I love it. this is my favorite song. keep up the great work and dont give up on your dreams

Lyrics:

Take my life today
You don’t know how I’m feeling
So just pull the trigger
Everyday I live in pain
It won’t go away
It won’t go away
It won’t go

Let me breath today
I cannot see the right way
You got my fate in your hand
And I don’t know to go 
Everybody talked me down
They told me turn around
And leave the way I came from
Sorry but I’m here to say
This shits the only way
To keep my thoughts at bay so

Why’d you lie to me then
Looked into my eyes
And broke it
Why’d you lie to me then
Looked into my eyes
I’m broken

Take my life today
You don’t know how I’m feeling
So just pull the trigger
Everyday I live in pain
It won’t go away
It won’t go away
It won’t go

Lose myself in my sleep
I see your face when I weep
Close my eyes dream of a place
To see you before I wake
Every day seems so dragged out 
These feelings seem so wrapped up 
And I just wanna see you 
Before I leave here for good
You took my feelings away
You Left me here to decay
Memories starting to fade
But I don’t wanna say goodbye 

Why’d you lie to me then
Looked into my eyes
And broke it
Why’d you lie to me then
Looked into my eyes
I’m broken

Take my life today
You don’t know how I’m feeling
So just pull the trigger
Everyday I live in pain
It won’t go away
It won’t go away
It won’t go

IT WON'T GO AWAY

IT WON'T GO AWAY [prod. Soulburn]

produced by luke white @lwotb
featuring sepha. @sepha-joey

[lyrics]
These stars align perfect 
With the scars in my mind 
Too timid to take your turn 
Til you blink and run out of time 
My only real concern is if I don’t make it alive 
Could I speak to every person 
That feel the same way as I 

Sometimes I feel so damn confused
Like is this really all that I was ever meant to do 
Dark days when it rains and I can’t be amused 
That’s when the pressure takes form and then transmutes 
Caught in the crossfire no escaping the feud
Reality always challenging the picture I drew frustration what I been facing it’s the moment of truth 
Now let the curtains fall down see the lonely view 
What I’m supposed to do 
Either you win or you lose 
But most importantly don’t ever compromise  what’s true
If you ain’t making a move you just creating your doom
And I refuse to be the one to feel regret when it’s through

watching everything fade away
as the rain falls down my face
and the blue skies turn to grey
will i write my wrongs today
if you ask me im okay
i dont have much left to say
so i write my wrongs away
will i write my wrongs today

Fade as the rain falls down my face
I’m an outline of a man
Repeat all the tasks til the end of the day
I’m an outline of a man
x2

Find new love
Warm one day
I will work
Pleasure pays
x2

Heard that a girl saw a god in this world and it kept her at play always
Heard that a boy saw a dream and was stirred to still work to it day by day
x2

Fade as the rain falls down my face
I’m an outline of a man
Repeat all the tasks til the end of the day
I’m an outline of a man
x2

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write my wrongs (ft. sepha.)

@rivilin

Lyrics

It’s when you grow up in the streets it's never really mentioned
That best friends don't have you back, lost in suspension
Gravity never held my body,
Just a prevention to let my mind just always feel muddy

Over medicated on Ritalin to make me alive
Drowning out emotions when im stuck on SSRIs
Is this life yeah why do I live another day
I can't take it, into the stress yeah I will fade

Yeah cus I am the son who’s a bastard, cower in anger
Chip on my shoulder but watch me devour
This fury inside of my chest 
Where I fill up this void until I am left dead

But I must detest that I have the will
To build up a stage where emotions will spill
For I have no concern for money or fame
While sadness still wraps all his ropes round my name

I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind’s just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go

Gone, I ain't lazy
Fuck what you thinking
Depression in my day gave me a beating

Drink Ima sleep
Gone on the street
I fight so hard just to not lose a piece

So don't fucking tell me
What I can handle
You ain't know my limit, bitch I need help yeah

SSRI's  
Doctor I'm fine
Beta blockers in my mind mixed with wine

Fuck all these pillies they don't get me high
Hate em but take em so no one will find
Signs in my life, that I am not fine
Perfect to you but I'm trapped in my mind

I wake up so sad with no reason to cry
Chemical imbalance fuck with my mind

Keep up the fight
We will survive
I know the future has days that are kind

I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind’s just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go

I feel the sickness rising, I don't want to be here anymore
Reminisce on times where I could be happy when you're over I still feel like shit
I know my mind’s just clouded, into the depths of hell I go
Hold on but my hands are shaking when I need you most you let go

Chemical Imbalance

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$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - Chemical Imbalance

@rivilin

Lyrics

I feel like an idiot
Like every single word that out coming out my mouth is shit, lately

I ain't talking its a bitch
Cuz every single word I'm just depressing all my friends, shaky

I ain't wanna face this
Demons in me got a lot of faces
Oh no no

Mental state is straight shit
Some days I aint really think I'll make it
Oh no no

I know they wanna see me on a stage
But know that I am terrified when eyes are on my face

They say my music saved the day
But every single day I struggle with anxiety

I used to want my shoes yeah
But now I'm standing here and fuck my head is still same

Thought it would've changed shit
But now I realize that happiness needs pain

Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess im nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know im nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you 
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
Im sick of screaming awake here's a big fuck to you

Cus I am done with being on the low why you gotta hide me so
like are you just embarrassed of me, I feel like I am nothing
I hear your ex-best friend talk about how much your happier
That's fucking unfair when you left everyone in the gutter

I guess it's time I moved on and just learned to fucking grow
I know I hurt a lot of people on this path you sowed 
For me and my best friend, didn't know what love really was
I can't just blame you for everything but the drugs were your fault

I felt like I was euthanized laying on the cough half alive
Stuck in a tunnel vision overthinking trapped in my mind
Makes me feel like im redundant never wanna be by my side
You woke me up at 2 am to watch your veins just collide

How do you think it makes me feel watching a suicide attempt
You know it fucked my mental state you watching me with contempt
Like was this my fucking fault I always tried my fucking best
I knew I wasn't enough I took my chances and I left

Yeah so won't you tell me what do I mean to you
I guess im nothing I have a feeling I was used
Am I disgusting, sometimes we have to face the truth
I know im nothing, so you drain me out to be reused

You love to cut me down so you know I won't leave you 
Till he comes back around and you love to say we're through
I wanna spit you out when will I learn the truth
Im sick of screaming awake here's a big fuck to you

I Guess I'm Nothing

$LOTHBOI x Rivilin - I Guess I'm Nothing

Lie Real Quickly

Like Me

ON ALL PLATFORMS!
Lyrics:
you took your time 
think I'm falling out of line
I can't get you off my mind
seven years between the lies
I can't speak

I been fucked up maybe just a little too much
shouldn't grow up maybe I just can't keep up
I dont come from a place
You ever been like me?
if I blow up promise I'll be hard to reach
I been fucked up 
maybe you just insecure
never grow up 
fall out when I lock my door
I don't talk about shit 
no I really don't speak
if we never meet up 
then you really can't leave

and I know that nothings temporary 
I know that yeah I know that

I was sick before you met me
but I was sicker when you left (i was sicker when you left)
and I been feeling kind of empty empty
but I been tryna do my best

They said it's temporary
but thats a lie (thats a lie)
this shit won't leave my head alone 
I wonder why (wonder why)
its always fuckin with me
I want to die
but if you ask me how I'm doing i'll just say I'm
"going through a depressive episode"

I been fucked up maybe just a little too much
shouldn't grow up maybe I just can't keep up
I dont come from a place
You ever been like me?
if I blow up promise I'll be hard to reach
I been fucked up 
maybe you just insecure
never grow up 
fall out when I lock my door
I don't talk about shit 
no I really don't speak
if we never meet up 
then you really can't leave

temporary(sped up)

temporary(sped up){prod. drma x mcx}

How the fuck am I supposed to live, I've been struggling
Aint no heaven coming, I've always sinned, and its weighing in
Alone and in my mind again, I've never fit
Into a crowd, a stranger itch

Smirking behind me, I feel all your eyes on me
Know that im different, thats nothing to single me out

Not a single word, hearing it loud
Laugh at me then, laugh at me now
Jaw locked
Eyes shot
Quit it you're fooling around

Nothing to change your fate
Already closed the gate
Engrained in my brain again
Only the words you say,
so why'd it stay?
so why'd it stay?

I cant control all thats inside
Doesn't mean I havent tried
Put my life at risk too many,
too many times

Blacked out from drugs,
Tryna feel something I want
So close.
Tryna find some place thats home
Everybody tries to

Bring you down just a notch
Want to see you fall,
Slowly I've just learnt
That you hold your own
You can find peace on your own, 
Wasted so many years scared of myself
And what I thought was here
And what I thought was here

Somebody is following me,
And I feel all the shadowing beings
It's scaring me
What if it's all in my mind and imaginary
What if I'm slowly just losing my sanity
Hold up,
I'm scared of it honestly, 
Self and the enemy
Was it all just to myself 
from the start of things?
Something I've known
No

Was me?
Was It always me...?

How the fuck am I supposed to live, I've been struggling
Aint no heaven coming, I've always sinned, and its weighing in
Alone and in my mind again, I've never fit
Into a crowd, a stranger itch

Smirking behind me, I feel all your eyes on me
Know that im different, thats nothing to single me out

Not a single word, hearing it loud
Laugh at me then, laugh at me now
Jaw locked
Eyes shot
Quit it you're fooling around

Nothing to change your fate
Already closed the gate
Engrained in my brain again
Only the words you say,
so why'd it stay?
so why'd it stay?

HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO LIVE? [prod. Kubsy]

Taken from the album Ratrose


IT STARTED WITH ME, YEAH,
I SAW YOU WEREN’T COMING UP BETWEEN, YEAH
INTRODUCED YOU TO THOSE FIENDS, YEAH, 
YOU WERE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME

CUS YOU WERE THERE ON DAY ONE
I SAW YOU GAVE UP AND THEY WON
CUS I WAS YOUR FIRST FRIEND IN THIS LITTLE TOWN
YOU WERE FROM A PLACE THAT I COULDN’T PRONOUNCE

CUS IT STARTED WITH ME,
I COULD NEVER CONVINCE YOU TO LEAVE
ITS THIS HATRED THAT BUILDS INSIDE OF ME,
YOU’RE NOT TALKING BUT YOU STILL BREATHE

CUS YOU’RE APART OF ME
I HOPE YOU DON’T FORGET WHEN YOU LEAVE
IT’S JUST THE THREE OF US PLAYING GAMES IN THE END

WILL NEVER CHANGE, ITS WHAT WE SAID, BUT WE DID
WE’RE FADING ALL AGAIN AND IM SICK
OF ALWAYS TAKING ALL THIS BLAME FOR YOU
DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO FEEL USED?

OF COURSE YOU DON’T, YOU DON’T EVEN CARE
YOUR FACE IS CONSUMED BY THE BLANKISH STARE
WONDER IF ILL GET HIM BACK AGAIN ONE DAY
ALL THESE PEOPLE ALL AROUND ME SAY THEY CARE BUT THEY’RE JUST FAKE
(YEAH, YEAH YEAH)

CUS EVERYBODY WANTS SOMETHING WHEN THEY KNOW THAT YOU’RE COMING UP
YEAH, SO WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I WAS AT MY LOWEST
ARE YOU GONNA LOOK AT ME AND BE HONEST, NO
WHEN I FLIPPED MY CAR, YEAH YOU LEFT ME ON SEEN
NEVER LOOKED AT ME, NEVER ASKED IF I WAS COPING

CUS MAN I’M SICK OF THAT, BEING PUSHED AND PULLED ALWAYS FEELING ABUSED

RAT ROSE INSIDE, LOSING INSIGHT,
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SPEAK OF ME
RAT ROSE, HIGH TIDE, SINKING NO LIGHT,

IT STARTED WITH ME, YEAH,
I SAW YOU WEREN’T COMING UP BETWEEN, YEAH
INTRODUCED YOU TO THOSE FIENDS, YEAH, 
YOU WERE LIKE A BROTHER TO ME

CUS YOU WERE THERE ON DAY ONE
I SAW YOU GAVE UP AND THEY WON
CUS I WAS YOUR FIRST FRIEND IN THIS LITTLE TOWN
YOU WERE FROM A PLACE THAT I COULDN’T PRONOUNCE

CUS IT STARTED WITH ME,
I COULD NEVER CONVINCE YOU TO LEAVE
ITS THIS HATRED THAT BUILDS INSIDE OF ME,
YOU’RE NOT TALKING BUT YOU STILL BREATHE

CUS YOU’RE APART OF ME
I HOPE YOU DON’T FORGET WHEN YOU LEAVE
IT’S JUST THE THREE OF US PLAYING GAMES IN THE END

ratrose

Prod. @vasporo

Fuck a spam email leave out all the details
I don’t give a damn about the shirts you got for resale
Derailed go my way said no working retail
I’ve been sick of all the gossip coming from these females 

Found I’m boutta snap at any minor inconvenience 
Gang of blind followers and I say fuck your whole allegiance 
Yeah I’ve gone rogue gone away to obscurity 
And the jewels that I got they’re the finest in purity 

Self indulgent wealth engulfing everything that’s good
So insulting got a pulpit clots are forming where they stood
Ain’t so great convincing in a stubborn legislative body
Ain’t no moving no solution to a vegetative army

Lacking the sense and lacking the culture
Taking from others you acting a vulture
I’ll be the one that can get all the credit 
Top of my game they’re making a sculpture 
Newest agenda trying to spend a pretty penny shit
Placing antennas I’m boutta end a life or make em fucking quit  

Crystallized loss take the zyklon B 
I’m the suspect keep the lights on me
When I drop em dead that’s an autopsy 
Breaking and entering at the door you can try and stop me

Still deplete pulling up I got the swisher sweets
So cold ain’t caring you could call me Mister Freeze
Everything been fucking changing ain’t all what it used to be
Prejudicial got officials leaving town in secrecy

Break my fucking capillaries 
All my friends imaginary
I can think of all the bricks we had to bring and had to carry
Work again a certain death I feel I’m in a circus tent 
All the Fresno rappers congregated while the curtain’s set

Why’m I always vulgar bitch I’m always off the Folgers 
Espresso in my cup it’s been cut with all my pills
Got a package of the powder when I’m rolling up my bills
I’m collecting up the chips and dust like a sawmill

Need no filter I’m uncensored 
Fucking em up I’m rapping better
Take a suppressant I’m dumping the rest and I’m 
Panicking choosing the direst of measures
Learn whatever gives the upper hand return to sender 
Calm my temper scale and measure pop em all together

Crystallized loss take the zyklon B 
I’m the suspect keep the lights on me
When I drop em dead that’s an autopsy 
Breaking and entering at the door you can try and stop me

College Burnout

Autopsy

https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

Rivilin:

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

yeah, I know I have some issues, drug abuse, and mental illnesses
push your mind state to me then you wanna fuck just all my friends
choosing to stay high instead of sober, face all my problems
till its easier to deal with this but you still choose to watch me sink

into this black abyss, I was there for you, guess I didn’t mean shit
yeah you hang me from the apple tree it’s blatant theirs no one for me
yeah feel the poetry wrapping around my neck as the skin starts to crack and fray
yeah you watch me burn into the ashes rebuild me with bones that don’t last

yeah cus you just try to hit me up to see if you'll get answers
I don’t know how to reply cus I don’t understand the questions
it’s like I was never here I don’t exist im just a ghost in the crowd
Every time it storms I hope you hear me, yeah im screaming so loud

I just sit and watch the time pass as my bones keep growing cold
this nostalgia holds my dreams it beckons me to make that call
yeah if you hit me back yeah you know your always welcome here
cus your loves the only one I know, I miss your voice on the phone

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

Njoi:

Your memory it follows me its branded in my mind
A constant cold reminder of just what we left behind
I know how far we fell but I long for where we've been
and maybe if I wait it out one day you'll let me in

But all, this is a fantasy, pathetic hopes, and dreams
Cause truth, be told this coffin's full of nails or so it seems
So I'll take another shot to warm the blood in my veins 
Do my best, try and forget your face it's burned in my brain

Now all I have, are visions of the person you were, 
look at you now who  are you,  
Yeah this person aint her
Guess I’ll try and just forget you, guess that's just the way it goes, guess I'll put another paycheck, straight up, my fucking my nose 

If I keep the self-destruction up,  I'll probably end up dead 
But I  need fucking image of your face out of my head. 
And I don't want to love you,  I don't want to say goodbye
So take my soul and cut my throat then leave me here to fucking die.

Rivilin:

cus you come out always at the right time
swisher sweet lips you never wanna be mine
im breaking down while you watch from the distance
I think this is love but I don’t know the difference

The Distance FT. NJOI

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