Julia Brown - In Dreams (Roy Orbison)

picture by petra collins
lyrics:
your friends don't like me
you don't have to lie, i can take it
i put my knees to the pavement all the time
i know you don't understand it, baby i know

i still remember my drug dealer's number, it's so fucked up
when i pray i don't ask for anything
my rosary knows me like a mother would
and 'i'm far from good but that's okay, i'm an artist
i'll cut my hair off in the bathroom and they'll hate me regardless
when i'm laying in the garden and the sun shines like a lion
and i don't know why i'm crying, but i am

i have this dream where i'm dead, watching my funeral
everyone is so sad, it's so beautiful
and you look just like an old dog left out on the street
with a bone between your teeth
ya you look like you're waiting for me...

kiss me at the red light
you light my red fire baby
don't go away tonight, 
they'll never have a love like this
they'll never understand
they'll never be anything but bitter
and ya there's other things but babe i'm so much better than them

i know that i'm a mess but you love it
leave my nightgown on the alter when i go swim in the ocean
and i know, leader loveless i'd put you above it all
guardian angel, holy ghost
forest floor to my bedroom walls...

but
i'll stay away if you want me to
i'll stand out in the rain
i'll paint my nails blue again
tell me you think i'm pure like a lady is
this is america, i want to feel free from this. </3

dear diary

Wednesday - Bull Believer

on the rituals comp
https://rituals-compilation.bandcamp.com/album/rituals

tongue

recorded live James on drums Derek on bass

rosebud demo

nest (voice memo)

Jeweler - awful person

DISTRACTION - lonely

Already Hard Enough

The Shyness Clinic - The Mirror Phase

demo lyrics (since revised):

and you could've been a pack up and leave
if that's how you wanted it to be
seems a catch, kill and release
but I guess I bit a bit too deep

it's a loss that you try to defeat
well, it's only you who's got you beat
and it's the strength of the vice thats got you weak
and it's the length of your demise that makes you rinse and repeat

just like how the words in the bible
aid in the dissolving of a faction of history's idol
I was like a conflicted disciple
instead now that I'm with retrospect doing a passage recital
hell seems imminent and rather vital

but I'm good
I'm alright though

water don't make it clean
she's wet but she's mean
and I'm fucked but I'm me
I'll rest assured this is my death scene

Already Hard Enough

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