I've been feeling empty ever since Decatur
And I'm sorry
I miss you most of all
Sitting staring at the blank wall I can feel you
Even though you aren't really there

I know you
Care Bear sweatshirt
Baby blue wall
Hello Kitty dreamer
I know you
Delicate and wasted
Dark brown eyes
Twin Star baby

Listening to your favorite song
Are you fuzzy still?
Stuck in limbo
Wrapping yourself in the canopy
Well, get out of this town and we'll bleed to death
So, we're stuck here
Well, baby, that's fine by me

I know you
Care Bear sweatshirt
Baby blue wall
Hello Kitty dreamer
I know you
Delicate and wasted
I can't talk about this aloud anymore

I'd cradle you if I could
I wouldn't care if you were far away
I never have
I never will
Just wanted a moment of hospice with you

Hospice

hospice

You keep appearing in my dreams and I get butterflies
Just like you're someone new
I love you like I did when my teeth were pulled out
But, I wish I hated you

Open spaces make me nervous
Give me closure I deserve it
Oh, no I know what you're about to say
Even though I've bled for you
It's "best if we just go our separate ways"

The stitches dissolved in my mouth
I want to pull them out so you'll take care of me again
In the morgue my body is labeled as missing
I checked myself out
I didn't wanna be pumped full of formaldehyde and metals
Waiting patiently until the blood finally settles

Well, I want to return to nature
Kiss the ground like it's my savior
Oh, no I know what you're about to say
Just kill my body and then leave it to decay

serenades for the false-hearted

livor mortis

Maybe I'm sick, and maybe that makes me contagious
No matter what, I know you want me gone
Sick to my stomach, I fail to emulate everyone else
Who loves or pleases you

Oh, smoking cigarettes
Maybe I'll get you to hate me even more
I know that there is nothing you can blame me for
But you find a way

Cutting out my tongue, well it won't make it any better
You always find a way to make it hurt
I'm getting ready to hate you for the things that I'll do wrong
Like hanging from the ceiling
Or bleeding on the floor

Oh, but lighting things on fire
Maybe I'll get you to hate me even more
Oh, I know that there is nothing you can blame me for

And I won't hesitate to bite like a dog if you come back around
And I can't really say if you made me this way
Or if I'm forever bound to misery

Smoking cigarettes
Maybe I'll get you to hate me even more
I know now there is nothing I should blame you for
But I find a way

hatesick

42 days in this state
Homesickness at its core
I close my eyes and ears like a new born kit
And I hold my breath as I sink faster than ever before
I can't help but summon someone
I don't feel safe when I'm alone
If only my blankets would come and swallow me whole
Like a monster that feeds off of all the guilt I own

Return me to where you found me
And kiss me before you go
My dollhouse has gathered so many cobwebs
The ceiling dips down low
Abandoned are things that my memory can't bear to love
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough

I don't wanna love the things
That nobody can talk about
I'm scared to be shunned for the parts of me that are not clean 
I'm still covered in dirt from all of the times I was too mean
So, tonight I'm a curled fawn
Sweet Bambi drowned deep in his tears
I swallow my agony, hope it will be gone by dawn
But in the morning I wake up to see its carcass on the lawn

Return me to where you found me
And kiss me before you go
Even though I'm aching to return home
I'll still say I'll miss you so
Abandoned are things that my memory can't bear to love
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough
The pansies are dying and all the young girls play too rough

home

Freckled-faced and doe-eyed, long hair down your spine
Like dawn, when I saw you my heart began to rise
You led me down the secret path behind your home
I was nervous that you'd trick me and leave me alone
When we reached the woods we dug a big ol' grave
You said "it's for the things we lost along the way"
I was kind of wary but I let you lay me down
You covered me with dirt and left me in the ground

Oh, baby, baby
My heart is where you left it
It's buried six feet under, rotting
Waiting for the worms
Baby, baby
I won't let you forget it
I know that you regret it
Do you mourn?

I remember every night I used to pray
That you would come and kiss all my bad thoughts away
I'd close my eyes and clasp my hands together tight
Fantasize about how you would spend the night

Oh, baby, baby
My heart is where you left it
It's buried six feet under, rotting
Waiting for the worms
Baby, baby
I won't let you forget it
I know that you regret it
Know you mourn

Cozy St. Jean

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