CRUSHED IT! + Nosgov + Ichigo + Scratchy & pluto (nxty)

I'm so sck of fndin lov :/
cntless </3 hrt my head
i cnt fckn stnd it
break my trust but i still fckn lov u
i cnt do this anymor
i jst wanna stab my heart
i cnt do this anymor
i cnt do this anymor

wste my time on fckn repeat
you never evn cared
fake my fckn offline status
i jst wnt you to notice

i dnt knw wut to do
im so sck of tryng
im alwys in the wrng
no matter how hrd i try

ik im alwys jealous
alwys obsess w u
the thoughts cnt stop though
nd i wsh u'd thnk ab me
leavin me did not help
said u care but u did not
said u care but u still left
prmised me but it still broke

alwys siding w ur friends
even though all i wanted was ur lov
made me feel so insecure
even though all i wanted was ur care

i jst wnt u bck in my lyfe
i miss the times we had
its only been a single day
but i still fckin miss u
im so sick its my head
im so hrt im so x_x
but i still miss u
but i still miss u

I'm so sck of fndin lov :/
cntless </3 hrt my head
i cnt fckn stnd it
break my trust but i still fckn lov u
i cnt do this anymor
i jst wanna stab my heart
i cnt do this anymor
i cnt do this anymor

ps. this is a very old song of mine that i decide to recreate and release again fyi

i'm so sick of finding love [asecoamy & keomi]

prod niqbo
*niqbo*
You call tonight I block your number 
I’m sorry I can’t handle truth 
It was nothing to you 
There’s a different side of me 
I’m sorry I can’t show you 
I couldn’t get to know you 
Everything falls through 
But your stuck in the past 
So I look through glass 
Regress x2
Your thinking less of me 
It was harder to say cause it was all on me 
Every time you call me 
I just feel like such a let down 
Guide me to the light 
See your reflection in the window 
Look into my eyes 
Tell me what you must do 
You call 
I fall
You saw 
The dark 
It’s hard 
To see 
Reflection 
Deceptions 
I can't hate you
For what you've been through

I wanted to talk to you 
Like we used to 
It ends in shame 
Theres no game to play 
When I’m empty 

*9aradox*
Thoughts of you 
I’m doing circles in my head 
Dripping blood on my white coat 
I stained it red
My feelings cut me 
It turns me to shreds 
I’m brain dead Baby 
I just need a friend 
Girl I’m picking flowers for you 
Pictures of you in my wallet 
You know I adore you 
Baby I cannot ignore you 
I don’t wanna be the person
 that I was before you
Baby call my number 
Needle in my neck 
Anastasia put me under 
See you in my dreams girl 
I see you in my slumber 

*niqbo*
I couldn’t get to know you 
Everything falls through 
But your stuck in the past 
So I look through glass 
Regress x2
Your thinking less of me
Look into my eyes 

*9aradox*
Thoughts of you 
I’m doing circles in my head 
Dripping blood on my white coat 
I stained it red
My feelings cut me 
It turns me to shreds 
I’m brain dead Baby 
I just need a friend

REFLECTION

REFLECTION ft 9aradox

prod me (:

Credits:
@1lav
@blairrwitch

LYRICS:
@1lav
it's a hurtful love at first sight
give me all you got
all the blood on your skin
all the scars on your face
you fucked me up
you're so pretty omg!!
now the police tryna find you but they can't find your location
desperate for your touch
nah i can't get enough
6ft underground 
promise they're not finding out
yeah don't what2do guess we'll figure it out

@blairrwitch
let me be your fetish
bby yk what i said 
breakin my heart
tear apart 
i know what you meant 
 saw what you did last night
omg i feel alright
 yur like my new drug cause your blood it gets me high 
you can run but you cannot hide
you can rot in internal homocide 
you can run but you cannot hide 
have your scent n now your mine

@1lav
bitch we run it up
bitch we run it up
off the drugs, can't get enough
bitch you lookin' dumb asf
bitch we run it up
bitch we run it up
you don't care how i feel
and it hurts so fucking much
it's a hurtful love at first sight
girl you hurt my fucking feelings
i think i'm gonna die
off the drugs, wanna feel it

GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT

GIVE ME ALL YOU GOT +IVEYY'S LULLABY [lavendr]

relapse!! w/ ilymeow (+ilymeow)

is it all a dream (prod. shenrxn)

prod by me

@disoc8
ill show u what u did to me, bby was it worth it
medicate the horror in my head so worthless
look @ what u did to me, does it make u nervous
117 stab wounds the autopsy confirmed this

feel so empty i dont think i like this
oh my god ive fucking relapsed i need to hide it
laid so pretty, the sight is fucking priceless
i promise when i bury u i'll find a place the nicest

cut it, cut it
i got some horrid habits
i haven't slept in fucking days idk how i manage
i infict self damage
i feel so fucking ratchet
i shove my fingers down my throat i feel like such a faggot

meet my chainsaw, it's so fun
u look like uve had enough
the shit that's coming out ur fucking mouth, it makes me wanna cut
shut ur trap just keep it stuffed
when ur scared it makes me blush
yea lets have a fucking meth blood orgy IDGAF ^-^

@gutzxx
bbygirl i know ur scared of me,
im the reason u cant sleep
bae i'm stitching up ur mouth,
i don't wanna hear a peep
cut it, cut it, cut it, cut it
tie a rope around my neck like fuck it

bbygirl i know ur scared of me,
my knifes so sharp, u don't believe
stitching up ur arteries
i <3 ur blood i <3 ur screams
im so fucked up it makes me sick
i wanna vomit everywhere
wanna see u fuking dead
i'm not right in the head!

!!!
not everything that is dark is an invitation,
my music does not intend to advertise self-destruction.
i'm not promoting it, i'm surviving it.
some aspects of the song may be hyperbolic.
if you cannot process that, just simply skip the song
take care<3

terrifier w/ gutzxx

Mix n master @iwannabemissed
More coming soon 

Realzombie:

I try to capture your voice but you won’t let me 
See all these fucking scars that you left me??
The same shit happens everytime that you text me 
I’m crying out for an angel to come save me 

I feel so disgusted and dirty
Why do I keep on fighting if you left me??
You prolly fucking forgot what u said to me 
But those words everyday they still haunt me 

Save me I wanna cry in your arms 
No I Can’t see anything u did but harm
And you still stress me even tho I keep you far
I keep you farther than stars I tried resisting your charms

Iwannabemissed:

i feel the pain you have done
to my heart
 
i sit and cry, with a knife
thinking of every lie
lie, lieeeee
every lieieieiee
you never cared
what you said and what youve done to m

CRYING OUT FOR AN ANGEL [ft. iwannabemissed]

(https://www.instagram.com/needlenarcissist/)

you won't be missed Lol fat rapist

produced by yours truly 

(lyrics)

wintr 

u better fkn die
piece of shit i pray you never see the light
you only got one life
so kyx just 2 make it right

take a look at ur repulsing body
take a look at my face n say ur sorry
u know where 2 find me
but ur masculinity is tiny :D
 
x2

yes i said it ur hearts prosthetic
ur love is pathetic
i wish that you would go
yes i said it ur hearts prosthetic
ur love is pathetic
i wish that you would go

away
i wish you never stayed
(away)

u better fkn die
piece of shit i pray you never see the light
you only got one life
so kyx just 2 make it right

take a look at ur repulsing body
take a look at my face n say ur sorry
u know where 2 find me
but ur masculinity is tiny :D

even cannibals wouldn't eat you

produced by me

lyrics:

take me to the light before I hit the killing floor
there's a million tiny birds singing words I can't ignore
we were both born as rabbits, living in our abbatoir 
if i'm living just to be slaughtered, well then my heart is yours

see the sky, and it's moving closer
i wanna see my eyes, way before it's all over
my chest is getting tight, god i wish i was sober
can't tell if i'm alive, won't need to know where i'm going

/// 

and now i die here for weeks on end,
save me your eulogy

i want you to give back all that you took from me

you keep all your little words, not something i'd ever need

i live as a leveret, pray i stay evergreen

died here for weeks on end,
save me your eulogy

i want you to give back all that you took from me

you keep all your little words, not something i'd ever need

i live as a leveret, i'm living in atrophy

///

i die here for years on end, can you believe in me? 
as frail as the morning dove, i'll never have purity
all things decay in time, that's not excluding me
you're sewing my mouth shut when i didn't try to speak

died here for weeks on end,
save me your eulogy

i want you to give back all that you took from me

you keep all your little words, not something i'd ever need

i live as a leveret, i'm living in atrophy

relapse!! w/ ilymeow (+ilymeow)

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