Borderline Personality Disorder as a Dysregulation of the Endogenous Opioid System

noddinmg out while im recording
two things keeping me from mourning
im so lonely no ignoring
point is there thats why im pouring

up down underground
darkness surrounding the sound
in the silence it grows loud
drowning out the empty crowd

every time i find a girl thats is just like me
shes taken, non-committal or is not even 18

bored of me because im lacking drugs to keep me high
my personality became dependent on theehive


need attention hit my line
get a taste of my good life
reminiscing bout old times
when she was part of my life

when she made me feel alive
when it felt averse to die
would take asprin when im high
now feel chest pain, hope its time

we aint even friends no more
you said for life that its for sure
your presence is so comforting
well atleast it was before

i thought i found you seeming like you're just iike me
beat around the bush cause theres no present underneath 


hydrocodone on the hands free phone
shit i need it cause it hurt than breaking all my bones
i keep falling asleep while im working on this beat
someone wake me up there is no one so back to sleep

can you hear me
i know you dont care

RAT PARK

SURVIVAL GAMES (XTREME HARDSTYLE REMIX)

she aint sure if i really like her
or if im just single and the pain hurt
feel like i do but i just bout confused as you
wish you would come here so i dont have to long for you

i think about you and i think that you the one too
i done felt that way before so think it is true
and i like you but not main reason that i need you
cant be alone hold me first then get to know you


wakin up aint no fun 
when i feel i need a gun
just to kill the shit thats burdened on me
when will shit be done

even when theres nothing wrong
i would rather just be gone
i dont feel like a person when no substance brings the funk

thinkin like im having parties
dancing with the barbies
nah im just not full of dread
so i can sit and not be

feeling like my enemy
not twitch and feel nutty
shut the paranoia down relax
and just be funny


dont think they understand what this really mean
compared to me i say you are living the dream
i try to be without my needs and see if i can breathe
shit a year passed by and i aint even made a peep

so its back on that dope again
not fixed but im goin again
gotta make my moves i cant be waiting for no doctor man

none of this shit gonna work
future shows nothing but dirt
i aint going out just like the rest
its time to claim my worth


babygirl tell me will it be the same thing
talk for months act in love then you replace me
swear youre down for life but so did she and she and she
i dont wanna waste my time im getting old, its late

stash ready for the moment that its ending
happy while it lasts but brace before the landing
pupils tiny heart beat funny saving me from drowning
just to show up in life and not be alone and frowning

half - yeah its what i need to talk to you
i took to much and now i bother you

shit i guess thats how it all turns out
hits of the glue the last rescue so you dont hear me shoot

HOT POTATO

no way, no way
promise that this will be the very last day

fell into my grave
caught up on a twig

this time wasn't the one who was tryna dig


slaughter the pig
and take a drink


lets celebrate like we cant even think

like we did before

i dont think so

it was all bound to go wrong straight from the get go


what did we expect
why did we neglect
couldnt we just stopped a sec just for some self respect

cant even regret
too many been had
there is no peace so theres no war
down inside your head

just forget it man
aint even a chance
just get going and dont ever think bout turning back

let your demons roam where theres no one to play with them
always promised to yourself you would be slaying them

REMORSE FATIGUE

[intro]
more hunger less bread for the slumber
winters coming in and aint no signs of being warmer
the power will go bye
no more heating then youll die
so catch me living on the line
escaping or succumbed ill fly

and im 

[chorus]
off a perc 80
feeling like bhad bhabie
making moves pacely
yall only be wasting

catch me on another come up
fell of twice then stopped the count uh
i was always confident 
i always thought id be the one yuh

nothing ever goes as planned
least when one was made on chance
i just tend to wing it man
never know things in advance

feels like life stuck in a dance
with the devil he enchants
but behind your back hes plotting on
you stabbing in the back

[verse]
everything i think
yeah i think that its wrong
everything i do yeah think its the problem

the way the trauma shaped my life and draws of chance
put me in this brain that dont work how everyone else can

reaching into heaven but in hell im held by chains
i never listened when they told me who could be a snake

never told me nothing ima do it with my brain
the solutions aren't coming to you cause its too insane

what to do i tend to go with the flow
unless its out the blue, i can never really know
it seems ive lost control of my will to do what i want
always on the outside cause they never let me in

always torn by atleast more than two options
i am never sure of nothing, nothing that ive ever said
im always seeing way too much alternatives
everythings uncertain can you cope or become sick in head

[chorus]

off a perc 80
feeling like bhad bhabie
making moves pacely
yall only be wasting

catch me on another come up
fell of twice then stopped the count uh
i was always confident
i always thought id be the one yuh

nothing ever goes as planned
least when one was made on chance
i just tend to wing it man
never know things in advance

feels like life stuck in a dance
with the devil he enchants
but behind your back hes plotting on
you stabbing in the back

[verse]

bitch acting like im some kind of king
was her soulmate till she found a new one in like 2 weeks
like what that mean

i got nudes set into folders
said "you keep em yeah theyre all yours"
but without love it is just porn
like your body but i want more

thoughts of hoes that i was texting in the past
when i's young, look at me now wonder if theyd like me back
is this the end of glowing up for this mane brack the mack
or will i hit another run before im bout to pass

feel i missed a couple steps as i was getting old
feel like im still a kid but 23 years old
maybe its the complex of what makes me not alone
i feel im losing it and soon everyone will be gone

8 percs daily keeps me active while im still in pain
- xanny in my cup so i can say the words i make
stimulation keeps me sharper and not on delay
marijuana keeps me cool and the beast at bay

Borderline Personality Disorder as a Dysregulation of the Endogenous Opioid System

BRACK THE MACK