'm one with the trees

Regurgitate my feelings to the ceiling, now I'm reeling in this pain
Going psycho, go through cycles will that shit just ever change
Pain's gigantic go through antic will I ever be the same
I'm not perfect, nothing working is there a way to escape

One With The Trees (Prod. Netuh)

Everything is gone prod by 
Nell Derna vocals by Ethereal Shadow.

Nell Derna:

https://www.beatstars.com/nelldernaaZg
https://www.youtube.com/@nellderna

Lyrics:

Ahhh
I have fell down into the abyss
I just have to swim in a sea of shit
And I'm really really done with this fucking hell
That I've really been trapped in

And you know that death is so attractive
And you know I want to sell my soul
But you know that I am all torn
When I really lack self control

Yeah
I now know that it is all gone
Everything that I have ever loved
Why the fuck do I just live my life
When all I've really gone through is being fucking shunned

I really hate everything
Because I've transfigured into nothing

Why
Why
Why
WHY

Transfigure endless through these days
Everything in my life became a waste
Why the fuck do I just fucking live even though I only will have seven days left

Why the fuck has everyone gone away
From my life
Why the fuck do I feel disdain
Why the fuck do I just love seeing blood stains
On the walls, on the carpets on my motherfucking blade

Even if it's my own blood
You know that I'm gonna eat it because I'm so hungry
And I've really gone insane bitch
Can't you even see that I've lost my face

Everything is just swallowing me whole
And you know that I am so gone
As I lose my self control
NOW YOU KNOW THAT I AM FUCKING GONE

EUGHHHHH

AHHHHHH

JUST FUCKING DIE, FUCKING DIE
JUST COMMIT SUICIDE, SUICIDE
YOU KNOW WE DON'T LIKE YOUR LIFE, LIKE YOUR LIFE
JUST FUCKING END IT ALL JUST SEE THE VOID
NO ONE WILL FUCKING HELP YOU
NOW NO ONE NEEDS TO SAVE YOU
YOU ARE ALL ALONE IN THE DARKNESS
YOU ARE ALL ALONE IN THE DARKNESS

IN THE DARKNESS

IN THE DARKNESS

IN THE DARKNESS

YOU
ARE
ALONE

NO ONE'S HERE TO SAVE YOU
JUST DIE

Everything is gone [freestyle] (Prod.  Nell Derna)

Maggots in the brain featuring EternalJay
https://soundcloud.com/imjxy-7647420
Beat was produced by VHXXL
https://www.youtube.com/@vhxxl

Lyrics:

All these fucking maggots crawl around inside my brain
It makes it harder just for me to even wanna fucking change
Yet I always lag behind cuz I’m shackled in these chains
Someone help me I’m distorting it is hard to see my face
Fuck
You know that I wanna slice my veins
Cuz I’d love to see the red, love to see the blood stains
I don’t give a fuck about you, you ain’t nothing but a bitch
Get the fuck up out my face get the fuck up out the way

DO YOU WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW
DO YOU WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW
I’M GONNA MAKE YOU DROWN
DO YOU WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW
RIGHT UP IN YOUR HOMETOWN
THAT’S WHERE IT ALL GOES DOWN
DO YOU WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW
DO YOU WANNA DIE RIGHT NOW

I’m a psychopathic mess
Always searching for the next victim
Because I just want to cut them carve their bodies clean
Next bitch
In the nexus
Searching for an exit
Within the abyss bitch you know that I’m fucking headless

[ImJxy]
Cuz I got a red dot
Fuck that I’ma quick scope
In the air now they got no choice but to fucking choke
All these niggas got no hope
All these niggas got no motherfucking hoes

I don’t fucking care
High hat like a snare
All these hoes around me
Little nigga I won’t fucking share

ME AND MY NIGGAS ALWAYS GONNA FUCKING RAGE
TALKING ALL THAT SHIT I PUT A BULLET IN HIS BRAIN
HIT HER FROM THE BACK UNTIL THAT BITCH MOAN OUT MY NAME
YEAH THESE NIGGAS KNOW I GET PAID UP ON THE GANG

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE

I WANNA SEE YOU DIE
SEE YOU DIE
I WANNA SEE YOU DIE
SEE YOU DIE

[ImJxy & Ethereal Shadow]
And then I said yo bitch is feeling
And then I said yo bitch is feeling (FEELING)
Me (ME)

Shadow (JAY)

All these fucking maggots crawl around inside my brain
It makes it harder just for me to even wanna fucking change
Yet I always lag behind cuz I’m shackled in these chains
Someone help me I’m distorting it is hard to see my face
Fuck
You know that I wanna slice my veins
Cuz I’d love to see the red, love to see the blood stains
I don’t give a fuck about you, you ain’t nothing but a bitch
Get the fuck up out my face get the fuck up out the way

(scream)

Maggots in the brain (feat. EternalJay) [PROD.VHXXL]

I'm sick, vocals by Ethereal Shadow & EternalJay
Beat is produced by Nell Derna

https://www.youtube.com/@nellderna
https://soundcloud.com/imjxy-7647420

I'm Sick (Prod. Nell Derna)

Dreams produced by outworld vocals by EJT & Ethereal Shadow with EternalJay

Lyrics:
[E.S]
I’ve been seeing people die inside my fucking dreams
Why the fuck is it so hard to talk about it’s hard to speak
Tryna do my best but I’m living on the fucking brink
Tryna live my life but everyday I’m boutta sink

Tryna do my best
Tryna do my best
But it’s hard to get this pressure off my motherfucking chest
Tryna find relief but I’m running out of breath
And every single time I’m thinking bout my fucking death

I’ve been living my life just to suffer
And I’m living my life just to suffer
I’m living my life just to suffer
I’m living my life just to suffer

[EJT]
Had a talk with God, he told me I should be his vessel
I was walking through the depths of hell
I’m walking with the devil
I should be in an asylum I think I’m going mental
Tryna crash the fucking car I put my foot up on the pedal

[E.S]
Such a shame
I lost my brain

[EJT]
Will I die in real life?
People die inside my dreams
Body shivering, it’s getting hard for me to fucking speak
Pressure building up in my chest, it’s getting hard for me to breathe
My heart’s a fucking ship and I think that shit’s about to sink

Spent a lot of time running from a haunted past
I might smile but that happiness will never last
Tryna medicate but I’m still a fucking mess
My mind is in a daze so I’m not inside my head

[ImJxy]
Looking back I told you our love was the best
But you had to wear my heart up on your fucking chest
But you had no motherfucking answers yeah you failed the test
It’s so dark where do I go next

Cuz all these dark thoughts I have rushing up in my brain
Set up me in that rumor damn I’ma go insane
I might cap a bullet in my brain
And then I’ll die with no shame

But I wanna move on, yeah, I can’t forget you
What you did to me bitch, no I can’t forgive you

Dreams (Ft. EternalJay)

Searching produced by with EJT and Ethereal Shadow as vocals.

Lyrics:
[EJT]
[?] 
I’m still searching for the light
I hear voices in my head they keep me up at night
Thoughts of dying, well, always on my mind
I don’t wanna feel shit, I’ll get high tonight
[?] 
I’m still searching for the light
I hear voices in my head they keep me up at night
Thoughts of dying, well, always on my mind
I don’t wanna feel shit, I’ll get high tonight

[E.S]
I’ve got all these urges that I really wanna satisfy
I ponder existentialism, wonder if I’ll be alright
Pray I make it to Heaven, but I’m unsure if I’ll arrive
I sometimes think to myself… should I commit suicide?

I wanna set me free
Yeah, I wanna sweet release
Maybe if I took my life I could finally feel free
Life is bitter sweet, what is it I should believe
I just wanna live my life and find a way to feel so free

[EJT]
[?] 
I’m still searching for the light
I hear voices in my head they keep me up at night
Thoughts of dying, well, always on my mind
I don’t wanna feel shit, I’ll get high tonight

Searching

Don't Tempt Me vocals by Ethereal Shadow & EJT(IF you're the producer hmu so I can credit you please I was unable to find you)

Don't Tempt Me

(NOT MONETIZED) 
Alright again prod by. Xeezay Beats with EJT & Ethereal Shadow

Lyrics:

[EJT]
IT MIGHT BE A WHILE 
TILL I FEEL ALRIGHT AGAIN
I WISH GOD WOULD TAKE ME NOW
I’M FILLED WITH SO MUCH SIN
DEMONS LIVING IN MY HEAD
THEY’RE MY ONLY FRIENDS
CAME TO TERMS WITH THE PAIN
?

Two hands in the sky asking when will this all end
Sitting in the darkness, my mind’s a fucking wreck
Burn down all my walls and bridges till there’s nothing left
I just wanna know when I will feel alright again

[E.S]
I just want to be okay
But I have all these thoughts haunting me in my brain
And it’s strange cuz I always feel this way
I just wanna find a way to be saved

[?]
WITH THIS EVIL INSIDE MY HEART
AND I ALWAYS FALL APART
WHEN I’M LOCKED INSIDE THE DARK

IN THE DARK
IN THE DARK
IN THE DARK
IN THE DARK

[EJT]
It might be a while till I feel alright again
I wish God would take me now I’m filled with so much sin
Demons living in my head, they’re my only friends
Came to terms with the pain I wish my life would end

[E.S]
Listen to the voices as I drown into the static
{DIE, FUCKING DIE}
Wanna get past them, they find a way to micromanage
{DIE, FUCKING DIE}
And I try but I cannot ever stand it
{DIE, FUCKING DIE}
I wanna be better but can’t due to all of my habits
{DIE, FUCKING DIE}

Alright again

Terrible prod by NetuH vocals by LilStranger, Ethereal Shadow & EJT

Terrible (Ft. LilStranger)

Broke The Mainframe by Etheral Shadow featuring Original God! Produced by HVNZX & FLESHER. Mastered by BrodyMcKeegan!

https://soundcloud.com/original-god
https://www.youtube.com/@PROD_HVNZX
https://www.youtube.com/@PROD.FLESHER
https://www.youtube.com/@brodymckeegan

Broke The Mainframe

The Blood Moon produced by Aiden Dean Merritt, vocals by Ethereal Shadow.

Aiden's spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/10PayJPyWJP85dcozyWdk2?si=cY_CSU4FRseEUDT3bFwHqg&nd=1&dlsi=10ac095e74b645e2

Lyrics:

Soak up the remnants of my blood
Spill it upon the shattered throne
No one wants to see the up above
Underneath the crust is where I’m safe

The blood moon rose as calamity struck
Nobody’s safe and now we’re fucked
Bow down to the emperor
Strike down the opposition

Break it down
I’m climbing out
The up above
Is huskless now
The demons roam
The people gone
There is no home
I’m all alone

Break it down
I’m climbing out
The up above
Is huskless now

Drown in the endless void
Now you’ll be destroyed

Crumble
Crumble
CRUMBLE

The Blood Moon

Vocals done by Ethereal Shadow beat produced by opticsbeats

https://www.youtube.com/@opticsbeats

Lyrics:

I've got that purple punch up in my mothafucking lungs
Smoking on that Za, the house is stinking up like it's a skunk up in this bitch
Grabbing on the flow, divvy vocals, made a switch
Like a buffer, flip an optic then put it right up to his head

I am so sadistic up inside my fucking mind
I'm seeing visions of the people that I'm killing, made a killing
Made a switch up on the beat and on the flow and then I mince the meat
Like holy fuck I'm super hungry then I'll put it in a stew bitch

Welcome to the jungle of my fucking horrors in my mind
And you know that you're stuck, you know that you are cornered
There are never no doors that you can find, you cannot explore enough
To find your way out because you are stuck forever this is HELL

Drowning out the static, gotta take another hit
I cannot fathom and so you know that I go to bed
I cannot sleep, cannot eat, bitch I'm on the fucking brink
I'm on the fucking edge I need some help because I'm boutta sink

In my shackles, in my binds
Bitch, I just waste my fucking time
Now I gotta go and, pull the blinds
Bitch
Because I am really tryna find bitch

All the voices that just waste my mind space
I'm always just levitating, floating fuck about what I take 
You know Shadow always like a space cadet cuz I am flying
Bitch you knowI'm soaring 'bove the clouds, I'm fucking sighing

They say it's lonely at the top
But I just want my bitch to give me top
Shadow saucing on the beat I'll never stop
So I tell these fucking haters "Suck my cock"

Drowning Out The Static [freestyle] (Prod. opticsbeats)

Engulfed Within The Static featuring Eternal Jay produced by opticsbeats

www.youtube.com/@opticsbeats

Lyrics:

I've got that purple punch up in my mothafucking lungs
Smoking on that Za, the house is stinking up like it's a skunk up in this bitch
Grabbing on the flow, divvy vocals, made a switch
Like a buffer, flip an optic then put it right up to his head

I am so sadistic up inside my fucking mind
I'm seeing visions of the people that I'm killing, made a killing
Made a switch up on the beat and on the flow and then I mince the meat
Like holy fuck I'm super hungry then I'll put it in a stew bitch

[Eternal Jay]
Yeah we smoke that nigga out like we hitting off a geek bar
Rapping off the head everyday just to show you fuck niggas we hard
Me and Shadow ball just like DeRozan
AP on my wrist it's frozen
Got her pussy wetter than an ocean

Drowning out the static, gotta take another hit
I cannot fathom and so you know that I go to bed
I cannot sleep, cannot eat, bitch I'm on the fucking brink
I'm on the fucking edge I need some help because I'm boutta sink

In my shackles, in my binds
Bitch, I just waste my fucking time
Now I gotta go and, pull the blinds
Bitch
Because I am really tryna find bitch

All the voices that just waste my mind space
I'm always just levitating, floating fuck about what I take
You know Shadow like a space cadet cuz I am always flying
You know that I'm right above the clouds yeah I am sighing

[Eternal Jay]

[?]
Shooting down that fuck boy just because 
[?]

We run it up 
Running up 
Said two times 
That we really never give a fuck

So be quiet
Before I get violent
I'ma take your bitch like [?]
Why they still trying?
I love violence
I'ma pull out that gun don't care bout a fair fight
Like big banging tek Jay walking with the strap because


They say it's lonely at the top
But I just want my bitch to give me top
Shadow saucing on the beat I'll never stop
So I tell these fucking haters "Suck my cock"

Englufed Within The Static [Ft. Eternal Jay] (Prod. opticsbeats)

Vicious Cycle produced by SKCART vocals by Ethereal Shadow

Lyrics:

Vicious cycle
Vicious cycle
Rinse and I repeat
Everyday inside my brain I'm feeling like a freak
I just wanna find a way to rid myself of all these dreams
All these visions in my head just make me wanna scream

I don't wanna live my life when my heart broken
Super frozen now I'm really tryna ball like I'm DeRozan
But I cannot win the game everyday I shift the blame
Inside my mothafucking brain now I'm feeling hella strange

Walking in the nexus
With no exit
I am headless
Hella worthless
Am I helpless?
I am really fucking scared

Will I end up my mothafucking dad?

Help me
Help me
I AM FUCKING SCARED

ON THE BATHROOM FLOOR PUKING UP MY FUCKING GUTS
I AM STUCK INSIDE THESE CYCLES ALWAYS STUCK WITHIN THE RUTS
ON MY COUCH STARING AT THE FUCKING CEILING WITH NO FEELING
ALL THESE FEARS ARE CREEPING UP INSIDE MY CONSCIENCE

HELP ME
HELP ME
I AM FUCKING SCARED
HELP ME
HELP ME
I WAS ILL PREPARED

Vicious Cycle (Prod. SKCART)

FREE ME by Ethereal Shadow and Maximilli is now out for your enjoyment! If you enjoyed, please consider leaving a like, comment or follow as your support means a metric fuck ton to both Maximilli and I. Take it easy Shadows and have a good night!

Lyrics: 

[Ethereal Shadow]
I beg of you don't leave me stranded
Please don't forget me then fucking vanish
I know I took your love for granted
Now you're gone and I can't stand it

Baby why are you so far away
I begged and pleaded for you to stay
Albeit to my fucking dismay
Ever since you left I've been in disarray

[Maximilli]
It’s been made official I just finished the exchange
In a trash bag even though I was thrown away

You stupid little bitch
You caused us all this pain
Gave love another shot
Now the love I had to give has gone to waste

You broke me to my very core
Now I’m heartless just like a whore
The stitching has been torn
Want me back but I’m too worn
So I can’t endure your love anymore

FREE ME

FREE ME [ft. Maximilli]

If you're looking to collab hit me up here:
etherealshadowofficial@gmail.com
Or SoundCloud messages works fine also <3

Music Video done by Mad Design!!!: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPWwdelt5eY

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