"Warmly" is the first full song I wrote. Probably like... two years ago, but it was not properly finished until now. I have never officially published it anywhere...
I have never officially published anything anywhere :) so... yeah, I am freaking out now :D

It is a song about...a mother's love, expressed through the simplest of things, which is often appreciated only once she's no longer around and, perhaps, never will be. 

ENJOY! 

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Credits:
vocal, piano, lyrics and arrangements: eva ȧjbrin 
cellist: Natalia Paruzel-Satława
produced by: eva ȧjbrin & Krzysztof Kokosiński
mix/mastering: Krzysztof Kokosiński at GrandmaEnjoysMusic
photo by: Jakub Piotr Biernacki

recorded in Grandma Enjoys Music home studio (https://www.facebook.com/GrandmaEnjoysMusic)

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Lyrics: 

We didn't talk too much
Or maybe we... just talked the words
Into meaninglessness, mom
It all wasn't easy, right?

You left me a new scarf and 
Soon your smile was gone
So long before
Mine was even born

But at least I do now feel the warmth... Mom... I

I will dress warmly
I do remember mom
Oh, I will dress warmly
I still remember your smile
That fragile butterfly...

You're always on my mind
Even though the winter wind
Has blown away this soft sweet flower of mine
But probably not just this one

Oh, I know too well 
That the vibrant film never stops to play 
Though for one it freezes...
Numb...

Dozens of thoughts not worth a dime now, mom, I....

I will dress warmly
I do remember mom
Oh, I will dress warmly
I still remember your smile
That fragile butterfly.

But at least I do now, finally, feel the warmth, mom, your... warmth.

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You can also find me here:
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eva.ajbrin/
facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eva.ajbrin.official/
you-tube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLE4jhUspumVuXVY-Vx_6g/
bandcamp: https://evaajbrin.bandcamp.com/ 



copyright: eva ȧjbrin, 2019

warmly

Ok, here's the thing...I committed a cr.... song. A musical suicide...aka - a love song… aww… blah :) HOWEVER. However...when you find yourself, late at night, missing this one very important person, the cliched-ness (?? is that a word? :D) of love songs kinda wears off and gives way to something very different... Or is it just me? So, instead of texting this person, if you know you shouldn't really do that, why not stare through the window for an hour (or 5), or do a handstand, clean the fridge...or all at once...or none at all... or what have you...sleep :D or write heartfelt lyrics and come up with some melodies... It probably makes much more sense and you'll end up having a clean fridge, too! :D 

ENJOY! :)

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Credits:
vocal, piano, lyrics and arrangemens: eva ȧjbrin 
cellist: Natalia Paruzel-Satława
bass player: Wojciech Kanclerz
produced by: eva ȧjbrin & Krzysztof Kokosiński
mix/mastering: Krzysztof Kokosiński at GrandmaEnjoysMusic
photo by: Jakub Piotr Biernacki

recorded in Grandma Enjoys Music homestudio (https://www.facebook.com/GrandmaEnjoysMusic)

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Lyrics: 

Tonight fog pearled every spider's web,
But January blues’s still hanging around 
And tonight I longed for feeling
Your heart beating right… under mine.

One two, one two, one two...
Here we go, the nightly blues.
This little blues’s still hanging around.

Here the trees are covered with diamonds, 
And there are lots of sparks in the air.
And I was listening to the silence,
And when I turned – you weren’t there. 

One two, one two, one two...
Here we go, the nightly blues.
This little blues’s still hanging around.

Where you are the trees are most probably blooming now
Oh I hope the spring time here... will… blow out this spark
And I know that you’re fine, 
And though you’ll never be “mine”
I will close my eyes, yes...
Just remembering your strength, 
So close to my doubt.
When you come back, will I be the person you’ll want to find?

Now this heartbeat won’t be my lullaby...
But let’s acknowledge that it was high time.
Well...will the sparkling blue time be on my side? 
‘tis my January blues... Oh, I just miss you on my... right… 

Will the wind ever come? 

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You can also find me here:

you-tube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLE4jhUspumVuXVY-Vx_6g/ 
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eva.ajbrin/
facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eva.ajbrin.official/
bandcamp: https://evaajbrin.bandcamp.com/ 


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copyright: eva ȧjbrin, 2019

blue time

let’s not take breathing for granted...
if you can’t yet shout often just a whisper is enough.
not next week. 
now. 
 
• • •

folks, don't try to deal with everything alone. 
don't be led by fear.

x x
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Credits: 
vocals, piano, lyrics and arrangements: eva ȧjbrin 
kazoo&bass: Krzysztof Kokosiński
produced by: eva ȧjbrin & Krzysztof Kokosiński 
mix/mastering: Krzysztof Kokosiński at GrandmaEnjoysMusic 
cover&photo by: eva ȧjbrin & Jakub Piotr Biernacki
recorded in Grandma Enjoys Music home studio (https://www.facebook.com/GrandmaEnjoysMusic) 

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LYRICS... this song has a life of its own and so do its lyrics...
here’s what I wrote initially and am happy to share with you  today 

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Short little breaths
Short little breaths
Short little life
So many breaks
Short little breaths
Short little breaths you've
Set yourself up
To be the real
Laughingstock
of this mob

When things get out of hand
Try slowing your roll, ahaa
Oooh, I'm just here but
Just don't mind me
It ain't no way out
In to the nose
Out through the mouth

Keep going, you'll reach it
So to take the edge off, get me
Situated I'll just 
be the perfect
Wallflower for now 
under that table, fight,
look it in the eye
Keep your cool
Keep your cool
Keep your cool
Gotta remain my cool
Fight flight freeze
Fight flight freeze
Do not ever give in
A powerful grip
Air, air, breathe in, in
Just a sip, gimme!

The air is so sharp and it’s
Cutting and moving, all around, crazy
still going round, 
There is a storm in my mind
If you can’t yet shout
Often just a whisper is enough
Just try!

Spill the secret
Spill the secret
Do it now
Do it now
You may win
You may lose
You just try
You won’t drown!
Spill the secret
Do it now
Vicious robbery
Don't die yet
Claim the heaven back
Right now, fight
Liquid light
Right Now
From your eyes
Talk to me, 
Allow yourself 
To be found
Your liquid light -
It will guide
& I wont mind
Right now
Not next week
Right now
It will guide
Right now
Liquid light
I won't mind
Liquid S.O.S.
Now.

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You can also find me here: 

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLE4jhUspumVuXVY-Vx_6g/
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eva.ajbrin/ 
facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eva.ajbrin.official/
bandcamp: https://evaajbrin.bandcamp.com/ 



copyright: eva ȧjbrin, 2019

spill the secret

Don’t we all like thinking of ourselves as victims sometimes?
I used to be guilty of that…
Does that really help though?
Could we leave that shelter and act?
“She does not think being a victim is fun, not anymore.”

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Credits:
vocals, piano, lyrics and arrangements: eva ȧjbrin
didgeridoo: Bartek Synowiec
backing vocals: Jurek Gibadło
produced by: eva ȧjbrin & Krzysztof Kokosiński
drums/fx: Krzysztof Kokosiński
mix/mastering: Krzysztof Kokosiński at GrandmaEnjoysMusic
cover & photo by: Jakub Piotr Biernacki & eva ȧjbrin 
recorded in my little home studio, which I think I'll start calling ivy’s tales. 

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Lyrics...

My thoughts are swirling, 
My thoughts are swirling
Aaah, let me live!
Let me have a form!
Let me try to be me!
Let me try to be here!
Let me have boundaries !

And you, universe...

Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll -
She no longer needs them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 
She now understands she hates them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 

My thoughts were swirling 
My thoughts were swirling
Yeah, but now I can breathe!
And now it is gonna be fine,
And eventually even better
So listen my dear cat, the
Toy’s gonna face your pawn
Hey there kitty! I’m coming for you!

And I’ll start playing with you.

There’s nowhere else than now and here,
I’ll finally make friends with you dear,
I do have some wool
And some other tool, too!  

Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 
She no longer needs them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 
She now understands she hates them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 

Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 
She no longer needs them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 
She now understands that she hates them!
Pull out the needles from the voodoo doll - 

She does not think being a victim is fun, no, not anymore...

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You can also find me here:

YouTube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLE4jhUspumVuXVY-Vx_6g/
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eva.ajbrin/
facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eva.ajbrin.o...
bandcamp: https://evaajbrin.bandcamp.com/



copyright: eva ȧjbrin, 2019

voodoo doll

[ENG] 


I've always been fascinated by water and the silence that surrounds you once you dive. Suddenly you can only hear and feel your heart... It almost feels like you're gaining insight into something deeper... 

It was under water that I thought of how lovely it would be to stay there and not hear this noise of 'the surface' - of people telling you what you should do or who you should be, without having this deeper insight into who you are or what you want to be. 

'under the noise' is a song of a siren inviting you to join her world... Will you take the plunge?

[PL]

Zawsze fascynowała mnie woda i cisza, jaka zapada, kiedy się zanurkuje. Nagle można już tylko usłyszeć bicie serca... i niemal uzyskać wgląd w coś głębszego w sobie. 

Właśnie pod wodą pomyślałam o tym, jakie przyjemne byłoby zostanie tam i odcięcie się od całego tego wrzasku "powierzchni" - ludzi mówiących co masz zrobić i kim być, pozbawionych wglądu w to, kim jesteś i kim chcesz być. 

'under the noise' to piosenka syreny zapraszającej do przyłączenia się do niej, w jej świecie... Odważysz się na ten skok?

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Credits:
vocals, piano, lyrics and arrangements: eva ȧjbrin
bass, drums/fx: Krzysztof Kokosiński
produced by: eva ȧjbrin & Krzysztof Kokosiński
mix/mastering: Krzysztof Kokosiński at GrandmaEnjoysMusic
cover & photos by: Jakub Piotr Biernacki & eva ȧjbrin
recorded in my little home studio, which I called 'ivy’s tales.'

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LYRICS...

And so I thought - Why not dive deeper?
And isolate my soul 
From the empty chaos. 
And all the screaming and... 
And all their commandments, yes –
Their frozen, their frozen hell, their frozen hell.
 
And their shriek! 

The rattle of void! 
Rattle of void! 
Emptiness. 

And now - sweet silence,
Just my sky... Oh well –
I’m like a siren, like a siren...
Will you hear me sing?
Will you join my new world?
Deep under the noise... 

And their shriek! 

The rattle of void! 
Rattle of void!
Emptiness.
 
So will you dive? Just... Just like I did.
The noisy parade is still marching above and...
They are shouting loud...
Oh, will you dare?
Oh, will you notice? 
Will you notice me... 
Will you notice me there?

Under the noise! 

Oh, and the rattle of void, 
Rattle of void.
Emptiness. 
Oh, and the rattle of void, 
Rattle of void.
Emptiness. 

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Silence, just her world and her.
Like a siren under the noise.
Will you hear her hum?
Will you enter her world? 
Her heart?
Will you notice me there?
Hold your breath.
And...
(Dive) 

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You can also find me here:

YouTube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCKLE4jhUspumVuXVY-Vx_6g/
instagram: https://www.instagram.com/eva.ajbrin/
facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eva.ajbrin.o...
bandcamp: https://evaajbrin.bandcamp.com/




copyright: eva ȧjbrin, 2019